One last time

30 minutes ago.

Silvia frowned when she realised that she was actually heavily bleeding. After doing some calculations, she realised that she was late by almost a month. 

Just then someone entered the room and called her out. "Silvia, are you there?"

When Silvia came out, she saw one of her colleagues who was busy changing the IV tube. 

"I don't think so I need that anymore, I feel okay now." Silvia said before walking towards the bed, suppressing and neglecting the strange kind of pain she was feeling. It was neither hurting or making her feel okay.

"One more and you are fine." The nurse said.

Sitting down on the bed when Silvia saw the nurse flipping through some reports, she asked, "Are those mine?"

When the nurse nodded her head, Silvia added, "Give it to me, I wanna see it."

The nurse quickly placed the reports on the table near the couch and helped Silvia insert the catheter at the back of her hand. "You should take rest now, the reports are normal anyway."

Keeping quiet for quite sometime, Silvia asked, "Can you get me some sanitary napkins? My flow is heavy and I need to change."

"Ya sure but stay here okay? I'll be back in a minute." 

After the nurse left, Silvia slowly took out the catheter from the back of her hand and got down from the bed.

Picking up the reports when Silvia started reading the details, her body froze. 

Grabbing the edge of the table of the table, Silvia sat down on the couch while staring at the reports in daze. 

Three weeks foetus. Her baby was already three week old but she lost it already. Placing her hand on her stomach, Silvia balled it into a fist. 

When the nurse came back, she widened her eyes in shock when she saw Silvia sitting in the couch with the reports in her hand. Tossing the pack of sanitary napkins aside, she rushed towards her and snatched the reports back. "I told you not to read it Silvia, dammit you weren't supposed to see this."

They had actually received a warning and order from the higher management to keep the news away from Silvia but now that Silvia had seen everything, what could she do?

"I-I had a miscarriage?" Silvia asked.

The nurse sighed and slowly nodded her head. Squatting right in front of her, she explained, "Yes but it's not your fault okay? The foetus was too small to handle such a high dose of sedatives that you were injected with. Everything was an accident and I am sure everything will be okay."

When Silvia did not respond, the nurse added, "Please be strong okay? Look you weren't supposed to be knowing this but-"

"I need some alone time please." She needed to be alone, she needed some time with herself. Everything she had heard was like a big bomb which was suddenly dropped in her life. Silvia had no idea that she was pregnant, infact, they weren't even planning to have one anytime soon then who did she end up losing if before knowing about its existence. 

The sourness in Silvia's heart tripled when she realised that it was actually her fault. If she hadn't entered the building, her baby would still be with them right?

Seeing Silvia like this, the nurse felt helpless. She didn't understand how she was supposed to console her. After giving it thought, the nurse decided to give her some space.

...

Present.

"It's all my fault." Silvia murmured. Yes, it was all her fault. It was because of her carelessness and recklessness that she lost their baby. 

"Hey, it's not big deal and-"

Jerking his hands off, Silvia shouted, "How can you say that it's no big deal? We lose our first born child because of my carelessness and you are saying that it's no big deal? Shouldn't you be like shouting at me and scolding me? You should be throwing a fit right now and you should be blaming me for not taking care of our baby." She didn't understand how Kevin could act like nothing happened. He obviously knew about it since the very beginning so why didn't he mention it in front of her? Why was he still treating her the way he always did? Why did he still hug her to sleep? Why was he not angry with her? 

Caressing her cheeks, Kevin explained, "Because it's not your fault babe. In fact, it's no one's fault. And why would I blame you? It was an accident and accidents happen." 

Grabbing his collar, Silvia cried harder, "But that was our baby and I was supposed to take care of it. It was inside me but I lost it. I didn't even know that I was pregnant I-"

Cutting her off, Kevin said, "Hey, stop okay? No one is blaming you. We can always have one in the future or whenever you want and we will be super careful in the future. We both will take a long leave from work and take care of the baby. I'll take care of you and our baby."

Looking at Kevin's sincere and warm expression, Silvia felt even more guilty. She couldn't help but blame herself for everything that had happened. Only if she hadn't entered the building to save that little bit then her baby would've been with her. Why did she have to pay such a huge price even after saving her life? Wasn't that a good deed? Then why was she going through such a painful phase after doing something good? Why was God being so mean and unfair to her?

When Silvia buried her head in her neck, Kevin caressed her back. "It's alright, we are in this together and we don't need a baby now. I am still a baby so you have to take care of me first. I also do not wish to share my wife with anybody. And the baby would definitely be cuter than me so you'll obviously love it love and-" Kevin stopped midway when Silvia stopped sobbing. 

Shaking her shoulders when Kevin tried to wake her up, he realised that she wasn't conscious anymore.

Tapping her cheeks, Kevin tried to wake her up but nothing worked.

Scooping her into his arms, he placed her on the bed and started calling for the nurse and doctors. Soon Dr Bailey rushed inside the room and a nurse asked Kevin to leave the room.

Though he didn't want to leave her alone, Kevin still reluctantly left the room. 

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