My Adorable Sweetheart

To succeed requires unremitting efforts and perseverance, but to perish sometimes requires a little bit of subtle mistakes. In other words, mistakes.

The mistake Nangong Ming made was a decision he made unconsciously in his clear consciousness.

Does he love mi Xiaobai? Do you love meat, pink and tender? He didn't know. He only knows that he used to think Mi Xiaobai was very beautiful. He would have an instinctive possessive desire for her, but this feeling is more similar to the feeling of occupying sunny and trying to provoke Yan Jinyu - destruction, anger and provocation.

But later, when she gave birth to two children, he found that his ideas became more subtle. For example, he liked to stay with them very much, as if when he stayed with them, the tight strings of his brain could relax for a moment, and his body would get a short rest and comfort. In that process, he did not ask them to do anything, just to watch them on the beach Just run up and down the street, or see them drinking juice and eating together.

Xiaojin's bright eyes and hearty laughter will spread far in the sea breeze. The fish are crawling anxiously and clumsily, while their mother will teach in front of them with her hands on her back and her head tilted, with rare joy on her face. He sits on the rocking chair in the study on the second floor and looks at all this as if he can clearly hear what she says.

Is this a normal relationship between mother and child? It was a tender feeling he had never seen or felt.

She should be telling Xiaoyu not to worry, telling Xiaojin not to be naughty to provoke the little crab, because she saw her squatting beside them, lifting a small crab, at that moment, her smile was bright and beautiful, and her action shook into his heart.

He imagined their conversation and the happiness in their laughter, and pondered the communication between them. Sadly, all this was just his fantasy.

Because once he gets close, MI Xiaobai, as a mother, will be on guard immediately, showing the caution, tension and vigilance that everyone will show.

So he could only look at it from a distance and fantasize.

Did he suddenly feel that he was getting older and began to like children? Or should we set up a family, find a few women, have a few children, and enjoy the so-called "family happiness"?

He started looking.

He has many women, white skin, black skin, yellow skin, beautiful and generous, lively and lovely, even the strong and fierce Luoshui, he carefully considered, but the bad thing is that when he faced them, he didn't even want to take off his clothes.

They cater to him, show their happiness and love for him, but he sees the desire in their eyes.

Should he find someone who's right? Like the daughter of other underworld families or business families?

But the short time together did not make him feel comfortable, on the contrary, it was full of greater vigilance. Marriage was never simple.

He had many women, but none of them made him feel at ease to marry and have children with her. Moreover, he was very uncertain whether the children born between them would be as lovely and lively as Xiao Jin? Will he strangle his own child one day because of boredom?

Nangongming finally turns her dark green eyes to MI Xiaobai on the beach.

Mi Xiaobai is very beautiful. The most important thing is that she has the feeling he wants. Of course, Nangong Ming didn't know at that time. In fact, it's not that MI Xiaobai is much better than other women. It's him who falls in love with MI Xiaobai - and real love always makes people feel unique and inviolable.

He wants to get her, but always compromise back, seems to be afraid of angering her, let her run away.

He is struggling in this kind of repeated contradictory emotions. He can't believe that he is the murderous gangster. He didn't expect that he had never been cowardly in front of a weak woman.

He could have possessed and played with a prey doomed to escape from his own hands in the most direct way of a man, but he was afraid that she would lose the feeling he wanted most - he was possessive, but not abnormal, he knew what he wanted very well.

What he wants is never a beautiful body and shell, because he can easily get a lot of them. Mi Xiaobai is on the alert all over, but at least she will smile at him. Some common people are polite. For example, when he returns the child to her, she will show gratitude and happiness. For example, when he talks about Xiao Jin's recent situation with her, she will be unprepared At his side, she would listen. For example, when he carried the children to the beach or gave them delicious food, she would follow them lightly and exchange some interesting words with them, as if she were following him instead of the children

Once this balance is broken, if he forces or coerces Mi Xiaobai on impulse, he is afraid that she will become a walking corpse.

He is afraid that "Mi Xiaobai", who gives him a special feeling, will disappear forever in this world.

Later, when Mi Xiaobai shot nangongming in the chest for the first time, he thought the whole thing was very funny. He unconsciously did a lot of twists and turns in MI Xiaobai's affairs, so that she and her two children would not be hurt as bloody chips, so that she could be moved and like himself. He wanted to get this feeling so deeply, But repeatedly come and go between, he but again and again in a compromise will they push back to the hand of Yan Jinyu.On purpose? Or unintentionally?

He has no idea. He doesn't know why he did that. As Luoshui said, "Mr. has become so strange". He knows that MI Xiaobai will be able to uncover the truth and make up with Yan Jinyu when he goes back. He still gives her the chance - no one knows how deep in his heart he wants Mi Xiaobai and Yan Jinyu to break up naturally. No one knows how much he hopes for him They turn against each other and never communicate with each other.

But if you want to get her, don't you want to let her give up Yan Jinyu first?

Unfortunately, he lost the bet, and his contradictory behavior eventually failed to get what he wanted. Yan Jinyu is very cunning. A feign death can break Mi Xiaobai's hard heart. All his hatred for him disappears. When he duels with Yan Jinyu in the Lighthouse of Castle Peak, he realizes that he has lost. When Mi Xiaobai shoots him in the chest without hesitation, he knows that he has no place to turn over in this woman's heart.

Shark Reef, the last battle.

The sea is salty and bloody. The moment nangongming falls into the water, he sees Mi Xiaobai's panic and shocked face covering his wrist through the unclear sea.

He laughed because he knew that he had lost the last battle, but in her heart, he might have won at last.

[the end of nangongming's "subtle feelings"]