My alternative life

"Hiss ~ ~"

Pan Ting smiles and blushes, but she is not too pretentious. Holding the filter mouth I just had, she takes a hard puff.

She began to tell me, but she didn't look me in the eye at all. It was like talking to herself.

"Why did I come in here? Do you know?"

"It doesn't matter whether I know it or not. Just say yours."

My words are impeccable, in front of her, in front of a female prisoner who needs psychological counseling, I must always maintain a strong psychological deterrent to them.

"Because Gambling

She laughed, "I don't want to say I have no responsibility, but I can swear to God, I really have no crime, do you believe me?"

"Well, you go on."

"I was framed. They are very powerful..."

As panting mumbles with a smile, I probably know the ins and outs of her crimes.

Gambling is very common in China and abroad.

In those days, master snooker Higgins, nicknamed "Wizard", was banned by the International Taiwan Federation for two years just because of his collusion with the gambling group. Not only did the score ranking start from the bottom, but also his personal image plummeted and his endorsement income suffered a heavy loss. For a long time, his reputation was ruined.

But even so, many players continue to participate in gambling, either because of the temptation of high money or because of the coercion of international gambling groups.

Pan tingxiao's situation belongs to the latter. She resisted and didn't cooperate, but she didn't escape the control of evil forces and was framed and used.

However, if only involved in gambling, pan tingxiao should not be sentenced, especially if she was calculated.

However, it's sad that she was caught in a murder case in the gambling case that year. She was pushed out as a scapegoat and took the blame.

The details are not clear in a word, and I'm not very interested in listening to them.

I just need to know where the root of her hunger strike is. More than that, I can't help her.

Besides, now this is her one-sided statement. I can't judge her responsibility in this matter at all.

"How many years do you have to serve?"

This is a point I am very concerned about, because for those prisoners who can get out of prison in one or two years, most of them have hope for their future life, and they will certainly try their best to reform, strive for points, exchange praise, save merit, and finally reduce their sentence.

In this period of extreme psychological stimulation, there will be no major self abandonment.

At least I know that hunger strike belongs to confrontation education and reform, and I have no chance to exchange praise for at least three months, let alone save merit to reduce my sentence.

Panting smile looks so beautiful, but, her brain water!?

Is it true that people should not be ugly?

"Three months a year!"

Nima, I am even more surprised to hear this answer. Temo can be released from prison in more than a year. If the sentence is commuted for four months, isn't it only a few months?

"Jiang Guanjiao, ah, let me put it bluntly. I'm always dreaming these days..."

Gradually, I understand that the current situation of Pan tingxiao is a very rare mental illness, that is, she can't distinguish reality from dream.

As the time to get out of prison is getting closer and closer, panting's psychology begins to change, uneasy and excited.

She didn't know how to face her former relatives and friends, for fear of their indifference, discrimination and even humiliation.

But on the other hand, she especially hopes to get the care of her family. It's better for her relatives and friends to treat her as if they have never seen such a stain before, and even create a feeling that the past few years of imprisonment have never appeared in her brilliant life.

She wanted to, but knew it couldn't be.

So the double psychology, expectation and anxiety, longing and loss intertwined, tangled, let her heart can not get peace for a moment.

The more famous the people are and the more concerned they are with their personal image, the more serious their fear of gain and loss will be.

Pantene's smile is a typical one.

Especially in the past two months, pan tingxiao has been dreaming every night. Without exception, her dreams are the scenes when her relatives and friends ridicule and do not care about her after she is released from prison.

Over time, she began to hallucinate, and felt that it would be true. She would lose all her glory when she went out, even like a lost dog.

She began to ask herself, what's the point of living like this? It's better to die!

In comparison, it seems that it's better to stay in prison and accept reform to survive in society after being released from prison. At least all the prisoners here are guilty. No one can say who they are.

In Shashan prison, apart from hard work and lack of freedom, pan tingxiao doesn't feel inferior to others. On the contrary, she looks down on most female prisoners.Those traffickers, prostitutes, drug traffickers and murderers, panting laughs that she doesn't think she should be associated with such people at all.

These more and more intense contradictory thoughts in her heart make pan tingxiao lose her enthusiasm for positive transformation, and she subconsciously thinks of death.

Moreover, this kind of thought does not hinder, very smoothly appears in the dream.

Then she confused dreams with reality.

"Jiang Guanjiao, I know that I will die soon, that incurable disease!"

She looked at me and said very seriously, "a lot of people tell me that the disease is very painful in the later period of my life. I don't want to face it. You know, I don't want to!"

At this point, she began to sob, and a few seconds later, her face was full of tears.

I know that if she gets more emotional, it is likely to cause schizophrenia.

In fact, today's panting smile has been regarded as a mild schizophrenic.

Now, since the prison let me help with the treatment, I do not want to let this situation continue to happen!

Paralyzed. In that case, the significance of my coming to Shashan female prison will be greatly reduced.

No one wants a waste that is likely to cause constant trouble because of gender and has no special ability.

The iron rice bowl can be served, but I will never allow myself to be marginalized.

I think of LAN prison, Lin Fen who left me, and the women who were good to me in Shashan prison, or who cut me in the back of my shoes.

Holding out my hand, I held Pantene's long white fingers and combed them one by one.

It's a bit like stroking the other person's arm or back, which can be regarded as a means of appeasing the patient's emotion.

"I promise!"

I look a Su, "panting smile, looking at my eyes."

She looked at me with tears in her beautiful eyes.

"Listen, I promise you that you won't die if you are not ill, and you will get everything that belongs to you again, even better and more than ever! Do you believe me? "