Lure To Marriage

The weather in October is very bleak, just like my mood at this time.

I sat under an old ginkgo tree, staring at the yellow leaves of the tree. In a few days, these withered and yellow leaves will all fall down, whirling and flying down, and the leaves will return to their roots.

And where is my root? I don't know. I don't dare to look directly at this problem any more because I may not be able to go back.

This is Provence. It's thousands of miles away from Mordor.

The man around me is not my beloved Qin Mofei, but Qin Chien, whom I hate deeply. Once he was my Savior, always in my despair, but now he is my nightmare.

I have thought that he is so good to me, and I will repay him in return. But now I just want to kill him, chop him into meat sauce, or even more cruelly, make steamed buns and eat him.

I've been killed by the dagger for half a hour, but I've lost my nerve.

I finally understood what Shang Ying said to me at that time, "Shen Huanyan, I want you to be unable to stand up for the rest of your life."

I guess she let xiaohaochen stab me many times. He was quick and ruthless, which made me defenseless. I regret now, why should I believe his sentence "aunt Shen" and why I am not vigilant.

But there is no regret medicine in this world, I have always been planted in their mother and son's hands. And I believe that every time Xiao HaoChen sees me saying that he wants to kill me, it is not a fake. He has long been in Shang Ying's premeditation.

A month and a half ago, when Dr. Ouyang announced that I would never be able to stand up again, I thought of death. What's the use of this kind of self-care that you can't even take care of yourself?

Ouyang's tone at that time was very calm, as if he had known that I would not be able to stand up. I really suspect that the person who instigated Xiao HaoChen to attack me is him. Only a doctor can be so clear about human nerve tissue.

At that time, Qin Chi En was with me, afraid that I would die. It was not until the beginning of the month that I found myself in despair.

I didn't expect to have a baby without feeling in the lower part of my body. It must be a gift from heaven.

This is a very strong baby, in my body so weak can take root, she let me ignite the desire for life. But it's better to have a baby alone.

Qin Chien treasures this child more than I do, because he knows that this child is my hope, so he takes good care of me. I said that his kindness was a weasel's new year's greetings to the chicken, and he argued that I was not a chicken, but a phoenix in his heart.

I despise him. If I am really a Phoenix, why should he collude with Shang Ying to hurt me?

He never told me how to partner with Shang Ying, but he insisted that he didn't know she would hurt me. I didn't go to investigate too much, because the matter has already happened, what can I do?

Here in Provence, lavender is rich, which is one of my favorite plants. It sends out the same fragrance as Qin Mo Fei, which I like very much.

So I often ask Qin Chien to take me to the lavender flower sea under the Alps to see the flowers, and breathe the fragrant air greedily. This is my only concern for two months.

We are now living in a villa area of Marseille City. Asha, a Chinese maid, has been invited to serve me. She helps me to go to the toilet or anything. So I live a very miserable life, if not pregnant with a baby, I am afraid I would really choose to die.

Qin Chien cooks three meals a day. He is better at cooking than Qin Mofei, but he is only good at western food, especially pizza.

But because I don't like to eat Western food, he seldom makes western food. He is not very good at Chinese food. He often reads books while operating. I'm in a hurry, but I still enjoy it.

I occasionally ask him why he is so tired?

He said that it's not easy to meet a person you really like in your life. Even if you can't get it, it's a kind of happiness to watch. He thought of me like this, knowing that I hated him, but he still begged for nothing by my side.

I can ask him what I like. He said he didn't know, if he knew, he would no longer like me. It's very painful to love a person like this, but he couldn't let go.

He would massage my legs every night, which could have asked Asha to help, but he didn't want to say that she was not professional enough. He was afraid of my muscle atrophy after deformity, but also went to learn massage, but I was not moved.

If it wasn't for him and Shang Ying, I would have been a happy housewife now. I would have raised my husband and children, and then gave birth to many children to Murphy. But now all this has become a dream, I this hemiplegic appearance has no courage to return to his side.

I don't even dare to read the news about Murphy, and I don't want to know how he is now, because after I leave, Shang Ying will make a big fuss. What she does is beyond my ability to bear.

I'm like an ostrich, very negative.

Qin Chi'en probably knew my mood, and he had been helping me find a world-famous doctor to cure my disease. I met a lot of doctors, but they failed in the end. They said that it was difficult to repair the damaged nerves.It's a very sad thing to lose one's autonomy. I'd rather be blind or deaf than be half paralyzed. This kind of life is a kind of torture for the arrogant me.

I hate Shang Ying very much. If I can stand up, or if I can meet her, she will regret the harm she has done to me. But it's strange that she didn't appear once, as if the world had evaporated.

I also bear not to ask Qin Chi En, afraid to know something worse. He hasn't left me for two months. I'm surprised how he manages his business and how he tries to get the property of the Qin family.

He accompanied me a lot of time, either reading newspapers or chatting with me, but I paid little attention to him talking to me, and I really didn't have the spirit to pay attention to him. Often at this time, he looked at me with a sad face, as if he had been greatly wronged.

I thought it was funny, so I asked him, "how long are you going to keep me with you?"

He thought about it and said, "I don't know. If you're tired of staying, we'll change places. I'll accompany you wherever you go."

I said coldly, "are you going to pester me for a lifetime? When my baby is born, who are you going to keep? You want her to call your dad? Or grandfather? "

He was stunned for a long time and didn't answer it. In fact, I think this question is ridiculous. If he is around me all the time, the baby will know people and talk. What should he be called?

Third grandfather?

I feel funny myself. It's a great irony to him and the Qin family.

We always argue about such boring topics, and he always ends up in failure. In such matters as ethics, his mind is fundamentally contrary to common sense. Maybe he realized it himself, so he stopped talking about these topics.

When I think of these things, I feel sad. I turn on the gramophone around me, and there is a sound in it: "the stars in the sky don't speak, the children on the ground miss their mother, they think of their mother's words every night, the glittering tears of Lu Binghua...".

This is my favorite song, because my mother used to love singing. This song can't help but let me think of Xiao Fan. Without his mother, what will he do? Does he miss me?

Not far away by the lotus pond, Qin Chi En is fishing. There are crucian carp in the lotus pond. He is going to make crucian carp Tofu Soup for me, because pregnant women need to make it.

After he fished two crucian carp, he turned his head and looked at me. He came to me and stroked my hair, which was blown by the autumn wind. "Happy face, do you want to see me fishing? There are a lot of crucian carp in the lotus pond

I don't ignore him at the beginning. This is the way we get along with each other these days. I don't want to talk to such a person. It's disgusting.

But he couldn't help but pick me up. I didn't even want to beat him. He put me on the bench beside him, and as soon as I looked down, I could see the reflection of myself in the lotus pond, all of which were white hair.

I don't have to wear a wig to play the white haired witch like me. It's silver.

He adjusted his position and sat beside me quietly looking at the lotus pond. In fact, he was looking at my reflection on the water. He was so focused that he didn't notice that the fishing rod was shaking for several times.

He is much thinner, and even a little white hair appears on his temples. For a 38 year old man, white hair seems to be too early. But compared with my white hair, he seems to be normal.

We've been in Provence for nearly two months. My back wound has healed, but I don't have any intuition from below the spine, that is, it doesn't hurt to cut with a knife.

I couldn't find anyone to blame. When the damage had been done, all the blame and abuse didn't help.

I always want to stand up, want to return to Murphy side, want to see Xiao Fan, and tell them that I am pregnant, this must be a daughter.

"Huanyan, I heard that there is an old Chinese doctor of Chinese origin in EXX City, who is very good at studying nerves. Can I take you to have a look later?" Qin Chi En was silent for a long time, and suddenly raised his head and said to me.

I glanced at him. "Does it work?"

I am most afraid to go away full of hope, but I am disappointed, because I have been so many times, already despair.

He sighed and said, "I don't know. I heard that he is good at silver needles and can stimulate nerves. I think it's better to try than not to try. Do you think?"

"Good!"

In this state, I can only be a dead horse as a living horse doctor. If it is destined that I can't stand up in my whole life, it is doomed that I can't go back to Murphy. I will never let him see me in such a mess.

As for Qin Chien, I think one day he is tired and bored and will leave automatically, so I don't worry. He is not enough to make any birds and beasts to me who is so half paralyzed. He still has this sense of propriety.

It's windy. I tighten my thin clothes. Qin Chien quickly took off his coat and put it on me. He was about to put away his fishing rod when his mobile phone rang. When I took it out, I glanced at Qin Mofei's mobile phone number.