Master Lu, Marry Me Or Not

A little flame, shining on Murong Yuze's face, flashed blue, and was blown out by Murong Yuze.

Murong Yuze stretched out his hand and touched the two ducklings painted on the shell of the thermos bucket with his index finger. The action was very light, as if they were two real ducklings. His fingertips groped carefully along the outline of the little ball. After a while, I don't know what I think of. I smile to myself.

Murong Yuze has a good smile. The corners of his eyes are deep and slanting into his temples. His lips are pursed and soft. Lu Wanyan puts his head against the door and suddenly tears.

Unexpectedly, Murong Yuze turned around and asked, "who is it?"

Lu Wanyan was startled and coughed involuntarily. His voice was still dumb: "it's me."

The door was completely opened, and Lu Wanyan was bathed in the orange light. Murong Yuze did not turn around, but still faced Lu Wanyan from the side.

After a long time, Murong Yuze asked, "Why are you back?"

Lu Wanyan approached slowly and said, "I didn't wait for you."

Murong Yuze was silent, and Lu Wanyan did not speak any more.

Finally, Murong Yuze said, "why do you want to come back? Many times, you can never wait."

Lu Wanyan was obstinate and whispered, "but you've been here all the time."

Murong Yuze finally smiles, but turns away: "maybe one day it will be gone."

The sky had darkened. There was no light in the room. As soon as the fireplace was lit, the light reflected on the wall. His face was in the shadow and could not see clearly.

He suddenly laughed: "Wanyan, I used to think that I could be with you. But later, I realized that there are many things that I can't have if I want to. Politely, you are actually very good, but I don't love you any more. "

"You lied."

After a long silence, she looked into his eyes and broke the silence by saying, "a liar has a long nose."

Murong Yuze laughed: "I've been lying all the time, Lu Wanyan."

"That night after dinner, I took you back, and you fell asleep in the car. When I got there, I wanted to ask you to get out of the car. As a result, you fell asleep and said, "Luo Yi, stop making noise.".

"Only then did I know that you had never forgotten him after so many years. It was at that time that I realized that I was jealous of Luo Yi."

"You slept for more than two hours that day. I was sitting in the car holding you. You were sleeping in my arms. I thought, how could it be you? You are neither smart, nor beautiful, and even a little silly. How can I fall in love with you? Why you? Is it because you don't want to see me? But when I hold you, I just don't want you to wake up, because as soon as you wake up, I have to let go. "

"I've lived for 25 years, and I've loved other people. I've been away from clutch and clutch, and I've been sincere. But that day, I listened to the clock ticking in my hand, and walked every second. I thought in my heart, every second, the time I can hold you like this is one second less, and the time I can be with you is one second less. I'm determined to wake you up and never see you again. "

"I've never known the feeling of missing someone in my life. When I wake up in the middle of the night, I will suddenly miss you. No matter where I am, no matter where I am, I can think of you. Finally, I'll call you. As soon as I hear your voice, I feel soft. Every time I think, this is the last time, the last time I see you. Next time I won't call you, I'll forget you. "

"In the end, you first said don't contact, you don't care to say separate, you rely on me to love you, you can so don't care to dump me."

Murong Yuze said with a relaxed smile: "Lu Wanyan, today I am telling the truth, but you are still cheating yourself, so only you will have a long nose."

Such a long sentence, Lu Wanyan is like a dream, her voice is also soft, small, like a dream: "but you don't know, I went back to my mother-in-law's house."

She didn't cry, but like him, she said this sentence calmly: "I didn't cheat myself. I tried my best to treat you, because I know you are good to me. Yes, I don't love you as much as Luo Yi, because I didn't meet you before. But I'm not a wooden man. What do you do to me? I know in my heart that in this world, you are the only one who has ever loved me. When I finally made up my mind to start again, you pushed me away like this, I had nothing to say. But what I want to say is that there is no way to compare love. You did your best, and I did my best. If you think I didn't love enough, it's because I didn't have time, enough time and enough youth to let me fall in love with you like him. "

Lu Wanyan squatted down slowly, holding the sofa, as if to hold on to something. "I used to be just like you. I thought sacrifice could make happiness. It took me so many years to know that I was wrong. Sacrificing myself did not make people happy, because the person I really love, even if that person left, another person would not stop loving him, but now I realized that even if I was dead, he would not stop loving me. ""I thought it would be like this all my life. I almost intend to use it to repay him. But after so many years, I can still meet you and another person who loves me deeply. I don't want to fail you any more. You have done a lot for me, and I want to be selfish. I want to be unscrupulous, regardless of the people and things in the past. I want to start over, Murong Yuze, no matter whether you really no longer love me, no matter how your illness, I hope you don't push me away. Even if I am wishful thinking, I want to accompany you, I think until the end, I can hold your hand, I hope you give me time, let me say, I love you as you love me

Lu Wanyan is half squatting and half kneeling in front of the sofa. Like a child, he slowly puts his face on Murong Yuze's knee. His body is shaking slightly. She slowly and gently extended her arms around his waist.

Murong Yuze slowly stretched out her hand and put her fingers through her long hair and hugged her shoulder.

Bit by bit the rain knocked on the window.

Her face buried in his arms, voice is very light: "you have to promise me, good treatment."

"Good."

"Promise me that no matter what happens in the future, I can't leave you any more."

"Good."

"Promise me you won't be able to provoke another woman from now on."

"Good."

"Promise me to love yourself as much as you love me."

"Good."

"Promise me that no matter what happens, you will never leave me again."