My beautiful boss and I

Half a day later, she said, "Yeke, are you in the air or in reality?"

I said, "I'm in reality."

"No, you're in the air But in reality, I often see you See your shadow in the air before my eyes Wandering in the space of my heart Yeke, you're driving me crazy. Do you know These days, I do not chat with you, does not mean that my thinking has stopped, does not mean that my brain cells have died

"Countless times, I can't help asking for your phone number and video with you, but I still controlled myself and convinced myself that I knew what reality I was facing and that reality could not be changed.

"If I do that, I will let myself go further and further, and you and I will be doomed It will hurt you and me So, I can only let you live in my air, let me breathe you everywhere between heaven and earth In this way, I should be satisfied, I must be satisfied

"After all, I will bear the guilt and shame of spiritual betrayal to meet my reality and enter into a marriage without love, and you, I hope you can get out of the illusory entanglement, find your true love in reality and open your happy life After all, it's all a dream, a dream with no ending Dreams are illusory, no matter Yike or Yike, they are all clouds in illusory dreams All horses are clouds. "

I looked at her silently. I could imagine her inner feelings at the moment.

"You After all, I can't get out of your reality You After all, I will not, will not and dare not go out of your reality. " I said.

"Yes I can't get out of Character decides fate, I can't let myself out, I'm not unwilling, but dare not I dare not disobey my conscience, my principles, my innate heart Because I dare not, so I don't want to, because I don't want to, so I won't Some things, I will fight, some things, I must obey, I can't fight It's all fate. Fate is predestined in previous life and can't be changed. "

I can feel her cold and desolate heart at the moment.

"If dream Whether you and I can go from virtual to reality or not Maybe we can never appear in reality, but, I want to tell you, things in the world have never been the same. Everything in the world is changing, solid will change, liquid will change, gas will change, people's heart, people's feelings, people's thinking, people's ideas will also change

"Sometimes, maybe you won't change, you don't dare to change, but it doesn't mean others won't change As long as there is change, there will be a turn for the better and there will be vitality. " When I said this, I could see in my mind the words I talked with Lao Li that day and Lao Li's expression. I don't know whether I am comforting her or deceiving myself by saying these words at the moment.

"Yeke, I understand what you mean You said this kind of change, I dare not dream of Never dare to think Why don't you think about it, because I know it won't happen at all You don't know them You don't understand

"From the day I came into contact with them, I knew that my destiny was not my own, and I knew that I was no longer my own Now, I can see what the end of my life will be like, my life, that's it It's all on this track This life, I recognized

Floating life like a dream makes me feel sad and cold.

"Often, I think Yike is the Yike I see every day in front of my eyes. Often, I think Yike is my wandering Yike in the air. In this way, I am interlaced between illusion and reality, confused between chaos and soberness. I actually know that I can cheat myself, but I can't cheat reality I can't change the reality

"At best, I can only satisfy my humble and pitiful needs in the space of lust But in reality, the breakup between Yike and his girlfriend deeply touched me. I don't know if I will destroy everyone and myself if I go on like this. "

I said, "so, you're not happy."

"Yes, because everyone is not happy, I am not happy either."

"Do you think Ike loves his girlfriend?" There was a feeling of confusion in my heart.

"I don't know."

"Why don't you know?" My heart was cold.

"Because of my feeling Sometimes, the feeling is not clear Haizhu walked into Yike after Yike's first love girlfriend left him. He walked into Yike when Yike was in the most depressed state. When a person is lovelorn, when he is in the most depressed state, he is also in the most vulnerable state. At such a time, it is easy to accept foreign comfort

"So, I don't know which aspect of Haizhu Yike is more about between family affection and love However, one thing I know is that Haizhu's love for Yike will last forever However, it is Haizhu who takes the initiative to leave Yike. "

"Why

"I'm thinking about that too Perhaps, together is because of love, not together, but also because of love Sometimes, people really have no choice but to give up, but this kind of giving up is because of deep love"Every time I think about this, my heart is throbbing. In fact, I really want to know why Haizhu, who loves Yike deeply, is determined to leave Yike This is actually the main reason why I have been depressed recently. "

"Have you found out why?"

"Not yet But I'm trying to find I hope to find out the reason and let Haizhu return to Yike. "

I didn't know how or what she was going to look for. After a moment of silence, I said, "Why are you doing this? For your friendship with them? "

"Not all - just, I hope that the happy love I can't expect in reality can be seen in other people around me and my friends can be happy and sweet. It seems that my heart can get some compensation and feel relieved."

I was silent.

Floating life like a dream, then said: "the emotional world is like this, in love, constantly someone left or entered. So, what you see is invisible; what you remember is forgotten. In love, there are gains and losses. Thus, the invisible can be seen; the forgotten can be remembered. However, what is invisible does not mean that it does not exist? Remember, will it never disappear

I pondered, looked at what she said, and didn't answer.

Unconsciously, the clock pointed to midnight.

In the end, he said: "everything depends on mentality In reality, in the years I've been through, I've smoothed my edges. The sufferings and frustrations told me not to be sad for a little loss, and not to be unfair for some injustice. I face with a moderate attitude

"Maybe it's not ambitious, but I just want to live a plain life. I can do something to make myself happy. I am such a mortal: I just want to be indifferent in this life. "

After chatting with floating life like a dream, I turned off my computer, went to the balcony, lit a cigarette, and looked at the deep and cold night sky in a daze. In the night sky, a round moon was hanging lonely in the sky

When I wandered to Wutai Mountain, a mage and I said that in my life, opportunities are hard to share, and reasons are different. It's my destiny whether it's smooth sailing, ups and downs, or plain and ordinary. Those who pass by, encounter, meet, leave, are the only. No matter what situation you are in, don't complain about the world, don't give up the bottom line, don't hate others. If you are not greedy, you will have less desire; if you are not angry, your heart will be easy; if you are not seeking, you will always be satisfied. If you meet, please cherish it; if you don't pass, please cherish it.

I think of what Lao Li said to me: life is elegant because of waiting. Waiting is a good philosophy of life. Only those who can stand loneliness and temptation can gain the most satisfactory life. A person who is impetuous and impatient will often miss the future due to small losses and greedy for the present. He will never be an elegant and leisurely person. Life is always full of countless waiting, some people wither in waiting, some people bloom in waiting.

Just thinking about it, the phone suddenly rang.

It's Li Shun.

"Lao Qin told me about Zhang Xiaotian." Li Shun's voice sounds very low.

"Well..."

"Is Zhang Xiaotian really responsible for this?" Li Shun added.

"Not sure."

"You go now and make sure for me!"

"How can I be sure? Where can I make sure? "

"Just now, I received a strange SMS. This number is not the same as the mysterious person number last time The content is as follows: at 2 am this evening, Zhang Xiaotian will be executed at Baiyushan beach in Lushun! " Li Shun said slowly.

"Oh..." I am so excited that Bai Laosan will execute Zhang Xiaotian ahead of time. Baiyushan beach is near Lushun military port, which is an ice free port. The sea there is different from Xinghai. It will not freeze in this season unless it is very cold.

"You should go there immediately, take your gun and try to save Zhang Xiaotian for me. After being rescued, ask him whether he did it or not. "

"Yes, so what? No, so what? " I said.

"Yes, just arrange him to fly me to ningzhou No, just let him go and let him leave the sea of stars and find another way to live. " Li Shun's voice suddenly sounded a little groaning: "anyway, the dog who has done things with me has done something for me. No matter what, he will not die of sin. This man is a tragic figure. He should not follow me, nor should he follow Bai Laosan. Compared with those of us who have made great achievements, he is always humble and can only be swept into the garbage heap of history. "

The meaning of the first half of Li Shun's words is similar to that of Dong'Er's words that day. I can't help but sigh and say, "OK, I'll go and have a look."

"If it's convenient, save it. If it's inconvenient, don't force it. You should grasp the situation of the scene by yourself. You can't expose and hurt yourself by saving him. Everything should be based on protecting yourself It depends on the boy's nature. " Li Shun finished and hung up.