My Beastly Husband

Complicated Train Of Thoughts

Translated by Ada

Edited by Ada

Ryan looked at her but did not say anything. Tian Xin panicked even more. She hugged his waist tightly, her legs clung to him firmly, and said with a choked voice, “When I was five years old, my parents died in an accident. My grandparents raised me. When I was ten years old, my grandmother also got sick and died, so I was left to live with my grandfather. Grandpa worked hard to run the Chinese medicine clinic to pay for my education.

It was easy for me to graduate from college, so I could inherit my grandfather’s Chinese medicine clinic. I wanted to be filial to him in the future and let him live out his old age in peace. But I never thought I would come to this world when I went to the mountains to collect medicine. I am so worried that grandpa will grow old alone and there will be no one around to take care of him. So, I must go back, Ryan. Ryan, forgive me. I am not cruel. I really have no choice. Wait for me, will you? I will come back. Will you wait for me?”

This was her first time telling others about her life. She had never told her best friend. She didn’t want others to pity her. Even if she didn’t have parents, she had her grandfather, who gave her all his love. So she was still happy and strong.

Ryan seemed to understand what she said, but the emotional dilemma in her heart made him very heartbroken. He could not help but sigh and gently wipe away the teardrops at the corners of her eyes with his fingers and said softly, “Don’t worry, I will not take a new partner. I will keep the baby and raise her. When are you leaving?”

Tian Xin froze at the words. She was very touched and looked at Ryan, gritted her teeth, and said ruthlessly, “After three days.” She had to force herself to leave quickly. Otherwise, she was afraid that the more she got along with the baby, the more she would be reluctant to leave.

Ryan nodded, not saying anything. He got up and went to help her prepare for the journey. There was nothing to prepare, but he had to get some air; otherwise, he was afraid he would lose his temper and shed tears.

Tian Xin used the three days to say goodbye to Moussa and the female orcs in the village, begging them to take more care of Tian Tian and to give the herbal packs she made to everyone as a parting gift.

The village’s female orcs were unfamiliar with Tian Xin because she came for a short time. She was pregnant not long after, and Ryan was around her all day, so they did not have much chance to get in touch with her. When they heard that she was leaving, they were astonished and asked a few curious questions. Tian Xin was evasive and refused to elaborate, so they stopped asking questions and politely said they would help take care of Tian Tian.

Moussa was very sorry for her decision to leave, but people have their own will. Since she wanted to go, she could not stop her. She promised to take good care of Tian Tian, so Tian Xin relaxed a little.

On the fourth day, early in the morning, Tian Xin and Ryan held Tian Tian as the family of three went on the road. Tian Tian appeared to have felt the anger between her parents and was very well behaved. She did not cry or make a fuss but kept her big eyes open as she looked back and forth between her parents.

Tian Xin looked at her daughter’s pink face. She had a complicated train of thought and was doomed to be a cruel mother. I’m sorry, baby. Forgive mommy. Mommy had a hard time. Don’t blame mommy.