My Evil Boy Toy

I cried like there was no tomorrow. I woke in a hospital bed three days after the incident. They told me that Mireya had died even before I arrived in the hospital. I lost a lot of blood, and I was lucky to be alive.

The knife directly pierced Mireya's heart, so she died in an instant inside me. It was heartbreaking. Jayden was trying to comfort me, but I couldn't face him, so I asked my father not to let anyone inside the room.

Although Jayden was my husband, the doctors understood what I felt and explained everything to him. Maybe he also felt the same, so he didn't try to force me to see him.

Father was the one who took care of me at the hospital. I didn't want anyone to see me. I didn't even ask what happened at the palace after. As if I didn't care about anyone.

"Margaret, you have to be strong. What about your son? He's just three years old, and he needs you." Father would always say.

I know Caden needs me. But I couldn't face him and Jayden. We were already planning a trip after I gave birth to Mireya. I ruined it. I ruined everything.

I laid down on my hospital bed and closed my eyes, hoping that I would dream of Mireya again. But before I fell asleep, I felt someone enter my room. I didn't bother to open my eyes and pretended I was sleeping.

When a warm hand touched mine, I wanted to cry again. It was a familiar feeling. It was my husband's.

"Love? Father said you were sleeping, so I came. I could only do this while you were sleeping. I want you to know that I don't blame you. No one's blaming you so, please don't blame yourself and come back to me. I love you. Caden and I will wait for you." He whispered, then kissed me on the lips and left.

I cried again when he left. The door opened, and I saw my father rushing towards me. He held my hand but didn't say a word.

"It's too painful, father. How can this be so painful? How could I face my husband and my son? All I could think of was my daughter. I know I should just accept it. Nothing will come out of this anyway, but it's too hard to move on. I felt like half of me died with her. My heart is being crushed over and over."

Father let me cry. He was the only one I allowed to be in my room, and I know he wasn't used to this kind of thing. But I was thankful that he was with me.

"Margaret, you can't avoid your husband forever. Talk to him. Tell him your feelings. You are not the only one who lost a daughter. Your husband was trying to be strong for you and Caden. He was just outside your room and didn't want to leave you. You will get through this if you are together." Father advised.

He was right. Jayden was also in pain. He was so happy when he found out I was pregnant. He wanted to be present in this journey since he missed it when I was pregnant with Caden. It was my fault back then, and avoiding him was like crushing his heart twice.

I nodded then father leaned forward and kissed me on the forehead. He turned around and went outside to call Jayden.

I kept on biting my lips, and my heart was beating so fast. I was taking deep breaths while waiting for Jayden. When the door opened, tears started falling again.

Jayden rushed towards me, hugging me tightly. I felt his body shaking, and I knew that he was also crying. I wrapped my arms around him, embracing him tighter.

We just cried for; I don't even know how long. I felt Jayden's pain and guilt. It was the same as mine.

"We will get through this together. I'm here, Peg. I'm here. Let's cry if we want to. We need it." He whispered.

I nodded and didn't say a word. We were crying in each other's arms. He laid down beside me after, then we talked about my dream.

"She looked like me. A mini version of me. She was so radiant, and I felt so peaceful when I was with her. She told me how much she loves you. She asked me not to blame ourselves. That she was already happy knowing that she was loved. She was so innocent. She didn't even ask why she had to die. It was so painful."

Jayden took my hand and kissed me on the forehead. I could see dark circles around his eyes.

"She appeared in my dream as well, last night. She was scolding me, though. She told me why I was leaving you alone. She said she was happy that I was his dad. I was able to hug and kiss her. I was able to say I love you to her, and I was able to say goodbye. It's hard. But we need to let her go, Peg. She wouldn't be happy if we continued to be like this. At least we were able to see an older her. She's so pretty like you." 

I was happy to hear that Jayden was able to see her. It was hard and painful, but with Jayden and Caden, I know everything will be alright.

"I'm sorry for pushing you away. We will get over this, right?" I asked. 

He nodded and kissed me on the lips.

"We will. I promise." He said in a reassuring voice.

I leaned my head to his chest and heard his heart beating. I suddenly missed Caden and would like to see him.

Then the issue at the palace came to my mind.

"What happened to Alejandro Rossi? Did he tell Kyle who was his boss?" I asked.

"Yes. But it was too late. He was already gone to look for Kyle's heir." Jayden answered.

"Who was it? Tell me."

Jayden sighed deeply and hesitated at first. Then he looked into my eyes with a serious face.

"It was your foster father, Benjamin Miller."