Master Lu, Marry Me Or Not

The streets of the living and the cemeteries of the dead are just a line between them. When he stood on the border, he didn't know which side he should go. Life is what I want, and I want more than the living, so I don't want to live. Death is also what I hate, and what I hate is more than that of the dead.

Luo Yi often thinks, is Chu yuan'er really like what she said, unwilling to muddle along, or is she really tired of the world and him for a long time, so she looks at death like home.

Since Luo Yi was rescued after trying to cut his wrist some time ago, every time he saw the scar on his wrist, he still couldn't figure it out when he recalled the feeling that the blade had cut the flesh at that time.

It's said that swallowing medicine will also be very painful. All the viscera will be involved in it. It's very painful. Yuanyuan, his chuyuan'er, has always been afraid of pain and loneliness. She also can't swallow medicine. How desperate must she be before she makes such a decision to commit suicide.

Luo Yi wears a thick down jacket, a mask, a scarf and a hat. He is still hit by the cold when he goes out. Fortunately, the sun shows his face and is more or less warm. He walks out with the milk ball in his arms. The little guy was too cold to settle down in the snow. He went straight to his arms and bit the red rope gently.

It's very cold in winter in C City, but every time he comes home, no matter how late, Chu yuan'er will wait at the gate of the community with her milk ball. At that time, he always thinks it's unnecessary. She's timid and afraid of the dark, so why do she have to go? Her hands and feet are cold all year round. She stands outside for ten minutes, and her hands are still cold at night.

Later, she bought the room and looked down the street lamp many times. No one could be seen again, and even the milk ball didn't want to pay attention to him. If she didn't care about it, she really didn't have to. All the useless ordinary things in her feelings, including words and actions, all came from love.

Unfortunately, Luo Yi understood it too late.

Driving to the outskirts of the city, the whole city is covered with silver, covering up too much dirt, but also filling all the ravines. The stele engraved with the name of Chu yuan'er, standing in the middle of the Qin family's ancestral grave, seems strange. No children, no grandchildren, the position of the bottom money is empty, no media, no employment, and Yuanyuan's parents don't allow him to call his dead wife.

The characters on the stele are not very good-looking and crooked, but he has learned them for a long time. In this tomb are some relics of Chu yuan'er, which Luo Yi later found when he cleaned up the house. There were so many useless small objects hidden in the corner.

Little attention has been paid to the couple's slippers, towels and washing cups, the plush doll game machine that has been used for a long time, and the couple's pajamas and rings that have never been used before Some of these things have been built and some of them have been kept for his own use. After a few years, there are few things that can continue to operate.

Therefore, I really feel that there are fewer and fewer traces of Chu yuan'er in his life. When Luo Yi lies in bed in the dead of night, he will feel empty in his heart. He is only afraid that one day when he closes his eyes and wakes up again, he will forget Chu yuan'er's appearance, so the rest of his life is really meaningless.

He has to let himself remember her for a long time. He can't forget, dare not, and doesn't want to.

This time, the milk ball did not go to the lawn to make noise. It planed a place without snow and nestled at his feet. It was clever and quiet, and the little beast was also friendly.

Chu yuan'er was buried in C City. Luo Yi tried very hard at that time to bring her back. She always said that she wanted to see the continuous snow all day long. Such a simple wish had never been realized.

At that time, Li Xiangyin presided over the funeral. Although he was crying, he kept watching her go to earth and kept him away.

Before I met you, I was always someone else's burden. After meeting you, I feel valuable and needed.

There is such a sentence in Chu yuan'er's suicide note.

Luo Yi didn't know until that moment that she was so active and lively that she just forced her face to smile. The inferiority complex that the original family had buried in her heart was too deep. Chu yuan'er always joked that she was only poor in money.

In fact, it's not a joke. She has no parents' love, no brothers' protection, no high friends, only a lump sum of alimony, and annual growth of dividend deposits.

The best luck in this life is to have a friend like Li Xiangyin, who really valued her, understood her, protected her, and found a beautiful and peaceful sleeping place for her. Chu yuaner's letter has been kept by Li Xiangyin all the time. He only saw the complete content two years later, and now he is familiar with it.

She said she was reluctant.

I can't bear to ask him to read me all my life, and I'm not willing to let him join hands with others all my life. I just can't bear it.

Ten million points do not give up, but still let go, is also a ruthless heart of the people, leaving his own, thousands of miles of solitary graves, nowhere to say desolate.

From the appearance of the disease to all kinds of examinations to the final diagnosis, not only Luo Yi was cheated to death, but also Li Xiangyin thought that it was really just a benign tumor. She was only 20 years old, and no one would have expected that the deterioration would be so rapid. Only two or three months later, she would have reached the point that there was no cure for the stone.

Chu yuan'er is afraid of pain and doesn't want to be ugly. She doesn't want to be pulled by all kinds of machines and live in pain, so she chooses to end her life by herself.There were her notes on the bookcase of the hotel. It's sunny and breezy. The flower that you want to see is in bloom. Those who can't see don't have to say goodbye. It's today.

He was never there when she needed it.

Li Xiangyin's complaint is not to vent his anger. Yes, there are traces to follow. He was aware of all kinds of abnormality in her and had seen her sick, but he never took it to heart.

Half of the medicine Chu yuan'er swallowed was handed out by himself. Li Xiangyin is right. It's no different from killing people. Li Xiangyin is very angry. After the funeral, he didn't say a word to him for more than a year and turned around when he saw him.

Later, Luo Yi couldn't bear it. He took more and more sleeping pills. Depressed and depressed, he wanted to save his life. Li Xiangyin took out Chu yuan'er's letter to him and saved his life.

Chu yuan'er wants him to live a good life, continue to debate, be an excellent debater, and go to a bigger stage. He is fulfilling his promise one by one. There are too many things he promised to break his promise to let her down.

If you don't believe that there is a white head in the world, you can take away all of Luo Yi's young minds in a life and death separation. After that, he cultivates his body and mind. Her red rope never leaves her hand, and this heart never ripples again.