Not Spare the Years

Lu Yan came to Anyang to report her work again.

Because it was not a working day, after staying at the hotel, she wandered around Zhou's house with nothing to do, thinking about seeing the couple and visiting the old man whom she hadn't seen for a long time.

Arrived at Zhou's old house, just in time for lunch.

After entering the gate, the housekeeper greeted her and guided her, "Miss Lu, the old man is eating in the restaurant."

Lu Yan: "What about you President Zhou?"

Housekeeper: "Mr. Zhou has a bad appetite these days. Now she is by the pool in the backyard watching the ducks swim."

When the words were over, the butler paused, then changed his tune: "Uh... Watch Master Pepper and Master Fennel swimming."

Lu Yan burst out laughing, "Just those two ducks that Mu Xueyi raised? Why are you called young master?"

The housekeeper smiled helplessly: "After Miss Mu left, Mr. Zhou has always been unhappy, the old man deliberately made us cry like this in order to coax her. Before that, Mr. Zhou would still laugh when he heard it, but now... it seems that I can't even laugh."

Lu Yan caught the point, her expression stiffened: "Second Miss Mu is gone?"

Butler: "There was a car accident before, and Miss Mu was taken back by her house. So these days, Mr. Zhou couldn't sleep well or eat well."

Lu Yan raised her eyebrows and snorted angrily.

Damn Mu Xueyi, she really has no conscience. The last time she ran away, Zhou Zhenyue was half dead. After finally turning around, the relationship between the two was getting better, and they patted their buttocks and turned their faces back to their hometown.

No matter what, when you come to someone's house, you must visit the master first, so the housekeeper took Lu Yan to the restaurant first to see Zhou Fengnian.

When the old man saw Lu Yan, he recognized that this was Zhou Zhenyue's classmate, smiled happily, and said that he wanted to give her a pair of chopsticks.

Lu Yan pushed it back, exchanged a few words, and asked about Zhou Zhenyue's situation.

Mentioning Zhou Zhenyue, the old man sighed a long time, "Oh, she, I can't persuade me any longer. Xiaoyan, I can only trouble you, bring her some food later, persuade her to eat it anyway. Some."

Lu Yan couldn't help but say, "Mu Xueyi is really a white-eyed wolf."

But the old man shook his head, "Xueyatou is not that kind of person, and she has a very hard life. She has her own difficulties."

Lu Yan and Mu Xueyi were not familiar with each other, so she didn't put the old man's words into her heart.

After eating a few bites of food with the old man, after talking for a while, Lu Yan brought a tray of food and went to the backyard to find Zhou Zhenyue.

When she got to the backyard, the noon sun was shining warmly on every corner of the yard.

The breeze is gentle, the flowers are sweet, and the sparrows clean their feathers at the top of the tree branches.

Zhou Zhenyue sat in the sunshine by the pool, her trousers were rolled up layer by layer, her fair calves were hanging by the pool, and her ankles were soaked in the sparkling light blue water.

She rested her hand on the edge of the stage, and the white jade ring on her finger was as moist as unmelted snow in the sunlight.

Not far from her, two little ducks that have grown up are playing in the water.

Flutteringly, with a flutter of wings, it raised small pieces of water.

Lu Yan approached, put the tray by Zhou Zhenyue's hand, took off her shoes, and sat down next to each other.

"I heard that you don't always eat well," Lu Yan arched the tray to Zhou Zhenyue's hand, "Well, your grandfather asked me to bring it here. Eat some."

Zhou Zhenyue turned her head, the sun pierced her eyes half-dazed, "Ayan, you're here."

"Well, I came here for the regular meeting. I came two days early to see you." Lu Yan said.

"…thanks."

Zhou Zhenyue held a bit of bread crumbs in her hand, she sprinkled a little bit into the water, and the pepper and fennel rushed over to grab it. "I don't really want to eat."

Lu Yan feigned anger: "It's fine if you don't usually eat it. Today, the old man asked me to bring it over. If you don't eat it, won't you save my face?"

Zhou Zhenyue forced a smile, "Then... well, give Ayan a face."

But her eyes were filled with the word anorexia.

Zhou Zhenyue picked up the fork and forked a piece of meat. The fork went back and forth in his hand, his eyelashes drooping, staring at the mellowly fried meat. After a long while, he still couldn't be lifted to his mouth.

She put down her fork and meat, and turned to the pocket of her trousers, where she took out a neatly folded piece of paper.

She must have unfolded the paper, and closed, and unfolded, and closed, many, many times.

The edges of the paper have been ruffled, and every crease is like dead tree bark, and the ravines are deep enough to withstand a slightly heavier pull. It seems that it is a little more fragile than a stamp with pores.

She opened the letter to read.

Lu Yan leaned over her neck quietly and peeked a few lines.

When she saw "A Yue" at the beginning, she knew that it was written to her by Mu Xueyi.

The content of the letter is very boring, and it is indeed the level of Mu Xueyi. Stacked a lot of local snacks, what red oil Liangpi, Longjing shrimp, crystal meat, steamed preserved meat, West Lake vinegar fish.

Written like a recipe. Even the Baidu Encyclopedia introduction of these dishes, the rhetoric used should be more ornate.

Zhou Zhenyue looked very fascinated.

She looked at it, suddenly smiled, and lowered her hand without the letter, as if she was about to shake the hand of the person next to her.

But there was no one on her side.

"...Eat two more bowls."

She muttered to herself such an endless sentence, as if she was encouraging herself for a person.

Lu Yan asked carefully: "You... this is...?"

"This is the love letter she left to me." Zhou Zhenyue closed the letter, carefully folded it according to the crease, "she said, look at it when she can't eat, and imagine that she is by my side, maybe..."

She smiled and her eyes were blank, as if recalling the situation that night, "...can eat two more bowls."

Seeing her like this, Lu Yan couldn't help but reddened her eyes, turned her head away to cover up, and muttered.

"She has no conscience, and she actually left you a love letter."

"...She's not without a conscience, she's too conscientious."

Zhou Zhenyue put the folded pieces of paper into her pocket, the smile on her lips didn't reach her eyes at all, she just laughed at herself. "So, sometimes, I hope she doesn't have such a conscience."

Lu Yan coughed twice, and then said, "She just left you such a letter. It's so cruel. Look at you pitiful, and read it over and over."

"She left four letters for me." Zhou Zhenyue went to get the blue and white porcelain plate with fish in the tray, "Just this one, it's suitable to read while eating."

Zhou Zhenyue's words aroused Lu Yan's curiosity: "Four letters? This one is suitable for reading while eating, what about the other three?"

"…"

The stainless steel fork pierced through the tender fish and made a fine crunch against the bottom of the porcelain plate.

"The other one is about some messy toys. Another one is about a bunch of odds and ends, the formula for jumping the rubber band, the technique of spinning the top, and the method of hitting the bucket board."

Zhou Zhenyue squeezed the handle of the fork tightly and smiled with her eyes down, "...She wrote several pages, but I read them all, and I didn't understand what the tipping board was."

Lu Yan: "Is there another one? What did you write in the last one?"

The action of forking the fish meat stopped.

Zhou Zhenyue pursed her lips, "...I don't know."

Lu Yan: "Don't know?"

Zhou Zhenyue: "Well, I haven't taken it apart."

Lu Yan: "Why not take it apart?"

"..." Zhou Zhenyue stared at the fish, "She said, I will tear it down when I'm angry with her. I'm not angry with her, so what to tear it down."

Lu Yan chuckled: "You still call it 'not angry with her'? Look at you, you are so angry that you can't even eat."

Zhou Zhenyue lowered her head, not knowing what she was thinking.

After a while, she put an unmoving fish plate aside and looked at the two ducks playing in the pool, her voice soft like a sigh.

"I'm not mad at her, I'm... mad at myself."

"I'm not good enough to force her to grow up by herself."

Lu Yan didn't refute anything, just smiled.

"Anyway, you're angry. Don't you want to see what she wrote to you when you were angry?"

Zhou Zhenyue pinched the porcelain plate with her fingers.

I don't know when, the sun has sunk to the west. The sun is not as bright and dazzling as it used to be.

Lu Yan accompanied Zhou Zhenyue to sit by the pool all afternoon.

The two chatted one after another, Lu Yan tried hard to find a topic, but Zhou Zhenyue was still not interested. No matter what you talk about, it ends in silence.

In the evening, the old man stayed with Lu Yan for dinner.

Although Zhou Zhenyue didn't eat anything at noon, she ate half a bowl of rice and a small plate of scrambled eggs for dinner.

It is said that the scrambled eggs is the craft that Mu Xueyi taught the cook.

Even later, Lu Yan left, and the old man went back to his room to sleep.

Zhou Zhenyue returned to the empty bedroom, opened the door, and always had memories from a while ago in her mind. As if time never moved backwards.

I always felt that Xueyi was still sitting on the carpet on the balcony, propping up his chin and building blocks. After the door rang, she would look back and say with a gentle smile, "You're back."

For some reason, Zhou Zhenyue suddenly remembered what Lu Yan said to her.

"Anyway, you're angry. Don't you want to see what she wrote to you when you were angry?"

Don't want to see it?

Between the lines, anyway...with her temperature.

Zhou Zhenyue sat in her desk chair and stared at the stock market dynamics on the three monitors, but she could no longer focus on her work.

She glanced at the drawer on the left again, and was silent for a long time.

Finally, pulled it open.

Pick up the top envelope with serial number 4 written on it.

Fingertips rubbed against the seal for a long time.

Zhou Zhenyue closed her eyes, and finally, she tore the seal, looked inward with her index and middle fingers, and took out a thin piece of paper.

Fresh and crisp stationery.

Expand.

"Ayue."

Seeing the two words at the top, it was obviously not an unexpected beginning, and Zhou Zhenyue's eyes were still inexplicably red.

"Ayue."

"I know that when you open this letter, you're already mad at me."

"I thought for a long time, when you are angry with me, what should I say to coax you. But my mouth is too stupid and my hands are too stupid. I can't write a love letter, I can't write anything well. I'm afraid of me Writing one more nonsense will only make you hate me more."

"I can't help but think, you have such a good temper. What stupid thing did I do to make you angry with such a good temper?"

"Ayue, I can't think of it."

"There are so many stupid things I can do, really, I can't think of it."

"It's ridiculous, I've never done anything right since I was born. When it's time to straighten up, I'm a **** huddled in the dark. When it's time to love you, I choose to avoid my feelings, Leave you alone. Even when we get another chance, I always make the wrong choice."

"Three years ago and three years later, I was always living in the mud under their feet."

"They threaten me, and I only dare to find a moderate solution. They hurt you, and I can only use my own body to help you stop and stop."

"Other than that, I don't have any other way to protect you."

"I'm very afraid. If one day, I can't stop them even if my whole body is broken into pieces, what should you do?"

"I know that if I told you all, you would be very willing to be the one who solves the problem for me."

"But Ah Yue, I don't want to just be protected by you in this lifetime."

"I want to protect you."

"I don't want to hide under your wings all the time, I want to give birth to bigger wings than you. In this way, when you fly, you don't have to worry about the drag under your wings, but I will help you cover the wind. Stop the rain."

"I really, really want to protect you like you protect me."

"So, I went back to the Mu family. I calculated everyone I could. Mu Guocheng, Mu Ruqing, Shen Huaixing, Zhong Wan."

"Including myself. Including me, Mu Xueyi."

"As long as I can climb up, as long as I can be the one who can protect you, I can pay any price."

"I am willing to be a dog, a dog, a villain, a scum, and a beast for you. I am willing to dismantle my flesh and bones into pieces and throw them into the abyss piece by piece, until they build a liter for you. To the round table of light."

"I am willing to use everything I have to support you."

"I shouldn't have asked for anything more."

"But Ah Yue, you are the only wishful thinking I dare to do in my life."

"And crushing the soul, becoming a mythical ghost, and falling into the abyss is really painful."

"I want to beg you."

"please."

"Ayue."

"if it is possible."

"Please forgive my inversion of good and evil."

"Please, again and again, again and again, three inexhaustible, thousands of times, save me from water and fire in this world."

The author has something to say: "Please, again and again, again and again, three inexhaustible, thousands of times, save me from the water and fire in this world." From I really can't find the source, you just need to know that it is not I'll be original.]

Xueyi spent her whole life writing this letter hhh

This volume is over, the next chapter will enter the hot spring villa

The hot spring villa chapter, I would like to call it the sweetest full text so far :)

Thanks to the little angel who threw the rocket launcher: 161;

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: wahao, Chen Ling, Huairou, Astir's manuscript, 1 Suian;

Thanks to the little angel who irrigated the nutrient solution: 2233581124 bottles; 20 bottles of Feng Fei; 10 bottles of Ya Ya, the beginning of late spring c, gaji, and way-zyhf; one mung bean k6 bottles; , wahao 1 bottle;