My beautiful boss and I

"You need to calm down Have a good sleep. There's nothing left. Everything will be fine. " Qiutong looked at me with concern.

I gave Qiutong a smile: "if I have nightmares in the middle of the night, you have to take care of me I'm so scared. "

"Puff - puff -" Qiu Tong was amused by my appearance: "you guy, don't make fun of me."

Qiutong and I are still next to each other. I put down my luggage and take out Qiutong's clothes from my travel bag to Qiutong. Qiutong has bought another travel bag on Nanjing Road.

"Hungry or not?" I look at Qiutong.

"What about you?" Qiu Tong said as he packed his clothes

"I'm a little hungry!" I said: "there is a Qingdao potstickers shop near the hotel."

"OK - let's go and have a taste of Qingdao's famous food." Qiu Tong said.

After packing clothes, Qiu Tong and I went downstairs to eat.

Walking in the lobby of the hotel, the feeling of someone at the back comes again. I suddenly stop and turn around. In a trance, I seem to see a familiar figure flash to the post of the lobby. When I look at it, I see nothing.

"What's the matter?" Qiu Tong asked me.

I didn't speak, suddenly strode to the pillars of the lobby, walked over, walked around, and didn't see anything.

I can't help but reach out and knock on my head, malgobi. What the hell?

Qiu Tong came over and looked at me with worried eyes: "Yi Ke, are you ok?"

I looked at the worried expression of xiaqiutong and laughed: "it's OK, I'll be damned It's all right. Let's go. "

"How do I feel like you're lost? Is it true that you have lost your soul and need to find a great immortal to call for it? " Qiu Tong said after me.

"What's the name? What's the name I think you are a fairy If you want to, you can call it for me. " I said.

Qiutong suddenly walked in front of me, turned and stopped. I stopped and looked at Qiutong: "why?"

Qiutong looked a little divine and serious. She looked at me with two eyes and said softly: "Yi Keyo Come back Yi Ke yo Come back

I almost can't help laughing, this autumn Tung, really when the immortal, give me soul.

Looking at Qiutong's serious look, I responded: "Qiutong, I'm back Qiu Tong, I'm back. "

So called several times, I finally couldn't help laughing, but Qiutong didn't smile, looked at me with reproachful eyes: "I give you soul, what do you laugh at? It's not serious. "

"Ah Well, well, my soul is back. I'm cured. It's OK. Let's go. " I said.

"Really?" Qiutong looks at me.

"Really I said.

As a result, we continued to go out. Although I still vaguely felt that someone was following me, in order not to cause any trouble to Qiutong, I still persevered and didn't look back. I really felt that I might be a little neurotic.

After eating the potstickers, Qiutong and I went back to our respective rooms in the hotel. After taking a bath, I took out my laptop, turned it on and went online.

It's 11 o'clock in the evening. I don't know if it's a dream or not.

I login button button, she is not, but there is a message, look at the time, is a few days ago.

"Hakka At this moment, in the dead of night, I sit alone in front of the computer, tasting wine alone, and silently looking at the lonely moon in the night sky At this moment, my mood is suddenly very bad, suddenly very bad, my heart is suddenly very tired, suddenly very bitter, I suddenly burst into tears

Seeing this, my heart shrinks.

"I am very tired, my heart is so tired, so bitter I know why I am so tired. I know the real reason why my heart is suffering Because, for a long time, there has been something bothering me I always feel that there is a kind of gratitude, tired, tired; there is a kind of hope, very bitter, very bitter. "

I clenched my teeth and continued to look down.

"When I was in tears again, when I gave up again, I knew that the initial acceptance buried today's misery and fatigue. If the time can turn back, I would rather give up what I have today. If the time can turn back, I would rather not accept any funding from anyone. I can't bear the sorrow and fatigue of repaying kindness, the hope and disappointment of others, and the promise I made.

"The promise is sincere, only in a kind of environment, a kind of mentality, that kind of promise is true from the heart. However, however, many years later, however, when time moves forward, however, when the balance is broken, many things seem to be out of balance. Suddenly, I feel that my gratitude seems to be worthless, and my gratitude has no meaning and value

"I'm not what I was yesterday. So, then, the cool autumn, lonely empty night, I once again tears. I know that I may have hurt others, and I know that others have hurt me as well. When a phone call asked me, why don't you care about it? When a man accused me of disobedience and incomprehension, I was speechless. Recognize your destiny. What else can I do besides saying these three words powerlessly?"Yes, I received help from others at the beginning. Yes, I was reborn in their financial support yesterday. Yes, I had such a repaying mentality. Yes, I swore to be kind to all those who helped me. But, but, I still tears, I'm still very tired, very tired. If I want to accept yesterday's subsidy at today's cost, I would rather give up today and everything I have now. Just, time can't go back, never go back

"In fact, I know that crying doesn't mean I give in; taking a step back doesn't mean I give up; letting go doesn't mean I give up; smiling doesn't mean I'm happy People always like to verify other people's promises to themselves, but rarely to verify their own promises to themselves.

"Time can't go back. I know, everything can't go back. I want to treat others well, I want to understand others well, and I want to cherish others' kindness to me. However, I'm still full of tears. However, I'm really tired... "

Seeing this, I can't help but burst into tears. I know that this is a dream of floating life, and I can't help but reveal her inner truth. No one can tell her tiredness and suffering, and she can only tell me here. She is not a God or a perfect person. She also has her own inner entanglement, her own contradictory thinking, and her own true feelings.

I suddenly waved my head, threw a tear, with a faint pain in my heart, lit a cigarette and tasted the taste of nicotine silently

I looked at the lonely night sky, looking at the stars in the deep night sky, my heart could not help flying out, flying to the next door.

Next door, my dream is there, crying dream is there.

I want to go to her side, comfort her, comfort her, with my fiery warmth and Jiqing to heal her inner trauma.

However, this is impossible, everything is just a fantasy.

My heart is so sad and sour that I can't bear it

For a long time: "chirp --" the little penguin was greeting. When I saw it, it was like a dream.

"Hakka What are you doing

"Well Just finished reading your message. "

"Oh I'm sorry to make you in a bad mood That's some of my inner feelings I couldn't help writing down when I was suddenly in a low mood the other night I don't know why, suddenly I have a lot to say to you, so I wrote It's affecting your mood. I'm sorry. I won't talk about it in the future. "

"No, if you dream, don't say these things. I like to see what you say in your heart. If you have something in your heart, you have to say it. Don't accumulate in your heart. No matter how much you accumulate, no matter how sad you are, don't deposit it in your heart. If you want to say it, other people are not suitable. You can say it to me. I'm willing to listen to it. I hope to share your happiness, your sadness and taste it with you Your joy, your depression. "

"Hakka, it's very kind of you Thank you... " She said.

"I'm not good You're good. "

"Ha ha Hakka, don't be influenced by what I said just now. Will you smile? "

I sent a smile.

"Hee hee Well Just smile I hope you are happy every day. "

"Well..."

"In fact, Hakka, I know that I should not put the source of pain on the outside world. I know that all the pain in life comes from the negative energy I receive. Angry, because they are not generous enough; depressed, because they are not open-minded enough; anxiety, because they are not calm enough; sad, because they are not strong enough; melancholy, because they are not sunny enough; jealousy, because they are not good enough.

"For me, I can't make myself perfect, I can only try my best to adapt myself to all this To bear all this Thanks to the sad and lost days, I am grateful that I have to give up or choose my life, so that I can't help trying to evolve into a better myself

I silently looked at the words floating like a dream and sighed gently.

Vaguely, as if, next door also came a slight sigh.

We were all silent for a while.

There are some things that we can't understand when we are young, and we are no longer young when we understand

life is always imperfect, there are always bitter tears, there are always regrets for mistakes, there are always deep resentments, and there are always regrets.

Life is also perfect, always let people laugh in tears, regret in epiphany, resentment in possession of joy, hate in love.

Perhaps, to see whether life is perfect, we should ignore those imperfections and enlarge those possible perfection. As long as the world is perfect, maybe the world is perfect.

Perhaps, what people should cultivate is just a heart that loves the world.

And this point, Qiutong no doubt do very hard, very good, although she is not perfect, but she is trying to pursue perfection. Although she is not perfect, but in my eyes, in my heart, she has been so perfect.

It suddenly reminds me of a sentence: sometimes, you have to fall to the bottom you have never experienced before to stand on the peak you have never reached again.

This is true of career. Is it true of life, ideal and emotion?I'm thinking about