National Tide 1980

It started to rain suddenly, making the Tokyo night look particularly beautiful.

In the falling spring rain, the neon-lit street scene suddenly lost its noise and dust, and a magical light refracted through the wet ground.

But I didn't expect that the rain was getting heavier and heavier.

At around eleven o'clock that night, when Ning Weimin took a taxi and rushed to Nishiazabu's apartment to meet Keiko Matsumoto, the rain in the night had already turned into a downpour.

Just after getting out of the green and white taxi and running to the apartment door for more than 20 steps, Ning Weimin's suit and hair were half wet.

Of course the shoes are even less noticeable.

The soles and uppers of the shoes were completely wet, leaving wet water marks with every step.

But this wasn't the reason why Ning Weimin stared blankly at the door of the apartment for more than ten minutes, facing the dark night sky and the misty outdoor scenery, and didn't bother to go upstairs until he finished two cigarettes in a row.

He was really not afraid that he would look embarrassed. He wanted to wait until his clothes were dry and he felt decent before meeting Keiko Matsumoto.

Instead, I feel sincerely guilty and ashamed about what I plan to talk about today.

When I think about facing Keiko Matsumoto, I feel a little nervous. I can't hide my embarrassment because I have to clear my mind first.

Yes, from the first time he met Matsumoto Keiko, Ning Weimin had a lot of thoughts about this beautiful woman.

Although I didn't know she was a female star at the time, I already felt the extraordinary charm from her.

But Ning Weimin did not deny that he was a secular person. Just like any physiologically normal man, he developed a possessive desire for him.

Later, when he found out who Matsumoto Keiko was, his lust for beauty and lust became even stronger.

It was simply a milestone in his successful journey to Japan to avenge his fellow villagers.

Is there any achievement that can make a Chinese man feel more proud and satisfied than accomplishing this?

So when he found out that Keiko Matsumoto seemed to favor him, Ning Weimin was overjoyed.

How can ordinary people get close to such a woman?

No man would miss this kind of opportunity, let alone him who had never had sex before in time.

But as the two people come into contact more frequently, their emotional exchanges and mutual understanding deepen.

Ning Weimin, who was originally just greedy for other people's bodies, gradually discovered that his game of hunting for women had undergone earth-shaking changes.

He took it seriously and showed true feelings.

He fell irresistibly in love with this beautiful woman who was nine years older than him.

Although physical enjoyment is so wonderful.

But in comparison, he was actually more obsessed with the warmth and care that the other party gave him, just like a sister.

That kind of tender smile, that kind of care that takes care of people everywhere, that kind of maternal tolerance.

He suddenly felt that he had found a peaceful haven where he could relax his body and mind.

Even though the other party is a big star who has already gained a lot of honors in the Japanese film industry and is sought after by the majority of movie fans in Japan.

But she never put on airs in front of him. Instead, she always played the role of a virtuous and gentle woman.

This was not only reflected when he was sick, but Keiko Matsumoto's careful care helped him resist the unbearable pain and loneliness.

It is also reflected in the fact that even if he has not thought of things or unexpected needs, Matsumoto Keiko will always think of them for him in advance.

Even most of the time, when he wanted to do something, Matsumoto Keiko would help him come up with ideas and solutions, and sometimes would take the initiative to deal with it for him.

Don't forget, he has been an orphan in these two lives. How could he be resistant to such a considerate and watery woman?

In fact, he almost had someone he could trust completely and rely on at all times, and he actually found the perfect spouse that he could not even imagine.

To him, this was the unimaginable and greatest happiness that he could only dream of.

He was addicted, he fell, and even his spirit and emotions were purified and sublimated.

He can't live without Matsumoto Keiko and wants to grow old together.

His vision for the future changed, he began to believe in love, and longed for a normal and dull family life.

He is willing to abandon his plan to play the human harem for a woman.

I am willing to give up my ambition to become a little bee and fly around flowers forever for her.

All of this happens naturally, it happens naturally, and everything is moisturized silently.

But the problem was at the moment, something that made him extremely ashamed.

It is precisely because he has always been a greedy and unbridled seeker.

We ask ourselves, from nibbling to swallowing, he wants too much, but the reward is too little.

He was used to Matsumoto Keiko's dedication and care for him, and he could enjoy everything this woman gave him with peace of mind.

But I almost never think about how unfair this is and how hard and exhausting it will be to love the other person.

So much so that he never fully confessed his true situation to Keiko Matsumoto, but instead happily pretended to be a weakling and plundered everything Keiko Matsumoto had.

His love is completely a heavy burden for Matsumoto Keiko.

She has been burdened with many unnecessary mental and financial burdens.

Thinking about it now, he felt that he was simply too selfish.

He felt that he had become a ghost, without heart and blood.

He does not deserve such love and glory in his life.

Even he couldn't help but despise himself for tarnishing such a precious love and letting down such a good woman who is hard to find in the world.

It is truly a sin!

Now he is heavily in debt and eager to cleanse himself of his dirty laundry, even though he is determined to turn things around and repay his love.

But he couldn't help but worry that he showed up so suddenly to Keiko Matsumoto and confessed everything about himself.

Let her know that the strengths and weaknesses between them have always been reversed. How would she feel?

Just happy?

not necessarily!

Does she think that she is a malicious person who deliberately deceives someone and takes advantage of her good intentions and sincerity?

Instead, it made her feel that she was unjustly loved, that she had been fooled, that she had never been trusted, and that her heart was torn to pieces?

He didn't know and couldn't imagine it.

Love cannot be tested without reason, and no one is willing to accept such a test.

In any case, deliberate concealment amounted to a lack of sincerity, which he could not argue with.

So how proud and enjoying it he was at the beginning, but now he is so flustered and cowed.

This is called his own fault!

You really shouldn’t be clever!

…………

Due to the phone call in advance, Matsumoto Keiko has been waiting for Ning Weimin in the apartment, and she even dressed herself up.

So when Ning Weimin actually walked into this apartment that he was already familiar with, the atmosphere in the room was very peaceful.

And because of the different psychology of both parties at this time, this scene actually feels a bit familiar, as if time has gone back more than half a year, and they have both transformed back to the way they were when they first met here.

Like Ning Weimin, he entered the door very lightly and cautiously.

When changing his shoes in the entrance hall, he looked at his lover who was waiting for him with a somewhat uneasy look.

He has no confidence as a male protagonist, but instead comes home like a young child who made a mistake and got into trouble, like a beggar for love.

But his slightly damp clothes and hair, and the untied hem of three buttons on his collar, combined with his sensitive expression and unconcealable exhaustion, also gave him a slightly decadent and fragile feeling. .

This greatly inspired Matsumoto Keiko's maternal instinct.

The moment she opened the door for her lover, Ning Weimin looked more handsome and needed more care.

Even though she had just suffered a severe mental trauma and had no expectations for the future, she couldn't help but feel distressed and wanted to touch the lover in front of her.

On the other hand, Matsumoto Keiko, although she was in a state of confusion, her expectations for the future had been shattered and were about to be shattered into pieces.

Now she wished she could throw herself into Ning Weimin's arms and cry bitterly, hugging him tightly and not wanting him to leave her for a moment.

But he still forced himself to be calm and maintained his grace and elegance on the outside.

She wore black trousers, a gray shirt, exquisite makeup, and no jewelry.

Although the colors are conservative and the styles are ordinary, they look particularly sober.

But her body was graceful and her curves were charming. This look was still eye-catching to Ning Weimin and made his heart sway.

However, in this case, the two people naturally felt a certain distance and became polite without realizing it.

"How are you?"

"I am fine."

"I haven't contacted you today. Does it make you worried?"

"It's okay, you're very busy at work, right?"

"It's okay...are you watching TV?"

"Hey, yes."

On the TV screen in the living room, two news anchors with shiny faces were talking about foreign and domestic news.

From the upcoming visit of the Prince of Wales and his wife to Japan on May 13, the current momentum of rising stock prices and land prices in Japan is particularly strong...

Fortunately, there is no news about Keiko Matsumoto.

After Ning Weimin changed his shoes, he sat quietly on the sofa. His lips moved slightly, but he always hesitated to speak.

He was always proud of his eloquence, but at this time, he was confused when he cared about it, and he didn't know how to speak.

Matsumoto Keiko turned off the TV, smiling awkwardly and waiting, seemingly feeling the same unspeakable trouble.

"Can you get me a glass of water? Sorry, I'm a little dry."

After a long time, Ning Weimin finally broke the uneasy calm with the help of a small thing.

However, when Matsumoto Keiko brought the water over, he drank half the glass in one breath. Ning Weimin, who finally plucked up the courage to express his apology, still stumbled when he opened his mouth. This abnormality surprised even himself.

"Well, Qingzi... the situation outside is indeed very bad these days, and public opinion is getting more and more aggressive. But... I... already know who is responsible. It seems that someone has been... maliciously targeting you. . Right? Are you afraid that I will worry, so you didn’t tell me? Well, now we have to talk with the greatest frankness. Only in this way can we solve these problems. I would like to tell you some of mine first. Practical thoughts. There are some things I want to let you know first. Maybe you will be excited after hearing this, you will hate me, you will think that I am selfish, cowardly, incompetent, and that I am a complete coward and should not treat you like this, but I really I really hope you can listen to me..."

But what Ning Weimin didn't expect was the magnitude of Matsumoto Keiko's reaction.

As if stepping on spikes with his bare feet, Matsumoto Keiko stopped him without any doubt.

"No! Don't say it, please don't say it!"

"What? Qingzi, don't be like this, I really have something important to say..."

"Please, please tell me later, I'm afraid I'll hear you." Matsumoto Keiko looked increasingly flustered and confused.

"You...do you know what I'm going to say?"

"I guessed it...don't say it yet, okay? Don't say it yet..." she begged in a low voice.

"Did you guess it? Did you...? How could...?"

Ning Weimin became more and more confused and had a premonition that they had some misunderstanding, but because of Matsumoto Keiko's painful expression and the tears that were almost flowing, he did not dare to ask any more questions.

The living room fell silent again, and he could only wait for her emotions to calm down.

After a long time, Matsumoto Keiko suddenly wiped the corners of her eyes and spoke proactively.

"Let me tell you."

Her voice was low but extremely decisive.

With an attitude that she could not refuse, she walked to Ning Weimin and sat down next to him. This was the first time that she had acted so stubbornly in front of Ning Weimin.

However, he just said two words, "We..."

But his face turned to the side again, not daring to look at Ning Weimin for fear of triggering sadness.

After another moment of silence, she adjusted her emotions again and finally revealed her inner anxiety.

"You are a talented and handsome young man. No matter how difficult it is, as long as you persist, you will definitely achieve something. You are so young, you should go your own way and see the scenery you should see. And we Two people... have no future, and they will not always be on the same journey. If they keep holding hands, they may only step into the cliff. Just like this time, I am dragging you down. So... so... we have to break up. ,Yeah?"

After asking, Matsumoto Keiko turned around, no longer dodging, but approached Ning Weimin with desperate eyes.

"For a man, a lover is like a sock that fits his feet. Sooner or later, holes will be worn out after being worn for a long time. If he is too lazy to wash it, he will throw it away... All women, if they cannot marry home as a wife, will inevitably become a wife. Is this the end?"

Matsumoto Keiko's words were heart-chilling.

Like big rocks, they fell out of her arms and hit Ning Weimin hard on the head.

He was so hit that he was dizzy and disoriented. He even lost his judgment for a moment and could not explain himself.

Why did Keiko say that?

Have I ever wanted to break up?

How is this going?

So much so that even he couldn't recognize himself, and the only thing he could feel was innocence, uneasiness and distress.

He became the most miserable person in the world.

It's like being robbed of a boat ticket before a flood, and then waiting to be drowned to death by the flood.

What an injustice!

But just when Ning Weimin tried his best to fight against the clumsy tongue that should not be eroding him, trying to break through and clarify himself.

Things took a turn for the worse again.

After all, Matsumoto Keiko couldn't give up. She barely finished a few harsh words, but she almost immediately lost control.

Like a moth flying into the flame, he suddenly fell in front of Ning Weimin, crawling at his feet, with tears streaming down his face.

"But I can't do it. I try to suppress myself, but I can't. Although I say this, I am overestimating my abilities, but...can you...give me another two years?"

What? Ning Weimin was completely surprised! He didn't expect Matsumoto Keiko to make such a humble plea to him!

"I don't want to take away your life. Two years is enough! Live with me for another two years! Please!"

Facing Matsumoto Keiko's infatuated gaze, Ning Weimin's heart was as sharp as a knife, and his conscience felt like it was on fire.

But at this time, he actually completely lost the ability to speak, and all he could do was shake his head.

"Isn't it possible? What about that year? Just think of it as kindness and kindness..."

Keiko Matsumoto's big eyes were filled with mist, and tears were already flowing down from the corners of her eyes again.

Judging from the desperate look and dying tone, it was obvious that she could no longer bear the weight of a hair.

"No, I want to marry you. Do you hear me? Qingzi. Listen clearly! I want to marry you."

Finally, Ning Weimin's tongue returned to normal function. He pulled up the woman who was most worthy of love, and then hugged him tightly for his future and the rest of his life.

"You idiot, what are you talking about? We will be together forever. What one year or two years?"

"What did you say...? Is it true?"

"It's true, never separate. Can you agree? Will you marry me?"

"Of course. I promise. Thank you so much, thank you. Amin, I really want to cry. Can I cry? Can I do it now?"

"Okay, just cry well..."

In the thunder and rain outside, the two fools hugged each other.

They didn't know whether to cry or laugh to celebrate the clarification of misunderstandings that shouldn't have been there in the first place.

But they are definitely happy, otherwise the strong and complex emotions will hit their chests and there will be no way to release them.

On this day, a woman is willing to cry for love.

It was also the first time that a man drank her tears.

From then on, they fulfilled their most important vow and no longer had to face the hardships and challenges of life alone.