My alternative life

Looking at Hong Lei, I didn't speak for a long time. I didn't know what to say.

Her tears began to seep out of the corner of her eyes, dropping down my cheek and chest.

"Brother, I don't want to miss you. I want to meet you! Do you hear me? I want to meet you! I don't want to think about you but don't know if you are well, want to see you but don't know where you are! Brother, you say, let me stay, stay with you, say ah you

Hong Lei's nails were deeply embedded in my skin, as if she could bear the answer from my mouth with all her strength.

"Alas..."

I only have a sigh.

What can I say? What can I say?

Is it true that Hong Lei wants to keep her? so what? Experiencing scenes similar to or even more painful than today?

However, in the face of Hong Lei, who is on the verge of collapse, how can I say those cruel words that let her leave and go to the other side of the ocean?

I can't help but think of the years before I left Linfen, how decadent I used to be, the countless nights when I curled up in the corner of the bed and cried silently

My heart is like a knife.

"Alas..."

Hong Lei sat up beside me, my words were silent, and she had given all the answers.

Hong Lei turns around and wraps her bright, round and beautiful body full of youth in the bath towel. Hong Lei slowly walks to the bathroom and closes the door. Soon, there are bursts of water sound.

I was so dejected, lying in bed with a cigarette in my mouth, staring at the ceiling so blankly that the ash fell on my skin, stinging and burning, but I didn't want to dust it off at all.

Soon after Hong Lei finished washing, she stood in front of me wearing a goose yellow dress.

"Brother, go out with me, I'm hungry..."

He stood up silently and walked on the streets of Xijing again. Unconsciously, we came to the south 2nd Ring Road, where we had been walking for many times.

Seeing the rolling traffic and the rush of pedestrians, my heart began to fly to the oasis far away in the sky.

I don't know where my emotional destination is, is it in that oasis? What will happen if I choose like this? Is it possible to finally find the woman who is willing to stay with me for life

Do I love Hong Lei?

In the heart has the answer, indeed, I have the sentiment to her, the deep sentiment like tidal current submerges me.

But

Life and love are like drinking water. At the bottom of my heart, I know that Hong Lei is not the woman who can tie me down and accompany me for the rest of my life.

This, hateful love, horse riding love!

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Stop at the door of a snack bar, Hong Lei walks in, orders a bowl of wonton noodles and starts to eat.

I silently sat opposite her, a blank mind, no idea, just looking at her, eat!

After half a bowl of noodles, Hong Lei wiped her mouth with the back of her hand and asked me, "brother, I can't eat so much. Would you like some?"

Said, will pick up the empty bowl to scoop out for me.

"No

I reached out to stop her, took up the bowl Hong Lei had used, and put the remaining wonton noodles into my mouth.

Hong Lei looked at me and said, "brother, dirty..."

"Snore, snore!"

I didn't answer. I swallowed all the noodles with soup and water.

Hong Lei's eyes are bright, looking at me, full of tenderness.

"Brother, it's very kind of you. You don't think I'm dirty after eating..."

Alas, I don't know how to say that a woman in love can only see her lover's tenderness in her eyes.

Such a simple move, in Hong Lei's view, is my full love for her.

Without saying anything, I went to the front desk to check out, but the pretty and plump landlady said to me with a smile, "boy, your girlfriend is so beautiful. I seldom see such a beautiful girl in our shop How lucky you are

I smile, mouth crack than cry also ugly.

With my hands in my pants pocket, I cuddle with Hong Lei's shoulder and listen to her talk about what happened in this period of time.

Her father has arranged all matters for studying abroad, and Lei Lifeng has bought a ticket for Hong Lei.

This time, even her uncle, who had been standing on her side, began to persuade Hong Lei, saying that since she couldn't get the love she wanted, she should not waste her youth.

I can understand that if I were Hong Lei's family, I would have tied her to a foreign country with a rope, breathing different air and starting another life in a new environment.

Following me, chasing a relationship with no result is the most stupid and absurd choice.

Stand still, under a lonely street lamp, I hold Hong Lei in my arms.

"Silly girl, let's go Your father and your uncle are right. At least it's not wise for you to spend time in Xijing now Well, I'm Jiang Feng. Follow me, you'll only be afraid again and again, so that your life will be in a mess in this kind of uneasiness... ""Brother, is that what you mean? Do you really want me to go? "

"I..."

I was silent, and Hong Lei began to cry.

On the street, I don't know which corner of Xijing belongs to, the tearing scene of men's silence and women's tears is staged again.

Cruel heart, I said, "yes, it's my idea, it's my heart!"

Pull over Hong Lei's shoulder, "Hong Lei, let's go You know, my first girlfriend, she also left me for the other side of the ocean But unlike you, I wanted her to stay, but I couldn't at all... "

"Wuwu, brother, I want to stay with you now. Why do you want to drive me away?"

"Because I don't think the choice of my first girlfriend is wrong!"

I stared at Hong Lei and said, "in a few years, she will either come back from her studies or have established herself in a certain country. In any case, her life will be 100 times better than following me

"You talk nonsense! It won't be... "

"Yes

I cried out, "Hong Lei, what am I, Jiang Feng? A small civil servant with a salary just became a full-time official, but

I realize that I can't talk to Hong Lei about what I've made a serious mistake now. It turns out, "but there's nothing. I can't afford a house in Xijing, my family is treated unfairly, and I can't do anything. I'm even in trouble, and..."

I gritted my teeth. "There's even more than one woman! Hong Lei, you say, follow me, what can you get? Say it

I seem to be crazy, and it seems that I can only vent my emotions by shouting.

Hong Lei was stunned. Although I was entangled with xiao'e's sister-in-law and LAN LAN, she knew it in her heart, but she was still surprised to hear that I accepted it face to face today.

I think maybe Hong Lei can't stand it

But, isn't there a saying, long pain is better than short pain! Now that I've decided to persuade Hong Lei to leave, I'll fight hard and take medicine together to completely cut off my love!

Maybe, this is the best choice for her and me.

The best, but the most painful.

After taking a deep breath, I stared at Hong Lei, "girl, don't be silly, you can never be my favorite woman Go ahead, let's Forget it