My beautiful boss and I

"Why Plum, don't push me, OK? Maybe I'll tell you later, but now I can't say it. Don't force me Li Shun's voice was helpless.

Naturally, Li Shun can't tell the existence of Qiutong now. It will stimulate Zhang Mei and make everyone uneasy. I continue to analyze Li Shun's psychology.

Zhang Mei sighed: "well, I won't force you Ah Shun, in fact, I hope you can live happily. When we are together, what I most want to see is that you are happy. Your happiness is my greatest joy. "

"Plum, I'm very content with your words. I've never regretted knowing you. I haven't regretted it until now. I didn't mistake you at the beginning!" Li Shun said.

Zhang Mei was silent, and so was Li Shun.

I was just about to leave when I heard Zhang Mei say, "Ah Shun, do you know? Over the years, I often think of our children Our daughter If she were alive, she would be over seven now. "

"Plum..."

"Ever since I saw you, ever since I came to the golden triangle with you, this kind of missing has become more intense. Every night, whenever I finish skating, whether I open my eyes or close my eyes, it seems that I can see our daughter She is so beautiful, so lively and lovely, she is shaking in front of my eyes, sweet smile, sweet call Mom and dad

Zhang Mei began to sob: "Ah Shun, do you know how I feel at this time? My heart is really a knife in general, my pain at this time, you can imagine it? How I miss our daughter, how I want to hold her and hear her call me mom. "

"Plum..." Li Shun's voice began to tremble again.

"But, I know, it's all illusions, it's all illusions. I can only see my daughter in the illusions after skating and hear her call me mom." Zhang Mei choked and said: "when I miss my daughter, I can't help but want to go skating. I want to be immersed in the illusion of happiness. Unconsciously, I become addicted. I can't do without the temptation brought by this illusion The more I skate, the more I miss my daughter. The more I miss her, the more I can't live without the illusion of meth. "

Hearing this, my heart twitches violently. I can understand Zhang Mei's mood as a mother at this time. I think, as Xiaoxue's father, Li Shun can also understand.

I heard a heavy sigh from Li Shun. It seems that Li Shun's mood at this time is extremely complicated. On the one hand, he is suffering for Zhang Mei's mood, on the other hand, he has to consider other aspects.

At present, Li Shun is determined not to tell Zhang Mei the truth, is determined not to let Zhang Mei know that Xiaoxue still lives in this world, and in the sea of stars.

At this time, Li Shun's heart seems to be tender, but it is also Iron-blooded, it seems to be cold and hard.

Half a day later, I heard Li Shunnan say: "in terms of our present situation, our present situation, our present state, two addicts like us, you say, if the child is here, will she feel happy to see us now? Would she recognize us as parents? How can we be her parents? "

Zhang Mei said for a long time: "maybe your words are reasonable People like us, as we are now, do not deserve to be parents of children We don't deserve it. "

Then they were silent again.

Half a day later, I heard Zhang Mei say, "Ah Shun, let me tell you something."

"Well..."

"Before you came to pick me up, Ike sent me to the drug treatment center. On the way, I saw a mother and daughter playing in the roadside square. When I saw them, I couldn't help thinking of my daughter. If our daughter is still alive, she should be as old as that girl. The girl is very beautiful and lovely, her mother is amazing beautiful, their mother and daughter together, is so harmonious, so warm.

"Somehow, I always feel that our daughter should be the same as that girl. When I hallucinate, when I sleep and dream, it's the girl that I dream about I feel as if she is my daughter, our daughter looks like that For so long, I have always clearly remembered the girl's appearance, the mother and daughter's appearance. " Zhang Mei murmured.

"They The mother and daughter are What does it look like? " Li Shun stammered.

Zhang Mei then gave Li Shun a detailed description of Qiu Tong and Xiao Xue.

After listening to Zhang Mei, Li Shun didn't make a sound for a long time. I don't know what he was thinking at this time.

"God, do evil To do evil... " For a long time, I heard Li Shun's pathetic voice.

"Ah Shun, what's the matter with you?" Zhang Mei said.

"Not much It's nothing. " Li Shun's voice.

"Well, let's not talk about sad things Let's look ahead. Life will continue after all. " Zhang Mei said: "we can be together now, in fact, the most should thank a person, that is Yike, without him, there will be no reunion of us!"

"Yes, we won't meet again without Ike I just don't know if I should thank him or not... " Li Shunnan said: "I don't know what he brought to me. I don't know whether he brings me rebirth or destruction. ""How can you say that?" Zhang Mei's unhappy voice: "of course you should thank him. What he brings you is me. I am the one who makes you reborn!"

Li Shun uttered a bitter smile.

"I don't know if I should say something." Zhang Mei said again.

"You said Li Shun said.

"I don't think Ike should be in our circle." Zhang Mei said.

"What do you mean by that?" Li Shun said.

"What I mean is that Yi Ke should belong to normal society and officialdom. He shouldn't join us in the underworld. We don't live the life of normal people. If you pull him into your circle, you will actually harm him. If you mix with us like this, you will ruin his officialdom future and his life So, I want to tell you, you'd better let him go, let him return to his normal life, and don't let him mix with us again. " Zhang Mei said.

When I heard Zhang Mei's words, I couldn't help feeling hot.

"You shut up!" Li Shun's voice suddenly became severe: "it's not what you should say, it's not what you should be in charge of. It's a man's business. What's your opinion about a woman's family? What do you mix? What's your nonsense? What do you know? "

"You -"

"I tell you, in this case, you are not allowed to say" you - you are a rude and overbearing bandit! " Zhang Mei said.

"Hey, you're right. I'm rude and overbearing. I'm a big bandit, but I'm a big bandit who has feelings, righteousness and righteousness. I'll never treat Yike badly. Of course, the premise is that he should be loyal to me." Li Shun said with a smile, "do you know what is the relationship between Yike and me now?"

"What's the relationship?" Zhang Mei said.

"It's a friend of life and death, it's helping each other in the same boat, it's sharing weal and woe, it's closely related, it's inseparable from life and death!" Li Shun said.

"Scared - life and death are inseparable, you two are good friends!" Zhang Mei said.

"What did you say?" Li Shun's voice suddenly became a little sharp.

"Look at your posture. You want to eat people?" Zhang Mei said: "I'm just using a metaphor at will Of course, I know that Ike has a wife. Of course, I know that you are not base friends. What do you want to do? I'm just saying that you're not using the right metaphor. Can you react so strongly? Damn - "

Li Shun was silent for a long time and said," I'm tired. I'm too tired at this time. I want to have a good sleep. "

"Well, then you have a rest, big bandit, big commander, black boss!" Zhang Mei said helplessly and dejectedly: "Damn, I'm gone. I won't disturb you. The bandit leader has a rest."

"Don't forget to warn you just now." Li Shun said.

"Why the hell do you call my mother Hum... " Zhang Mei responded, and at the same time, she heard the sound of walking at the door.

I am busy and leave quietly

Back in the room, lying on the bed, thinking about the conversation between Zhang Mei and Li Shun, I felt a lot of emotion.

It seems that I feel that behind Li Shun's big grin, his heart is very tangled. He has an unspeakable complex that can't be put down and untied.

Zhang Mei, too.

They are so, why am I not?

Countless times tell yourself: to learn to put down, put down unrealistic expectations, put down the perseverance without results. In fact, sometimes life does not need so much meaningless persistence, no matter what you lose, do not lose a good mood. Don't care too much about your belongings, but walk the road under your feet. Life is not perfect, happiness is not a hundred, know that they do not have the ability to have so much, why ask so much

Although so said, but, really can put down so easily? Can you really make it easy for yourself?

It seems that my life, to go a lot of roads, there are straight road, there are sheep's intestines; there are prosperous, there are desolate.

It seems that in any case, no matter what kind of road, all rely on their own to go, bitter to eat, no one can give all dependence.

It seems that there is no so-called no way to go in this world. Even if I trudge alone and stick to loneliness, as long as I am willing to go, what I have stepped on is the road.

It seems that if I think I can't get past it, I can only look back after crossing it.

It seems that the future will come only if we do not evade or shrink back.

It's just that I don't know what my future is like.

I thought about it, tossed and turned, and fell asleep for a long time