M E M O R I Z E

I feel a faint beam of light through the window. Maybe it's the booze. The sun is still out in the middle of the sky, but I can't feel my eyes already. I blinked once or twice to catch the growing clock, and the view of the room was trampled in a very slightly clearer field of view.

Empty bottles are lying around the place, and the bowl has been lying around in a big mess. The cloth on the floor was sticky, wet to the liquor coming out of the bottle entrance. Literally a mess. My brother and I used to be very tidy, so it was a landscape that I would never underestimate.

‘Jinha will faint if you see her. ’

Just when I bring you something to hide, I secretly say, "Young Master,” It was Jinha's sister who laughed softly, but would she say something like that when she saw this? Oh, but will you still smile to see it? Hahaha.

I laughed for a moment at the sudden absurd thought, and then I breathed for a long time. And as I opened my mouth dazed, I could feel the sweet breath of my breath seeping into my mouth.

“Tired?”

Am I mistaken for yawning? After tasting it once or twice, I can still see a refreshed face. My brother was sitting comfortably on the bed facing me, and he was holding almost an empty bottle in one hand.

I think about it quietly, I think my brother was a lot more drunk than I was. In the modern world, in the hall plains.

“If you're tired, you can sigh. It's empty here anyway. ”

The older brother said it again in a very gentle voice, and I slowly waved my head to the left and to the right.

“I'm not drunk. ”

“I know. That's not why I asked you if you were drunk. That's why you asked me if you were tired. ”

“Oops.”

The brother smiled quietly. When I saw him, I thought something was dry. So I turned back to the front and reached out my arm to one side and picked up a new bottle that had not yet opened its cap. Mulberry! Then I felt the warm touch of the back as I took off the stopper with a slow hand.

“Well, then why did you ask me to come here? Even if you drink.... This is the only place you wanted to come? ”

“It's just a place that reminds me a lot of old times. ”

“Old school? ”

“... Do you remember when you were in modern times? ”

I turned the subject around for no reason. And the clever brother immediately understood my intentions.

“Modern? What memories? ”

“You and I used to fall in love with American dramas. That's when I remember decorating the room for the drama like a movie theater. ”

“Oh, I remember. Big Bang theory? Haha. It wasn't a total riot back then. ”

“I had fun. I got a container of popcorn and filled it with snacks, or I dragged it in front of the monitor to lie down and watch as much as I could... ”

“Then the monitor fell and cracked. ”

I couldn't see their faces because they were facing each other. However, I could see that my brother was smiling as a slight tremor was transmitted around his shoulder. I also took a sip of wine after a light smile. Then I wiped my mouth and opened my mouth quietly.

“Did you see Season 4? How far out are they now...? ”

“More, I suppose. If I go back, I'll be able to see... Is that why you're here, by the way? ”

“Huh? What? ”

“I chose this room because I wanted to come. Because you want to feel the perfume you've experienced in modern times? ”

He paused as if he were looking around the room, then spoke in a low tone.

“I don't think it's quite the same. ”

It was then.

“… No. That's not it.”

Suddenly, suddenly, my mind was completely clear. And I looked at the sliding wall and I felt like I was attracted to something.

“This is…. ”

“Yes.”

“I used to live in the Hamill Clan back in the day. ”

“… Huh? ”

“It's almost one year now.... I joined the Hamill Clan nine years ago. ”

“Soo-hyun?”

My back neck is aching.I think my brother is starting to feel something strange too.

“What the…. ”

“Brother.”

But I immediately hung up on my brother. Finally, I turned my head and looked back, and I saw my brother looking at me with mysterious eyes. The distance was so close that the eyes could see each other's faces.

“I know you think it's weird. But don't hang up. Just listen to me for a second. ”

“You…. ”

“Please. Please. ”

“ ……. ”

My brother didn't give me any answers.

I couldn't face that gaze any more, so I turned my head again and looked at the wall ahead.

“ ……. ”

“ ……. ”

And the uncomfortable silence that followed. As I was tasting such silence silently, I had a sudden thought. I thought I should tell you, but maybe I'm still hesitating.

“Then I'll get started. ”

Yeah, well, we don't have to wait around for your answer.

As soon as I decided to do so, I quietly, but calmly opened my mouth.

“There was a young man. He was a young man who had just finished reporting, and he fell asleep on the train back home. ”

11 years from now, just before I entered the Hall Plane.

“When I woke up, the young man realized he was in a strange place. And without even knowing the situation, I had to take a rite of passage test, and I had to desperately run from the first monsters I'd ever seen in my life. After barely seven days, a qualified young man enters a place called Hall Plain. It has nothing to do with his will. ”

The back that had been detached for a while was touching again. The warmth I felt on the other side made me feel uncomfortable, and I decided.

Let's jump to conclusions right now. In case I can't stand it in the middle, “I was just kidding.” Let's draw a line so we can't go back to this one word.

“And ten years later, young man... No, a man could climb to the top of the Hole Plain at the end of the Incalculable Crescent. The man was finally qualified to return to Earth. ”

“ ……. ”

“But the man did not return to Earth. No. Instead of returning to Earth, you chose to go back in time and return to the first time you entered the Hall Plane? Why? … Men had one purpose. ”

“ ……. ”

“That man is me. ”

In case you change your mind, I was speechless.

And it was only after the conclusion that I realized that my heart was beating rapidly. Soon, I slowly wrapped my knees around my arms. At the same time, a sudden and shocking gesture was also conveyed through his back, which made his body squirm.

Soon, I calmly turned my head and looked back.

His face was expressionless. I just couldn't figure out what he was thinking about looking at me.

After staring at me for a while, I felt a fine flutter in my eyes. At the same time, my brother's lips were also slowly detached.

“Soo-hyun.”

“My brother…. I have no idea what you're talking about. ”

The moment I heard that, I closed my eyes.

Of course, I think it is absurd even if I think of myself and objectively.... Why does it feel so empty?

It was then.

“So... ”

When I realized that my brother's words were not finished, I swallowed my saliva without knowing it.

“A little more. No, I wish I had told you more detail than I told you before. ”

I blinked once or twice at the words that continued.

Yes, as expected. He showed an attitude to listen, not a reaction to what is nonsense. It was a proof that my words were not taken lightly. Of course, you may not fully believe it, but this attitude was a blessing to me.

I kept blinking. Then he chewed his slightly trembling lips and slowly nodded his head.

Soon, I opened my mouth.

*

“… so I decided. Instead of going back to Earth alone, I'm going to start over. I'm gonna change the past, save them all, and come home with everyone. ”

Only after I finished speaking did I look out the window at the ground all the time.

When I first arrived, I was shining a bright light, but the sun seems to be shining. I sighed for a long time as I watched the faint dusk setting on the floor.

It was just one word. It was just a word.

In one word, I was able to get the courage to say something, and I let go of what had happened from beginning to end.

Of course, that didn't mean everything. The shyness of speaking from my point of view, such as murder, robbery and rape, has been completely erased, and only the bold flow has solved the story.

It was full of garages and enough to complicate my brother's head. Rather, I felt that there was not enough explanation because it was too summarizing.

But it was inevitable, because it was really hard to capture 10 years of curved life in one day or less.

Despite talking for hours, my brother listened well to me. Of course, there have been a few breaks in the middle, but it was mostly about me getting hurt.

For example, when I was in Belpegore and I said, "Knife in the abdomen," my brother said, "What?” I was furious enough to stop talking.

Either way.

But I think I've said as much as I can.

And after all that, he opened his mouth for the first time.

“… I see. So that's the story.”

Soon, my brother started tapping the floor with one hand. It was the same behavior as my brother, me, and each other when their heads were complicated.

His face was more bold than I thought. But overall rigidity, it's like trying to act natural. Maybe if you just handed it off, the things I learned in the middle are complicating the inside.

After looking at my brother for a while, I said a few words.

“It's okay, say something. ”

“… I don't know. If you suddenly say this... It's too big to handle right now, so I can't reach it. ”

He replied honestly.

“Ha…. ”

Then he sighs deeply, and momentarily stops his detector.

“Soo-hyun, I can't believe I'm just going to take your word for it. But before you came in... So if you know things that I didn't tell you, or if you think about walking after you came in... I guess that's true. ”

“A statue…. ”

“I'm not saying I don't believe you. ”

My brother replied with just a cut.

“However... Wh..."

However, I did not immediately speak up if there was any hesitation.

Suddenly, I felt a burning throat, so I picked up a burning flask of sunset wine and took it to my mouth. The liquid that penetrated into the mouth soaked the thirsty throat, but did not thirst. Rather, it was like a field of droughts.

Looking at the empty bottle, I opened my mouth with difficulty.

“Just?”

He was staring down at the floor with his own lonely eyes. The water in the sunset makes a lot of faces.

After a while, my brother's lips finally opened.

“I don't know. I've been feeling uneasy ever since I heard you were back. I don't know why... Why is he suddenly so frustrated? ”

Hearing his words, I nodded once or twice. As a result, my brother was having a anti-Semitic debate. Literally, I have to admit, it was very hard to feel and accept for a moment.

And I could understand his position. Even if I changed my mind, if Ansol suddenly said, "I've turned back time from the future!” What would they do if they said, No matter how right you are, you don't feel tense.

A moment later, I take a short sigh and put my hand inside my chest. And I took out the 'Crystal of Truth' and put it out for my brother to see. Honestly, I didn't want to use it...

“Hey, you know what this is, right? ”

“That's …. It's the crystal of truth.”

“That's right."

And I put my hand on the crystal and I breathed my magic into it. Within a few moments, a small light flame appeared inside the crystal sphere, and the 'Crystal of Truth' was simply activated.

Looking at the quietly shaking blue flame, I lift my head and slowly open my mouth.

“What I said is true. ”

“… you. ”

The brother frowns for a moment, then looks down and checks the crystal ball. It seems that the color has not changed since the eyes were only enlarged by a flashlight glass.

I opened my mouth to confirm one more time.

“I'll do it one more time. Everything I've said to you since I entered this room is true. I am a user who has seen the end of the Hole Plane, and have turned back the clock to change the past and returned to this place now. ”

The blue flame still burns the same.

And finally, there was a change in his attitude.

His attitude was consistent from the beginning. From the moment we met outside the building, so far, nothing has changed. I had the same voice and the same behavior.

But until now, his face has definitely changed. Something was very cold and stiff, but it looked like it was loose.

How long has it been?

“Whew…. ”

Soon, my brother covered his face with both hands. A breath of friction leaks out through the slightest crack in the hand. Without taking my hands off my face, my brother said for the first time in a helpless voice.

“Yes, it's true. ”

“Yes.”

“Huh? Ha. Haha... Really, it was real. You. You've already cleared the world. ”

“That's right."

Soon it was time for the duration of the 'correction of truth' to end.

“And for some reason, unlike anything else, I've given up my chance to go back. ”

“Yes... Huh?”

Then my brother slowly raised his head. Then I started looking down at my hands. Faced with that intense look, I could feel that my brother had organized something for some reason.

“Now I know why I was nervous. Soo-hyun Kim, it's because of you. I'll be happy to be back... ”

Whatever he was about to say, he shut up for a moment. And then I thought for a moment, and then I opened my mouth again.

“No... No. Whoo. Yes. Let me ask you one more thing about the Crystal of Truth. Keep your hands where I can see them. ”

“ ……. ”

I think it was because my brother was picking on me a while ago. Only after a moment did I realize that my brother was waiting for me, and I hurriedly said.

“What?”

“You did it. I died trying to save you. Tell me that part again, in detail. ”

“Uh, something. ”

I had to feel a tingling sensation as I spoke. Because this part I did not lie about, but there were intentional exceptions.

However, as if he would not spare any room, he said the following without hesitation.

“Soo-hyun, did I ask you to live when I died? Or did you ask me to somehow save my life and find a way back together? ”

“ ……. ”

“Answer me.”

“No, I didn't. ”

I answered boldly, but my heart was full. I looked for the bottle when I was thirsty again, but most of the time I had already told the story.

“Of course.”

“I told you not to save me. And he told me to stay alive and watch the end. ”

Bloop! Bloop! Bloop!

At that moment, the duration of the 'correction of truth' ended with my brother's question.

I slowly, very slowly let go of my hand, thinking I'm really done. And I lifted my head slightly, and I could see my brother standing upright and approaching me.

I was about to take a closer look at my brother's face.

Tsk, tsk!

“! ”

“This…. ”

What's happening now?

As I look down, I see the 'Crystal of Truth' broken into pieces. I couldn't understand the situation for a moment, but I stopped breathing without knowing the moment I saw my brother's face.

And so was my brother.

My brother was just about to say something, but as soon as he saw my face, he seemed to hold his tongue. That face looked really complicated and had some hard feelings.

Then my brother said.

“Why, why…. ”

“Why…. Really?"

I have reflectively touched my face. What kind of face am I making right now? What kind of face does he have that reaction to?

“Profit…! ”

He kept trying to say something, but he couldn't help but moan if he pressed it down. And suddenly, I sat still and looked at him similarly.

“This…. Idiot...! ”

A barely squeezed voice. I could feel instinctively from the vibrating sound. He really wanted to say a lot, but he put it all in a sentence a little while ago.

Then I could feel my brother's warm hand on his head.

And that was the moment.

“... It's been hard on you, hasn't it? ”

I quickly gripped my teeth. At the same time, his appearance suddenly began to shake. So I closed my eyes reflectively.

I can't explain in detail how I feel. However, all the pain I had experienced for 10 years seemed to be compensated in one sentence.

Only a little while ago, my older brother felt a little understood. I'm sure you didn't feel the same way. No, you felt the opposite way.

Like my brother, I pressed every word I wanted to say, and I barely said a word.

“No, it's okay. ”

Soon I feel the feeling of gently sweeping away my hair. I open my eyes slightly, then close my eyes again, still alive.

I felt my brother's gaze sweeping around for a while, and I wanted this moment to pass quickly, and at the same time, I wanted to continue a little more.

In that contradictory feeling, I thought quietly.

Confessing wasn't a bad choice.

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I'm sorry. I woke up briefly, but I was feeling a little light-headed, and I was writing again. I was lying on my back, I was writing, and then I fell asleep. We apologize for the delay in updating you due to your poor health._(__)_

PS. I pressed register, and all of a sudden I heard that there were a lot of connections, and then I clicked once or twice. And it turned out that there were four sides on the same page, so I quickly deleted the three.