My Desertion Would Be Faster Than Heros' Obsession

Chapter 6
Operation name: Saving a senior soldier of the 78th unit

After Sanchez adjusted to military life, life in the army went on quite peacefully.

Wait a minute.

‘Is it going too peacefully? I can’t…’

From what I’ve learned over the past three and a half years, military life can never go on in peace. That is a logically impossible sentence!

Then according to my calculations…! Sanchez adjusts to military life, and three months later, new recruits will arrive!

‘From now on, a new incident will occur!’

Well, something happened, as I expected.

“Oh, what did you say I did?”

What, the extent to which the recruit is a little rude to Benny?

But I wasn’t worried about Benny at all. Caron, who was with me, only looked at Dory with eyes full of pity.

“What are you?”

Because Sanchez, Benny’s faithful disciple, was running right away.

“How dare you be rude to my teacher.”

“T-teacher?”

The new recruit, Dory, looked at Sanchez and Benny alternately with a shaky pupil, apologized to Benny dozens of times and ran away.

After that, the recruits would squeal and run around whenever they saw Benny.

‘It’s obvious what you’re thinking…’

Sanchez said that Benny was his teacher, so they seemed to think that Benny was an incredibly strong human being.

I shook my head furiously.

‘Well, this new recruit seems to have adapted well, so that’s it.’

So, life in the army went on peacefully again. It was a very peaceful time.

* * *

Discharge in D-2003 days.

“What, what are you doing?”

I, who had been on an errand for the company headquarters, asked with a trembling voice after I encountered Blue, my classmate from the Beta platoon.

The news that Blue, whom I met after a long time, gave me was incredibly shocking.

“We did battalion march training.”

I looked at Blue with my mouth open and stupid.

‘XX, I thought it would be quiet for a while after recruiting!’

But after all, the army never had a peaceful day!

“A march… This XX…”

It was incomprehensible no matter how much I thought about it. Why do we even have to march when all we have to do is protect our borders from monsters?

As I was making a face, Blue kindly explained.

“Well, if a war breaks out with another country, we are also mobilized. No basic training is required.”

According to him, the border guard marches are held once every two years, but when we were trainees, there were some problems between the generals, so the march was also stopped.

He explained that our battalion would march along the border, and another battalion would dispatch and take care of the post we vacated in the meantime.

‘A march…’

Yes, obviously, something like this appeared in the original story… Although ‘original’ is a word that is too far from me now, I forgot…

Blue said, putting a bandage on my hand.

“It’s a compression bandage. I got to know the medical officer a little bit.”

“Where are you using it?”

“I heard it’s better to wrap it around your feet.”

After all, having at least one well-informed colleague is very helpful in military life.

In the end, I trudged back to the platoon with the bandages in my pocket…

* * *

When I returned to the platoon, they had already received the news of the march, and the platoon was in a mess.

“A march…!”

Taro, who I had not seen in the meantime, suddenly appeared with a face full of dark circles and screamed.

“Hey XX!! Pack your armor!”

Zara was tearing off her own hair while raising her voice to instruct her successors.

It reminded me of a time when a dragon appeared before and we went on an emergency monster subjugation.

There will be less threat to life than then, but it cannot be denied since the future is bleak, XX.

As I entered the women’s dormitory, Yuri looked at me with a cold expression and shouted.

“Where have you been? Hurry up and help Benny pack her clothes!”

It’s strange, it’s kind of like a déjà vu…

Still, I diligently helped Benny pack her things. Of course, it was my first march just like Benny

“Oh, Benny. You need more socks.”

“Yes. Would this be enough?”

“No, more.”

“Is this enough?”

“No, more!”

“This is enough…!”

“More!”

In particular, socks are very important in marching. Benny had confused eyes, but anyway, she packed enough socks to the point where she looked like she was carrying a sock merch, as I said.

“I brought this much, is this enough?”

“More!”

“This is enough…!”

“Put more! More!”

We grunted for a while and packed our bags, and soon the huge armament was finished.

I looked at the military commander and looked at him with pitiful eyes.

‘Do I really have to go on a march with that?’

In addition to that, each of us had to pick up a weapon that was their main specialty, and I have never felt so resentful that I used a gun as much as I did this time. I’d rather wear a sword around my waist…

‘I want to desert…’

I got all my military gear and left the dormitory.

There is still some time left before the march, so if there are snacks in the kitchen to replenish the sugar, I should get some.

Considering my personality, which becomes more sensitive as the party goes down, this time around, my personality may be broken enough to surpass Blair and Topio…

‘How was the march in the original story?’

Most of the things that the original female lead experienced were much milder than what I experienced in real life.

There was no tension at all in the subjugation with monsters, there were no cruel descriptions of dead or wounded members, and there was no mention of training in particular.

‘Of course, it could be because the original is for all ages…’

I can assure you, detailing the battles and wounds we are going through right now will definitely give you a 19-rated label. The reality was very gore.

In any case, even in that mild original, the march was described with special emphasis.

The male leads in the original story kindly explained the tricks of marching to Darlene before they left, and they took good care of her who was exhausted from the march.

‘Winter also taught Darlene about the various accidents that could happen on the march.’

Winter, who seems to love the word ‘principle’ more than anyone else, told Darlene what to observe while marching.

He said that if you encounter a monster while tired from the march, you could die or get injured, so you should always remain vigilant even if you are tired.

‘…What exactly did he say?’

The content of the original was very vague, but I think it was something like this…

“In the past, my classmate met a monster on a march and died. Normally, he would have been able to handle it by himself, but things were a bit tangled.”

“Ah… Is the march that dangerous?”

“My colleague got into an accident while trying to save another successor from monsters. But it was an unusual accident, so you don’t have to worry.”

After this, I think there was a line that emphasized Darlene’s ‘mind of concern for others’.

“Winter, are you okay?”

“What?”

“Was that person a close friend? More than anything else, I’m most worried about whether Winter was okay…”

‘Yeah, that’s what it was about.’

I’ll have to be careful not to get into an accident on the march… Wait a minute.

‘Winter’s colleague died?’

…Wait, wait.

My head couldn’t think properly.

…Okay, let’s think about it.

Archon, who enlisted in the Border Guard Army, usually dies during the training period.

At this time, even if the Archon had accumulated skills, they had to be careful as they could die on the guard duty during the first class.

And from that time to being the corporal, they usually hardly worried about their own life.

“None of my comrades died, so I’ve never been very frustrated.”

Not long ago, when we were together on guard duty, Winter clearly said that.

So Winter’s motive, who died on the march, was either Altair or Yuri!

The death of either of them would be quite shocking to me. I thought of them both quite friendly.

‘…I have to stop it.’

At least I know that someone will die on this march.

Now that I know a little bit about the original, now is the time to twist the original. Isn’t that the possessor’s privilege?

‘Let’s guess who it is first.’

Were there any other scenes in the original where Yuri or Altair was depicted?

I tried to think, but it’s been a while since I possessed this world, and I couldn’t remember the details of the original. It’s not that I read the original ‘Four Crazy Obsessed’ sentence by sentence in detail.

Besides, it was even more difficult to guess when Darlene enlisted at the time when Yuri and Altair had been promoted and left for another unit…

‘Isn’t there any way?’

Even if I try to twist the original, I need to know how to twist it.

Just when I was grunting for a long time holding my head with nothing coming to mind…

“Wait, if I remember… Candy that sharpens memories…”

That’s exactly what I needed right now!

With that candy, I will be able to clear the memory of the original I read and use the original in the future!

In return, let’s get ten nails, even if they are plucked out.

‘Yeah, does it make sense that I can’t use the original after possessing it?’

I don’t have a perfect memory of the original like other heros who get possessed, so I need that candy’s help.

So first I’ll have to figure out where that candy is…

‘The company commander said it was confiscated.’

So, is it in the commander’s office? Or a warehouse for supplies?

In fact, wherever it was stored, the company commander was likely to have completely forgotten it. Even if I sneak it, I’m sure they won’t know.

Knowing that black magic comes with a price, there’s no way they could have used that artifact themselves…

‘Let’s ask Sanchez first.’

To think about the location of the artifacts and the master of black magic, I decided to go find Sanchez.

* * *

“Sanchez, the artifact you brought back and confiscated…”

“Yes?”

“There was a candy that made memories clearer.”

“Yes.”

Although it was a nonsensical story, Sanchez listened to me silently. If it was Sanchez, he wouldn’t report it to the seniors saying it was suspicious even if I suddenly talked about the black magic artifact.

“How do you get that? What is the cost?”

“Are you going to use it?”

“Yes, I have work to do. It must be kept a secret that I said this. On the honor of your teacher.”

“…Yes, then I will keep it a secret.”

Also Sanchez. What a great loyalty to Benny.

“In the case of that candy, you just melt the candy and eat it, trying to recall the memory you want to make vivid. Then I heard that your memory will gradually became clearer.”

“What’s the price?”

“It comes at the price of another memory. To make one memory clear, you have to sacrifice another.”

“If it’s another memory… Does it just disappear randomly?”

“No. You can choose for yourself which memories you lose. And…”

Sanchez stared at me with wolf-like gray eyes.

“It must be a very precious memory for you.”

“A very precious memory?”

I blinked my eyes slowly. It seems that the brain’s rotation speed has slowed down a bit since I’m talking about ‘black magic’, which is quite the opposite of the real world I lived in.

“How is it going to take your memories? I still don’t quite understand how black magic works.”

“The candy itself already contains black magic, so the magic takes effect as soon as the conditions are met. When you melt candy while recalling the memories you want to recover, a signal will come at some point. When you get that signal, say the memory you want to offer in return, and the magic will work.”

“So what kind of signal is that?”

“That… It’s hard for me to explain, but once you get the signal, you’ll know right away. That’s the way black magic is originally.”

It was still difficult to understand, but as Sanchez said, I will find out if I try it myself.

…And I knew what the most precious memories were for me.

‘I don’t know if I can get over that.’

…But, the most important thing for me right now is to revive the memories of the original. Because it can save Altair and Yuri, and help me in the future.

Whether to use the candy or not is a matter of deciding after obtaining the candy.

“Sanchez, then, do you know where the company commander confiscated the artifact and took it?”

“If I had known that, I would have robbed it already.”

“Yes… XX You are strong…”

* * *

If so, think of someone who might know where the artifact is.

Number 1. The lieutenant commander.

… That would be too obvious. Pass.

‘No, aren’t there any members in our platoon?’

…To be honest, I’ve been ignoring it since a while ago, but there are people who I can guess.

‘Winter.’

If he is the person who discovered the artifact in Sanchez’s bag, and is usually trusted by the company commander, plus he often goes in and out of the company headquarters building.

But, it’s a problem because I know that it’s nonsense to ask Winter…

Of course, Winter has been watching me often since I helped Gagne lose power.

For example, Altair sometimes overlooked adjusting my working hours to a better time, and even looked after me for minor mistakes.

It is not at all in line with the way he is usually a principled person, so anyone could say that I was in his line.

However, no matter how much I was on his line, there was no way Winter would turn a blind eye to the ‘black magic artifact’…

That’s a revolt against the imperial family, and Winter never breaks the laws of the Adolfe Empire, although he may occasionally break some of the tacit rules of military life.

‘Let’s use my head.’

I can’t be honest with Winter. If so, how should I say it?

“Saruvia, by the way…”

“Wait a minute, let me finish my thoughts and play…”

As I pushed away the familiar Caron from the side, I suddenly realized something!

‘It’s crazy!’

Caron was a person who can get me out of my mind. It made me forget about my worries for a while.

Ishina, who always nags at me to be modest, would be terrifying to find out, but it was a really good method.

* * *

“Winter, Winter, Winter!”

“Saruvia, when you call my name, say it in a lower tone only once.”

Again, Winter started to point out, but I didn’t mind, since I had already gotten used to his point.

“Winter, maybe the black magic artifact that the company commander confiscated from Sanchez the other day…”

“A black magic artifact?”

Winter’s face grew cold as I put words in my mouth that I shouldn’t have. It felt like a chill was being blown out of me for a moment.

“…Yes, yes. That black magic artifact, is it by any chance in the company commander’s office?!”

“…Why are you asking such a thing?”

“Now is not the time to be so carefree! It’s a big deal, a big deal! I think Sanchez is going to sprint everywhere in search of that artifact!”

“What? Explain in detail.”

“I don’t have time to go into detail right now! You must act fast! It’s a march, so everyone’s confused right now, so it seems like he’s about to break in! Is it in the company commander’s office?!”

“…No, it’s not. Rather, is Sanchez going to act now?”

“Yes?! Then where the hell is it?! Earlier, Sanchez asked where the artifacts might be, so I thought it was the company commander’s office, so I talked about everything except the company commander’s office!”

Yes. My strategy is to pour the words out so Winter doesn’t have time to come to his senses.

“The command and control room, the administration room… What if Sanchez goes through them all and finds an artifact?!”

“Did you even talk about the equipment warehouse?”

“What? Oh, I didn’t talk about it…Oh! Come to think of it, I think I can stop Sanchez by talking to Benny! Sorry to bother you!”

“…Why did you just think of that now?”

“That’s it… I was in too much of a hurry…”

“…It’s already the 16th time I’ve said it, but Saruvia, you better think for five seconds before you act, and then act.”

Winter’s remarks poured in again, but this time I was able to keep a smile on my face.

Because Winter’s reaction revealed that there were artifacts in the equipment warehouse.

* * *

It was great luck for the company commander to keep the black magic artifacts in the warehouse.

He’d probably just thrown it somewhere out of a nuisance, but the place was very accessible to us.

In the case of the company commander’s office, I might have had to give up, but everything was going well.

And this time, the person who was secretly brought with was definitely decided.

“Caron, are you ready?”

“Yes!”

After all, Caron was always my loyal successor. His talent has already been verified through the letter case!

“Are you really going to tell me about egalitarianism and the purpose of the nation’s existence after this is over?”

“Yeah, yes.”

…Because Caron lost his memory, he enjoys listening to the stories I tell him…

Unfortunately, I couldn’t tell him anything about this world, nor could I tell him about the whole world I’ve lived in…

All I could say was that… Still, I’m glad that Caron enjoyed listening to it. In fact, he was a good successor who listened to whatever I had to say.

‘…Shouldn’t Caron get his memories back instead?’

In fact, the person who needs more memory right now was probably Caron, not me, and I don’t know if I can use that artifact.

“Caron.”

“Yes?”

“Do you not need your original memories?”

“What? Not really…”

Caron showed a sullen attitude. No, aren’t you curious about the lost memories?

“I’m happy with what I have now, so it’s okay!”

It was a frighteningly optimistic answer.

“Yeah, yes. But you don’t really need it? Why?”

“Then Saruvia won’t tell me more stories, and…”

“Yes…”

It really feels like the kid is starting to become a janitor.

“And I don’t even like to use black magic artifacts.”

Pls read only at pink muffin tl.

“Why? For the price?”

“I don’t even know… Well, I guess I just hate black magic itself.”

It seemed that Caron himself did not understand why he was reluctant to black magic, but I could roughly guess the reason.

‘Because it is said that Caron has an excellent sixth sense in the original work.’

Just as animals evacuate when an earthquake occurs, Caron may instinctively recognize the harmful energy of black magic and try to avoid it.

Anyway, it was time to get to work.

“You have to keep a close eye on the net!”

“Yes!”

While Caron watched intently at the entrance to the warehouse, I scoured the inside of the warehouse.

“…Is it this?”

In a shabby box that I thought was garbage, anyone could find it foreign and suspicious.

A fan, a small doll made of rice straw, and… Pink bunny doll…

Sanchez brought this, my god.

And finally, I saw a candy wrapped in a wrapper!

“Found it!”

The moment I quickly grabbed the candy, Caron raised his voice outside and greeted someone loudly.

“Oh? Hello!”

It meant that a senior had arrived!

I quickly slipped the candy into my pocket, then grabbed anything that was roughly nearby.

And the person that came into the warehouse was…

“Saruvia? What are you doing here?”

“Blue?”

It was fortunate that he was not a senior, but the colleague of my beta platoon, Blue…

…At that moment, Blue’s eyes became more subtle when he saw the ax I was holding.

“…I’m on an errand, what are you doing here with an axe?”

“Well, on behalf of my successor, I also came on an errand.”

“What? Are you replacing your successor? You are lying.”

“…Um, I’m actually hitting my successor for a difficult task to pass the time?”

“Ah-ha, I see!”

‘…What, they’re both lies, so why do you believe this one?’

I was somehow confused.

* * *

There was really not much time left before we go on the march. In the meantime, I had to quickly regain my memory of the original story and know what was going on in the march.

‘It’s okay to eat this candy.’

It was a candy with black magic, so I was skeptical at first, but when I opened the wrapper, it looked like an ordinary candy. White candy that children can eat.

‘Did you infuse black magic into the candy sold at the market?’

At first glance, there was nothing wrong with it.

And there was no more time to hesitate. I shoved the candy into my mouth. When one big candy went into my mouth, my cheeks became full.

‘…This XX.’

As soon as I put the candy in my mouth, I could see why it was a candy with black magic.

…The candy tasted very bland… Well…

I can’t. If I explain this taste, it seems that the genre of my life will change to 19-rated, so I should omit the description of the taste of candy. It was very gore and grotesque.

‘I told you to recall the memories I was looking for.’

As I rolled it in my mouth to quickly melt the steamed candy, I recalled the content of ‘four crazy obsessed’ in my head.

‘Four crazy people are obsessed with me…’

Sigh. A female protagonist with orange hair is surrounded by two black haired male protagonists. It’s a shy expression… And in the case of the second cover, it is a face that is at a loss between the green haired male and the brown haired male…

No, the content. Let’s recall the content.

Contents. The story of a lively, quirky, cute and kind female heroine and four crazy guys…

Surprisingly, the more I rolled the candy, the clearer my memory became.

I could now remember that the novel had a total of 124 episodes, and that the start date of the side story series was December 18th. Unfortunately, I got possessed before the side story series started.

Even the little bits of information that I had just skimmed through began to pop up in my head.

The information I want, the story of Altair or Yuri’s death, has not come out yet…

And at that very moment.

“Ah!”

I felt a throbbing sensation in my head.

Something inside my head was vibrating.

Maybe this is…

‘It’s a signal Sanchez said.’

Something related to black magic was squeezing my head violently, as if to offer something to gain more memories.

Okay, so I can say it now. All you have to do is tell me what memory I’m going to give in return.

…But it wasn’t as easy as I thought.

I know what my most precious memories are. I haven’t been able to tell anyone since I came to this world. I remember having to hide it because it was so precious.

That was my ‘name’ in the original world.

‘Am I going to throw it away?’

When I thought about it rationally, that was right.

With this candy, it may be possible to bring back memories of me in the previous world rather than information from the original.

But if I have those memories, where would I use them? I don’t know how to go back to the previous world, and I don’t have any attachment to the old world because I don’t have memories of it, but I have no intention of going back.

‘Besides, I can’t go even if it’s a pity that I suffered a lot here, XX.’

…Anyway, I will continue to live in this world from now on, so it would be more convenient to completely erase my memories from the previous world.

In return, it would be of great help if I could learn about the original work, my ‘future’ in this world.

So, from a rational point of view, everything makes sense…

‘No.’

My ‘name’ was the only thing I remembered about ‘I’ in the original world.

Whenever this world is in pain, I have rolled my name in my mouth several times before I even go to sleep.

Nevertheless, I have never once uttered that name aloud since I came to this world.

The name was perhaps the only possession I had.

Although it may seem foolish in the eyes of others, I remembered the name and reminded myself that there was definitely a ‘me’ in the previous world.

It’s a memory I’ve cherished so much…

Altair and Yuri’s faces popped into my mind.

They put me on their own line so openly that they had hit me several times in front of others. It was one of the few good relationships I met in this world.

And this time, my name from the old world came to mind. I really liked the name.

‘Am I going to throw it away?’

Just imagining it was scary and heartbreaking.

…In the end, I buried my head in my lap without making a decision. During this time, the candy was still melting in my mouth.

And at that very moment, a hand landed on my head.

“Ah.”

I raised my head and met the owner of the hand and made eye contact.

In fact, even without looking at it, I knew who it was the moment I touched it.

It was a familiar temperature.

“Aquila.”

“What are you doing here, Saruvia?”

He called Saruvia’s name.

I was embarrassed by the name that suddenly seemed unfamiliar, so I hung my head without answering.

“Why?”

As if my face looked depressed, Aquila sat down in front of me and looked at my cheeks raised by the candy.

“Is it the candy?”

“Yes.”

“Where did you get it?”

“Just, Altair…”

As I mumbled, he poked my cheek with his finger.

I habitually tightened my eyes at the sudden action, but Aquila didn’t mind and looked intently at my cheeks and said.

“When you are discharged, you should eat a lot.”

“…Huh?”

“Your cheeks are cute.”

…It was very straightforward.

But rather, such an honest expression was like Aquila. Because he just spoke out what was in his head.

“Are you going to see me after I’m discharged?”

“…You don’t want to?”

I could feel Aquila’s voice getting a little sharper.

But, paradoxically, the voice made me feel reassured.

“Of course I do, I don’t have any friends.”

“Yes.”

“So you have to keep seeing me.”

While I am in the Border Guard, I am not alone. Even in a space like this X, there are advantages.

Even if I don’t do anything, I’m going somewhere, and I can naturally get along with the people around me.

But the moment I am discharged, everything is over.

If I don’t do something on my own, I’ll be stagnant forever, and I’ll be a loner in this world without anyone I know.

“My colleague is only you. So you have to keep in touch with me. I have no friends.”

“I will see you every day.”

It was a short reply, but it was a voice full of sincerity.

So it was really absurd after hearing Aquila’s answer.

Regardless of what I had been thinking about up until now, I made up my mind.

I opened my mouth.

And I spit the word out of my mouth.

“My name.”

At that very moment, black magic began to work.

As a book unfolded in my head, the typefaces poured down on me.

“Ah.”

The content of the original that I forgot was stuck in my head in sentences.

After those things are done

“…No more.”

I now realize that my ‘name’ from the old world has completely disappeared from my mind.

Well, yes. I know it was a profitable deal, but nevertheless.

“No more.”

The feeling that something big inside of me was falling apart.

It was so empty that I couldn’t stand it. I couldn’t stand the feeling of a cold wind blowing through a hole somewhere.

“The weather is getting cold again.”

So I just buried my face in Aquila, who had been waiting for me silently since before.

One day this cold will disappear.

I gained so many things that it cannot be compared to a lost name.

The day will come when it will be warm again.

* * *

When I arrived in front of the girls’ dormitory after calming down a bit, I was able to recall the contents of the original ‘Four Crazy Obsessed’.

When Darlene enlisted in the military, Saruvia in the original story died, so Benny was the only one living in the women’s dormitory.

Darlene asked Benny if she had been living alone for a while, and Benny’s answer to that question was as follows.

“Yes, I am alone. In the past, there were two more, and one of them was promoted to commander… And the other… No.”

‘Wow, I remember the lines in detail.’

Also, the performance of black magic was very good. There’s a reason the state banned it. Basically, anything fun is addicting. If the state hadn’t banned it, I might have been addicted to black magic…

Ah, back to the point.

The original Benny’s lines were meant to emphasize the ‘death of Saruvia, who was the first love of the men,’ but at the same time, it also contained a hint about Yuri’s whereabouts!

‘Yuri was safely promoted to commander.’

Then it was clear who was killed in this march.

“Altair.”

…It must be stopped somehow.

‘No way.’

All this time, I had no intention of letting my dear Altair die!

For this time, I will try again to believe in the power of Possessive Ropan development.

“I will do my best to twist the original.”

…Wow, after saying this, it’s finally like a possession. I really wanted to try this line.

‘Anyway, I will save Altair!’

* * *

After a while, we gathered in the 16th Company’s rehearsal field with military commanders and our own weapons.

It was the first time I had been to another company, and there was no difference from ours. The mountain is there, huh?

All the soldiers gathered here were from the Cledor Mountain Battalion.

The battalion commander standing in front of us gave brief encouragement for today’s march.

Of course, he said with his own mouth a ‘short encouragement’, but it was by no means a short encouragement based on the fact that Taro’s face, which had dark circles thickening every minute, has now completely darkened…

Of course, I couldn’t express my desire to escape from this training ground right now, so I tried my best to keep my expressionless expression.

Finally, a voice instructing the battalion commander to move was heard.

“The 16th Company! Depart!”

With his cry, people started moving from the 16th Company. Our company was the 18th company, so we had to move after the 17th company.

‘The march has begun.’

The original Winter’s lines came back to my mind. It was an additional idea after recovering the memory of the original.

“Saruvia…succeeded in killing that monster by shooting it, but my colleague lost his life before that.”

“Ah, if you say Saruvia, then…”

“…Yes. I guess you’ve heard a lot about her too. She shot and completely smashed the head of the monster, Scarper.”

It was a line that came out when they were talking about ‘Saruvia’ in the original story, and thanks to that, I was able to obtain information that the monster was a ‘scarper’.

‘I can’t miss the monster called Scarper.’

So I opened my eyes and tried to never miss what was happening around me. It was a contrasting attitude from the other troop members who showed an expression that they did not want to do this.

“Oh, okay, Saruvia~. Passionate attitude, good.”

I was a little annoyed that Altair slapped me on the back with a cheerful smile, but my goal was to keep my sanity unconditionally on the march where the underdogs came.

“You’re passionate.”

Even Winter said that, so I wanted to explain that I’m not Winter and I’m not that passionate about training…

In any case, our company finally started marching in the footsteps of the 17th.

‘Unconditionally, Altair will be saved.’

* * *

‘…Wouldn’t it be better to save me first?’

After a while, I was completely exhausted…

XX… I want to desert…

Naturally, the armor was heavy, and I even had a gun, not a sword, so it was more inconvenient to use my arms compared to others.

“Hah…”

As I climbed the high uphill road, I was out of breath naturally.

It’s an uphill road full of gravel, which is the worst. It’s an unpaved road.

‘… No, we might end up paving this road by complaining here, so let’s just be quiet.’

Is the military really like that?

Sweat poured all over his body, and his feet, which had been painful to death before, were no longer in pain, and his shoulders were sore and his legs were heavy. Sweat kept getting into my eyes and my eyes were burning.

‘Am I lucky that I don’t have a bulletproof hat?’

No, but it was the worst in one way or another in that I was wearing an uncomfortable uniform. Even if the original writer of XX didn’t wear only these clothes…

‘I’m going to search first…’

Even Altair, whom I had been closely watching for a while, looked bright, unlike me. It was absurd that I was worried about that person.

Wiping the sweat from my forehead, I glanced up at the sky. The moon was already up.

‘I want to sleep…’

This guy’s march took a total of 300 eds, and the worst thing is that this march didn’t have a rest time.

In other words, except for a brief rest period, we were not given a bedtime.

For reference, ‘ed’ was the unit for measuring length in this world, and although it was impossible to make an exact comparison, in my experience, it was not much different from ‘km’ in the previous world. So it was a terrible thing.

Even Blue, my classmate from Beta Platoon, said that the 300th ed was the best, and his seniors said they had marched on the 400th in the past.

“Take a break!”

When I heard a voice that I couldn’t even tell who it belonged to, my legs relaxed and I collapsed into my seat.

“Saruvia, are you okay?”

“I do not know…”

I closed my eyes and answered Ishina’s words, and I tried to take a break, but…

“Start again! 16th Company! Change seats behind the 18th Company!”

Even though it must have seemed like time had passed, the voice announcing the departure was heard, so I got up from my seat with tears in my eyes.

The soldiers of the 16th Company also moved behind us with a look that looked like they were going to fall behind. The reason why the soldiers of the company alternately changed positions was because the company at the back was easy to fall behind and consumes a lot of stamina.

“Not there, this way.”

Aquila pushed me and found my place.

“Ah, thank you…”

Now a muffled sound came out of my mouth.

When I started marching again, I started to fall asleep now.

“It is more difficult to walk while dragging your legs.”

“Yes…”

I mumbled in response to Ishina’s words and continued walking. In the meantime, I was sleepy and my eyelids were closed.

“Saruvia.”

“Huh?”

As I answered Aquila’s voice, I immediately realized that the scenery in front of me had changed.

… Strange, something… Something suddenly changed…

“Saruvia.”

“Huh.”

… Again, my eyes changed.

‘What?’

It felt like I was teleporting. Yes, this is a ropan world, so teleporting is enough… But why am I teleporting now? .

“Ah.”

Again, the landscape in front of me was different. Then I realized

I was sleeping while walking…

“… Ah.”

It was a new landscape.

Probably… Rather than save Altair… Guess I’ll have to save myself…

‘Where am I again?’

It was a big deal. No matter how much I think about it, I don’t think I’m crazy right now.

* * *

My mind was clouded. Rather than feeling tired or sick, I couldn’t feel anything because of the rush of sleep.

I was just walking like a machine and when I woke up, my vision had changed dramatically.

‘Altair…’

I know I’ll have to keep my head up and watch him, but this wasn’t a mental issue.

“Are you okay?”

“Yes…”

I replied that way to a voice I didn’t know who it was, but only later realized that the owner of the voice was Caron. But it was already too late to ask, “Caron, are you okay?”.

I heard Caron’s voice for a while, unlike mine, but it looked like he had extraordinary physical abilities, like the original male lead #4.

In fact, it was also Caron who was described as the strongest in the original.

‘How much stamina does he have?’

I thought about how much activity it would take for him to be quiet, who is usually cluttered begging for my attention, but somehow I realized that he was not treated like a human, so I stopped.

“XX, I will follow you…”

Suddenly, it got really hard, and I reflexively spit out cursing. It was as if I was slowly losing my mind when I swore.

“Are you okay?”

As I was walking with my head in my hand, I finally had to admit that fact.

“Caron…”

“Yes?”

“I’m lazy…”

“What are you talking about?!”

“I think I have to admit…”

Caron looked at me with questioning eyes, and I said in a weeping voice.

“I think it would be less difficult to work while swearing…”

“Aha.”

“I thought it was nonsense when the 85th colleagues said that… I’m just like them…”

XX, I can’t believe that I have a common denominator with the 85th grade of broken personality: ‘It’s less difficult to swear.’ There’s no way I’m like them!

“XX, I’ll go after you!”

But the moment I shouted that, unfortunately, I really felt a little tired… l

XX, yes… Let’s embrace our inner desires and embrace our true selves…

“Hehehe, XX, when will it end?”

“Haha, I was surprised, but it wasn’t a big deal.”

Unlike me, who was in awe, Caron said in a bright voice.

“There is nothing different from the usual Saruvia.”

“XX… I can’t…”

It’s unbelievable to see it that way in the eyes of others from the beginning…

As I was walking while muttering curses, I suddenly heard a loud voice.

“Wow! This is house!”

Everyone turned their heads towards the place where the voice was heard, with surprised faces. Even I, who was in a hazy state, suddenly felt like I was running away from sleep.

There, another platoon soldier was smiling with a happy expression on his face, and as he looked over the forest, where there were only trees, he suddenly tried to run.

“Uh, no! Catch him!”

“No!”

Seniors around him clinged to him and grabbed his body. But he still struggled and shouted, “There is a house!”

“…What, what?”

When did this suddenly turn into a horror occult ropan?

As Caron and I looked at each other with bewildered faces, Taro, who was walking in front of us, turned his head and said:

“He’s hallucinating.”

“Hallucination… Are you saying…?”

I was bewildered and asked carefully because he suddenly spoke to me, whom I had never talked to much, but he explained in a no-mind manner.

“When someone gets cold, sleepy and dehydrated… It is quite common to see hallucinations and hear hallucinations like that.”

“Ah…”

Was the march that dangerous?

Why the hell do I have to be possessed by this crazy world?

“At the time of the Crown Prince’s visit… I also had hallucinations…”

As I was once again expressing my anger at this world, Taro said so and turned his head forward again. As if it was bothersome to talk, he was now chewing on his pronunciation.

‘I’m really sorry…’

After the Crown Prince’s attack, Taro always looked tired, but that incident was the root of all evil… As soon as you join a new unit, how hard it must have been for a person to grow old like that.

The Crown Prince is a cool-toned person, so the silver blade of the guillotine would suit him very well… I hope that one day I will be able to show the Crown Prince the taste of revolution.

* * *

As Taro said, the number of soldiers showing abnormal symptoms began to increase.

It was rare for a soldier to react as violently as before when they saw the hallucinations, but many soldiers were looking at the road distortedly. They now close their eyes and move their legs.

And it was the same with me.

“XX…”

Now the only words that came out were swearing. Fortunately, I didn’t see any hallucinations.

“Short break!”

At that time, at this moment, after the command to be discharged, I heard the most pleasant words. I could hear the crew members collapsing on the floor from all over the place, and I barely sat down with my half-closed eyes.

“Hah…”

“Are you okay?”

Perhaps when it was time to rest, Aquila’s voice could be heard in my ear.

“Cold.”

“…Cold?”

Before I could respond, I buried my face into the sound of the voice. I felt a warm energy.

“Yeah, it’s cold… I’m glad I didn’t see hallucinations though…”

“A-Are you okay?”

Aquila stuttered, perhaps embarrassed, but I did not have the strength to raise my head again.

“Give me some water.”

“Saruvia, would you like some water?”

Pls read only at pink muffin tl.

Ishina and Aquila’s voices were heard one after another. I nodded to ask for water.

Soon a canteen came to my mouth, and I put it in my mouth.

… And for a moment, Ishina and Aquila’s voices were cut off.

My eyesight was blurry because I was still mentally ill. Only Aquila’s scarlet eyes were clearly visible through them. He was making eye contact with me.

“Water…”

Since no water had flowed into my mouth, I mumbled as I bit the canteen, begging for it to be tilted.

As Aquila was still standing still, not doing anything, my body moved without warning.

Someone was holding me with an arm under my shoulder. Suddenly, my body moved upwards, and I felt as if I had come out of deep water.

Turning my head, what I saw was Ishina’s green eyes. He grabbed me from behind and made me stand on my feet on the ground.

“Why…”

“Come on, come on, follow me. I guess you’ll have to quarantine for a while.”

When I tried to ask him why he was doing this, he stopped me and led me a little further away. Without knowing, I was dragged along by Ishina’s power.

Ishina, who sat me a little further away from where we were sitting earlier, asked.

“Come on, Saruvia. Are you out of your mind now?”

“What?”

As I looked around, I saw a thick forest of trees, and the soldiers who seemed to be sitting with their faces drooping so tired that they didn’t care what they were doing, and finally Ishina’s face looking down at me.

He looked at me anxiously with dark green eyes that looked like forest, and then put his hand to my lips.

…Saliva came out

“Huh… Sorry…”

It must have been that I was really not sane.

‘XX… What should I do?’

I tried to apologize to Ishina, but he only rubbed my lips with a hardened face.

“It really goes a long way.”

“What?”

“Can you see me now? How many do you see?”

He put three fingers in front of me and spread them out.

“…Three.”

“Who am I?”

“Ishina…?”

Then Ishina sighed again.

“Hah…”

“Yes?”

“Didn’t you hallucinate a little while ago?”

“…What?”

I looked at him with swaying eyes, and he said.

“Why were you biting someone else’s finger instead of the water bottle…”

“…What?”

“No, he is more of a problem. Why didn’t he take it out? I’ll try to have an honest conversation again when I get back…”

“…What?”

‘…It must have looked like a bottle.’

When I suddenly bit his finger, Aquila was embarrassed and even frozen. I can now understand the reaction Ishina and Aquila had before…

Then I heard a voice announcing the resumption of the march, so I staggered and barely got up.

Ishina was startled to see my hair hanging down like a virgin ghost, then sat me down again and tied my hair.

“It really… It really goes a long way…”

* * *

“Yuri, are all the members of our platoon okay?”

To Winter’s question, Yuri, who was walking while gasping for breath, answered.

“Uh, Sanchez is taking the recruit, Benny is taking Sanchez, Milfi is taking Sanchez.”

“…What?”

“…Yeah, it’s weird now that I said that too. But it really is.”

“Right…”

Winter would normally have pointed out the problem of entrusting too much work to one person, but for some reason it seemed that Sanchez could do it, so he quickly agreed to Yuri’s words.

“Oh right. Blair and Topio were walking around cussing at the highest level of curses.”

“They used to be… It’s the wrong language, but if that method works for them, it’s better to leave them alone.”

Winter had to walk at the forefront of the platoon, so he couldn’t take the other soldiers. Instead, he was checking every step of the way to make sure there were no stragglers.

Yuri was arranging what she had said in her head, and realized that she had left out one fact.

“Ah, Saruvia was also in a bad condition after seeing the hallucinations, but now Aquila and Ishina are taking care of her, so it’s okay.”

“Is Ishina in good shape too?”

“It looks like he’s tired, but for some reason, he clenched his teeth because he couldn’t just leave it to Aquila.”

Winter nodded at that. The situation was not bad as they confirmed that there were no failed successors.

Yuri looked at Winter’s side, who didn’t seem to be struggling at all, and asked.

“Aren’t you worried?”

“What do you mean?”

“You said Saruvia had hallucinations. Wasn’t she in your line?”

But Winter answered in a calm voice.

“Saruvia is strong, so I thought she would be okay.”

“…I have a feeling you are thinking too strongly of Saruvia.”

Just as Yuri was about to say something to Winter, someone called out from behind.

“Get the monster on the right!”

Behind them, bright yellow eyes flashed on the branches of a huge tree. It was not clearly visible due to the darkness, but it was definitely a monster.

A corporal, who was near the monster, tried to pick up a weapon, but the person behind him moved faster.

The half-closed yellow eyes flashed open, her white hands moving swiftly to fix the gun, and her body in a navy blue uniform pointed the gun at the tree.

Bang-!

Before anyone else around could react, Saruvia opened fire at high speed.

Before long, a monster that looked like a giant snake slipped from the tree. Altair slashed its corpse once more with his sword.

Just when Yuri was admiring Saruvia’s quick reaction, she heard something she didn’t expect from the other side.

“See. Saruvia is definitely strong.”

It was a voice full of confidence.

* * *

“XX, I will follow you…”

“…Should I listen?”

Aquila asked, carefully tapping the shroud on my back. But I clenched my teeth and shook my head.

“No, I can never do that…”

My goal was to save Altair, but I had other reasons to end this march safely.

Yuri was doing a good job marching in front of me. Lisa, a member of the Gamma Platoon, was also walking bravely.

Even though I was being helped by Aquila and Ishina, I still wanted to prove that I was strong enough to survive the Border Guard by wearing my armor and finishing it myself.

‘I hate losing in front of my successors.’

Especially when I think of Zayden, I get an itch, and I bite my lip.

“It will be over soon. Hang on a little…”

Next to me, Ishina encouraged me with a tired voice.

When I looked up, the black sky was gradually getting brighter. As soon as I saw the blue sky, it seemed like dawn was coming.

I don’t like the color of the morning sky. I don’t have a special past, it’s all because of border work, XX.

It’s because when you stand up from 3 to 6 in the morning and look at the dawn sky, you can’t sleep when this shift is over and you think that you have to start your work day, and it’s because you get angry. No, XX. Am I mad again?

Anyway, when I saw the dawn sky, my teeth were sharpened by itself. Now that I’m doing it, I’m running out of guard duty, so I’m even marching at this hour.

“We’ll be back to the starting point soon!”

Deer exclaimed vigorously. We turned around once in the middle, and it seemed that we were getting closer to the 16th Company where we first started.

I looked around.

Seeing that one of the 16th Company’s guard posts began to appear in the distance, it seemed that their arrival was really close.

‘…The monster hasn’t come out yet.’

Even though the march was almost over, my tension increased.

Because that was the same meaning that a monster would appear soon.

“Aaaah!”

In an instant, someone screamed. I tensed up and turned my head to where the scream was heard.

“That !”

The one biting the new recruit Dory’s neck was a monster resembling a giant tiger. Dory, who was being dragged by the monster, struggled with her arms and legs to resist.

“It’s not Scarper, it’s a Ghost Tiger…?”

Information about the monster Plato had embedded in my mind came to mind.

The Ghost Tiger was a monster that could freely move between rock walls, trees, swamps, and even under water. I heard that the name ‘Ghost Tiger’ was given because it appears and disappears suddenly and looks like a ghost to humans because it moves freely in dangerous terrain.

Dory and the surrounding soldiers were also attacked by ghost tigers, and some soldiers were lying on the floor. It did not appear to be life-threatening, but it looked like it had been scratched by claws.

“Ah!”

Dory’s body, which was bitten by a ghost tiger on the nape of the neck, vanished powerlessly down the rock wall.

As we were fussing over Dory who disappeared with Ghost Tiger, someone in front of the rock moved quickly.

“Altair!”

Without any hesitation, he tossed the sergeant behind his back, pulled his sword out of his pocket, and ran down the rock wall. Whether it was a fall or landing, his body disappeared in an instant.

And in that moment I realized.

‘The Ghost Tiger is a trap!’

It was more stupid not to know this.

After Altair kills the Ghost Tiger,a Scarper would appear right after and harm Altair!

“No!”

There was no time to hesitate. Just like Altair, I took off my coat and hurriedly ran in front of the rock wall with my guns tight.

“Ah, Altair!”

The rock wall was sloping, so it was at a level where you could go down with a good foot.

And under that rock wall, Altair with the Ghost Tiger in front of him was holding a sword. Ghost Tiger was still biting Dory, who seemed to have fainted from the shock.

‘A scarper will come out soon…’

As I looked with my anxious eyes, the senior of the Beta platoon, who was watching below me next to me, shouted.

“More than corporals! Get down quickly!”

“Yes… !”

‘…It wouldn’t have been like this in the original.’

The corporals are unaware of the belated appearance of Scarper.

Even if I foretold the Scarper would appear, no one would believe me, so I must act.

‘XX, let’s just do something crazy.’

In the end, I almost rolled over the rock and fell down, just like Altair did.

Thud-!

At the same time as me, I heard someone jumping and landing next to me. He looked at me lying on the floor with a puzzled expression on his face.

“Saruvia, you really…”

Winter was amazed.

“You’re really not afraid.”

“…”

“I’ll tell you later about not obeying the order to come down with only the corporals.”

… He looked at me for a moment as if I was a fearless kid, but Winter moved swiftly like an ace.

In an instant, he ran to Altair’s side, and I grunted and got up from my spot. Several seniors were descending one after another down the rock wall.

“Hey, what are you?!”

A senior from Gamma Platoon, who had told l only corporals should come down, saw me and shouted, but it meant nothing because the members of my platoon were already coming down as long as they were in good health. Aquila, Caron, Ishina, Sanchez, and Benny were all going down the rock wall.

Anyway, we ran towards where Altair was confronting the Ghost Tiger. Altair, who held the sword in both hands and looked back at us, raised one corner of his mouth and smiled.

“What are you all doing…”

Oh my god, I was in danger of dying.

Dory’s body, which had been taken by the Ghost Tiger, was lying flat a little further away.

And as Winter and Altair fought dazzlingly with swords against the Ghost Tiger, some senior officers joined in, and the Ghost Tiger quickly began to collapse.

“Ah, XX, what kind of trouble is this during the march?”

Looking down at the ghost tiger’s body that had finally fallen to the floor, Altair exclaimed with an annoyed voice. Still, he said to the other soldiers with a smile on his face.

“Thank you all for coming down, let’s go finish the march now!”

“Ah, keep people apart!”

“What happened?”

Until the march, everyone was struggling to die, but after going through an incident of saving a successor who was bitten by a monster, everyone seemed to feel rewarded.

And among them, I was the only one unable to solve my expression.

‘Why didn’t it show up?’

Obviously, I thought Scarper would show up when I was distracted by Ghost Tiger. Isn’t that the rule of thumb?

‘What? Isn’t this the time?’

The members of the unit, who had come down to the bottom of the rock, breathed a sigh of relief that the work was over, and were climbing up the rock again. The atmosphere was about to end.

Winter was approaching the ghost tiger’s body, and Altair seemed to come up with the stunned body of Dory.

“I, ah… l”

The very moment I was about to ask Altair and Winter if there is any possibility that other monsters will appear.

“Ah.”

Finally what I had been waiting for appeared.

A monster that appeared after smelling blood.

Wherever there is the smell of blood, it will come to you. I was educated many times by seniors.

You must have killed Altair in the original.

Omnivorous scavengers of this mountain. 2nd class monster.

“Scarper.”

A monster that eats anything that sheds blood.

A huge, hideous brown body, a face full of hair that you can’t even tell where your eyes are, a huge mouth that can swallow anything at once, and a beard that grows all around your mouth.

The whole body had a bizarre appearance, but above all else, the reason why it felt scary.

Scarper doesn’t have legs. It slides over the ground and makes no sound. And to swallow the food, it pulls the food with its slippery tentacles on its body.

The inside of the mouth, which secretes acid-flowing saliva to dissolve food at once, and the tentacles that can also secrete acid to subdue food resistance.

‘Oh, it was because of that injury.’

I realized what Scarper had brought to this place.

Blood was flowing from Dory’s body, which was bitten by the Ghost Tiger!

The moment I saw the tentacles move over Dory’s body lying on the floor, I acted faster than ever.

Raise and lower the lever to load the bullet, I pulled at the same time

Bang-!

As soon as the bullets were fired, Altair quickly turned around. Winter’s face was distorted when he saw the scarper because he couldn’t feel any vibrations.

Scarper’s tentacles, which had risen above Dory’s head, lost their strength after being hit by a bullet and fell down.

“This!”

Altair immediately lifted Dory’s body and wrapped his arms around her.

‘I have to smash the head!’

There was no blow to the head, so the Scarper was still alive. I went straight to attack the head.

The Scarper then drooled, with his mouth wide open, and he tried to swallow Altair.

Then I must first attack in the direction that keeps the scarper away from Altair!

Bang-!

As my bullets hit, Scarper’s body shook violently.

Winter also fired his aura blade, cutting off some of Scarper’s tentacles.

Upon attack, the Scarper appeared to be trying to get rid of anything that interfered with his meal. It completely removed itself from Altair.

Right now was the time to attack.

So even if the Scarper was coming towards me, I couldn’t back down. Even as the scarper extended its tentacles towards me, I kept my eyes focused to the scarper’s head.

Seethe-

The acid touched my skin and I felt unbearable pain, but right now…

Bang-!

The bullet smashed and pierced Scarper’s head, and the body fell powerlessly as it was.

“You…”

Altair, who was holding Dory, looked at me with surprised eyes.

I just lost strength in my legs and sat down. My head was dizzy.

‘I stopped it.’

Altair lifted Dory’s body away from Scarper’s corpse, and Winter approached me with amazement.

Ishina and Yuri, who was almost the last to climb the rock, heard the gunshot and came down the rock.

“Hey, what just happened?!”

Yuri, who was always cold-hearted, stuttered and tapped Altair’s shoulder. She saw Altair with a blank expression on his face, and then came up to me.

“Saruvia, there are no injuries… ”

“Hmph.”

A suppressed cry came out of my mouth. I bit my lips and tried to hold back my tears.

It hurts.

Realizing that it was all over, the skin of my arm that had touched the acid started to hurt.

“Why, why. Where are you hurt?”

Yuri looked at me, sweating profusely.

However, when my cry was about to come out, and I tried to speak, the words didn’t come out. I really wanted to say it again and again, but it didn’t work out.

“Hah, ah, it hurts…”

Suddenly everything was sad.

Why the hell am I going through so much trouble in this damn world?

There are no tears in the Border Guard Forces, and I don’t know what to do about it now.

Eventually tears came out, and I just got so sad and started to cry.

“Hmm, my arm…”

“Arm, arm?”

Yuri seemed to have found the clothes near my arm that had just melted away.

“What’s this?!”

Altair, who had come to his senses and approached, shouted in a surprised voice as if he had grasped the situation.

“Have you ever been in a mountain? First aid, please!”

“Oh, water!”

After regaining composure at Altair’s words, Yuri opened the water bottle and poured water over my arm.

Then my arm got worse and I just started crying more. I was determined to let it be as it should now.

“Saruvia.”

Ishina, who came closer, took me in his arms and began to pat me on the back with a familiar hand.

“Ugh, no! It hurts, ufh.”

“Yes. It hurts.”

While he comforted me, Yuri and Altair quickly completed first aid.

I cried so much that the tears covered my vision and I couldn’t see in front of me. As Ishina continued to pat me on the back, I became even more embarrassed.

There was no sign of stopping the crying, and just as I was pouring out all these emotions, I heard Aquila’s voice.

“…Why, why are you hurt?”

But at this moment, he was very happy.

“I, I’m cold, ugh.”

“You’re cold?”

Aquila asked me as he grabbed my body, and Yuri, who took out a new canteen and poured water, asked.

“Is it hot? Cold?”

“Ah, no, hah, it’s cold, hah.”

“That, yes…”

I just cried like a child because I was so sad about this situation, and at the same time, I felt relieved that everything was finally over.

I also prevented the death of the original Altair and ended my march.

And I couldn’t stop crying.

Despite the soothing voices, I looked up at them with a weeping face.

The memories of those lonely days at the orphanage.

The memories of Saruvia before I possessed her, where she couldn’t get along at the orphanage and had to live in a heterogeneous way, and she was always alone.

At the beginning of my enlistment, I, who was unable to adapt to the Border Guard Force and always wanted to desert, and some of my comrades who were by my side.

And now.

There were colleagues in front of me who tried to appease me somehow, there were confrontations, there were Yuri and Altair…

‘It is true that this world is an apocalypse like X.’

Strangely, I liked this moment right now. The present was better than the past I’ve been through.

The fact that I had to give up my name to gain the memory of the original came as quite a shock to me, even though I thought I might never be able to overcome the loss of my name for the rest of my life.

I seemed to have glimpsed the possibility of being freed from that heavy experience.

“Oh, look at the bruise.”

Yuri, who was tearing the clothes near my arm, said with a disgusted voice.

She seemed to have found a thick bruise on my right shoulder from practicing my gun.

“Doesn’t this hurt too?”

“No, it’s because of the gun.”

While Yuri and Altair were talking and giving first aid to my wounds, I spoke in a watery voice to Ishina, who was comforting me at the front.

“I, I… I don’t want to go back.”

“Yes, yes.”

It’s natural for people to have a desire to live, and that’s what I’ve always thought about, but this made me even stronger.

I will never die like the original Saruvia. I will not lose all these relationships I have built up so far, and I will never go back.

By giving up my name, I was shattering my former world as well. So I had only one option.

“Before I enlisted, I… It’s better now, better now… So I will never go back.”

“Yeah, you’re not going back.”

In the gentle, soothing voice, the energy of my body was gradually draining away, but it felt like my head was getting hotter.

I will never die.

In this crazy apocalyptic world, I will never lose.

* * *

On the road back.

Looking at the back of Saruvia being carried by Aquila, Yuri asked Winter, who was walking to her left.

“Hey.”

“… Ah oh?”

Perhaps Winter had lost his mind, and reacted awkwardly to Yuri’s words. Seeing that scene, Yuri wanted to sigh once more.

Yuri remembered the previous Saruvia crying.

It was her first march, so she had a lot of trouble, but she must have been surprised to kill the monster that suddenly appeared in that state, and even her arm was injured, so she deserved the tears.

Aquila and Ishina soothed Saruvia in a very familiar way.

And then, at the moment when she had rushed to take first aid and retreated, Yuri looked at Winter’s face.

‘…It was broken.’

While everyone was giving first aid or comforting Saruvia, Winter was standing alone a little further away, stiff.

He clearly had a surprised expression on his face. Saruvia, who was crying, was so awkward that it seemed as if he had no idea what to do.

“Hey, didn’t you know it was going to be like this?”

Yuri said while glaring at Winter.

“I! No! She did it!”

Winter responded with an awkward voice to her scolding.

“…Yeah.”

What came out of his mouth was an unfamiliar voice that Yuri had never heard before.

“Why is she so weak?”

“…What?”

Altair, who was walking to the left of Winter, also looked back at Winter with strange eyes.

“It’s because you’re overestimating it. She can cry in that situation…”

Altair was speaking in defense of Saruvia, who had helped him, but Winter’s meaning of “weak” seemed different from what he had imagined.

“Yeah… Weak…”

Winter didn’t seem to be aware of Altair’s and Yuri’s existence.

“But strong.”

“What?”

“Even though she looks weak, she is stronger than anything else.”

He mumbled the words “weak” and “strong” alternately like a person who had attained enlightenment, and then looked at Saruvia’s back with blue eyes as he walked away.

Altair and Yuri, who watched the scene, exchanged glances with thoughts awkwardly.

‘Yuri, don’t you think something is strange about that state?’

‘Yes.’

‘Isn’t that an illusion?’

‘Most of my misconceptions are true.’

‘Then I’m sure.’

Altair sighed and looked up at the sky. The sky, when the sun had risen, was refreshingly unsuitable for this mess.

‘My colleague is in danger of being moved…’

Altair prayed that Winter wasn’t in the “the emotional state” he thought he was.

* * *

“Saruvia.”

“Yes…?”

I was lying in the dormitory, half-conscious, and I woke up to a voice calling my name.

After the march in hell, the entire platoon fell into a resting state, and all were asleep except for those who had to stand guard.

And in my case, of course, I missed work because I was injured.

After receiving treatment from the medical officer in the company, my injured area seemed to have healed, but as I was crying while marching, I was exhausted and laid in bed.

“Altair?”

When I barely opened my eyes, I saw Altair standing at the entrance of the dormitory.

Yuri, who seemed to have just woken up, motioned for Altair to come in. Altair closed the door and entered the dormitory.

“Are you okay with your injuries?”

“Oh, yes. He said it would be completely healed in a few days.”

“Yeah, that’s good.”

After saying that, he turned his head for nothing, then looked at me again and said.

“Hey, thank you for saving me.”

“Ah…”

“If it weren’t for you, I would be dead.”

“That’s right. You should really thank Saruvia.”

Yuri also spoke in from the side.

“Well, so…”

Altair, who doesn’t usually say things like this, shook his head as if embarrassed. However, he met Yuri’s urging eyes and finally opened his mouth.

“If there is something difficult, tell me.”

“What?”

“We will do everything we can to help.”

Yuri nodded too.

Seeing that, my face brightened.

‘I can hear myself boarding the real line!’

Of course, Altair and Yuri had taken great care of me during that time, but it seemed that Altair was truly impressed by the fact that I saved his life.

Now that the only corporals above them were Gagne and Zara, no one would say anything if I were to go out further than before.

‘I saved his colleague, so Winter will be nice to me too.’

Even after Winter was promoted to commander of this unit, my line will remained strong!

While I was smiling brightly, before leaving the dormitory, Altair looked back and said:

“Oh, and…”

“Yes?”

“If Winter’s behavior seems strange.”

“What?”

“Report to me right away.”

Altair left behind those words and left.

‘What are you talking about?’

I looked at Yuri with eyes asking for an explanation, but Yuri got up from her seat with an dry cough for nothing.

“Yuri?”

“Hey, Altair! Let me come with you!”

Seeing how Yuri left too, I felt a bit bewildered.

“What is it?”

Could it be that Winter, the original second male protagonist, fell in love with me according to the possessive cliché?

But I…

‘I’m not being deceived, you bastards.’

How many times have I been fooled by this crazy world! Don’t be fooled! Never be fooled!

* * *

“Come on, you are my colleague. Now, let’s take time for an honest introspection.”

Altair, who sat to the left of Winter, said.

“Okay, let’s hold hands and share this worry.”

Yuri, who was sitting to the right of Winter, said.

But Altair was immediately startled by Yuri’s words.

“What? I have to hold hands with this slimy bastard?!”

“…Then we can catch him together.”

In the end, Altair and Yuri held hands with Winter in between them to have an honest conversation.

Obviously something was strange. Yuri’s eyes were confused, and Winter seemed to be confused for a while, but they decided to have a conversation anyway.

“Winter, I will give you time to speak first.”

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Altair said in a solemn voice.

Winter frowned for a moment at his situational play, but originally, Altair was motivated to act that way, so he decided to accept it.

“I guess I’ve been thinking about Saruvia wrong all this time. She was weaker than I thought.”

“Okay…”

“And I realized. I guess I…”

“Wait for a moment!”

Altair, who quickly stopped Winter’s words, exchanged glances with Yuri.

‘Yuri, haven’t you forgotten?’

‘Yes yes.’

They knew that Winter was an elite who excelled at everything, but was particularly clumsy with people.

Because, when Altair and Yuri solved the ruined love story they had in their hometown before, Winter said that he had never loved anyone.

“Hey, Winter. Why are you taking love so seriously?”

But then Winter had said:

“No. Love is only when you feel that you will never be able to love anyone other than this person for the rest of your life…”

“Yeah, you’re a scumbag who’s been in love so far.”

Anyway, they figured it would be pretty easy to fool Winter’s feelings.

If Winter does fall in love, as they expected, he is more likely to show off and move out. That had to be stopped.

…In fact, above all else, seeing their best friend fall in love, it seemed a bit distasteful to them.

So, Altair and Yuri promised to convince Winter that he wouldn’t talk about love.

Altair was the first to speak in a characteristic light tone.

“Are you going to take care of her more in the future? We talked about it too!”

“Now I have to cross the line and take care of her.”

Ignoring Altair and Yuri’s words, Winter said with a firm gaze.

“Perhaps I…”

“Affection for your successor?”

“Do you feel it?”

But in the end, Winter spoke the words that everyone had been ignoring.

“Looks like I’m in love.”

“No! XX, I knew this!”

“Me too! I knew it!”

As they became distressed, Winter looked at them with an incomprehensible look.

“Why is everyone doing this?”

“If you fall in love, I don’t think I’d like to see you.”

“I’m afraid you’re going to go to the brigade.”

Then Winter nodded as if not to worry.

“You don’t have to worry about that. I will act according to the military law.”

… At those words, Altair was taken aback again.

“Huh…? You said you fell in love?”

“Right. But I can’t break the military law.”

“Then you don’t have the heart to be good at all?”

“It will be a story after I am discharged.”

“No, even if you want to do well after being discharged, you don’t have to show your heart here in advance!”

Altair pounded his chest.

“Hey, love is not an assassination! You must not hide your love!”

“But I can’t even break the military law.”

“Hah…”

In place of Altair, who was speechless, Yuri sighed deeply this time.

“Okay… You are a real soldier… Just peg it…”

From Yuri’s point of view, it was clear that Saruvia would never notice what Winter was thinking inside him in the future…

* * *

“I was all wrong.”

Winter had no choice but to admit his mistake.

He was completely wrong about Saruvia.

‘Everything is wrong.’

When he asked about her past before enlistment, he remembered Saruvia, who was silent and said that it was better than this place.

“I just grew up in an orphanage, um… I grew up really well. Well, it’s better than here anyway.”

But when her arm hurt and her emotions seemed out of control, Saruvia said she didn’t want to go back. She’d rather be here

“Before I enlisted, I… Better now, better now… So I will never go back.”

Maybe this time, Winter didn’t know the world too well.

It’s Winter himself, though his parents are of different races, and he has walked a solid elite path in a family with economic power.

He didn’t know how a young heterogeneous race left alone without parents is treated. Saruvia couldn’t have been happier in that orphanage.

“Children of unguarded races are sometimes used by warlocks as enchantments.”

Even though Winter had said that to himself, he felt stupid for not thinking about what Saruvia’s past would have been like in that case.

So, as Winter thought, Saruvia wasn’t always positive and bright because she was loved and raised.

‘Come to think of it, that’s what she said back then.’

“No matter how terrifying a person’s appearance may be, there are countless things in the world to be afraid of.”

Those were the words of Saruvia, who was not afraid at all when he saw her.

Saruvia wasn’t brave. It was just that she had seen a darker reality than others to be frightened by trivial things.

‘It’s even more terrifying…’

He pondered.

In his mind, the image of Saruvia, who was crying with an injured arm again, came to mind.

Saruvia was crying and wailing at Ishina, who was wiping her tears away. It was something Winter had never seen before.

He thought that he was being unreasonable to her, but she was more friendly to Ishina, his opponent. Ishina seemed familiar with Saruvia’s foolish attitude like that.

‘And the bruised shoulder…’

It’s normal for a shoulder to bruise after repeated shooting training, but strangely, Winter felt his heart pound when he saw the bruise.

Because Winter fully realized it at that moment.

Saruvia has never been strong from the start.

Just to survive, she would have to be strong and pretend to be strong.

But in reality she was only a very fragile being…

Realizing that, he started to feel a strange feeling.

In the meantime, it was annoying to see other people living their lives according to Winter’s standards, but strangely, Saruvia didn’t seem to offend him no matter what she did.

Winter hypothesized that Saruvia was breaking the military law and breaking the imperial law.

… After all, he didn’t really want to stop her.

‘It’s strange.’

Was it because he found out that Saruvia’s life, which started as a fragile being, was moving in any direction with her own will? Knowing that she continued to struggle for life?

Winter struggled to find a reason for this desire to leave without pointing out only Saruvia, but…

‘…In fact, they might all be excuses.’

There was no way to explain that feeling anymore.

Even when Saruvia jumped into his life and acted, smashing all the principles he had established, Winter wanted to watch her more.

“…It’s a waste of time to try to find a reason when you know the answer.”

He knew what this feeling was. It is something that cannot be ignored forever.

So finally Winter made a decision.

Although in front of Altair and Yuri, he said he would obey the military law to reassure them…

‘As long as I don’t break the military law, it’ll be fine.’

From now on, Winter was just going to do whatever his heart desires.

* * *

“Saruvia, what have you been doing?”

“Ah.”

As soon as I heard a familiar voice behind me, my pupils began to shake.

I just accidentally crushed the flowers in the flower bed and was in a hurry to get rid of the traces…

‘You caught me.’

Finally, I looked at Winter with my eyebrows drooping. It was to show an attitude of reflection.

“Winter. I accidentally crushed the flowers, but I’ve been covering up the situation…”

I started explaining the situation, but Winter’s reaction was surprisingly bland.

“Okay.”

“…What?”

“Do what you want.”

“I don’t think I heard well… l?”

“If you want to, you can.”

‘…Does that mean that you will let me do what I want?’

But Winter really left me without any further comments…

‘…What?’

Normally, I would have listened to about 20 minutes of nagging about crushing flowers and trying to cover up the incident…

Looking back, Winter these days didn’t point things out to me as much as in the past.

Since I was riding his line, the attitude of letting it go, no matter what I did, was very offensive.

It will never be a story about falling in love or falling in love according to a ropan cliché. Because in the original, Winter tried to completely control Darlene as well.

‘Then maybe…’

After frowning and pondering, I finally figured it out!

‘Now you just gave up on me!’

…No, of course, I’ve made a few mistakes, but he’s giving up this much?

It’s so comfortable that you gave up on me, but somehow I feel bad…

* * *

Winter’s changes did not stop there.

“Aquila, be careful not to crash.”

“Oh, yes.”

“If you fight, you might get hurt.”

Winter and Aquila seemed to be fighting a strange nerve war every time they trained.

It was an attitude that seemed similar to when they were fighting a nerve war over the female protagonist in the original story.

‘…Ropan cliché?’

Okay, the positive circuit restarted.

Could it be that, without my knowledge, I became the heroine of a novel and the two of them are fighting over me?

“How are you going to freeze the fire?”

“Do you think I can’t?”

…It was just a natural conflict due to the fire and ice properties… Now that Winter has had some time, he can express his discomfort towards Aquila…

Well, Winter had a reaction from the time Aquila first awakened the fire attribute…

‘Hey, what about Ropan…’

Don’t be fooled now! Don’t be fooled! Don’t be fooled, you bastard!

* * *

“Well…”

Benny muttered as she looked at Winter and Aquila while crouching down, and Saruvia standing a little further away.

“DDelicious.”

“…What do you eat?”

Ishina interrupted from behind in an absurd voice, and Benny quickly smiled.

“It’s nothing!”

…But it was still delicious, so Benny nodded with satisfaction. It seemed that the small pleasures of military life would continue in the future.

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After learning of Aquila’s plans, Winter could not hide his shock.

“To use such a wrong method…”

In Winter’s eyes looking at Aquila, he could feel his life even now.

“Black magic is magic forbidden by the state, and the side effects of using black magic have a bad effect on the entire empire. Still using black magic?”

“As long as I have Saruvia, I don’t need everything.”

Aquila, now facing his senior Winter, did not hide his hostility towards him.

They’ve always been like that.

The reluctant feelings they had since they had auras with opposite attributes reached their climax when they craved something at the same time.

Aquila thought that Winter didn’t show any longing for Saruvia, and looked down on him.

Winter denounced Aquila’s willingness to do anything.

They were now ready to fight with their swords drawn, so Ishina, who had been watching them with a smile before, intervened.

“Really, why are you all like this…”

After giving Aquila a glance to stop, Ishina held Winter’s arm to stop him.

And the moment Winter’s gaze shifted to Ishina.

“Winter is a person who values principles so much… Are you preparing for rebellion?”

“…What?”

In an instant, Winter’s breathing stopped.

It wasn’t the reaction he would get when he heard something completely unfounded.

Rather, it was closer to the reaction of the person stabbed in the corner.

Winter didn’t answer, so Ishina continued to question him.

“Why? Did you know that I did not know?”

“How…”

“The duchy in which Darlene worked is an important road to the Imperial Palace. You kept asking for information about the dukedom, and the letters from outside are mixed with maps of the imperial palace.”

After that, Winter didn’t ask how he knew about it anymore.

Because it seemed meaningless to deny it anymore.

“So, Winter is trying to overthrow this country?”

“Fine.”

Now Winter strode forward and looked at Aquila and Ishina.

“All routes are in my head. There is enough opportunity to strike the Emperor’s neck.”

No matter how much he loves Saruvia, Winter can never agree to using black magic to summon her.

He always followed what was right, and he was under the rules.

‘Besides, it is unknown whether Saruvia will be satisfied with her new body. We don’t know her will.’

But if there is a wrong principle from the beginning among the principles he must follow. To take revenge on the root cause of Saruvia’s death-

Wouldn’t it be about overturning this country?

“I don’t want to bring Saruvia back. I will cut off the emperor’s head, and I will die together.”

If Saruvia was still alive, she would agree.

Winter has long been told that was different from other races.

For example, he did not harbor antipathy towards the imperial family like other races, but rather had loyalty to the emperor as a faithful member of the Adolf Empire.

No matter how unreasonable the imperial family was to the existence of a ‘heterogeneous race’, he did not think about it and just silently did what he had to do.

So, if it was the Winter of the past, treason would never have been unimaginable, but…

‘The law that made Saruvia die, the country that made Saruvia die. Everything is wrong.’

What Aquila and Ishina were unaware of was that Winter himself was not following the same principles as before.

Perhaps from the time when Saruvia burst into tears in front of Altair’s death could not be stopped.

No, from the moment she wrote that letter in crooked letters.

Saruvia may have become his principle.

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tler note: these ‘chapters’ are novel chapters instead of kkp episodes, meaning each release is about 20k+ words, so updates won’t be frequent as there are many pages tl.