My alternative life

The recent update is not normal, because there are some difficult things at home, please forgive me.

To be frank, the old man is in hospital Maybe this situation will continue for a few days, sorry! I can only try my best to keep improving, but whether I can update three chapters or even more can't be guaranteed. The book has been open for 150 days, but it has never been interrupted for one day. I hope I can persist. Please continue to support the decoration ring, my alternative life and Netease cloud reading!

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in less than one day since I came back from Mordor, my mood has gone through many changes, from suffering to loss, and then to numbness.

I think that maybe it won't be long before I get back to my peace of mind. Because, I always think that I am a person with strong self-adjusting ability, and my inner world is strong enough!

It's already dusk. I don't know which shop has Zhou Chuanxiong's song dusk. Xiaogang's song has a sense of vicissitudes, which is very close to my mood at this time.

I hesitated whether I should call Mo Zhi dance. In my heart, I suddenly worried about her.

Maybe there is something wrong with Jiang Feng's human nature. Maybe everyone is the same.

This kind of "almost" mentality is reflected in: only when we regret some mistakes, will we think of others' good deeds!

In the first days of falling out with LAN LAN, I had Hao Ru, and once seriously considered having a good relationship with Mo Zhi dance.

But when Lan Lan again to my soft admit wrong, I can't help but and her reunion, thus will Zhi dance hidden from the mind.

In fact, these days, I can't say I don't have it at all, but I seldom think of Mo Zhi dance. It seems that I'm afraid to face up to the future development of He Zhi dance, and I don't know how to deal with the relationship with her.

At this moment, I decided to leave Lanlan, who had never really respected and trusted me from the bottom of my heart, and I couldn't help thinking of Mozhi dance

Especially, I can't help asking myself, Jiang Feng, are you a fickle man?

I I don't know. I Lost.

Holding the phone, I call up the number of Mo Zhi dance in the address book and watch for a long time

Alas, a few days ago, when I came back to the county and faced with my brother-in-law's case, the first person I thought of was Zhiwu. If she hadn't been able to get in touch with me, I might not have asked for help from Yu Lanlan in desperate circumstances, and I wouldn't have broken the mirror and reunited with her so soon

Extremely depressed mood, I understand, Zhi dance still has a very important position in my heart, but I failed her

Now that I'm single, do you have the face to look for her?

After buying a few cans of beer, I found a sidewalk and drank by myself under the street lamp.

The world is drunk, I wake up alone.

In the past, whenever I was depressed, I would always use this sentence to encourage and comfort myself. However, is it true that other people live in a muddle, and only I, Jiang Feng, is the one who is alone?

Perhaps, when I see a couple or a family of three passing by occasionally, as well as those cars with roar and black smoke rushing by, I realize that I am a fool these years!

Other people's day may seem ordinary, but it is real happiness, and I am just a poor Lamb who is still on the road of looking for his own happiness and constantly losing his way.

A stone was kicked by someone and stopped two or three meters in front of me.

Looking at it, I feel that I am no different from this stone without life consciousness. I just exist in the world.

This is two or three hours.

The beer can in front of me is empty, the cigarette box in my pocket is empty, and it's getting dark.

In the starry sky and the breeze, I listened to the completely different sounds coming from all directions, silent and dull.

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Back at the hotel, I called Hao Ru, Lao Cai and Zhang Bin to ask about the bidding process of the capital construction project of Shashan women's prison and whether I had any difficulties in purchasing the international famous brand franchise store.

Zhang Bin and Lao Cai answered very simply, saying that everything was under control. They also praised Hao Ru constantly, saying how kind and warm she was. At the same time, they also repeatedly probed into the relationship between sister Ru and me

Of course, I turned a deaf ear to their gossip, but my heart gradually became calmer.

Finally, the things in this world are not all against my Jiang Feng, there are always pleasant news

When I talk to sister Ru on the phone, my mood is not so beautiful, even a layer of ice and snow on my already depressed mood.

From Hao Ru's hesitant words, I can tell that Huzi's father, her first lover, seems to be looking for her again. It seems that she wants to meet Hao Ru and Huzi.

I guess Hao Ru's mood must be extremely contradictory now.

Although I am quite sure that Hao Ru will no longer have any illusions about that ruthless man, he is tiger's own father after all.At least from this point, he wants to see tiger son, but there is nothing wrong with it! Although I always think that he has long given up and lost his qualification as the father of the tiger son.

Sister Ru doesn't seem to be in a good mood either. I heard her voice on the phone from a thousand mountains and waters away. She seems to be very anxious. She doesn't seem to have thought about how to face the fact that the father of tiger son will come to her one day.

Finally, Hao Ru asked me, "Feng, when can you come back to T city? Without you by my side, I My heart is in a mess. "

I don't know how to answer her, so I have to gently comfort her, "sister Ru, you should first stabilize your mind, don't be disturbed by any external forces! Remember, life is for yourself, not for me, not for him, understand? "

"Well, I will, but..."

"Well, sister Ru, there are some things in my family. Maybe you have heard about them. So I can't say when I'll be back in the sand mountain. "

After thinking about it, I decided to give Hao Ru more confidence and courage to face this sudden change, so I continued, "sister Ru, this way, my side may be Hehe, as Taizu said, on protracted war! So if you have something urgent, no matter what time, day or night, you must inform me immediately Can you hear me in front of you in a few hours? Don't hide it from me. I'm It's always your Maple

I'm going to shed tears myself.

Hao Ru, what a kind and tender woman she is. Unfortunately, I can't have her forever, or give her a place that should belong to her.

Maybe, just as I said, I can only show up at her side as soon as possible when she needs to, to protect her from the wind and rain!

Can I?

I don't doubt that!

Since I can fly back and forth in 24 hours, I will do the same to LAN LAN and Hao Ru!

I even thought, maybe in this world, the only one who won't betray me, in addition to my parents and sisters, is only Hao ru