My alternative life

My hand suddenly trembled, half of the ash fell on my thigh pants, so I was in a hurry to brush, and almost didn't burn a hole.

"Yao Xin, you and I, have a baby? I am

I've been a bit incoherent.

Because no matter how I guess what I want from Cheng Yaoxin's mouth, I never expect that the other party can say such things as having a baby with me.

"Brother Feng, don't be nervous..."

Yao Xin looks a little lonely, "I like you, I love you, I think not only you should feel it, but also other people in Shashan female prison can see it?"

I was dumb and couldn't answer her.

This time Yao Xin came back to Shashan female prison. This is the second time that she told me the word "love". For the first time, she stepped on the windowsill of my dormitory!

When I think back to the scene when she jumped down, I can't help shivering.

I didn't dare to stimulate each other, but after a long silence, I finally asked, "Yao Xin, I'm not a wooden man. Of course I can see and feel your affection, but Yao Xin, can you tell me what happened? Before we saw the day tired of together, you seem to have never said so sincere

I said, "what's going on?"

Yao Xin shakes her head and looks more and more ugly. After a long time, she says, "you don't have to worry about my business. This time I have to talk to brother Feng face to face, because Ah, you think I'm worried that you will be robbed by others! "

Her excuse is very poor, but I know it's useless to say more. This topic can only be stopped as soon as possible.

"It's not like having a baby. How old are you, right? What's more, our names are not right Your family can't agree. "

"Alas

Yao Xin sighed, "I knew you would say that. Brother Feng, it's just my extravagant hope to have a baby. But if I don't say it, it's always in my throat and I'll feel uncomfortable. Do you know?"

I quietly understood that having a baby with me was just Yao Xin's wish to stay with me for a long time, not that she would go back with me to make a man today.

"Brother Feng, some people's life will be arranged when they are born, and their fate is almost certain, but I don't want to be that kind of person, I don't want to!"

She stared at me, "I'm older, and now college students get married is not an individual phenomenon, I don't want to be arranged for life, I want to finish my life journey according to my own wishes, I I wish I had you all the way

Yao Xin's tears slowly fall, and my heart is also not easy.

Comparatively speaking, without considering Cheng Yaoxin's mysterious family background, she is indeed the most suitable life partner for me in terms of age, identity and willingness to follow me to the ends of the world.

In my mind, LAN LAN, Lin Fen, Yan Ran, Mo Zhi Wu, Chen Hui, Hong Lei, sister-in-law xiao'e and sister ru

In the heart some startles, specially, when I unexpectedly provoke these many peach blossom?

But I also admit that Cheng Yaoxin is the most suitable girl for me.

So, in the tears of men and women, I raised my hand to gently wipe away the tears for Yaoxin, and said in a soft voice, "silly girl, you are very good It's not you, it's me! Alas, brother Feng is not worthy of you! Yao Xin, you are like a piece of white paper that is clean enough not to be stained with dust, while I have been scarred by crayons and ink for a long time Yao Xin, I'm in a hurry today. I have to tell you that there have been several women in my life! "

"Yes?" Yao Xin asked me with her eyes. Her eyes flickered. She seemed to be afraid, but she insisted on knowing what this "you" meant.

"It's just Had sex! "

I was so cruel that I didn't dare to look at her and finally said these words.

"Wuwuwuwu ~ ~"

Yao Xin cried again and cried out directly, but I could only be upset and smoke.

But more than ten seconds later, the cry suddenly stopped, "Maple, brother maple, and then? You, who are you married to? "

"No!" I shook my head.

"Oh..."

Yao Xin sighed, "I can say that although I care a lot, will I not care?"

"But..."

I feel like I'm committing a crime while biting my teeth, but I still think that long-term pain is better than short-term pain. I have to have a showdown with Cheng Yaoxin. Otherwise, it's really harmful for her to read to her.

"But I still have that relationship with at least three women!"

Looking up, I met Yao Xin's pitiful eyes, hurt her and hurt me, saying, "sex It's not a relationship

Yao Xin was stunned.

Wooden as a statue, like Rodin's famous broken arm Venus sculpture.

However, her eyes are more empty, it seems that in a moment has abandoned the soul.

My heart is also twisted and burning in this moment.

To refuse the love of a girl who loves me deeply is already a move to trample on the dignity of the other party, and to take the most extreme way is to insert a sharp knife on this trample.After a while, maybe dozens of seconds, maybe a few minutes, Yaoxin looked back at me again and asked stubbornly, "if I recognize it! What if I don't mind you having that relationship with them? "

"Yao Xin..."

I called her name, but I couldn't go on.

Tears have been rolling down my cheeks and cheeks. Her words remind me of the compromises I made to my first love girlfriend Lin Fen again and again. I told her again and again how I would be as long as she could stay. I recognized being despised by her relatives, despised by some rich children in her middle school and primary school, and even worked hard Four or five jobs at the same time

In those days, I was so similar to Yao Xin now!

We are all in for their love step by step to reduce the bottom line, step by step to throw away the dignity of life, but In the end, I still can't get it!

Holding out my hand, I hugged Yao Xin, who was also crying, and murmured, "silly girl, you are so stupid..."

…

My conversation with Yao Xin has finally come to nothing.

I didn't have the shame to accept each other's love, so I tied Yao Xin's pure maiden heart to me.

But I can't bear to hurt her any more!

What about Yao Xin?

Do you have to kneel down, hold my leg and beg me?

Life, there are always some infatuated men and women, they do not know how to give up can not get or difficult to get love, but finally because of the soft heart, and sad for a long time.

Finally, I just said, "Yao Xin, we are all young now. First, you should get your diploma and look at the boys around you to find their advantages Maybe, you will meet a better and more suitable person than Jiang Feng Don't talk, just listen to me! I also promise you, at least I won't marry anyone until the relationship between you and me is not settled, is that ok? "