My alternative life

A poem taken out of context, a little game played in my childhood, has completely explained what I want to express.

After a few more words, I stood up, shaking the information in my hand, and the other side said, "you can get me a copy later. I'll take the time to study it these two days."

"Well!"

Fang Ya nodded, looked at me and said, "team Jiang, this matter bothers you..."

Seeing that Fang Ya's mood was not too high, I reached out and patted each other on the shoulder, "don't counselle, man, absolutely help! Hehe, after the last incident, I know that your department is not the one who employs people in the front and doesn't use people in the back. It won't do such a bad job! So I'll try my best this time! "

These words are really from my heart.

Because of the work of remolding prisoners' minds, I only made a substantial renovation on the basis of Fang Ya's manuscripts. Because of Zhang binshen's general network technology and the excellent effect of the analysis software developed by staying up late, I showed my face to minister Yao, who was also the director at that time.

But after that, Fang Ya didn't want to compete with me at all. Otherwise, how could the national judicial system, such as Xijing women's prison, have heard of my name Jiang Feng? If Fang Ya were to do something, with the convenience of her being in charge of this work, my name might not even be able to get out of the regulatory bureau of T city. If she did something, my achievements might be wiped out again and again in the reporting materials

From this point of view, I feel that fangya is indeed a friend to make, and it is worth helping again.

"Thank you!"

Fang Ya raised her head and looked at me vaguely. Suddenly she stretched out her arms and said, "come on, give you a reward!"

It seems that just now I said that if I want to listen to my heart's words, I must have a big hug to make a joke. Fang Ya is serious!

Four eyes opposite, I stretched out my arm, but suddenly did not have the courage, turned up and stroked, there is no messy sideburns, said with a smile, "Hey, you're too fragrant, I'm worried about what others will smell later!"

Turning around, I snapped my fingers and said, "go! go！ go！ It's gone

Turning to the door, Fang Ya murmured, "last time I was in the toilet, I saw all the people. What's wrong with a hug? Hum, coward

Immediately, my steps became fast, and I seemed to escape from this land of right and wrong.

Bang!

My heart kept beating until I closed the door.

Scolded next door's, the beauty is in trouble, the fox spirit enchants the dead person not to be worth the life

Can only howl, my emotional world has been too chaotic, really dare not provoke other women ah!

Just out of the door of fangya's office, it suddenly occurred to me that she hadn't told me how to say that joke.

Some itchy in my heart, I forced to go back to ask her about the idea, step three shake, sigh out of the office building.

Next place, I want to go back to my narrow room, the psychological counseling room specially equipped for me by the Shashan female prison!

When I came to the door, I was surprised to find that the door of the psychological counseling room was half closed, as if someone was inside.

Who would it be?

I have no secrets here, and because of its particularity, generally no one will come here.

When I pushed the door, I stood still and could hardly move.

She is sitting in front of the window in a daze, with her graceful demeanor, her half length bun on her shoulders, and her figure full of pure youth.

Heard the door ring, the other side did not look back, but the body is shivering.

With a sigh, I stepped forward, took her shoulder from behind and said, "Yao Xin, you..."

With these words, Cheng Yaoxin's shoulder suddenly shakes violently. I can feel her sobbing, but I can't hear her crying.

I want to pull Yaoxin's shoulder, but although I put a little extra force on my hand, Cheng Yaoxin didn't turn her face.

"Yao Xin, you Well, do you still have pain? "

I drew back my strength and simply stood behind her to speak.

Maybe two people don't face to face, just like now, save too embarrassed.

"No, it doesn't hurt much. I'm fine..."

Yao Xin said in a low voice, "brother Feng, I just want to stay here for a while and leave soon. It won't get in your way!"

"It doesn't matter. You can stay here as long as you want."

I hastily said, but I don't know how to continue the next topic.

After a while, Yao Xin lowered her head and said in a soft voice, "yesterday, sister Yan said I was Brother Feng, I'm too impulsive. I'm not good. I'm embarrassing you! "

My heart, more than embarrassment ah, your family Maple brother's little life almost wood, you know?

But he said, "don't be silly. No one will jump down to save you!"

Cheng Yaoxin suddenly turned around and cried to me with tears in her eyes, "no, it won't! No one will do that except you... "

See her emotional, I had to comply with, "well, only me, only Maple brother!""Brother Feng, um, um..." After a while, Yaoxin gradually calmed down and said, "tell me, do you have Yaoxin in your heart? My existence Does it make you feel particularly uncomfortable? Yao Xin is stupid. Yao Xin can't make a fool of others and has no ability. She can't help you progress like sister Yan and LAN LAN You, me, you... "

Speaking of later, crystal tears began to slide down her cheek, drop by drop, tears on her face, stinging my heart.

Those tears, like from her eyes, flow into my heart.

"Ah, silly girl."

I finally can't help holding Yaoxin in my arms, "you How can brother Feng not have you in his heart? What nonsense do you say

My nose is sore, my eyes are wet, and my throat is choked.

I tried to bear the ups and downs of my chest, stroking her hair against my chest, "Yaoxin, your kindness to me, the past that you and I went through together, that piece by piece sweet or bitter I remember it all! Do you think Jiang Feng is a wooden man? How could I be so ignorant? If I don't have you in my heart, I'm afraid there won't be anyone else! "

These words, I almost blurted out, without any brain processing or verbal modification.

Because I understand that these words represent only the true feelings for Cheng Yaoxin!

"Woo ~ ~"

Yao Xin wailed and hugged my waist, but she couldn't speak.

I was also very sad in my heart. I knew that I had answered most of the words she wanted to hear, but I never touched the core, which was also the word that Yaoxin wanted to hear most, love.

Yes, I have Yaoxin in my heart, but I think of her more as a sister than a girlfriend.

Although I also admit that I thought about further development with Yao Xin on certain nights and at certain moments, and I thought it was a good choice to be with her.

But

After all, imagination is just imagination. When I have Lanlan in my life, I begin to see other women one after another. Then I know that I and Cheng Yaoxin have gone away, and it's impossible to get together

She is like a pure white lotus, and I have already been dyed colorful by flowers and plants