My beautiful boss and I

"You are tormenting yourself, you are abusing yourself, you are tormenting yourself." I said.

"I will." She said.

"I know your heart is very painful." I said.

"I..."

"Do you know how bitter and painful my heart is? Do you know how many sleepless nights I have because of you? Do you know how many times I think of you when I am with Haizhu? " My voice trembled.

"I'm sorry I'm sorry Her eyes began to turn red again, with painful eyes.

"Even, I'm with Haizhu When I do that, I will suddenly think of you. When I think of you, I will... " I couldn't speak any more. My throat suddenly choked.

"I'm sorry It's all my fault. It's all my fault. " Autumn Tong full face of guilt, murmured.

"No, you're not wrong. It's me who's wrong. It's this son of a bitch's reality It's this motherfucker's world. "

"No, you are not wrong, the reality is not wrong, the world is not wrong, wrong, just me I should never have been in your life, in your air. " She said: "for you, I really don't know what to do except to say I'm sorry I can only deeply sorry for you, sorry for Haizhu From the beginning, our understanding was a mistake, a tragic mistake What we shouldn't know at all, even in the air, is a mistake. "

My heart was full of love and sorrow. Looking at Qiutong, I said, "I I want to tell you, I want to tell you outside the air I I love you... "

At this moment, I finally said three words that I had been depressed for a long time.

Her body trembled, her hands trembled, staring at me.

"I love you You are the only woman I love most in the world, the one I can't get rid of in my soul I said.

Her eyes suddenly red again, looking at me

"Tell me, you love me too You only love one man in your heart, that is Yeke in the air, Yike in reality I hold her hand.

Her hands were trembling, still cold.

She looked at me silently for a moment and shook her head gently: "sorry, I can't tell you I can't Yike in the air has disappeared, disappeared in my dream paradise. In reality, Yike is my best friend. I will deeply bless him and wish him peace, happiness and happiness But I and Yike in reality can only be two parallel lines that will never interweave No matter how close you are, you will never reach it. "

With that, Qiu Tong gently took out his hand and drank up a glass of wine. His eyes were sad.

I also drank all the wine in the cup, and my heart was full of great bitterness and sadness, as well as suffocating depression and loss

We silently looked at each other, speechless.

We had another drink and kept silent

She seems to have drunk a little too much, and her face is a little red.

And I, also have some wine, although I don't drink much, but, wine is not drunk, everyone is drunk.

"I love you..." I said.

She pressed her lips tightly.

"Say you love me..." I said stubbornly.

She lowered her head, did not speak, her body trembled slightly

"Say you love me..." I said again, the voice was sour, bitter and dry.

She looked up at me with begging eyes: "please Don't make me Don't

Although we all have a drink, but she seems to be a bit sober, still refused to relax the final bottom line.

I didn't speak. I stood up and walked behind her, putting my hands on her shoulders.

She sat there motionless, and her body continued to tremble slightly

My hand caresses her face, fingers gently slide on her face skin and features, gently caressing her delicate cheek

Suddenly she caught my hand with her hand, shaking all over.

I bowed my head and kissed her hair. It smelled good.

Then I put my mouth close to her ear and whispered, "I love you..."

"No No Don't say that Her confused voice.

"I know that you love me, too, very much Whether it's in the air or in reality. " I continued to whisper, and the stimulation of alcohol made my blood flow faster.

"No No... " She murmured, shaking violently.

I feel her face is very hot.

I felt her body start to heat up.

It seems to have encouraged me.

My brain suddenly burst out a burst of irresistible and irrepressible impulse. Without thinking, I suddenly picked her up --

"ah --" she exclaimed. Before she could speak, my mouth was blocked by my mouth.

Without hesitation, I held Qiutong tightly and strode upstairs to her bedroom——Qiutong struggled and made a flustered voice: "don't You don't want to Put me down Put it down... "

I hugged her tightly and continued to walk upstairs, silent and hot.

I went into the bedroom and laid her flat on the bed. Without waiting for her to get up, I pressed her up

Her throat gave out a rapid and vague voice, and her hands waved wildly in front of my chest, trying to push me away.

I held her down and looked at her.

She looked at me helplessly and powerlessly, and asked, "please, don't do this Let me go... "

I gently shook my head: "no - I don't."

"You I We... " She spoke intermittently, incoherently.

"Say you love me..." I lowered my head and whispered in her ear.

"No Don't make me Don't She made a weak voice, with extreme pain and panic.

"Say You love me... " I said.

"Please Don't make me I I... "

I stopped talking, and suddenly I kissed her again.

I started the next step

She suddenly began to struggle, struggling very decisively, I can not restore her body to the original position and state.

"No No Never No It can't be like this. We You can't do that. " She cried in dismay, shrinking to the head of the bed.

I was stunned and looked at her.

She curled up at the head of the bed and saw my excited brother Zhu. Her face became more frightened and turned red.

I knelt there and looked at her.

She covered her face with her hands and said sadly, "I'm sorry We can't We can't repeat our mistakes. "

"You are torturing yourself, you are deceiving yourself." My voice is a little hoarse, I suddenly feel very sad, my tears suddenly flow out.

"I'm sorry Sorry Don't make me I really can't I really can't She cried again, very sad, and her shoulders shrugged.

Hearing her cry, my heart softened, and at the same time I felt sad, I felt infinite pity.

I know that this time I'm finished, and I'm on the verge of success.

Her eyes were full of pain. She suddenly hugged my body and buried her face in my arms. Her body convulsed violently

She began to cry, silent but violent.

The more silent she cried, the more painful my heart was.

I patted her on the back with my hand and whispered in her ear, "if you want to cry, just cry out I know your heart is very painful and depressed Cry, cry, cry. "

She stopped crying and was silent in my arms.

With a deep sigh, I dried my tears and bowed down to kiss her hair.

She slowly left my arms, I handed the tissue.

She dried her tears with a tissue, then got out of bed and went into the bathroom.

I sit on the edge of the bed, light a cigarette and smoke silently

After a while, she came out. Her hair was combed and her clothes were arranged, and her look returned to normal.

She sat silently on the sofa at the head of the bed and looked at me with extreme uneasiness and melancholy in her eyes.

"Just now I I've gone too far. " I said.

She lowered her head.

"I know I shouldn't I know what I'm doing. I know it's not right I went on, a little lost and low.

She looked up at me.

I watched her silently.

"I I don't blame you... " She said softly.

My heart trembled.

"I I understand your impulse just now, I understand what you just did However, I should not do that and indulge myself I just indulged myself I really shouldn't, my indulgence encouraged you, so I don't blame you, I blame you

"I was wrong I keep telling myself not to make mistakes, but I always can't control myself, I always have to make mistakes again and again on the verge of collapse I really I really can't forgive myself. " She said incoherently, with deep guilt and uneasiness in her voice, and lowered her head.

"No You are not wrong If someone must be wrong, it's me too... " A little sad in my voice.

She raised her head and looked at me silently. For a moment, she shook her head gently.

"Don't say Forget about it She said.

I took a good puff on my cigarette.

"We Go down. " She stood up.

I put out my cigarette end, stood up and looked at her.

She looked at me with clear and bright eyes, and then said, "I'm sorry I'm making you miserable Your body must be suffering at the moment. "I breathed deeply. At this moment, my body is not suffering any more, and my desire is gone, but my soul is in great pain, which is far greater than the pain caused by my body's desire not being vented.

"Thank you..." She suddenly said something that I couldn't touch.

I don't know what she means by that. I don't know what she's thanking me for. Could it be that Xie I just gave her a kind of intimate feeling from physiology and psychology that she had never had before?

Yes, she never felt it. She and I didn't feel it that night in Dandong.

She didn't feel it, but I did more than once. Although not with her, but I know the taste of pleasure.

I felt another pain in my heart. Looking at her, I opened my arms and said softly, "come here I'll hold you... "

She hesitated and looked at me.

"Come here." I said, a little sad in my voice and a little pleading in my eyes.

She didn't speak and came slowly.

I slowly took her into my arms.

I gently held her body and stroked her hair.

"Put your arms around my waist." I whispered in her ear.

She stopped, then put her arms around my waist.