My alternative life

I try my best to make my mood in a relaxed state. In the face of LAN Jian, no matter she is fierce or gentle to me, I will have a strange feeling from nervous to physical tension.

I didn't speak, waiting for her to ask me more questions.

"Jiang Feng, I want to know one thing."

Lanjian stares at me. "Do you think I Is that mean? "

I was stunned. I didn't know what she meant or what she wanted to express to me.

This kind of problem is actually very boring. From a psychological point of view, a very popular word is that there is no technical content.

However, a little thought, from her words, I have figured out the mentality of LAN Jian at the moment.

As a woman, an excellent, proud and outstanding woman who thinks highly of herself, the most unbearable thing is two things, betrayal and being despised.

Therefore, I have guessed that no matter how LAN Jian treats my relationship with her in the future, the most important thing she wants to know now is why I left and why I said that.

She may think that she is confused and I have intimate contact, but I look down on her from the bottom of my heart.

What a silly woman.

Even though Lanjian is much better than me in career, status and family background, her personal emotion is as simple as a piece of white paper.

I smile and think about it, and say, "Lan Jian, from the perspective of male possessiveness, I have got some unexpected gains, but if I never think those are what I should get, then everything is just a reward given by God."

"What do you mean?"

"To put it bluntly, Lanjian, you will always be a goddess in my heart, an unattainable and superior goddess! In the face of you, I have only worship, love and respect, not possession or abandonment. "

I just explained that although this is a bit of flattery, it's not my feeling?

LAN Jian Leng for a while, finally, smile!

There is a course of micro expression in psychology. Although it is not compulsory, I am very interested in it. I have read many monographs and tried it on my classmates.

LAN Jian now looks like, two beautiful eyes at the beginning of staring very big, and then the corners of the mouth began to tilt up slowly, the muscles on the cheek with a slight tremor, finally appeared in her eyes crow's feet, eyes also bent into a crescent shape.

This process, in micro expression, is called starting smile, that is to say, LAN Jian's smile is not affectation, not pretending, but the emotional change from the heart.

I breathed a sigh to myself, knowing that at least part of her heart had been untied by my confession.

Sure enough, after asking this question, LAN Jian's face began to become energetic, and her mood also improved. Ah, a woman, no matter she is strong or weak, can't escape from caring about men's opinions.

Especially, men who have intimate contact with themselves and care about them.

I can't help but feel proud. From this short conversation, I have already determined that I'm not good at nothing in Lanjian's heart.

But, those hatred or resentment, I do not have a trace of certainty, it is estimated that she has not been able to abate a cent.

Mercedes Benz stops at the gate of the blue bar. LAN Jian puts on a pair of big sunglasses, and his face returns to a cold appearance. He goes in first.

I seldom come to such places. To be exact, except for the last time, that night ten days ago, I met Yan Ran in the famous true love bar in T City, today is my second time to enter such high-end places that I never dare to imagine.

The blues bar comes from the British jazz blues. I don't know much about these things. Anyway, LAN Jian said that he would come here and I will follow him.

This is Qingba. There's no noisy people, no loud percussion and rock. There's only a musician with saxophone playing leisurely on the stage in front of the bar.

We found a relatively remote corner and sat down. Lanjian asked for four bottles of beer and some simple snacks.

From her actions, I can draw a few more information.

First of all, Lanjian didn't want to completely let go of her crazy night tonight, otherwise she wouldn't just order beer like this. You know, the beer here in blues is 250 ml small bottles, two bottles is the amount of ordinary one bottle of beer.

Second, she didn't order too many things. It's probably because I paid the bill and didn't want me to be too embarrassed. Ah, she is such a considerate woman. How nice Unfortunately, we are predestined.

Third, since she must be upset, the third thing is to show her. If you come to me, it shows that in Shashan prison, even in Donghe county and T City, Lanjian doesn't have a heart to heart relationship.

Fourth, she should be in trouble now, and it's the kind of problem that threatens her very much.

Thinking of these, I couldn't help but move. I recalled the situation when the black faced, square faced middle-aged woman came out of her office in the afternoon. I guess LAN Jian's troubles should be related to what the woman said.But what is it? Even make LAN prison depressed to this extent, even at the cost of pulling me such a man who had hurt her?

Two people drink wine silently, even without the action of slamming the bottle, listening to the music, thinking about their own thoughts.

"Jiang Feng, what happened that night..."

I cut her off and said, "no matter how much you want me to be responsible for that night, I will be willing! Even if you lose your job, even I don't care if I lose my life! "

Can I be such a fool?

If I still follow what she said, I'll take it as if it didn't happen. So I'm still a man?

Although she is a few years older than me and always looks like a young woman, I know better than anyone that when you are happy with me, they are genuine goods that can't be original.

Ah, clumsy action, astringent welcome and the dazzling red.

Therefore, for such a woman who has never experienced the love between men and women, what she dislikes most is the words "as if it never happened".

Although I am not sure that I will do what I said, I at least know that these words are what I think and wish in my heart.

I'm not going to make up my mind any more. I'll leave the initiative to her!

Sure enough, hearing my answer, LAN Jian was stunned. Maybe she didn't think that I would say I would lose my job and give my life for her.

Although she may not believe that I can do it, but at least sweet words, vows, everyone loves to hear!

Besides, when I speak, I really show my true feelings without any affectation.

LAN Jian looks at me and doesn't speak. I can see how her eyes are full of tears little by little. This process is very strange and painful.