On How Abusive Essays Become Sweet Essays

    In the quiet night, the candle in the room flickered, You Xuzhi sat beside the bed, put one hand on his neck, rubbed the back of his neck, tilted his head to look at the candle on the table, Zhang Zuidong He squatted in front of him, poured medicinal wine in his hand, his eyes looked warm, and his generous palms rubbed the insteps of his smashed feet.

    He didn't say anything, but You Xuzhi knew that he probably already knew everything, so he stood in front of the window in the middle of the night, watching him washing clothes in the yard, waiting for him on purpose I went back to my room and wanted to hear his explanation.

    "Does it still hurt?" He asked in a deep voice, and there was no displeasure in his voice.

    You Xuzhi was like a lamb to be slaughtered, his Adam's apple rolled, "It's fine, it will be fine in two days."

    "Oh." Zhang Zuidong replied softly.

      His face rested on his thigh.

    "You really don't want to touch me?" he asked.

    You Xuzhi was stunned by this question and didn't know how to answer for a while.

    What makes him unwilling to touch him? He wanted to touch him and it hurt, how could he not want to, but before Zhang Zuidong's attitude was unclear, he didn't want Zhang Zuidong to recall the experience of being forced that night, so he thought about the cycle.

    "Since you are willing to accept me, why...you have to solve it by yourself late at night?" Zhang Zuidong closed his eyes.

    You Xuzhi's attitude towards him on weekdays is already willing to be close, and they also sleep on the same bed, but Zhang Zuidong can't understand, You Xuzhi has needs, he also has them, why You Xu Why would he do such a humiliating thing behind his back—he would rather do it himself than touch him even though he was by his side.

      people happy.

    The long black hair fell from between You Xu's legs, You Xuzhi put his hand on the back of his head with a blank expression, caressing the back of his head, full of questions.

    —Why can’t he understand Zhang Zuidong’s words? Or incomprehensible.

    Why are you willing to accept him? Why don't you want to touch him?

    Isn't Zhang Zuidong unwilling to accept him?

    His hand was gently on the back of Zhang Zuidong's head, and a storm surged in his heart. You Xuzhi blinked and said, "You... misunderstood, I didn't..."

    I don't want to touch you.

      The breath, as if the wolf, tiger and leopard in the deep mountains were looking at their prey, and the next moment they were going to tear it apart.

    Zhang Zuidong: "Why did you humiliate me like this!"

    At the moment, one person wants to explain, but the other is already angry, and his mind is full of "I won't listen, I won't listen", You Xuzhi would never dream of it, the pursuit he thought was actually a long time ago It's already his.

    "Brother Zhang, good brother, don't get excited, we have something to say, it's not that I don't want to touch you..." He was interrupted again before he finished speaking.

    Zhang Zuidong's eyes were deep and deep: "That's what I want to touch."

    "Yes, I want to touch." You Xuzhi's clear eyes looked back, his tone firm.

    Zhang Zuidong was stunned for a moment, the terrifying breath dissipated a little, he fixedly looked at You Xuzhi for a while, then suddenly straightened up, undressed and took off his belt, with a mighty aura.

    "You...what are you going to do?" You Xuzhi asked with little confidence.

    Zhang Zuidong took off his clothes and glanced at him sideways: "Do you regret it?"

      : "Regret what?"

    He jumped off the bed, his face twisted for a moment due to the pain on the back of his feet, and then he put on his shoes impatiently and walked out the door.

    Zhang Zuidong thought he was going to run, grabbed his wrist, and asked with a sullen face, "Where are you going?"

    "I brought plaster in my room, and you will be injured if you do this hastily." You Xuzhi learned the lesson from the last time he woke up, and went to the town to prepare these things.

    Zhang Zuidong let go, he believed him once, he just stood there and waited. After You Xuzhi went out, he didn't move. Ran.

    The candlelight cast his shadow on the wall, pulling it high and big.

      On his shoulders, hands round the front, brushing his hair, and kissing the tips of his ears.

    "I'm back."

    The tense body in her arms relaxed for a moment.

    …

    When You Xuzhi pressed someone on the bed for a kiss, he found that the corners of his eyes were slightly red, his fingertips lightly landed on the corners of Zhang Zuidongqing's eyes, and whispered in his ear: "How uncomfortable is it? ?"

    Zhang Zuidong: "If I say yes, will you stop here?"

    You Xuzhi found that the current Zhang Zuidong is different from the original one, and now Zhang Zuidong has learned to throw the problem back to him.

    He took Zhang Zuidong's hand, put a lingering kiss on his palm, and said, "How can you turn back the arrow when you draw the bow, now the arrow is on the string, and it must be fired, and it must be fired if it is not. Arson, how can you turn your sleeves and turn your head not to put out the fire?"

    "That's enough, why bother asking." The old-fashioned, old-fashioned Zhang Zuidong was a little more lively at the moment, and his words were more lively.

    Zhang Zuidong trembled and curled up with the fingertips he kissed, gritted his teeth, turned his head, the flushing spread from the base of his ears to the neck, for a long while, his arm rested on After reaching his eyes, he said in a hoarse voice, "It's not uncomfortable."

    The candle gradually burned to the end, and then slowly extinguished. From night to dawn, the melted white candles flowing on the table have solidified.

    Summer days are long and nights are short, and the villagers have to do farm work. Early morning is the best time, neither cold nor hot, they are used to getting up early.

    The crowing of chickens is like a signal. The white chickens in the yard are wandering in the circle, jumping on the fence, holding their heads high, and making long and high crowings, one after another, more than any wake up call methods must be effective.

    Zhang Zuidong woke up as usual even though he slept late last night. He opened his eyes and the hands around his waist tightened. He saw You Xu who was still sleeping with frowning Then, he moved his hand away from his waist.

    As soon as he moved, You Xuzhi woke up.

    When their eyes met, Zhang Zuidong suddenly remembered the indecent words this person said in his ear last night.

    —"It's not uncomfortable, that's happiness?"

    —"Xiao Langjun, look at me, I see you are in the center of my eyes."

    —“Zhang Lang, please take care of me.”

    This time both of them were sober, so that the details of the process were more clearly and profoundly remembered than last time. Zhang Zuidong thought that You Xu was reckless, but in fact it was meticulous and sleepy afterwards. Still remember the aftermath.

    You Xuzhi opened his eyes, closed them again, and asked, "What can I do today?"

    Zhang Zuidong was silent for a moment, then said: "Nothing."

    "Then go to sleep, don't delay." You Xuzhi.

    Zhang Zuidong: "The plan of the day is in the morning."

      : "You think I didn't work hard enough last night?"

    Zhang Zuidong: "…"

    You Xuzhi raised his hand and hooked Zuidong's chin, "If you want it, it's not impossible for me."

    Zhang Zuidong: "…"

    He pulled Yu Xuzhi's hand, put it back on his waist, and said, "Go to sleep."

    "Yeah." You Xuzhi snorted, squeezed twice, and closed his eyes again.

    …

    After harvesting the rice, they have to dry the rice again. The two of them got up late, the sun was in the sky, and the ground was hot. The bamboo mats were spread out in the yard. Flatten the top.

      It was red, but it still had that smell.

    Zhang Zuidong gave him a piece of saponin, You Xuzhi shamelessly asked Zhang Zuidong to help him wash his hands, taking advantage of it whenever he got the chance, and taking it upright.

    "It's done." Zhang Zuidong finished the foam on his hands.

    Zhang Zuidong dropped the soap horn: "rub it yourself."

    You Xuzhi's face was full of hopelessness, and he sighed: "Sure enough, you don't cherish it anymore, you used to treat me so well, but now you just don't want to wash your hands for me, You hate me like that..."

    Zhang Zuidonghei sat back again with a sullen face: "Bring it in your hand."

    The two of them washed their hands for a long time.

    "Brother Zhang, have you ever thought about what to do in the future?" You Xuzhi asked suddenly.

    Zhang Zuidong was stunned by the question. After he disarmed and returned to the field, he also thought that he would hunt like this for a lifetime, but he did not expect such a person to suddenly appear in his life and let him lose like this mind.

    He watched the water wash the foam off his hands and replied, "I never thought about it."

    When he was young, he depended on hunting for a living, and when he was old, he could only live by farming, just like these people in the village.

    "What about you?" Zhang Zuidong asked.

    "I want to go south to see the beauty of the south of the Yangtze River." After You Xuzhi spoke, his eyes were bright and alive, he said, "Go down the waterway. It's not too far to get to Jiangnan, and the scenery along the way is picturesque. I was fortunate enough to go to Jiangnan once, and I also have a little business there... Would you like to go there with me to play in the future?"

    The more prosperous the land, the more diverse it is.

    Because of the people he was with, he also began to think about the future, he wanted to see more beautiful scenery with Zhang Zuidong, and wanted to set foot in more places with him.

    "You can read and hyphenate words, and your fists are good. It's a waste to be this little hunter." You Xuzhi said.

    Zhang Zuidong picked up the saponins and said, "Let's talk about it."

    You Xuzhi's words reminded him of the past when he was young. When his grandfather was alive, he always taught him to read and hyphenate words, hoping that he would one day be admitted to fame. But he entered the military camp in a daze.

    —

    At the beginning of August, there were people in the village who were on their 80th birthday. They held a big feast and set up a stage to sing opera. I don't know what to hear.

    You Xuzhi doesn't really like to listen to and sing. He prefers to listen to people's stories rather than singing, but it is very interesting to read it occasionally.

    When he went to the hut in the backyard, he accidentally bumped into two people making out. One of them was his acquaintance. He leaned against the corner and listened to the two of them talking.

    "Brother Jiang, I'm going to the market tomorrow. I want to go to the street to buy something to eat."

     "So Pingle, tell my brother what you want to eat, and my brother will buy it for you! If you don't come these days, my brother will miss you."

    "I want to go shopping by myself." Pu Pingle complained, "I haven't been to the market town for a long time."

    "Fine, come to my place tonight and I'll give you the money."

    You Xuzhi took a closer look, and then he realized that "Big Brother Jiang" was the person he bumped into touching Pu Pingle's **** before. It was Pu Pingle who broke up with him after that time, and now the two of them seem far less innocent.

    It's amazing.

    After he came out, he saw that Pu Pingle was walking beside Zhang Zuidong again, and he didn't know what he was talking about. When Pu Pingle saw him, his face was full of tears Before he could wrap it up, it was pitiful, and Pu Pingle left without waiting for him to approach.

    "What was he talking to you just now?" You Xuzhi asked.

    Zhang Zuidong said: "Nothing."

    You Xuzhi's folding fan unfolded, covering the lower half of his face, lowered his eyelashes and said: "Now you have something to hide from me and do not want to let me know? Is it a guilty conscience? Oh, Xiao Langjun, Tell me, I won't be angry, after all, I like you so much, how can I be willing to be angry with you."

    Zhang Zuidong: "…"

    "It's really nothing." Zhang Zuidong glanced at him with dark eyes.

    He was afraid that if he told the young master what Pu Pingle said just now, the young master would explode with anger. At certain times, the young master's brain would not work well, and it would explode at a moment.

    Just now, he was watching the stage singing while playing melon seeds for the young master, Pu Pingle squeezed in from nowhere, Zhang Zuidong admitted that he and Pu Pingle were not too cooked, and he didn't want to Having too much entanglement with him, Pu Pingle chatted with him a few words, and he responded.

    He suddenly mentioned You Xuzhi and asked Zhang Zuidong: "Do you know that Young Master You has a broken sleeve?"

    Zhang Zuidong stopped peeling melon seeds and said, "I know."

    "Brother Zhang, don't get too close to him. You know, everyone in the village... has started to gossip!" Pu Pingle said with great concern.

    Zhang Zuidong doesn't care what other people talk about, sometimes no matter how nice you are, you can't avoid messy discussions, it's just the difference between more and less.

    He said, "They say what they say."

    "Brother Zhang, I am also for your own good." Pu Pingle persuaded bitterly, "You know that he almost treated me-"

    Pu Pingle seemed to feel that he had slipped, and stopped talking with a pale face.

    Fortunately, everyone around them was listening to the play, and they were in a remote place, which did not attract the attention of others. Pu Pingle brought up the first time the three of them were on the hill. When he met, he said, "That's his true face. Don't be deceived by his appearance!"

    Zhang Zuidong doesn't like people talking bad about You Xu all the time, but speaking of it, he and Pu Pingle are indeed first come and then come, Pu Pingle is the person You Xuzhi liked at first, Zhang Zuidong thinks He didn't care much, but today someone is going to pick this thorn out.

    "Enough." Zhang Zuidong said in a more serious tone, and said to Pu Ping, "I hope you speak carefully and don't spread rumors at will."

    After he said this, Pu Pingle was shocked, and after that, You Xuzhi came over.

    You Xuzhi saw that Zhang Zuidong didn't want to say it, and he felt more and more that Pu Pingle said something, he snorted lightly, but his heart was not idle for a moment, and he could more or less guess Pu Pingle Pingle thought carefully.

    You Xuzhi muffled: "You stay away from him."

    Little Orion is so honest and easy to deceive, what if he falls into another pit from his pit.

    Zhang Zuidong glanced at him: "You are, stay away from him."

    Zhang Zuidong sneered: "I think the person who thinks so is Young Master You."

    You Xuzhi: "…"

    He really is! Even sneered.

    You Xuzhi felt aggrieved, grabbed a handful of melon seeds in Zhang Zuidong's hand and stuffed it into his mouth, chewing and watching the singer on the stage, the more he thought about it, the more he wanted to think about it. .

    The excitement is like a day, and before you know it, it gets dark.

      It was going too fast, and he couldn't help it.

    "Walk well." Zhang Zuidong taught behind You Xuzhi.

    You Xuzhi turned around, not only did not walk well, but also walked backwards with his back to the road, he pointed at Zhang Zuidong with the folding fan in his hand, like a disobedient child, sulking and irritating : "You say it again, I didn't hear it."

    Zhang Zuidong frowned: "Turn over."

    "I don't." You Xuzhi said, "If you turn around, you won't be able to see you."

    Zhang Zuidong: "…"

      Intentionally or unintentionally poking his weakness.

    He took two steps forward, opened his mouth, and wanted to say "don't go like this, it's dangerous", but before he could say anything, You Xuzhi was already empty, his feet were hanging in the air, and his body was unbalanced , fell directly into the field beside the road.

    Zhang Zuidong didn't even have time to pull him.

    Zhang Zuidong nearly suffered cardiac arrest.

    He squatted on the side of the road, looking at You Xuzhi on the haystack in the field, a little helpless, "Get up."

    You Xuzhi did not speak.

    Zhang Zuidong called him again: "You Xuzhi, get up."

    You Xuzhi: "…"

      hung up again.

    Having been together for so long, he thought that it was You Xuzhi who was deliberately teasing him, but in case, You Xuzhi drank some wine tonight, in case he lost his head.

    He didn't think about it, he jumped onto the haystack and crouched down to check on You Xuzhi's situation. As soon as he stretched out his hand, his wrist was caught.

      "caught you."

    Zhang Zuidong breathed a sigh of relief, and couldn't help but raise the corner of his lips.

    "Don't scare me."

    "Good brother, I was wrong, don't be angry." You Xuzhi took his hand, put it on his face, and rubbed his palm.

    He rolled over and rolled off Zhang Zuidong's body, lying on his side with one arm still under Zhang Zuidong's neck, and said, "Look at the stars in the sky, how beautiful."

    "Yes." Zhang Zuidong replied softly.

    The dark sky is full of stars, the crescent moon hangs in the sky, the scent of straw is in the nose, accompanied by the sound of frogs and cicadas, stealing a comfortable and leisurely time.

      The ambiguous and warm atmosphere that can't be inserted.

    Looking at the stars for a moment, You Xuzhi rolled over and pressed Zhang Zuidong on top of Zhang Zuidong. He touched him, and finally found the rope.

    "What are you doing?" Zhang Zuidong noticed something was wrong and held his hand.

    You Xuzhi: "Wouldn't it be a pity if such a beautiful scenery was wasted?"

    Zhang Zuidong: "…"

    It's serious for a moment.

    "Let's go back." He held down You Xuzhi's hand.

    You Xuzhi let go, Zhang Zuidong thought he had given up, then You Xuzhi leaned forward again and pecked his lips lightly, it was so ticklish that Zhang Zuidong bit him lip.

    You Xuzhi licked the corner of his lips and said, "What did you eat today, so sweet?"

    Zhang Zuidong looked away slightly and said, "Then Jiang Hu gave me candied fruit when I left. I asked you if you want to eat it."

    You Xuzhi remembered, he answered "don't eat" at that time.

    He said, "I want to eat again now."

    Zhang Zuidong said: "Not much, I've already finished eating."

    "Nothing, open your mouth and let me taste your mouth." You Xuyi said seriously.

    Zhang Zuidong: "…"

    "Fuck."

    "Why am I fooling around?" You Xuzhi complained, "You didn't leave me alone, and now I just want to taste it, but you are unwilling, Brother Zhang, You are so cruel, Xu Zhi's heart is broken."

    You Xuzhi: "Then you know it now, but if you want to return it, it is too late, I will touch it for you, and I will show you... small business, Once sold, refuse to return it.”

    "You—" Zhang Zuidong's mouth was blocked tightly.

      Buy a bag at the dried fruit store."

    Zhang Zuidong raised his head and panted, and didn't call him shameless anymore.

    You Xuzhi pecked his lips again and said, "Brother Zhang, Xuzhi likes you."

    Zhang Zuidong listened to this, his breath trembled slightly, and his heart became hot.

    You Xuzhi asked: "Brother Zhang, do you like Xuzhi?"

    He lay on his side on the haystack, propped up the hay on his elbows and held his head in his palms, tugging up a strand of Zhang Zuidong's scattered hair, twisting it up and down, Zhang Zuidong didn't answer for a while, and he also Don't worry, just ask again.

    For a long time, Zhang Zuidong closed his eyes and said dumbly, "I like it."

    He lowered his head and rubbed Zhang Zuidong's shoulder, and said, "You like me, and I like you too, then we call it a match."

    Then he raised his head, "So, you'll be fine with me."

    This "good" is not the other "good", Zhang Zuidong raised his arm to block his eyes.

    "Good brother, I miss you so much." You Xuzhi learned the greasy emphasis he had heard before, and his hoarse and magnetic voice was rather frivolous.

    These words came out of his mouth, less greasy and more sultry.

    Zhang Zuidong: "Don't keep saying these things."

    Zhang Zuidong muffled: "When did I say I like it!"

    Zhang Zuidong was speechless.

    "Did you understand the scene on the stage today?" You Xuzhi asked, but without waiting for Zhang Zuidong to answer, he continued, "That philistine scholar, you have already settled with Qingmei. She fell in love, and then she fell in love with the rich lady, and then raised her eyebrows and made the little young man who had no good family background as a concubine. Do you think this ending is good or bad?"

    Zhang Zuidong's eyes narrowed dangerously, not obvious in the dark, he asked in a light tone: "Why, you want to learn that scholar too?"

    "How dare I." You Xuzhi poked his cheek and pokes a small hole in the corner of his mouth. He didn't look so awe-inspiring, and was much more cute. He smiled purely and said , "How dare I have a hump at home?"

    "Huh." Zhang Zuidong twitched the corners of his mouth, obviously not very satisfied with the answer.

    You Xuzhi: "Why do you always like to bite people?"

    Zhang Zuidong did not speak.

      "

    He made a pun.

    The two rolled around on the haystack, the hay was scattered a little, Zhang Zuidong saw the box that You Xuzhi took out, and for a moment forgot to say, "You...what are you carrying this thing with you! ?"

    You Xuzhi raised the corners of his mouth: "Be prepared, look, it's just useful."

      kind of sound.

    Zhang Zuidong abide by his duty for more than 20 years, and he has never been so absurd. When encountering You Xuzhi, he did everything he should and should not do, but he was willing.

    …

    "It's very sweet." Zhang Zuidong said.

    You Xuzhi asked: "Sweeter than yesterday?"

    Zhang Zuidong: "…"

    He said without changing his face: "Yesterday was sweeter."

      Mine is sweeter."

    "You say yes." Zhang Zuidong said.

    Zhang Zuidong glanced at him suspiciously, and asked in a calm and low voice, "Why did I get angry with you?"

    "If it wasn't on the haystack yesterday... uh!"

    You Xuzhi was covered by Zhang Zuidong's palm, he swallowed the words and said, "Otherwise why did you say yesterday's candied fruit was sweeter."

    He licked his lips and touched Zhang Zuidong's palm.

    Zhang Zuidong took his hand away, his ears were reddish: "Sweeter is sweeter, why not."

    You Xuzhi was biting the candied fruit, and after realizing it, he realized that his question had two meanings. mean.

    If Zhang Zuidong is not angry, then it is because of the haystack, so the candied fruit is sweeter?

    You Xuzhi coaxed himself, and he was happy again.

    The things that Zhang Zuidong brought today sold fast. The two white red-eyed rabbits caught in the mountains before were healed and bought by a cute child. It was probably going to be taken home to keep, and when he left, he carried the cage carefully, for fear of bumping the little rabbit.

    When Zhang Zuidong was packing up, a man in a white long shirt came up to them and asked, "Is everything sold out today?"

    "Sold out." Zhang Zuidong said.

    The man was handsome and slender, with a strong scent of incense on his body, he glanced at You Xuzhi who was behind Zhang Zuidong, You Xuzhi unfolded his folding fan, Rock gently.

    The man smiled: "If that's the case, then don't bother."

    After saying that, he turned and walked towards the street.

    Zhang Zuidong felt strange, the man didn't look like he was going to buy something, and the items on the stall were clear at a glance, but the man didn't look at it much, and Zhang Zuidong somehow felt that he was a little familiar.

    He didn't think about it, he collected the things and was about to leave, You Xuzhi suddenly said: "Oh, by the way, today I want to go to Yipin Banquet to buy some cakes to eat back home, you wait for me , I'll come back after I buy it."

    "Okay." Zhang Zuidong didn't think much about it.

    But after a while, he felt something was wrong. He remembered when he had seen the man. Not long ago, he and You Xuzhi were also at the market together, and the man Looking at the oil-paper umbrella in the shop opposite, he glanced at his booth several times. Because of his unique temperament and outstanding appearance, Zhang Zuidong had an impression.

    After he appeared that time, You Xuzhi also said to buy something and then walked away.

    Zhang Zuidong frowned suddenly, he entrusted the things to the people next to him to watch, and went straight to the first banquet, not knowing what the young master was doing behind his back.

    He was walking fast, and he arrived at the first-class banquet, just in time for Yu Xuzhi to come out of the shop, and he did take the bag in his hand.

    Is he wrong?

    But before he could breathe a sigh of relief, he saw that You Xuzhi did not go back to the circuit, but turned into a small alley, Zhang Zuidong clenched his side into a fist, and raised his heels.

    And then, Zhang Zuidong saw You Xuzhi enter the backyard of Qingfenglou, the largest brothel in the city.

    Zhang Zuidong walked over after the door was closed, and faintly heard voices coming from inside.

    "Why did you come today?" This was You Xuzhi's voice.

     Immediately after, another more charming male voice said: "Oh, Young Master You, I'm not here, what's the hurry..."

    "Take the silver."

    The coquettish male voice smiled happily, and said with a tone of "you and I understand": "Oh! Thank you young master for the reward, why don't we go up and look at something else... How about?"

    "Let's go." You Xuzhi urged, "Come on, don't put that fragrant smell on me, he should smell it when he goes back..."

    The voice gradually faded away, it should be the two people inside.

    Zhang Zuidong couldn't help but think of that man, which was in line with You Xuzhi's previous preferences.

    Who is he?

    Old lover?

    Sweetheart?

    How long have they been carrying him around?

    Zhang Zuidong's face was dark, it was really good, You Xuzhi!

    Fists clenched and made a horrible creaking sound.

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