My Four Other Selves

Senior Zhang Yong looked at Zhang Yong as if making sure if he was saying this and then he sighed before saying, "Okay! Let's just leave that." 

He stopped saying for a minute before again saying, "You take a rest for some time and then we can leave from here. It's not safe for us to stay here long." 

Zhang Yong nodded his head before laying done there on the ground. A tear slipped his eyes as his wounds now started to hurt more and more. He wanted it to be treated badly but he knew there was nothing there with which he could even lessen his pain. 

Feeling more helpless he wanted to hid himself some where and don't come out for some time. He didn't have more courage to face any one but he knew if he want to survive he would have to gave and fight with these demons bravely. 

Zhang Yong continued laying there for some time with his front on the ground and his both hands beside his head. He wiped the tear which dared to fell out of his eyes hurriedly with the fear that Senior Zhang Yong won't see it and luckily he didn't see as he himself was sitting there in deep thoughts. 

It felt like he was also thinking about some thing deeply and Zhang Yong frowned at that before asked, "Hey! What happened to you?" 

Senior Zhang Yong now only snapped out of his thoughts and looked at Zhang Yong with a confused look before asking, "Huh? What?" 

"I am asked what happened to you! It feels like you are thinking about some thing." 

"Aaaah. It's nothing. Just......" 

Her mind was telling her to push Kay and tell him that it was not his duty to protect her any more but her heart wanted to stay close to him as she was too terrified because of the things that happened with her earlier. 

"I am fine." 

It came out as a whisper from Zila's mouth as she tried to pull back when she realized what she had been doing. 

She was again opening up for Kay and was letting her guard down by giving him permission to kiss and hug her like this. 

Kay felt Zila moving away from him and tightened his grip on her. 

He didn't want to let her go and wanted to hold for a little more with himself, close to himself. 

"I am sorry." 

Kay whispered in her ear while she replied. 

"It wasn't your fault. It's not your duty to protect me anymore." 

Kay frowned and didn't reply to her any further, he didn't want to argue with her for now because she was already too weak and if he would argue about that she would end up crying again and that would be not good for her at that moment. 

He kept on hugging her until they finally reached the hospital. 

Zila and Kay could hear the fast beatings coming from their hearts and both of them felt warmth while in each other's embrace. 

The car finally came to a halt. 

Kay let go of Zila and came out of the car. 

He was just about to pick Zila in his arms when suddenly Zila picked her hand up in front of him, gesturing him to stop and he did. 

Her whole body was sore yet she didn't let her guard down now and didn't let him pick her as she knew she would get weak after having any type of contact with Kay. 

She got out of the car on her own. 

When her feet touched the ground she felt a different sensation running through her body. 

Her wrists and ankles also soothed because of the air touching them gently. 

She was about to fell down when her legs gave up but in an instant Kay moved towards her and provided her support by giving her his hand. 

She also held it and started to walk with him. 

Zila's, all weight was on Kay while she was walking with the help of her own legs. 

Kay and Zila were just about to enter the hospital when all of a sudden a gun shot sound was heard. 

Zila moved her head and saw the bullet coming towards Kay without thinking anything, she came in front of Kay. 

She stumbled and Kay held her but she was able to come in front of Kay. 

Kay was shocked at her actions but the next thing he saw broke everything and he was left with nothing again. 

Zila got shot and just in a second blood started to ooze out of her body. 

All the world came shattering down for Kay and he felt like everything ended. 

His whole world was destroyed. 

There was complete silence beside him as he wasn't able to hear anything but in reality every one was yelling and protecting both of them. 

Some men came in front of them with their guns to protect them when Landen called out Kay and he finally got out of his trance. 

"Kay, take her to hospital now!" 

Zila was laying, lifelessly in Kay's arms. 

He finally came in reality and picked her up now in bridal style. 

He panicked now and started to run like a mad man while running inside the hospital. 

A tear fell out of his eyes as he was running and he didn't even realize it. 

Zila was already unconsciously when she got shot and that got Kay more worried. 

Some nurses came running towards him and asked him to let Zila lay on the bed so that they could take her to the emergency ward but Kay wasn't willing to let her go. 

He finally put her down on the bed and the nurses took her away in an instance. 

His eyes never left Zila until she was no more in his vision. 

Kay saw the blood on his hands and shivered badly. 

Unconsciously he fell down on the floor and held his head really hard. 

He pulled his hair and his scalp started to burn but he ignored everything and just sat while leaning on the wall in the hall where there was no person seen. 

The sadness drained through him rather than skating over his skin.

He sat there, dominated by a profound sadness, fatigue engraved on his worn face. He remembered his loss, it was another cut to his already damaged mind. 

His sadness and helplessness can be described like death by a thousand paper cuts, for every time he remembered his loss it was another cut to his already damaged mind. 

In all this sadness of his there is no past or future, just living by the moment. Every day is measured from the moment of waking into this new reality. 

He was waiting for any doctor to come out and tell him that his Zila, his wife was okay and nothing happened to her. 

Kay wasn't able to protect her. He wanted to protect her and when he thought that she was already safe then something like this happened and his world shattered. 

Kay was accusing himself for not being able to protect Zila. He was guilty because of that and wanted to kill himself. 

She wouldn't have been shot if she wouldn't have come in front of him. 

She protected him and it was sure for him that she still loved him that's why she let herself get shot. 

She didn't even care about her life and gave her everything to Kay and that was the thing for Kay to feel more and more guilty and he got engrossed in those emotions too much now. 

His mind was shut down and the only feeling he felt at that time was sadness.

Soon he saw a girl in a doctor's uniform walking inside the emergency ward. 

The doctor was now in and soon the operation started. There were many wounds on Zila's body and it was making it hard for them to continue their work. 

Kay had some tears in his eyes. He always thought that crying for someone is really stupid but today he was the one who was crying now for his wife, his Zila, his every thing. He wasn't able to keep himself together and was completely broke. 

The thought was haunting him that what will happen to Zila now. 

He murmured to himself praying for his wife. 

"Zila, please be okay. I am so sorry. I am sorry for every thing I ever did to you please forgive me and don't leave me. Don't leave me alone, don't leave me with this guilt. I will die without you. If you leave me I will also not wait for a minute and will die. Please God don't give me this type of punishment. Please save my Zila and don't take her away from me."

A voice boomed in the empty hall as Kay's eyes went up to find the owner of the sound. "Kay"