On How Abusive Essays Become Sweet Essays

      , I just had a drink."

    "Fuck, I haven't had enough wedding wine yet."

    You Xuzhi went to the thatched cottage.

    "Zhang—" Pu Pingle opened his mouth, before the first note was pronounced, the person had already left.

    He muttered in his mouth: "Little hunter, little hunter, if you say what you are recruiting me to do, I'll just say a few more words to him, can you do it - he looks handsome and has a good figure. , It doesn't look like the one below, I'm really dizzy, I'm out of luck, and I have that kind of dream...Bah, shameless!"

      A warm body was attached to his back.

    You Xu's hands trembled, his breathing stagnated, and his neck became stiff for a moment.

    You Xuzhi didn't answer, and his guilty conscience made him even more confident: "What are you doing sneaking behind people?"

    Zhang Zuidong: "I called you when I came here, it's you—"

    He paused, glanced at the two cows in the bullpen, and said, "You are so absorbed in the cows that you didn't hear it."

    "Oh." You Xuzhi guessed that he didn't hear anything, "There is no one in there, just go if you want to relieve yourself."

    He took a step to the side.

    Zhang Zuidong stared at him, his eyes gradually darkening: "Why are you treating me so coldly today?"

    You Xuzhi: "No."

    I am guilty.

    Zhang Zuidong had a dangerous aura all over his body, raised his foot and took a step closer to You Xuzhi, You Xuzhi was frightened by the terrifying look in his eyes, and couldn't help but retreat.

      As usual, but unprovoked to show edge.

    You Xuzhi was stunned. It was the first time he heard Zhang Zuidong speak in front of him with such a tone and expression, and his throat felt dry.

    "Don't talk nonsense, how could I do such a ruthless thing!"

    The blue veins on Zhang Zuidong's forehead throbbed, and he grabbed You Xuzhi's collar and pulled it. You Xuzhi thought he was going to do something.

    "There is something to say..." You Xuzhi's words were all blocked.

    The sudden shortening of the distance, the warm and moist touch on the lips, the scorching breath, the people who are close at hand.

    Everything happened so suddenly, You Xuzhi's brain went off.

    Zhang Zuidong simply put his lips, and then moved away, his eyes were full of shame and anger, and a gloomy threat in his mouth: "You Xuzhi, you'd better stay away from Pu Pingle, Otherwise, don't blame me for being rude—"

    You Xuzhi was in a trance.

    Anything like this?

    You're welcome, come on, go on.

    You Xuzhi had just woken up some wine and his brain was drunk again, and the drink was full of stamina, he licked his lips, and said indifferently: "Little Langjun, you can come, don't be polite."

    Zhang Zuidong: "…"

    Listening to what he said, it seemed that he didn't care about his threat, Zhang Zuidong tightened You Xuzhi's collar, biting hard at the corner of his mouth, You Xuzhi snorted .

    Zhang Zuidong gritted his teeth: "Do you really think I dare not?"

    You Xuzhi covered his mouth in pain: "Tsk, the real murderer."

      exposed.

    His voice was very soft: "Yes, I am so fierce."

      But are you afraid?"

    Obviously aggressive, but very effective for You Xuzhi, and even more effective for drunk You Xuzhi.

    "Oh, sir, would I be afraid?" He held Zhang Zuidong's hand that was pulling at his collar, and pulled it away from his collar little by little, instead pushing the person against the On the fence, he began to talk nonsense, "Just like you, the young master can bring down ten in one night, do you know that ten?"

    "Ten?" Zhang Zuidong's meaning is unclear.

    You Xuzhi raised his chest proudly: "That's necessary."

    He was in poor health when he was a child, so he found a master who practiced martial arts for him.

    It's just that after being beaten up by the old father at home a month later, he changed his ways and changed his mind to the gentleman's line.

    Zhang Zuidong opened his mouth, but before he spoke, he exclaimed.

    "Young Master You? Brother Zhang!"

    Pu Pingle trotted over. He saw that the two of them had not returned, so he came to have a look. Unexpectedly, he saw the scene where they were about to fight together. The corner of You Xuzhi's mouth was broken. !

    He hurriedly stepped forward to fight, "You guys don't fight, don't fight—"

    You Xuzhi and Zhang Zuidong have different expressions.

    They went back to the table.

    The dishes that should be served are all ready, and the food on the table is almost eaten. A group of men are drinking and talking, and some good people say that Zhang Zuidong is not young now, and it should be Find someone who knows hot and cold.

    Anyone who knew You Xuzhi didn't know that You Xuzhi was a broken sleeve, and when he heard what he said, the man smiled and said, "Young Master You, don't embarrass me, how can I find you and me? Heartfelt."

    "Young Master You is thinking of starting a family?" Someone asked.

    At this time, a sturdy woman came over, dragged her husband who was drunk into mud by the ear, and said cursingly: "I want you to drink less, but I won't listen, and I will return. I have to take care of the house!"

    The man's wife is a well-known tigress in the village, and everyone was not too surprised.

    You Xuzhi laughed and said: "This daughter-in-law, if she is too fierce, her life will be difficult."

    Zhang Zuidong glanced at him.

    By the time it was over, most of the men were already drunk, and the banquet was over.

    Pu Pingle stepped forward: "Young Master You, can you still go? Would you like to sleep at my place for the night?"

    You Xuzhi tilted his head, squinted to recognize the person, heard what he said, was about to wave his hand, but his right hand was grabbed, Zhang Zuidong was behind him, half supporting him and said: " He went to my place to spend the night, you go back first."

    Zhang Zuidong looks like a drunk.

    Pu Pingle bit her lip: "I'll help you, you..."

    "You can't help." Zhang Zuidong looked at him with dark eyes, "You can't help anything, don't cause trouble."

    He had never spoken so mercilessly, Pu Pingle couldn't help blushing, pulled the corner of his clothes crampedly, and forced a smile: "Then be careful on the road."

    "You too." Zhang Zuidong nodded and walked with You Xuzhi steadily.

      .

    "Xiao Langjun is so handsome, dare to ask... where is he from? Is there a marriage partner?" Half of You Xuzhi's body weight rested on Zhang Zuidong, "It's better to follow the Lord, the Lord treats you well , Grandpa has money."

    "I'm fierce." Zhang Zuidong said.

    You Xuzhi: "It doesn't get in the way, Master just likes fierce and energetic."

    Zhang Zuidong asked him again: "What's the benefit of following you?"

    You Xuzhi: "You can spend your money as you like."

    "I don't want money, I want you."

      drunk.

    Zhang Zuidong paused for a while, his breathing suddenly became heavy, and the apex of his heart was numb.

    The moonlight shone on his face, the tough lines on Zhang Zuidong's face were soft, and the light eyes were shining in the dark night, he said in a hoarse voice, "I still need it."

    So, You Xuzhi clasped the back of his head, kissed him again, and left with a touch.

    Zhang Zuidong: "Not enough."

    You Xuzhi's head was dizzy, and the low hoarse voice in his ears was very pleasant. Human lips, gently rubbed slowly.

    "Xiao Langjun, don't be in a hurry, the so-called 'a long drought comes with a sweet rain, when you meet in a foreign land, you know it, the wedding room is full of candles, and when the golden list is inscribed', these are the four major happy events in life, the night is still long, we Take it slow... such a handsome little man, how could I be willing to let you stay alone in the empty room, we will have a good night tonight - the bridal chamber." He bit the last two words frivolously and ambiguous.

    Zhang Zuidong called the string of reason completely broken, and a fire ignited in his heart, which made him hot all over, when You Xuzhi put it on again, he bit his lips fiercely, Xu Zhi snorted, but did not push him away. Instead, he stretched out his arms around his waist, patted his back coaxingly, and said vaguely, "Take it easy, it's a dog."

    Therefore, Zhang Zuidong slowly loosened his strength under such comfort, he panted lightly, his jaw line was tight, his face was cold, the corners of his eyes were red, and he threatened: "You Xuzhi , you should remember what you said tonight and stay away from Napu Pingle, otherwise..."

      , when he finished his threatening words, he blocked his mouth, and the dense sting of the wound on his lips made him "his".

    If they continue to mess around like this, I'm afraid they won't be able to get home.

    Zhang Zuidong is very good at drinking. Before going to the battlefield, he often had a good drink with those brothers, but today he feels that the drink has a strong stamina.

      , rustling.

    —

     Leaning against the door, his eyes focused on the man.

    Zhang Zuidong looked back at him, paused, and asked, "What are you looking at?"

    In the dim light, the shadows on the wall overlapped, You Xuzhi stretched out his hand, slid his index finger from top to bottom, and praised: "It's beautiful with thin waist and long buttocks."

      Childhood.

    "Xiao Langjun, why don't you follow me?"

    This is the second time he has said this tonight.

    Zhang Zuidong approached him and asked in a hoarse voice, "Can you count?"

    "Natural counts, follow the Lord, bring you delicious and spicy food, the stars in the sky, the Lord has picked them for you." You Xuzhi was drunk and was rained again. I am a bit more awake, but my mind still hasn't returned to its original position, and what I feel is more like a dream.

    He seems to be immersed in a beautiful dream, the person in front of him is the person in the dream, and everything he does is out of some kind of emotion in his heart.

    "Who am I?" Zhang Zuidong asked him.

    You Xuzhi snorted and said in his ear: "Master's little beauty."

    Zhang Zuidong took his hand and asked again stubbornly: "Who am I?"

    You Xuzhi looked at him fixedly, Zhang Zuidong looked back with impregnable expression.

    You Xuzhi squinted his eyes and said, "Be honest."

    Zhang Zuidong: "…"

    His expression darkened.

    You Xuzhi: "Little Orion."

    Zhang Zuidong: "…"

    You Xuzhi's voice was vague: "I'm not drunk, I recognize you as Zhang Zuidong."

    I know, but I want to be funny.

    Zhang Zuidong relaxed his hand on You Xuzhi's chest, raised his chin slightly, and there was a reflection of You Xuzhi in his dark eyes, You Xuzhi was breathing rapidly, and his eyes were full Smiling, he grabbed Zhang Zuidong's hand and his lips fell on his wrist.

    The mouth is not serious: "Brother Zhang, good brother, do you think I am drunk? I am sober."

    Zhang Zuidong held the window behind him with the other hand, his heartbeat was thundering, the candlelight reflected on his face, his facial features were more prominent, his dark and deep eyes were full of emotion, and he was unsmiling. Her thin lips were tightly pursed, her smooth jawline was slightly raised, and her soaked undershirt was close to her body, revealing looming muscular lines.

    "I don't like men." Zhang Zuidong said, he closed his eyes, and murmured, "Why did you react to you?"

    His struggle, boredom, resistance and pain, after seeing You Xu, disappeared with a bang, leaving behind the deepest emotions.

    "You hurt me..." Zhang Zuidong opened his eyes, his eyes were fierce like a wolf, and he bit You Xuzhi's shoulder fiercely.

    The wind blew the flames and swayed the shadows on the walls.

    Sleepless night.

     Immediately afterwards, tactile sensations came from all over the body, and the touch of the skin under the palm of his hand made him freeze for a moment, his throat was dry, and his head was aching.

    What did he do last night? ? ?

     Fragmented memories burst into his mind.

    —"What a handsome little man..."

    —"You want the stars in the sky, and I picked them up for you..."

    -"Today I will be the flower thief once and pick your beautiful flower."

    —"Come and listen to my husband, I will let you go... Good brother, just let me go..."

    You Xuzhi: "…"

    It turned out not to be a dream.

    You Xuzhi looked at the scar on his back, and he already knew who this person was without turning over to look at his face.

    You Xuzhi closed his eyes in despair.

    It was over, he really cooked the raw rice.

    I am afraid that the little hunter will be relieved.

    He was so confused that the overlord was so **** the bow and forced the little hunter who had no power to tie the chicken after being drunk. Not false.

    To do this is extremely bad!

    "You...Are you all right?" You Xuzhi sat up from the bed, saw the stains on the bedding, and looked away again.

    "Sorry, I..." Even You Xuzhi, who has always been tongue-in-cheek, knew that anything he said at the moment was too pale, "I was confused last night."

    Zhang Zuidong tilted his head when he heard what he said, black hair covering half of his face.

    You Xu sighed softly, and then the quilt on his body was lifted, Zhang Zuidong grasped the sheet tightly with five fingers, and pulled out deep wrinkles.

    "Go away." He said hoarsely.

    He had guessed that You Xuzhi would regret it after sobering up, making his femininity so ridiculous and absurd.

    You Xuzhi was a little relieved when he saw that the battle was better than he had imagined. It seemed that he was drunk and sober, and knew that he had to take measures, but he was vulnerable and injured. , he didn't dare to take a closer look, and when he heard Zhang Zuidong tell him to "go away", he felt a little helpless.

    After a while, You Xuzhi got out of bed silently.

    He picked up the clothes on the ground and glanced at them. The clothes were soaked through and could not be worn. You Xuzhi looked back at the figure on the bed with his back to him, and hesitated: "Can you lend me one? clothes?"

    After a moment of silence, Zhang Zuidong said in a hoarse voice, "Just take it yourself."

    Zhang Zuidong opened his eyes, turned his head and the room was empty.

    You Xuzhi actually left.

    Zhang Zuidong's eyes were cold, like a bottomless pool, lifeless, his heart seemed to have a hole, the howling cold wind hurt, he lay back on his side, curled up The body, pulled the quilt, as if full of joy was stuffed into a jar that did not see the light of day.

    —

    After the thunderstorm night, there were a lot of puddles on the ground, and the well in the yard was full. When the fire was over, he rolled up his sleeves to add firewood.

    After doing all this, he went to wash his hands, walked to the door of Zhang Zuidong's room, put his hand on the door, and put it back, You Xuzhi slowly exhaled a turbid breath, pushed the door open, enter.

    Inside the door, Zhang Zuidong sat up and was about to get up. Seeing him go and return, he was stunned.

    "You... I boiled the water, I'll get up after scrubbing." You Xuzhi stood at the door and didn't go in.

    Zhang Zuidong was silent for a while, only looking at him.

    You Xuzhi turned around and closed the door. When he was looking for clothes, he saw a clean quilt in the cabinet.

    Zhang Zuidong looked at his behavior, and without saying a word, You Xuzhi took another clean clothes and began to deal with the aftermath.

      Zi wiped Zhang Zuidong's body.

    After wiping the outside, You Xuzhi washed the handkerchief and poured a basin of water in again. He said beside the bed, "You lie down and let me see your injury."

    Zhang Zuidong sat up, his back stiffened: "No problem, I can handle it myself."

    You Xuzhi: "You can't see it."

    Zhang Zuidong held out his hand to take the handkerchief, and after a while, he turned his back.

    Zhang Zuidong has medicine for trauma here, You Xuzhi helped him clean up, put medicine on it, and then put on a clean bedding. Looking back, he saw that his face was very ugly, his lips were pale and bloodless, When he looked at his forehead, he found that it was hot.

    You Xuzhi squatted beside the bed, his shoulders sank, it was Zhang Zuidong leaning on his shoulders.

    "Why not go?"

    You Xu Zhidao: "I bullied you, and I will suffer whatever you want."

    Zhang Zuidong lost his voice.

      The suppressed emotions surged up.

    He opened the window a little to breathe.

    I originally thought that I would not miss him so much when I met, but after meeting, I realized how much he was looking forward to seeing him. You Xuzhi is not a person who is emotionally restrained. Like it is like it.

    I drank too much just because he was by my side last night. I only remembered to test him subconsciously, wondering if he and Pu Pingle had really developed a relationship. If not, he would like to give it a try. If there is, he would also like to give it a try. If he does not pursue it, he will give up, and he will definitely regret it in the future.

    Some thoughts and feelings start, but they cannot be taken back.

    Zhang Zuidong slept till noon.

    After he woke up, the two of them didn't mention what happened last night or this morning. During lunch, You Xuzhi coughed lightly and asked him tentatively if he could stay here again a period of time.

    Zhang Zuidong glanced at him, didn't ask the reason, and replied with "um".

    Looking at his attitude, You Xuzhi felt that he could live a few more months.

    The next day, You Xu bought a lot of things from the town on Number accepted.

    After another period of time passed, the rice in the fields matured, and every household began to harvest.

    The summer is hot, the sun is hot, and there is still a moment of coolness in the morning. Zhang Zuidong went out very early. You Xuzhi came to the field with a sickle and a hat, and went down to the field with bare feet. Xu Zhi has been with Zhang Zuidong these days, the initial cautious energy has passed, and it has become the same inconspicuous appearance of the past, but the inconspicuousness has more things than in the past.

    "Brother Zhang, I'll help you." You Xuzhi leaned in front of Zhang Zuidong and fiddled with the hat.

    Zhang Zuidong glanced at him, cutting the rice in his hand non-stop, and said, "I don't need your help, there are many insects in the field, hurry up."

    "That won't work." You Xuzhi said, "How can I let Brother Zhang suffer like this alone."

    As he watched Zhang Zuidong harvesting the rice, he also learned to bend over to cut it. His movements went from slow to fast, and it only took half an hour. After an hour, his The palm of your hand began to hurt, and two hours later, blisters appeared on You Xuzhi's palm.

    Zhang Zuidong glanced at him with a frown, picked up the sickle and went to the field. There was a man half height on the field, and You Xuzhi also supported the ground with one hand. "Ah" raised his hand.

    As expected, Zhang Zuidong turned his head: "What's wrong?"

    You Xuzhi spread out his hand, "My hand seems to have blisters, it hurts strangely."

    "Don't come this afternoon," he said.

    "Alas." You Xuzhi sighed, "You just want to draw a line with me?"

    Zhang Zuidong: "Why did you say this?"

    You Xuzhi pulled out his hand, put the sickle on the ground, lowered his head and rubbed his palm and asked, "I just said those words, are you upset?"

    Zhang Zuidong recalled for a moment, and realized that You Xuzhi was referring to the phrase "Fate" he said. , I felt a little uncomfortable. You Xuzhi seldom smiled at him like this, as if there was a scorching light all over his body, but if he said this, it would make him more narrow-minded.

      It hurts more than my hand."

    Zhang Zuidong pursed his lips and said, "Don't talk nonsense."

    "Why are you talking nonsense?" You Xuzhi looked at him aggrievedly, "You don't like me so much?"

    "No." Zhang Zuidong denied it, and realized that he was denying it too quickly, without the heat on his face. Fortunately, the weather was already hot, and his face was ruddy. The face has always been tensed, but You Xuzhi didn't let You Xuzhi see the shyness of the tough guy under his skin.

    You Xuzhi: "Oh, it's nothing, I'm sorry for you first, it's normal that you don't like me, I can only blame myself."

    Zhang Zuidong's eyes fell on You Xuzhi's thin lips. He didn't drink much water all morning, and his lips were dry. He unconsciously licked the corner of his lower lip, Throat is getting dry.

    "I didn't dislike you."

    You Xuzhi was dubious: "Really?"

    Zhang Zuidong: "Really."

    "I don't believe it." You Xuzhi said, "Prove it to me."

    Zhang Zuidong was silent for a moment.

    You Xuzhi "hissed" inhalation and blew his hands.

    Zhang Zuidong asked, "How do you believe it?"

    A sly light flashed in You Xu's eyes, he raised his chin and said, "Show me a smile."

    Zhang Zuidong: "…"

     Looking at each other, You Xuzhi made a sound of "Oops" and lengthened his voice: "My hand hurts so much."

    The natural laughter revealed, Zhang Zuidong did not resist, just smiling deliberately like this, for someone like him who does not laugh often, he felt a little uncomfortable, but seeing You Xuzhi In this way, it is not difficult to laugh again.

    So he hooked the corner of his mouth and said, "Don't make trouble, come up quickly."

    He stretched out his hand, You Xuzhi took his hand, and pushed up with a force.

     "Brother Zhang, you look so good when you smile, really." You Xuzhi said with a smile.

    Zhang Zuidong bent over to pick up the sickle on the ground, but did not speak, the heat on his face continued to spread, reaching the base of his ears and neck, until it reached his heart. With his hands behind his back, You Xuzhi didn't mind being ignored at all, because he knew that Zhang Zuidong heard it.

    The relationship between the two of them in the past two days is almost the same as now. Ever since You Xuzhi discovered that Zhang Zuidong has no tendency to silence, he has been in high spirits.

    A man has a relationship with another man on the bed, can this relationship still be simple? It was absolutely impossible, and Zhang Zuidong didn't drive him away, but agreed to let him stay, which You Xuzhi thought was a good sign.

    "Brother Zhang!"

    You Xuzhi and Zhang Zuidong stopped their steps together, turned their heads and looked over, not far away, a man in a clean cyan gown trotted over and approached, he saw a man beside Zhang Zuidong You Xuzhi's face flashed with surprise.

    "Young Master You?" He blurted out, "Why are you here?"

      He may seem like a playboy, but when you get along with him, you will know that he has a good temper.

      also followed.

    The contradiction between the two may be... because of him.

    But after so many days, he and Zhang Zuidong had no chance to meet on weekdays, and Zhang Zuidong never came to him, let alone You Xuzhi, Pu Pingle felt as if he was holding a Sand, an unexpected wind blew, and the sand in his hand gradually decreased little by little.

    The scorching sun is in the sky, there is no shelter here, and the sun makes people's skin hot.

    You Xuzhi tore off his hat and touched his nose, feeling guilty for no reason, "Me? Let me take a look."

    Compared to the first time I met Pu Pingle on the ridge, the situation this time can be said to be quite different, probably because last time he came to "catch the rape", this time it became "being caught" of.

    Zhang Zuidong glanced at You Xuzhi's face, the good mood that had just risen was half cold, he moved a step to the side without a trace, stood between the two of them, asked Pu Pingle : "What's the matter?"

    "Ah." Pu Pingle remembered the purpose of his trip, took out a few meat patties wrapped in oil paper in his hand, and said, "You haven't eaten yet, I made too many meat patties today. , I brought you two, why don't you give me a taste?"

    The so-called cannibalism, Zhang Zuidong refused.

    Pu Pingle tightened his hands, his fingertips caught in the oiled paper, and he said, "Brother Zhang, I heard that you are good at carpentry. A table in my house has a broken leg, I don't know if I can help Repair?"

    Zhang Zuidong: "I'm not very skilled in this area. If you need it, you can find Uncle Li at the head of the village."

      Yes, Young Master You, have you eaten?"

      It was this moment of hesitation that made Zhang Zuidong's face darken.

    "No need, he will eat with me." Zhang Zuidong said, "If there is nothing important, we will go ahead."

    He took You Xuzhi, who was still swallowing saliva, and strode away.

    You Xuzhi followed behind, feeling the low air pressure on his body, and didn't dare to make a sound.

    Well, he is so fierce, as expected of a man he likes.

    Crossing the woods and arriving at the stream, the two stood on the edge washing the mud on their hands and feet.

     "Brother Zhang, why don't we make meatloaf tomorrow." You Xuzhi said.

    Really, which pot is not opened and which pot is lifted.

    "Meat pie?" Zhang Zuidong walked up to him.

    You Xuzhi saw that there was still mud on his knees, so he naturally rubbed it with water with his hands. He remembered the meat patties just now, and said, "Yes, it must be delicious."

    What he cooks must be better than that made by Poppin!

    This is not proud at all.

    He raised his lips in a good mood.

    Zhang Zuidong refused: "Don't eat."

    You Xuzhi stood up straight and asked, "Why? Isn't there a little meat left in the house? It must be just right to make meat patties, and add some chopped green onion..."

    "Don't eat." Zhang Zuidong gritted his teeth, "I hate meatloaf."

    Zhang Zuidong is rarely a picky eater. For so long, this is the first time You Xuzhi has heard him say what he doesn't like to eat so simply and decisively. at a loss.

    Zhang Zuidong said domineeringly: "You are not allowed to eat!"

    Zhang Zuidong heard his answer, and the breath in his heart was relieved. He is not as refined as Pu Pingle, not as docile as Pu Pingle, and has a tough temper - but he still doesn't want to You Xuzhi eats meatloaf.

    Zhang Zuidong took a step back and happened to step on a stone with moss, his bare foot slipped, and he fell back, one step away from him, You Xuzhi's body responded faster than The brain has already stretched out his hand, but under the inertial force, not only did he not hold Zhang Zuidong, but he also lost his balance.

      Asahi fell on top of him, and the small stone smashed the position of the blisters in his palm, but he seemed to have lost the pain for a short time.

    The distance between the two is extremely close, so close that You Xuzhi can clearly see the water droplets on Zhang Zuidong's eyelashes, and so close that Zhang Zuidong can see his own reflection in You Xuzhi's pupils.

    The sound of water crashing