My Endless Love

Chapter 624: sorry is powerless, but I still want to say something.

Chapter 624: sorry is powerless, but I still want to say

But the most terrible and unbearable thing was the long night...

On the first night he was separated from her, there was no warm and fragrant jade in his arms that he was most familiar with. He was not used to it. It was as if the bedroom that had slept for so long had become so strange and cold as if the air had stopped flowing...

Then he looked at the endless darkness in the room. He couldn't breathe and felt terrible... In the big dark bedroom, only his painful breathing could be heard...

This time when he was temporarily separated from her, he realized just how much damage that silly little woman had done to him...

She easily broke his heart, tore his heart... And made him suffer this kind of situation... What else could he do... In this life, he had completely fallen into her hands...

The man leaned against the pillow, his sour eyes closed and opened, and his vision was dark. Without his Mrs. Li by his side, there was no light in his world...

His breathing got heavier and heavier, and his longing for her surged like a tidal wave, drowning him. He felt like he was going crazy...

I wonder what she's doing now... Sleeping, still missing each other like him, tossing and turning in bed, still crying...

My heart started to ache yesterday, but it hasn't been numb yet. Li Tingchen smiled bitterly and became stronger and stronger. He was trained by that little woman...

People say that love is a very toxic thing. Don't touch it so easily. If you touch it, be prepared to get addicted. Gu Yinian, you poisoned me so much, and now you're leaving me alone...

He couldn't hold it any longer. He fumbled for the phone by the bed.

The screen lit up, reflecting his haggard, pale, pained, sunken handsome face. He stared at the dozens of missed calls and messages, his thin lips curled up and he smiled coldly, but his ruined eyes still flashed with anticipation.

Would there be her... Would she send him a text or something...

Hopefully, she slid her long, slender fingers down, but none of them... They were all for work, grandparents, and a few brothers' phone calls. No matter how she looked for them, none of them belonged to that woman...

That part of the man's heart, it hurts again... Do you really have to be so cruel... I miss you so much, but you really, ignore me...

Li Tingchen smiled bitterly, and for some reason, a wave of hatred welled up in his heart... Suddenly, he felt a little unworthy of himself... That overbearing selfishness came back to haunt him...

There was a voice in his heart that was bewitching him, and you shouldn't have let her go, or you should have been more ruthless, imprisoned her, cried out in spite of her pain, and shouldn't have let her leave you... Now that it's all right, you're the only one in pain...

His breathing became rapid. He called out a text message, called up the familiar number that he had memorized in his heart, and then pressed the keyboard on the phone with his long, slender fingers as fast as he could...

Was he the only one who was sad and in pain... Of course not, was she happy?

It was as if she had cried all her tears for the rest of her life. It was such a cold and horrible night. It was exactly the same as when she lost him in the past two months. Gu Yinian was tossing and turning in bed. She was really tired. Her stomach hurt a little. It was as if the babies were reminding her incompetent mommy to rest early... But she couldn't sleep...

He opened his eyes and closed them. His haggard, pained face was shaking in front of her eyes. He kept asking her, "How long are you going to torture me?"

His characteristic hoarse and mournful voice forced her tears out again. In the darkness, tears were hazy. She gasped and clutched the heavy quilt on her body. She felt suffocated...

Miss him so much... Miss her Li Tingchen... But... But... But this can't be... This is not right... The first night, you can't stand it, Gu Yinian, how can you not use this kind of situation...

She bit her lips so hard that she wouldn't make a sound, allowing the glistening tears to slide down in the dark and wet the pillow...

Gu Yinian, you have to be strong. You have to endure it. It's only the first night. It's only the first night...

She said this to herself over and over again in her heart, and then she suppressed the yearning. However, her heart still ached, and was tightened by the deep yearning for a man. No matter what, she could not relax...

Love... Their love, why must it be so difficult, must it hurt so much...

At this moment, the cell phone beside the pillow suddenly lit up. This light, in such a dead darkness, was so abrupt. Gu Yinian looked at the cell phone blankly, and his heart jumped out of his body...

It was a text message, a text message from him...

"Honey... Are you asleep? I miss you so much..."

It was such a short note, but every single line of it was trying to reveal his pain. Every single word pierced into her heart, as if it was going to blind her eyes...

Those four words, I miss you so much... The petite body that made her curl up in bed, trembling violently...

In the middle of the night, loneliness, pain, all hooked up...

It was really hard to imagine what kind of posture he was in to send this message. Gu Yinian felt that he was numb now...

Her consciousness was blurry, her eyes were blinded, her mind was blank, and she didn't know what to do next... All she knew was that the corner of her eyes was broken, and her hot tears were winding into a river...

She turned off her cell phone, took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and kept telling herself in her heart, sleep, it's time to sleep, or else, in a while, you'll be in the same pain as before all night...

But the phone, which had just been turned off, lit up again... It was as if a demon was chasing after her soul, not letting her suffer to the extreme, not stopping...

Another text message.

"Niannian... I don't know if you're asleep, but I want to tell you this, whether you can see it or not."

Her heart was breaking...

"First of all, I'm sorry, my dear Mrs. Li, I've broken my promise again... I'm a bastard, a beast, and I've sworn countless times that I would love and protect you, never let you be bullied again, hurt you, make you cry... But I didn't expect that this time, the person who hurt you was me... Your husband, I'm a bastard..."

Gu Yinian's heart ached...

His message continued.

"I can't touch the sand in my eyes. When I see you getting close to other men, I'm so crazy that I want to kill... It's my fault, my possessiveness is too strong, I know I'm wrong..."

"Niannian, I know that the three words'sorry' carry too little weight. It's really not enough to make you forget the harm I've done to you, not enough to make you forgive me... But ah, please forgive your Mr. Li's incompetence... The words are poor. Besides'sorry', I don't know what to say..."

"I don't know if you're looking at it now, but Mrs. Li, Mr. Li still has to say... I'm sorry... Please, Mr. Li's favorite Mrs. Li, don't be angry, go home early..."

This was the last text message, and then it was gone. That was enough, because her eyes were blind from crying, and she was in sharp pain. She stuck it out from the bottom of her heart, deeper and deeper, unable to pull it out...

She clutched her phone tightly, her eyes misty with tears. She saw herself, typing out a few words with her trembling hands uncontrollably. I missed you too... But in the end, she was unable to send the message. The phone slipped down, she covered her eyes, and the burning tears burned her palms...

She couldn't help it, she couldn't control her sobs anymore... Her sobs slowly grew, and Cen Huan and Lu Lifeng next door heard them clearly...

Nestled in Lu Lifeng's arms, leaning against his chest, Cen Huan pursed her lips and sighed, "Oh, niannian is crying again..."

Cen Huan couldn't sleep at once. Lu Lifeng lowered his sleepy eyes and hugged her tightly. He leaned over and kissed her, "Don't worry about them. They'll make up soon. Trust me."

"How do you know?"

Lu Lifeng closed his handsome face, hugged her tightly, took a breath and said softly, "Look at her crying so sadly, does it prove that she can't let go of Tingchen at all, and that bastard? He was abusing himself, hurting himself while abusing others, and begging for forgiveness at the same time. He was cheap! And just now, Tingchen called me n times. That tone of voice, it's so overwhelming. I can't wait to come here and plead guilty. Don't worry, don't bother with them. Let them go. Let's sleep."

Cen Huan: ..."

Just like that, the painful night for the two of them passed, and the next day, will it be okay?

I just want that love to stop torturing the two of them...

The next day, it rained... It was as if the heavens had felt the pain between the couple and shed tears...

Lightning, thunder, and rain fell on the ground, enveloping the entire city a. The whole day, the weather was gloomy, just like people's mood...

However, throughout the day, she stroked her bulging belly and stood outside the french window, staring blankly at the pouring rain. She had only used a little of the food that Cen Huan had brought in. She held her cell phone and looked at it from time to time. Every time she looked at it, her broken heart tightened even more...

Until night fell again, and with the pouring rain, the lonely city was tightly surrounded...

Except for the text message last night, he never contacted her again...

Gu Yinian felt like she was crazy... This love, she was bound to death by the thought of him...

Now that she was in such a state, even she despised herself...

What the hell are you doing... Angry at him while being surrounded by that crazy yearning for him, Gu Yinian, that's enough... What the hell are you doing? Are you comfortable torturing two people, him and yourself like this?

When she opened her eyes and closed them, it was the pained handsome face that he had been staring at her from downstairs last night. She knew that she could not do it... The so-called temporary separation for a while, she realized that she could not do it...

Her red and swollen eyes stared blankly at the rain outside the window. She closed her eyes and tears rolled down her face. She missed Li Tingchen so much... She hoped that he would appear the next second... She admitted that she was useless... She admitted that she couldn't leave him...

Was it because she didn't reply to his message yesterday that he got angry and didn't want to talk to her anymore?

She was scared... Panicked...

Under the dim light, her tiny body standing at the window trembled, tears pattering down, like the rain outside the window, pattering, until, downstairs, there were waves of loud shouts mixed with the rain, but they were very clear to her ears.

"Niannian! Gu Yinian! I'm sorry!"

That roar made her suddenly widen her eyes. Her breathing stopped and her body trembled even more. She didn't even have time to wipe away her tears. She quickly pushed open the french window and stepped onto the balcony. The cold hit her.

At that moment, there seemed to be a time bomb in her mind, a bang, blew her to pieces...

Gu Yinian felt his heart being torn apart again... Tears welled up in his empty eyes, only because the tall figure who had been thinking about him for two days and an hour was standing in the rain, looking up at her, screaming hoarsely in waves...

It's Li Tingchen... He's here...