My alternative life

"My first girlfriend is a college classmate. Her name is Lin Fen..."

I began to tell Yuming about my past emotional Road, but also once again let my heart bear the crushing process of full of holes

After I opened my mouth, I was surprised to find that my intonation was very peaceful. I don't know how I could tell other people's stories about my troubles with Lin Fen, LAN LAN, Hao Ru, Qiao xiao'e, Mo Zhi Wu, Hong Lei and Chen Hui. My heart, which I thought would be bleeding, didn't seem as fragile as expected.

It is true that I once again felt the heart biting and tearing feeling brought by the pain, and my mood kept rising and falling in the process of speaking. But I was able to show Ma Yuming's chaotic and fluctuating emotional world in recent years, especially in the past three months, just like telling a story.

Perhaps, time is a dose of medicine, a dose of the best healing medicine, I have to admit that when time goes by, a lot of pain will become indifferent, or even rarely remember.

For example, it's hard for me to recall every bit of the time I fell in love with Lin Fen now, and I won't be heartbroken by guessing whether she is living well in a foreign country or lying in the arms of a man with the same skin or different skin color as me!

At least for Linfen, I seem to have been indifferent, and once, one day I can't see her face will be anxious like ants on the hot pot, the phone does not call ten or twenty are not finished.

Ah, it can only be said that time has changed, Linfen and I no longer have each other, from the body to love and then to the soul

Of course, LAN LAN, Hao Ru and Mo Zhi have their own stories.

I keep on talking. It seems that with Ma Yuming's request, I will open the gate which has been covered with dust for a long time in my heart. Every stream of different emotions will come together and finally form a torrent

I spoke very quietly, but Ma Yuming couldn't hear it without sighing. During that time, she was sad and tearful several times.

I don't understand why women, such animals, cry when I don't feel good about them. Moreover, I don't want to ask her, which may make Yuming more emotional and think of herself.

"You're so complicated. I didn't expect that..."

Yu Ming with such a sentence as the end, let me immersed in the indescribable feelings of wasted thoughts, back to reality.

I grin bitterly, "is it complicated? Maybe it's complicated So Yuming, I'm not a good life partner. My life is a mess. How can you trust yourself to me? "

, but she looked at me and said very seriously, "can you has the final say? From the moment of divorce, I told myself that I would live for myself and obey my heart." Jiang Feng, you don't know how tired I have been these years. "

I didn't ask her who she lived for and how she worked so hard. Because the past is like smoke, it's meaningless to ask. It can only make Ma Yuming more worried.

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Down from the city wall, our bodies were a little sticky, partly because of the rain and partly because of the sweat from cycling.

We found a roadside barbecue stand, we simply ate some kebabs, grilled fish and other so-called garbage, but it can make people move their fingers to eat, and then we came back to the hotel room I opened yesterday.

For two consecutive days, Ma Yuming and I spent a long night together. But last night, I opened at least two rooms in name. Today, I simply returned one.

I understand that it's meaningless to continue to book two rooms except for spending money in vain. At the same time, I don't want her to curl up in the corner and cry alone in such a depressed and lonely night.

I took a bath in silence, lying in bed smoking, Ma Yuming has entered the bathroom, with the clatter of water began to bath.

There is the wind outside the window and the sound of women bathing in the room. There is a trace of agitation in my heart.

Although we once said in the afternoon that we should give each other more time and leave enough distance so that we can get to know each other well, I was in a trance or not determined at this moment - I'm not sure whether I would be a beast or not when Yuming, a charming girl, appeared in front of me after taking a bath.

I laughed at the thought of this.

It seems that I have seen from the Internet that a man and a woman lay naked on the same bed. The man controlled his turbulent heart with great willpower, tossed and turned all night, and finally did not make a shameful animal move.

As a result, the next day, the woman left without saying goodbye, leaving only one sentence, you are not as good as animals

Yuming appears in front of me wrapped in a bath towel. Her round shoulders, long white legs and wet hair all show the beauty's lazy and attractive charm. I can't move my eyes when I look at her.

"Jiang Feng, do you look good?"

This sentence made us both laugh.

Yesterday afternoon, at the entrance of the canteen toilet of Xijing Prison Administration Bureau, I subconsciously looked at Ma Yuming's enchanting back. She suddenly asked me the same question.At that time, I was embarrassed

But at the moment, there is no longer that kind of cold disdain in Yuming's voice. Instead, it is full of gentle temptation, and I can rest assured to look boldly at her, not as sneaky as yesterday afternoon

I nodded, "good looking! Yuming, you are so beautiful, incomparable

"Hee hee, ah, it's the first time I've heard a man praise me like this in person!"

When I heard her say that, I almost blurted out. Didn't your ex husband say something like that?

But I finally held back. I didn't want to feel uncomfortable.

She came over, raised her legs and went to bed. She lay down beside me without shyness, hugged me and murmured, "Jiang Feng, I'm free today. I'm not a thief with you, right? I don't have to live under the yoke of morality any more. "

So, I was a little sad and moved, and I couldn't help holding her in my arms.

However, it's strange that Ma Yuming didn't take the initiative when she said that she was nice to me and how she was with me. She didn't even touch me and kiss me as she did last night, just lying quietly.

After a while, snoring from my side, she dare to fall asleep like this

I smile bitterly, this is good, I finally can continue to keep the same words and deeds, will I talk to her in the evening those words, adhere to the truth.

Just, this night, I was doomed to be worse than the beast

Yuming sleeps sweetly. With her action, the big bath towel disperses from her body. Of course, there is no inch thread in it.

I see white, black, pink, almost from beast to beast.

Sighing and shaking my head, I pulled the sheet to cover her. I got up and went to the window. I opened the window to the maximum and went into the fog.

All of a sudden, I thought of the question I wanted to ask her, but I never got the chance to say it. However, this question is of great significance for my next action.

Touch out the mobile phone, I hide in the bathroom, no matter what time it is now, began to call