Married to his secret crush

There are times when you can't let go of what hurts you because somewhere you know, it was the only thing that once used to heal you. 

But being abandoned is a terrible feeling, isn't it?

Shi Luo slowly opened her eyes only to be greeted by white in front of her eyes. Her eyes welled up with tears. 

Am I dead? She thought to herself. 

Is this my second life or what? Yu Mei and I must have been best friends to be able to be reborn like this.

She could not be blamed for thinking that way because she remembered it very well that Han Jingyi had pointed her pistol at her.

And because her body was feeling weak, she ended up losing consciousness but she had heard the gunshot loud and clear. 

''You are awake…'' 

The familiar voice…

Shi Luo tilted her head to the side and she was greeted by the sight of Yu Mei standing at the door of the hospital room. 

''M… Mei…'' her throat was parched. 

Yu Mei quickly stepped towards the hospital bed and brought over the glass of water from the bedside table, ''Luoluo…'' her eyes welled up with tears. 

Shi Luo slowly sat up on the bed and Yu Mei helped her with one hand. 

Yu Mei brought the glass of water closer to her mouth, ''Drink it.'' 

Shi Luo took a few sips of the water before she looked at her body. She was wearing a hospital gown, ''I… am not dead?'' 

''Do you think you are meeting me in heaven?" Yu Mei glared at her. 

''How many hours has it been since I was unconscious? Why did you come to Amaranthine?" 

''How can I not come? Do you think of me as so ruthless?" Tears rolled down her cheeks, ''You are in this state because of me. You were unconscious for 9 hours. I came over with Zixuan in his private jet…'' she sobbed, ''Luoluo, I am sorry.'' 

Usually, Shi Luo would have smacked the woman's head for being so childish but today, she could not stop her tears either, ''Don't speak nonsense. It has nothing to do with you. That woman has gone crazy and she has been holding a grudge against me for so long so we can't help it anyways. But I was really scared. I really thought that I died…'' 

''Don't say such things.''

Shi Luo leaned back on the hospital bed, ''But… there was a gunshot…'' 

Yu Mei lowered her head quietly. 

''Wh-What happened?" Shi Luo stiffened, ''Is there something wrong…?" 

Then as if she was struck by lightning, Shi Luo froze suddenly. 

Everything that happened in the past few hours started registering in her mind and all of it suddenly made sense to her. 

She pressed her palm on her mouth, ''Where is he?" 

Yu Mei did not say anything. 

''Where is Boyan?" Shi Luo yelled. 

Tears rolled down Yu Mei's eyes, ''Room 502.'' 

Shi Luo jumped off the bed as fast as she could, ''Ahh…'' she winced as soon as her feet touched the floor. 

''Luoluo…'' 

''I… I need to see him,'' Shi Luo paused near the door where Jun Zixuan was standing. She nodded at him briefly before rushing out.

Jun Zixuan glanced at her retreating back before he walked towards Yu Mei. 

Yu Mei wiped the tears from the corner of her eyes and her lips tugged up. 

The corner of his lips twitched, ''Mei, do you really not want a profession in the entertainment industry?" 

''I am just talented in everything I do. I can't be a multipotentialite, can I?" she said smugly. 

Jun Zixuan blinked. He quietly stroked her small baby bump, ''Baby, you can't be as smug as your mom, alright?" 

''Jun Zixuan, are you looking for a fight?" Yu Mei glared at him. 

He pecked her lips quickly, ''Of course not.'' 

She smiled at him, ''Much better.'' 

… 

''Boyan…'' Shi Luo's lips trembled as she glanced at the man whose face was completely pale as he laid on the hospital bed. 

Tears rolled down her cheeks and her feet moved on their own as she rushed to him. She held his hand quickly, ''I am sorry…'' her eyes reddened. 

Yu Mei cried at the mention of Jun Boyan's name. Doesn't it mean that his condition was serious? 

Shi Luo pressed her chin on her knuckles as she closed her eyes, ''I am sorry,'' she sobbed, ''In the end, I misunderstood you again…'' 

Han Jingyi had nothing to do with Yang Shiyi. That woman hated Yu Mei and everyone around Yu Mei. After being abandoned by the Han Family, she wanted everyone to be as miserable as she was. 

And when she asked Jun Boyan to choose between Shi Luo and Yang Shiyi, there was no other way out for Jun Boyan. She wanted him to chose Yang Shiyi so that she could make Shi Luo feel terrible and trample on her to vent her frustrations. 

And if Jun Boyan had chosen to save Shi Luo instead of Yang Shiyi that woman would have killed both of them out of spite. 

But choosing Yang Shiyi gave Jun Boyan the right amount of time to execute the further plan. 

As expected, Han Jingyi came to vent her frustration on Shi Luo. 

In the meantime, Jun Zixuan's people infiltrated the place. 

Shi Luo cried as her fingers tightened around Jun Boyan's hand, ''It's all because of me,'' she blamed herself for being a fool. 

She only needed to use her brains but at that time, she was completely manipulated by Han Jingyi's words. She really thought that he did not consider her at all, she believed that it was easy for him to leave her behind.

''I was being naive,'' Shi Luo cupped Jun Boyan's face, ''I… After what happened between my father and mother, it left a sense of distrust in me. No matter how much I said that I trusted you but when the time came, I went back on my words. I didn't trust you. I thought your feelings for me were fake and I thought you did not care for me.'' 

She stroked his cheek, ''Boyan, you know when I was there in that place, I was not sure if I will make it alive out of there. I thought Han Jingyi will kill me,'' she blinked away her tears, ''But all I wanted was to see you. I… realized how much I love you.'' 

''You won't forgive me for misunderstanding you when you kept assuring me repeatedly that you won't change. I just let my imagination run wild when I should have been patient. I should have tried to understand what you were doing…'' she lowered her head, ''I am sorry… Please wake up…'' 

''I will forgive you if you say that again.'' 

Shi Luo stiffened. She glanced at the man. Her vision was blurred because of her tears. She wiped the tears off her face with the back of her hand as she glanced at him. ''You are awake…'' A relieved expression appeared on her face. 

''Didn't you apologize?'' Jun Boyan glanced at her with an aloof expression on his face. 

That expression… She was not unfamiliar with it. She had seen this expression when he was conversing with Han Jingyi back in that place. Was he that angry? Did he hate her now for misunderstanding his intentions repeatedly?

''I did…'' Shi Luo guiltily lowered her head. 

''So, I told you I will forgive you if you repeat what you said. Shouldn't you hurry up?" 

Shi Luo blinked, ''I said…. I am sorry and please wake up.'' 

''Before that,'' he glanced at her indifferently.

Shi Luo felt slightly awkward with her hand on his face. It was still fine when he was sleeping but now that he was awake, it was a bit strange. 

She cleared her throat and tried to retract his hand. 

He grabbed her wrist, holding it in place, ''Hurry up!" 

She straightened up at his cold voice. What did she say before that? ''I said that I know you won't forgive me for this…'' 

''No, not that.'' 

Shi Luo frowned, ''What else are you talking about? I said a lot of things. Can you be a bit specific?" 

''Something about love,'' he glanced at her meaningfully. 

''Oh, that. I said that I realized how much I love you....'' Her words came to a screeching halt when she realized what she just confessed. 

Her cheeks started heating up at her own confession. 

''Oh, did you?" the corner of his lips tugged up. 

''Wait... Weren't you shot and severely injured?" 

''Mmm... Was I?" He brought her palm closer to his mouth and licked it. 

She stiffened. 

He nipped on her palm and kissed the spot before sucking it. 

Shi Luo gulped, her throat running dry because of his actions. 

''Were you pretending, Jun Boyan?" She glared at him, clinging to the last bit of restraint that she had. 

''Luoluo, I don't remember saying anything about me being injured or shot. How did I pretend? You are misunderstanding me again, aren't you?'' 

''I told you the first time was a mistake,'' she mumbled, ''Can you not hold a grudge?" 

''Depends on how sincere you are,'' he winked.