My uncle, take it easy

"And you?" Su fan raised his glass and touched him. After drinking, he asked.

"Me? What's wrong with me? " Zeng Quan was puzzled.

"Are you still in love with that girl?" She asked.

Zeng Quan was stunned and asked, "what about you? Do you still like Qin Yifei? "

Su fan was speechless.

"In fact, I've come to understand one thing now. It's your own mood to like and love someone. If you want to love this person, just put it in your heart. It's enough to see her happy." Then Zeng Quan looked at Su fan.

Even if she didn't know that he was talking about her, he still hoped that his heart, his last heart, and his heart all the time could be conveyed to her heart. Even if you can't fulfill your feelings, it seems that you are giving yourself comfort and explanation. Say it, and you'll put it down, won't you? A lot of love, because there is no way to say it, becomes more and more heavy, heavy let oneself have no power to see other scenery, eyes only their own that persistent.

Yes, in my heart, watching her happy, that's enough!

"In this world, a lot of things are beyond our human control, two people can meet, can talk, rely on fate, but, want to be together, it seems to rely on more, many, many factors." Zeng Quan said, "over the years, I haven't been able to let go of that girl. I even thought about finding her to be with her. But people can't be free, can they? It's not that you can do whatever you want. You still have responsibilities. You can't shirk your responsibilities to your family, to your family and to the future. However, so many responsibilities will only make people more and more lonely and want to have a person they want and be with that person. "

Su fan looked at him, silent.

"When I have a conflict with my partner, I think, if I were with the person in my heart, wouldn't there be such a thing? Will she understand me better, and will I be more relaxed with her, so I won't have so many troubles? However, it's just that if you think too much, you will only make yourself more and more trapped, more and more painful, and more and more unable to communicate with the person around you. Finally, "Zeng Quan said, pouring wine for himself and drinking it with his head up.

Is it? Did she think so, too? When she conflicts with Huo Shuqing, does she also think that it will be more difficult to be with Yifei——

"Do you still love Yifei?" Zeng Quan looked at Su fan and asked.

Sufan closed his eyes.

There is no way to turn a blind eye to all kinds of things in those three years——

"But, Kayin, no matter what Yifei did to you and Nianqing in the past, no matter what you think of him in your heart, now he's going to get married, he doesn't belong to you anymore, he --" he looked at Sufan and said.

Tears came out of her eyes.

"It's painful, isn't it?" He sighed.

Su fan speechless, takes out the paper towel to wipe the corner of the eye the tear.

Zeng Quan laughed bitterly, sighed and said, "you can only choose one. If you choose it well, it's OK. It's OK."

"If it's as easy as you say, what are you still sighing about here?" Su fan wiped his tears and said.

"Yes, you're right. It's not that easy." Zeng Quan said and poured wine for himself and Su fan.

"When I was in a coma, at that time, I had a dream." She said that Zeng Quan did not interrupt her.

"I dreamt that you and my sister-in-law, me and my mother were all there. Here comes Yifei. Let's make an appointment to play together. Later, I, I saw Huo Shuqing, he is not married, he has been waiting for me, he, he stood under the wisteria, waiting for me in the alley Su Fan said, tears like beads in general constantly line.

Zeng Quan went over and handed her the paper towel. She took it and wiped her tears and laughed at him.

"Isn't it strange? It's like your subconscious. He told me that he had been waiting for me, he had never loved anyone, he had never been married, he was waiting for me, waiting to grow up, waiting - "she said, pausing," I think, if it's really so good, if it's really like that, maybe it will be easier between us than now, there won't be so many twists and turns, how good it should be. "

Zeng Quan said nothing.

"But the reality is not like that, is it? These days, I have been thinking, what do I want in the end, now such a life, is it what I want? I have no way to deal with all the things like my mother and sister-in-law. I even have no way to distinguish what is true and what is false. Even now I still doubt whether I am not worthy of him at all. She said, raising her head and laughing bitterly.

"I don't know what I should do, I don't know what I've become." Su Fan said, after a pause, she continued, "I know that Huo Shuqing is very good, really good, great, but sometimes I think he is so far away from me, in fact, many times I think so. I don't know what he is thinking. Maybe I don't know all the time. Just because of the past, I know my identity. I just want to be with him and don't think about anything. But now, after all, we are married, right? We're husband and wife, aren't we? Husband and wife can't be like us, like this -- "

Zeng Quan patted her on the shoulder“ I, really, don't know what to do! This time, I look at Jiang Cainan's mobile phone so many short messages communicating with him. I don't know what I should think. Shouldn't I doubt him? I - I think, what I doubt is not him, but myself. I have been doubting myself all the time, and I have never been at ease for a moment. "Su Fan said“ What kind of person should I be? To do his own business or to be his wife? My mother said that the two can be combined. If my career revolves around Huo Shuqing, I will -- "Su Fandao“ Then it's not you, is it? " Tseng Chuen road. Su fan nodded, laughed and said, "I don't think I can do it. I can't do it."“ So, what do you do? " Asked Zeng Quan“ I don't know. I want to force myself to do it, but these days, I feel more and more confused and don't know who I am - "Su Fan said“ You are Jain Tseng Chuen road. But as like as two peas, she said, "I feel like I'm always a surnamed. I always feel like you're just a substitute for her. It's just like her, and it's just like her. I'm not going to have any regrets for my mom and dad. I don't know who I am, I'm -" "that's good!" That's good! " Tseng Chuen road. Su fan doesn't understand and looks at him“ You are Sufan, so be your Sufan. You don't have to care about other people's eyes. Just like you used to be, you just love someone and do what you want to do. No matter how dangerous the environment is, no matter what difficulties you face, you stick to your faith, don't admit defeat, don't give up and keep going forward. " Zeng Quan looked at her tearful eyes. "Sufan, have you forgotten who you are?" I - "Sufan in my memory is a very stupid person who doesn't know what to insist on, but always insists on what he thinks in his heart. Although she is very confused and confused, she knows what she wants. She knows who she loves and who she shouldn't love. Even if Huo Shuqing could not give her a place, even if she could not be like a normal lover with Huo Shuqing, she still did not give up. Even if Zheng Han uses all kinds of exaggerated means to pursue, but she just won't go to heart, won't empathize. Even in the Security Bureau, he would not say anything against his will. Even if they are at a dead end, even if they have to go to the supermarket to work and live in a house without heating in winter, they will not go back. " Zeng Quan said that Su fan's eyes were moist“ This is the Sufan I know, the Sufan I remember. I have never forgotten. So, don't forget you, OK, Sufan? " Su fan, stunned, sat in a daze. Yes, this is Sufan in his memory, which he can't forget all the time. That Sufan, not his sister, is his best memory. Now - memory, is to be sealed up. Memory, after all, is just memory, and reality, is reality! His reality is his marriage to Fang Xiyou and their thinking“ No matter when, don't give up on yourself, Su Fan said. This is the last time he calls her that! In life, there are always many people that we can't forget. Those people represent ourselves in a certain period, or they are young and frivolous, or they are the happiest, or they are the saddest, the most depressed, the most crazy, the most shy, the most cowardly and the most stupid. Just because the one who used to be can never come back, even the one who let him hate, can never come back, so I always miss the past, miss the past people. However, no matter when, people always have to find a way to face the reality. After all, every breath of air you breathe now is real, your pain and sweetness now are owned now, and the past, whether beautiful or gray, is the past. As the lyrics sing, you always do not understand, every real now, have been your fantasy future. And the future is always coming, isn't it? If we can't do it well now, how can we do it well in the future? It's getting dark. You can search Baidu for the latest chapter of "Uncle chatting about jiutao novels (9txs. ORG)"! This novel has been translated by www.readwn.com and if you are reading this somewhere, they have stolen our translation.