What do I do when I love you

But I want somebody else

What do I lose if I don't choose

And keep it to myself.....

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(From the song Bad kind of butterflies)

BELLA'S POV

That night I couldn't sleep at all. I kept thinking about Helena all the time. What did she want to tell me!

I don't even know what was Rex doing there! He didn't even talk to me seeing me in Jack's arms. I did get the fact it kinda disturbed him but still it was rude.

What the hell is wrong with me. Why am I even thinking about him! These bad bad butterflies gotta go away....

Am I feeling all this because I think Rex is Ben but what if he's not and I'm just over thinking it. Why Ben is still stuck in my head.... I thought I got over him. Then why?!

I gotta tell Jake everything because I think I'm becoming paranoid by all this. But what will he think of me if I tell him all these. He won't think I did something wrong right. I didn't want to hide I just wanted him safe. But what if he says it was wrong to hide, will he still accept me...ugh

Well it's gonna happen what's written in fate right so who cares.. but still I don't want to lose Jake. After all he has done for me I couldn't even repay him back. But even after all this I can't forget Ben...

Why!....Just why...! ....

"Bella" A sweet voice caught my attention. I was walking in the garden of the old abandoned part of our university.

I looked back but saw no one.

"Bella!" I heard a growl which made me look back again. I saw Jake, I smiled but realized something was wrong with his face. He was holding a knife which was stabbed in my belly. I tried to say his name but I only puked blood from my mouth falling to the ground, looking at Jake's emotionless face for the first time.

"JAKE! NOOO! " I screamed and woke up from my nightmare. What did I just see. I held my belly in fear. I felt a sharp pain for a second. How can this be a nightmare. It felt so real. I even felt the pain. What's happening!?

'At nights you will wake up

Screaming my name

I'll be in ur happiness

I'll be in ur fear

I'll be the reason you will smile

The reason you will cry...'