My alternative life

With my voice export, Lan Lan's face becomes sad.

This sentence brought her sad memories, at least stirred a pain line that seemed to be hidden deeply in her nerves.

Lan Lan's face showed a look of pain, and then slowly two big eyes began to fill with tears.

Choking, she said to me, "Jiang Feng, I know you hate me. Even now I'm not sure if you really forgive me from the bottom of my heart Feng, I dare not expect... "

I lit a cigarette and I was a little upset.

Knowing that I have forgiven her and even deeply moved by her desperate behavior to help me, I don't know why, but my emotion is on the verge of an explosion, just like how much crime she once committed to me.

Indeed, I may have forgiven her, but the pain in my heart is not so easy to erase, and the plots that bring me pain are still hidden in my mind.

It's like a movie. I think of helping her out in the wholesale market. I'm confused and integrated. I meet her again in Shashan prison

She brought me those hundred and thousands of gentle lingering and unforgettable stinging pain and calculation, let me again and again mood from the crest of the sea, and then with the shark's tail fin floating out of the sea

At this time, I realized that love is poison and the meaning of these words.

My mood can not be hidden in the face, so, looking at my face, Lan Lan's tears fell down.

"Feng, there are some things I can't tell you now, but Would you please believe me? I really only love you, and I only love you

She hugged me tightly, shaking and sobbing.

"I I never thought about bullying you or taking advantage of you What I did Will you forgive me? "

"Alas ~ ~"

perhaps, except for sighing, any man will be at a loss when facing his beloved woman, and there is no second answer.

My heart, in an instant, has become soft dough, lift her face, gently wipe away the tears that represent the complex meaning.

Endure again and again, I finally said, "LAN, the past is gone, I don't want to say those things Memories are not always good, but life is always looking forward

Looking down, I gently kiss Lan Lan's pretty face, regardless of the passers-by's eyes. I kiss her tears drop by drop. "I don't need you to explain anything to me. Everyone may have their own difficulties..."

"Thank you, thank you Sobbing... "

She cried more and more sad, holding my hands more forcefully, as if trying to crush my body into her blood.

I am also a little uncomfortable, these days all the pain and grievances in an instant outbreak, one after another, I cried.

…

The setting sun, even though it is near dusk, still doesn't make me feel how wonderful it is.

When the two cry, I and LAN LAN mood again to restore peace.

"Come on, I'll show you a place!"

After walking silently in the street for a while, I took her hand and called a taxi.

"White Deer Plain."

I simply said a few words to the driver, and there was a trace of sadness in my eyes.

The LAN LAN that restores mood is a bit surprised however, "white deer plain? Is it the White Deer Plain in Chen Zhongshi's novels? "

"Well, that's it!"

I patted her hand and said, "I'll take you to a place on the ground!"

Taxis are like flying. Compared with T City, Beijing and even Xijing, there is no so-called traffic jam in our county except waiting for the traffic lights.

From the county seat to Bailuyuan, there are even fewer vehicles. Except for the vehicles driving down from the original, there are few vehicles going up in the evening.

More than half an hour later, I got off at a place called Li village and took LAN LAN for a long walk.

Walking, Lan Lan began to fear, the body close to me, seems to be frightened by the surrounding scene.

"LAN, maybe you have guessed who I brought you to see..."

I hugged her and said in her ear, "don't be afraid, I miss my grandfather. I'll pay homage to his old man..."

Yes, this is the largest Cemetery outside Xijing. My grandfather was buried here a hundred years later.

Watch the water at the desk, green mountains and green cypresses.

Here, it is recognized by many feng shui masters as a good place for burial.

After his death, he was not buried in his ancestral grave, but at his request, in the cemetery of Bailuyuan.

Of course, if they are buried here, they can't be buried in the earth, but in the form of urn.

I knelt down in front of my grandfather's grave and wept.

No one will force me to recite the Yellow Emperor's Internal Classic and Tang tou's rhymes, or pull me up from bed to practice with him in winter and summerFor several years, grandfather is no longer in my life.

In the cemetery community in the night, there are only two lonely figures, Lanlan and I, lonely and lonely in the rising moon.

I was crying. I didn't know if I was just thinking of my grandfather. Maybe I had experienced the emotional and life pain that I couldn't tell others in recent years

See me cry, Lan Lan also cry, even later, cry more fierce than me.

Her whole body trembles, tears if all received a container, may be full of a teacup, I think it should be my sadness let her also recall a lot of sad moments.

For more than ten minutes, we were crying, mourning, and letting the moonlight take the place of the sun to wrap our bodies together.

…

On the way back, Lanlan didn't ask me why I brought her here to pay homage to my grandfather, but I cried so bitterly, was it just because of some hidden deep thoughts.

So silent, when the lights came, she and I went home with two pairs of swollen eyes.

"To pay homage to your grandfather?" Dad saw my look and couldn't help asking.

My grandfather died early in name. I never met him at all. So when I was a child, I seldom called him grandfather. I always called him grandfather directly.

The old man also enjoyed what I called him, and even his family has long acquiesced in our authentic grandparent relationship.

I nodded, "well."

Dad's tears fell in an instant. He and his mother brought him to live with him after his grandfather was last year. They can be said to be in love with his father and son.

But I know that dad is not as emotional as I am. Apart from missing my grandfather, my tears tonight are more due to my brother-in-law's case.

And his mood, also to a certain extent, infected everyone, the family moment did not have much joy, once again surrounded by sadness