My beautiful boss and I

All of a sudden, I feel a sense of pressure and panic. I know what Haizhu's eyes are transmitting to me at this moment. I know what she needs at this moment. Similarly, the instinct in my body is also rising. I also know what I want.

However, I think of the previous two times and Haizhu's failure in my heart. The collapse before the outbreak made me palpitating and made me panic. I'm afraid that this time I'll do it again, and I'll become a fan at the moment when I reach the climax.

I can't help hesitating in fear and hesitation

However, I know that I have to go through this hurdle, and this problem must be solved by myself. I can't tell Haizhu the real reason for her mess.

I adjusted my mind, took a deep breath, and decided to try again. This time, I must succeed, not fail.

I put my arm around Haizhu's neck, lowered my head and kissed her lips

Climax gradually receded, I lay on Haizhu, motionless, after climax, my heart suddenly had a sad, a void, a loss, a sad.

Haizhu didn't say anything inappropriate at the critical moment this time, because I sealed her mouth, which is the key to success this time. But next time? Do you have to use this method every time? Is it normal to do that perfectly every time?

I lie on Haizhu in silence, suddenly feel powerless, and my heart is empty

For a long time, Haizhu whispered in my ear: "brother, you are brave, like a tiger, just now I was almost crushed by you. "

The sound of Haizhu brings great satisfaction and happiness.

I didn't speak. I laughed silently, but I wanted to cry

I feel that I am a tragedy. I feel that my so-called success in doing that is a great tragedy.

Late at night, Haizhu with a happy smile lying in my arms into a sweet dream.

I opened my eyes wide and looked at the boundless darkness. I didn't feel sleepy. I finally succeeded in doing that, and finally I could give Haizhu a qualified answer. However, I had no joy to speak of. The sense of sadness in my heart kept pouring out. It seemed that my body and soul were gradually degenerating into an abyss

In the dark night, I think hard alone. Perhaps, the most painful part of my life is the period between letting go and not letting go. Now, I'm at this stage.

Perhaps, if you really decide to give up, on the contrary, there will be a sense of relief. Since then, pain and love are deeply buried in my heart. However, even if I told myself many times to give up and accept the reality, my soul is always tangled and unwilling to submit.

Is life really like this? It's hard to avoid pain and injury. No matter whether it's grasped or gone, those things can't leave me? Is it true that some things can't be looked back, some memories can't be sorted out, and some people can only be buried forever?

My weak body, accompanied by my tangled soul, lingers in the agony of suffering, never sleeps at night.

At this time, I did not expect that my trip to ningzhou with Qiutong would soon set off an uproar.

After going to work the next day, I finished my work and drove directly to the fishing village in Jinshitan to find Li Shun.

The landlord is not at home, Li shunzheng sitting alone in the yard drinking tea and smoking, seems very leisurely.

Seeing me, Li Shun's eyes brightened. He waved me to sit down and handed me a cigarette: "give me a report on the achievements of your southern tour."

I lit a cigarette and took two puffs. Then I told Li Shun about the situation I had heard about in ningzhou this time, and I briefly talked about the chase of Qin Qiutong and me. I didn't give any details.

After hearing this, Li Shun kept silent for a long time and kept smoking.

I don't say anything.

After a while, Li Shun raised his head and said in a hoarse voice: "it seems that I am in two fronts now Bai Laosan had been there for a long time. Ningzhou had internal backwater. The former allies had become enemies Lao Tzu is going to fight on the South and North lines at the same time. The second battlefield has been opened up. "

I look at Li Shun and don't talk.

"Yike, do you think it's better for me to attack the two fronts at the same time, or to attack one by one and defend the other? Or, at the same time, defense Which of the three strategies do you think is most suitable for the current situation? " Li Shun looks at me.

"You're the boss. You're the only one who can decide this You has the final say. " I said.

"Bullshit, of course, I'm in charge. Now I want to hear your opinion?" Li Shun said.

I took a puff of smoke: "if I say that Bai Laosan hasn't jumped out for the time being, at least he hasn't publicly started a large-scale war with you. It's not appropriate to take the initiative to attack him at this time. Moreover, he may not know much about the contradictions between you and your opponents in the South

"Because of this, at this time, if you have an open conflict with the south, will the north and the South join hands to deal with you? In this way, you will be more difficult So, I think, don't attack on the north line. For the south line, it's better to wait and see what's going on. Sometimes, the best attack is defense. "After listening to me, Li Shun pondered for a long time and said, "defense and counterattack What you said is very reasonable, but I can't wait. I can't take revenge for my brother's revenge. The second son and the fifth child can't die in vain. If I wait like this, the situation behind me may be good for me. It's just that after killing the second son and the fifth child on the south line, everyone will be happy. The big thing will turn into a small one, and the small thing will turn into a small one. The one who was sent to supervise and handle the case is afraid of taking responsibility for his own mistakes And report up perfunctorily, press this matter down to finish. In this way, it is undoubtedly beneficial to me and the boss of ningzhou police. He and I are the biggest beneficiaries of the death of Erzi and Xiaowu.

"But how can I accept it in my heart? Ike, you know what? That's the life of my two brothers. Are they gone? My brother, who followed me through life and death, died unjustly. Li Shun didn't care. This is not in line with Li Shun's personality. How can I face other brothers? How can I get along in the future I'm not the third white man. I can't do this The second son and the fifth child can't die in vain. I have to pay for this revenge. Now I have to pay for it. "

Li Shun's words touched me a little. Although Li Shun is a leader of the underworld who has committed many crimes, he still has hot brotherhood and persistent loyalty in the world. Regardless of the right and wrong of what he has done, and regardless of the justice and evil of what he has done, he should be a famous man with enough brotherhood and affection!

I said, "in that case, what are you going to do?"

"Start the vengeance procedure immediately. I'm going to go south and gather my brothers to attack all the way." Li Shun said without hesitation: "blood debt should be paid with blood. I've decided. I've thought about it. No one can stop me Whoever dares to stop me, I'll turn against anyone, including you... " Li Shun was staring at me.

Looking at Li Shun's blood red eyes and listening to Li Shun's vicious voice, I know that at the moment, I can't stop Li Shun. Hatred has filled his whole brain. Hatred has made him in a state of crazy impulse. He is going to attack the south line recklessly.

And I clearly realize that at the moment, Li Shun's attack under the crazy impulse is likely to be self destruction, self destruction and hitting the stone with the egg. The people in the south line are on high alert at this time, and they are ready for Li Shun's counterattack, waiting for Li Shun to go south to attack.

At that time, once Li Shun attacks rashly, he is likely to be caught in one net. Not only can he not avenge himself, but he also gives his own and his subordinates' lives in vain. He will be destroyed by his opponent in the name of blackmail. Even more people will be affected

I can't help thinking of Qiutong and Xiaoxue

Of course, Li Shun's action may also have another result, that is, revenge for the second son and the fifth child. However, Li Shun is bound to be hard to protect himself. If the police boss is killed or double disciplined, Li Shun is bound to be involved.

The best outcome of this is to lose both sides.

This is not the best policy.

However, at the moment, in the face of crazy Li Shun, how to dissuade and persuade him? If I try to stop him, he will really turn against me.

I was smoking and looking at Li Shun

I feel vaguely that a bloody battle between former allies and a fierce fight between "police" and bandits will begin.

On the side of Xinghai, Li Shun didn't start a war with the enemy Bai Laosan, but first opened fire with the former allies in the south.

In this fight, maybe only one side wins, maybe both sides lose, but no matter what the result is, the winner will not be the red eyed Li Shun.

Not only will Li Shun not win, but he will even endanger Qiu Tong, Xiao Xue and even more people

I'm very anxious. I can't fight against Li Shun who is determined to revenge, and I can't watch him jump into the fire pit. What should I do?

"Why don't you talk?" After a long silence, Li Shun looked at me and spoke.

After taking my last puff of cigarette, I threw the cigarette end on the ground and trampled it to death. Then I looked at Li Shun: "boss Li, I firmly support your decision! Dry, dry those dog days, for the second son and five revenge

"Well, that's right. This is my brother." Li Shun nodded with satisfaction: "as long as you have this attitude, as for revenge, you don't want to participate. Your task is still in Xinghai. It's very important to guard Xinghai well."

I nodded: "well, but I have a little idea. Can I say it?"

"Say -" Li Shun looked at me.

I hesitated and said, "forget it, don't say it."

Li Shun said, "don't try to make a scene for me. What do you mean? As long as you don't block my revenge, you can say anything. Of course, if you That's needless to say. It makes me angry. "

I said, "that's not - as I said just now, I only support you!"

"If not, just say it."

I said: "boss Li, we've known each other for a long time. I've been hiding my real experience and identity from you before. As for the specific reasons, I don't want to say. Anyway, you know what I used to do now Right? "