My alternative life

I smiled.

In fact, when Chen Qian said that she could not stay on the wall all night, I knew that there would be such words waiting for me.

It seems that Qianjie especially likes to enjoy the ambiguous feeling with me.

Although Chen Qian didn't really do what she wanted to do, she didn't know whether she was interested in me or not long after I joined the Shashan female prison.

At the earliest time, I remember not long after I went to work. Qianjie took Yaoxin and Xiaozhou and me to eat braised rabbit head. That night, I slept in Chen Qian's unit room in Donghe county. I drank too much at night. I vaguely felt that I had a spring dream. It was like a beautiful woman came into my dream and talked with me.

Later, because I was hiding from Shu Liya, I hid under the desk of Chen Qian's office, holding her two long legs The scenery is more beautiful.

These past events, like movies, keep flashing in my mind. In fact, it's not many days in the past, but it's like several years.

Therefore, from a psychological point of view, if a person is infatuated with or loves a certain feeling, when she or he needs to choose, he or she will subconsciously choose the process that once made him feel happy.

On Chen Qian, it is at this time that she subconsciously expects to be with me, but it does not necessarily involve the final bottom line.

Holding her hand, I said, "sister Qian, do you want me to live with you? You and I, one unmarried and the other unmarried, and I'm a vigorous and vigorous young man. I don't know the meat in March. Sister Qian, you are not afraid that I will give you... "

"What can you do to me?" Chen Qian recognized the meaning of my words. She bowed her head in shame and did not dare to look me in the eye, but she still had a hard tongue.

"What can I do? Well, it's a very interesting issue and worth studying. "

I simply deliberately tease her, "sister Qian, why don't you teach me, what do you want me to do with you?"

"Asshole, rascal!"

Chen Qian was ashamed and annoyed. She twisted me hard and scolded, "Jiang Feng, you bad boy, what's in your head? Every day without a good idea, I don't understand. LAN Jian is such an excellent woman. Why do you like such an obscene son! "

I cried, "June snow, elder sister, how can I be indecent? Did I just say something? I just asked you to teach me. Don't you forget that I just came to that meeting and I'm not familiar with my business. It's not sister Qian. You taught me hand in hand and took care of me? Sister, I remember all these things in my heart, and I dare not forget them for a moment. "

"Well, you have a conscience!"

Chen Qian's face became soothing, but she was still very angry and said, "Jiang Feng, don't play smart with my sister. Don't think I can't hear the meaning of your words. You didn't say that!"

"Which one?" I continued to play dumb.

"That's what's bothering you. Do you hate it?"

Ha ha, I laughed and pushed Chen Qian to say, "my sister, let's not play with children. Let's go. It's the coldest at three or four o'clock in the morning. I'm afraid you can't stand it! Come on, let's go down. "

Finally, we looked in all directions. It seemed that we wanted to engrave the scene of closing the night scene on the wall of Xijing ancient city in winter firmly in our minds. After watching it for more than ten minutes, we reluctantly went back from the original way.

This time, because of her experience a few hours ago, Chen Qian became bold. Although she still needed me to push her from behind, her movements were very sharp and her body was not shaking as seriously as last time.

Once again, Chen Qian continued to get stuck in the iron fence. I still used to carry my breath on my arms and tried to stretch the iron fence about a centimeter or two wide. Qian finally got through with her efforts.

We rubbed our hands and braked, ran to the street and stopped a night taxi.

I didn't say anything. Qianjie naturally reported her hotel in Baoyue, Xijing. They held hands and had nothing to say. It seemed that they were waiting for a special moment.

I have some hesitation. I understand that if I ask too much this time, to be frank, I want to get her body. I believe Chen Qian will not refuse.

Perhaps because I was involved in her mysterious past, like a man, Chen Qian had a blind sense of sustenance for my feelings at the beginning.

Don't underestimate this kind of sustenance. Some people, especially those who are more isolated, are not good at communicating with others, and their usual interests and hobbies are very single. Once they have people or things they like, including pets, they will be particularly worried and afraid of losing them.

I once read a report that a very lonely man had only one friend in his life, his wife.

This man's love for his wife has reached the level of abnormal dependence. After he is over 50 years old, he has to be with his wife almost all the time.

Later, his wife died of illness. He kept the news from everyone and did not deal with the body, let alone cremate it.

He bought a lot of ice, hot August or cold winter, the room is like an ice cellar, he felt that as long as his wife is still in this room, he can see her every day, the lover is not dead, she is still alive, just do not speak, fell asleep.In this way, three years later, the room was full of rotten smell. When people found out all this, the man lay quietly beside his wife and died.

This incident once caused a sensation. The public opinion did not blame the man too much, but the mainstream view of the society thinks that this guy must have mental illness and mental disorder.

Ren Xiaoyao, my teacher, has analyzed this case with us in private. The old man's view is that the man's psychology is indeed abnormal, but he has not reached the point of insanity.

He is still able to go out to buy some necessities as usual, and he does not do any harm to the society. The reason for this is that he is too eccentric and has no normal interpersonal communication.

Therefore, when the only trustworthy person leaves, he doesn't know how to live in the world

The old man called this kind of behavior and mentality "extremely excessive sustenance", and told us that in fact, almost everyone has this kind of sustenance, but some people show it obviously, others show it indifferently, which is just a flash in the mind.

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Think of these, I look at the side of my shoulder Chen Qian, suddenly do not know, she really love me, like me, or just put me as a sustenance

Chen Qian felt my gaze, raised her head and asked, "Xiao Feng, what's the matter with you? What do you think of me like that? "

"Oh, it's nothing. I just think Qianjie looks very beautiful. I can see it."

"Really?"

Chen Qian some doubts, staring at my eyes for a few seconds, and asked, "you didn't tell the truth, Xiao Feng, what's the matter? What do you have in mind? Tell me... "