Mature Man's Sweet Love

Huo Shuqing took a look at her, got up and said, "since you are still not calm now, we'd better talk about it another day."

However, before he took two steps, he heard sun man say: "Huo Shuqing, what is our marriage to you?"

"What is it to you?" He turned around, looked at Sun man and said.

Sun man said nothing.

"In fact, even if you and I don't say such a question, we all know what the answer is." He paused and said, "this year, I think a lot and my heart is calm. I don't blame you for what you did -"

"don't blame me? If you don't blame me, do you still want to divorce me now? " Sun man said in a loud voice.

Huo Shuqing took a look at her, went to her side, pressed her shoulder and sat down, poured her a glass of water and put it in front of her, and then sat on the sofa opposite her.

"I don't blame you. Up to now, I only blame myself." Huo Shuqing said quietly. Sun man looked up at him.

"Liu Shuya, do you know?" Huo Shuqing said that sun man did not speak.

"At that time, I fell in love with her in the University. Later, we separated. After that, I had no desire for love at all. Even if I met you later, I didn't think I would fall in love with another woman After a moment's pause, he said, "I'm sorry, I proposed to you hastily. If we could do it again at the beginning -"

SUN man grinned bitterly, shook his head and said, "what do you think we could do at the beginning, so that we won't go this far?" With a sigh, sun man said, "I was too persistent. I thought I would make you forget Liu Shuya and make you fall in love with me. But after so many years, I realized that I was too stupid and confident. You never have my place in your heart

Huo Shuqing said nothing.

Sun man looked at him and said, "Huo Shuqing, are you happy when we were just married? You said that you have thought a lot this year. In fact, I have been thinking about when our marriage will make each other happy? After thinking about it, I'm afraid it's only the second year to the fourth year! what about you? Are you happy? "

Both were silent.

"It seems useless to say that now! If a man changes his heart, nothing can be changed. I know this very well, and I don't want to put myself in a sad situation. What's the good result of being a complaining woman? It's just a few tears of sympathy. " Huo Shuqing was surprised to hear sun man say this.

"I want to ask you a question. If you ask me about divorce tonight, aren't you afraid that I will go to Secretary Qin again? Or, are you not afraid of the trouble divorce will bring you? Or do you think your position is stable enough? " Sun man's tone suddenly calms down and says.

Huo Shuqing was not surprised by her words, and said: "if you want to make trouble, I'll accompany you! This year, I also want to make it clear that it is totally impossible to continue to wait for you to think clearly. As for the trouble you said, I think you can see if I'm in trouble when we get divorced. "

"Why do you want to resign?" Sun manhuan holds his arms and looks at Huo Shuqing provocatively.

It was Huo Shuqing's words to his family that night that made his father die in a hurry. Sun man just wanted to remind him of that. Huo Shuqing was very clear.

"Do you think being an official is the most important thing to me?" He asked back.

"Isn't it?" Sun man said, "if it wasn't for your official career, you wouldn't have mentioned divorce so gently for the first time. You're just afraid of bad influence, right?"

"Yes, at that time, I really thought that, but after a year, it was no longer that way. This year, I know what is the most important to me, and I, easily lost these, until now want to have those again, but -- "but no chance, he did not say.

Sun man looked at him, in front of Huo Shuqing, so strange, but so familiar, as if I had seen him when I first met him. At that time, what was he sighing about? Now, what is he regretting? However, no matter what the answer is, sun man knows that it's not her who makes his heart wet!

Who is sadder than her? I've been married to a man for 15 years, but I never entered his heart.

"Sun man, let's all let go! Not for others, just for yourself. I'll be 40 next year, and you're almost there. Most of our lives no longer belong to us. We don't know if there are 40 years left. Why torture each other and self? " Huo Shuqing advised.

"Self torture?" Sun man grinned bitterly and said, "it's your self abuse! You feel that you caused the death of your father. You feel that you can't keep Sufan. You blame yourself. You can't pass the barrier in your heart. That's why you abuse yourself and let yourself get rid of resentment. Isn't it? "

"Self abuse," Huo Shuqing sighed, "seems to be self abuse. I never thought I would have self abuse behavior. However, it seems that such self abuse has not achieved the expected effect. Those who have lost will never come back, and those who have done wrong will never have the chance to revise. "Sun man looked at him and said nothing.

It seems that this is the most intimate conversation between the two since they have been married for 15 years.

This marriage, interwoven with too many things, but there is no love. And so many things, up to now, can no longer maintain this marriage.

"Huo Shuqing, if we had a child, wouldn't we have come this far?" Sun man raised his face and asked.

"Will you stick to a loveless marriage because of your children?" Huo Shuqing asked.

Sun man shook his head with a bitter smile, sighed and said, "sure enough, everything has cause and effect!"

After a pause, sun man said, "Huo Shuqing, since we are all so frank tonight, why don't you tell me that you and Sufan have children? Has she ever had a baby for you? "

"Now say these --" Huo Shuqing said.

"Sometimes, I just want to think that other women can have children for you, but now, maybe we don't have children." Sun man sighed.

"After the divorce, what do you want me to do for you, you can continue to find me --" he changed the topic, unwilling to continue to tangle in the past.

"Do I want to thank you for your generosity?" Sun man said with a smile, "but I won't agree, Huo Shuqing. I still don't agree. 1

Huo Shuqing breathed out a deep breath and said," why do you have to force yourself to despair? "

"I appreciate your consideration, but I won't give up like this, Huo Shuqing! To retreat without fighting is not my sun man 1

"do you want to fight with me or with yourself?" Huo Shuqing asked.

Sun man smiles bitterly and doesn't speak.

"Since you and I all know what we have done over the years, we should look at the future more clearly. You said you don't want to be a grumpy woman, but what is your current behavior not a grumpy woman? I'm wrong, sun man. I want to make it up. I can't make my father live, I can't make Sufan come back. The only thing I can do now is to end my pain. Don't you want to? " Huo Shuqing advised.

"Pain? Divorce you, and then watch you look for Sufan from all over the world, and get back together with her? Let me sun man completely become a laughing stock? Huo Shuqing, is this what you call the end of pain? " Sun man Dao.

"That's all I have to say tonight. In the future, I will not come to you again because of this. Sun man, I won't do anything sinister to you after so many years. You can rest assured. However, I will not give up on divorce. Since we can't divorce quietly, let's talk to a lawyer! You don't have to remind me what I will lose because of this. As I said, what I lost can't be recovered. What I have now, getting or losing, is not so important to me! Then, I say so much, you are a smart man, you have always been very smart, I believe you will want to understand! However, I want you to know that the things between us have nothing to do with Sufan! " Huo Shuqing finished, got up and left the building.

Sun man covers his face and sits powerlessly.

In the dark, Huo Shuqing drove back to his home in Xinlin garden. I don't know whether it was because he said his heart words to his father in the cemetery, or because of something else. His heart felt much calmer. Perhaps, many things, jump out, will see more clearly, will also be more free and easy!

Yes, the most important thing has been lost. What else is he afraid of?

Sun man looks at the divorce agreement in front of her, but it's hard to tell the difference in her heart.

After the holiday, Sufan moved back to his original residence alone, and began the hard life of himself and his daughter. And all this, no one knows.

Qin Yiqiu didn't say anything when she learned that Su fan had moved away. After all, it's Sufan's own business. She has done everything she can. A story triggered by an accident seems to have come to an end here.

However, we all think that the full stop is just a comma. A new life, interwoven with Su fan's hardships and dreams, begins to come slowly.

Nianqing is on the full moon. Without Qin Yiqiu's help, Su fan has to go shopping by himself. She was not in good health originally. After this birth and taking care of her children day and night, she was very weak and often sweaty. Fortunately, although Nianqing gave birth prematurely for some days, jaundice appeared normally and then subsided. The only trouble was that she didn't have enough milk. After searching the Internet for a lot of time, Sufan finally helped to solve the problem.

After the full moon, Nianqing wants to get an vaccination. Su fan is an outsider and has no local registered permanent residence. No matter she uses her real name or pseudonym, she can't get a registered permanent residence for her child. The problem of Hukou is not only because of her identity, but because Nianqing has no father and the children of single parents can't apply for hukou. Without hukou, children can't go to school. Even if the vaccination, big money to play, but how to go to school?

Nianqing, Nianqing, when you go to school, can we go back to dad?

The child is too young to sleep all day. With the coming of winter vacation, Su fan has begun to prepare for the English course of enrollment guidance. She lives in this community, many people are not high income, Sufan's make-up fee is not much. Even so, parents still choose things. After reading her graduation certificate, they will say, "Oh, Yuncheng University, a school in the north, do you have a strong accent?", "teachers of * * school, they graduated from shangwai, they are pure American pronunciation.". Although she didn't graduate from normal school, Sufan worked as a tutor for four years to earn her living expenses, and even part of her tuition was her tutor's income. Therefore, it's not a problem to tutor primary and secondary school students in English. Those parents in doubt asked to arrange more auditions for their children before deciding whether to tutor here. In order to recruit more students, Sufan had to give in. She believed that all the children would be satisfied with her teaching.The whole winter vacation, Sufan's family always heard the sound of children reading. Fortunately, Nianqing always sleeps heavily. Even if her mother holds her to teach her brothers and sisters, she will not wake up. The children who came to Sufan to make up lessons gradually fell in love with this kind and beautiful female teacher.

Day, in the daily busy gradually towards the end of the year. Su fan's tutoring students, until the 29th day of the lunar new year ended the course, after the fifth day of the new year began to continue classes.

This is the first time that she has been keeping the new year by herself. On New Year's Eve, she bought some meat and vegetables and made dumplings for herself while the child was asleep.

When the dumplings were cooked, they fed the baby with milk. Holding the baby, they listened to the continuous sound of firecrackers outside. The child is too young to wake up when she hears the sound of firecrackers outside, so she has been eating with Nianqing in her arms. This is the people outside to welcome their ancestors home for the new year. Perhaps their ancestors were also welcomed home in this city! It's just that she doesn't know where her home is.

Think of this, Su fan wry smile, continue to eat.

That time I made dumplings with him. They made flour everywhere. It's a waste to think about it! But now she wanted to waste one time like him, and she had no chance.

A drop of tears fell on Nianqing's forehead. The cold tears made her shiver. Su fan quickly put down his chopsticks, raised the back of his hand and wiped away the tear from the child's forehead.

"Sorry, baby! I miss you, Dad She explained to the child that although she knew the child didn't understand her, she couldn't help saying so. It's not so much for children as for themselves.

Night sky, again and again by that one after another fireworks embellishment, she can't see him, he can't see her.