My Ex is my Bestfriend

When I woke up, Ethan was gone from the bed. But I heard someone cooking outside. He'll be going now and I feel sad. I want to move on but I guess it has to take time more time for me. I realized I gave my everything to him, considered him as my world. And when he left, I was left in pieces. But I'm finding my way to get back all the pieces and mend it. If I can't do this alone, I hope someone comes into my life to help me be whole again.

Sigh~

I got up, took a bath and dressed. I found out that some of my dresses are getting smaller? Or is it me that's getting bigger? Oh I guess this is inevitable, since Minho has been feeding me nonstop and I haven't jogged for how many weeks now. Hmmm, I think this weekend would do since it's the last week of classes before Christmas vacation. Oh how time flies. Sigh.

"So what to wear? Hmmmm"

The door suddenly opened and I jumped out in fright.

"What took you so long-" Ethan stopped talking when he saw me wearing only my undergarments.

I smirked. "Why do you look surprised? You have seen everything."

"Yeah sorry, I didn't realize you were not still dressed." He came closer and rubbed himself on my tummy. I felt him, hard. "So what took you so long?"

I breathed heavily. How can I be swayed by this? I stammered, "Uh, I-I, I.. I think my clothes are getting smaller?"

"Your clothes? Getting smaller? Pffft pig." And he howled in laughter.

I pouted. "What did you just call me?"

"Pig." And he laughed once again.

I threw a dress at him. "Hate you."

He then wrapped his arms around me and whispered, "Then let's get you fit again."

I looked at him confusingly, "How?"

He grinned, and unclasped my bra as an answer.

***

I was outside my apartment, waiting for Minho, talking to myself.

"I promise to myself that that was the last time I'm having sex with Ethan. I promise. I promise. I promise. I promise. I promise. I-"

"What do you promise?"

I jumped in surprise and looked for the speaker. "Minho! When did you arrive?"

I roamed my eyes and found his car on the side. The engine was cut off, so I think he was there standing for a little while.

"A few seconds ago. What do you promise?"

"Oh. Nothing in particular. I just promised to start doing my weekly workout."

"Why? You have an amazing body."

I blushed. Shameless. "It's just that you've been feeding me too much, and now my dresses don't fit me anymore!"

"Oh! You're worried about that? Then let's buy new clothes."

My nose flared, "But that's beside the point Minho! What I mean is, I'm getting fatter!"

He laughed. "No. I think, this is you being healthy."

"But I just want to be fit." I said, exasperated.

"Okay okay. I'll accompany you on your workout."

"Really? You'd do that?"

"Of course. I'll share to you my routine."

"Oh wow. But you won't overfeed me anymore okay?"

"Eh, I'll try my best. I love looking at you eat."

I answered him with a raised brow, urging him to go on.

He coughed. "Ehem, your cheeks are just so cute when you eat."

"What?! Just for that?" I pulled my hair. "I think I'm going psycho being with you."

"Then show me who you really are. I'll love you no matter what."

I stared hard at him, tears threatening to fall. "Love?"

He touched my face, tucking a strand of hair behind my ears. His eyes searching mine. "Yes baby. I believe I'm falling in love with you so hard. So hard, that I don't know how to stop it. I only beg of you to catch me."

A lump formed in my throat. A tear escaped my eye. "Minho, I.. I.. " Minho, I still can't.

He hugged me tightly. "Cassidy, you don't have to say it. I'll be waiting. Don't worry. I'll always be here for you. But if you tell me you've fallen for somebody else, I'll stay away from you. So that you'll be happy. That's all I ever wish for you. That's all I wanted to see from you. Your happiness, your bright smile, even if it's not for me, I'd still be happy for you."

"Minho..." and then I sobbed hard. Oh God. Please tell me that Minho and I would end up together. But do I deserve a Minho? How can I be? I don't even understand myself. But Minho, just you wait. I'll do my best to deserve you. Wait a little more.

I cried for at least a minute there. I stopped when I felt I've got no more tears left, Minho looked at me and wiped my tears.

"Hey hey baby. It's okay. Why did you cry? Did I say something wrong?"

"No Minho. I was just so touched with what you said." I paused and held his face. "I promise I'll do my best to piece myself back again."

"Well, I'll be here if you need me along the way. So don't worry okay. I'll keep you happy and healthy."

I smiled and hugged him again. "Thank you Minho. But for now let's get going. It's getting late."

***

It has been a week since Ethan left. And I've heard nothing from him ever since, except for the day he went and arrived at his mother's house.

Although I felt empty, Minho was there, keeping me company. He was with me during the weekend for our workout. On weekdays, he would visit me at home every night to bring me dinner because I don't cook when I binge watch anime. Nuh-uh! And he doesn't like me eating unhealthy food.

One night, I was lying on the couch, iPad on my hands and watching Another* and Minho was sitting across me busy on his laptop, probably their project.

After an episode, I moved a little bit to ease my muscles. I was now facing the couch and my back was now facing Minho. I have watched two episodes then when I felt something on my back.

I turned and was met by Minho's handsome face.

"Oh. Minho. What's wrong?"

He looked at my iPad and said, "That's gory."

I chuckled. "Yes, but it's a good story. Gore is the new awesome. Well, if you don't like it there are others too. You should try watching some anime."

"Hmmm. If you're with me, no problem."

"Sure."

"..."

"..."

Cass, do you want to celebrate Christmas with me?"