Planned Love

Yes, I admit, at that moment, I had an impulse to plunge into his arms and kiss him.

But I did the opposite, and I pushed him away.

I struggled out of lust, and I didn't want to fall into it again. That feeling is good, but now, the time is not right.

If the time is wrong, love will be entangled again, I will face those things I don't want to face again. But now, I can't be distracted.

I believe more and more, focus on doing my own things, and then everything I want will come.

If you are in full bloom, God will arrange wonderful.

"Don't be like this, Sheng Yun," I looked at him, my eyes were very indifferent, my heart was aching, but my eyes were very cold. "Since we have decided, we should do what we have decided. Don't let the emotions get to you, and then you can make a fuss. It's not good for anyone

"Shubei, you're more and more calm." He looked at me, his eyes were extremely moving, "you can't be so calm, you are so calm, I will..."

He didn't say any more, so I asked, "what will happen to you?"

"I can't help but desperation, want to take out your heart again, see what you have in your heart now, whether there is my position in the end!" His eyes were burning.

It's strange that the more calm I am, the more uncontrollable he is. He used to be calm at any time.

"It's only half a year. You've become so fast." He looked at me and said in disbelief.

"What do you think will happen to me?" I looked at him and asked faintly, "can't I help jumping into your arms? I will cry to you how hard I have spent the past six months and how much I miss you? I will nag you to come back to me? ——No, Sheng Jun, I've never been such a woman. I can love, and I can let go. "

"I know, you are Xu Shubei. I know you will push me far in half a year, but I never thought that you would let me I can't even reach it. " He looked at me and said with pain in his eyes, "subconsciously, I still feel that you are mine and you love me."

"Does it matter if you love or not?" I looked at him and said with a sad smile, "if there is one, I will let you give up the flourishing age to love me, can you do it? Naturally you can't, it means that you have something more important in mind. If not, you would not cooperate with Xu. Since you have something more important than love in your heart, I naturally have it. I will go after me, and I can let go of love

"You're still angry. You're still angry, aren't you?" He looked at me with a little surprise in his eyes. As if I was just angry, angry words behind, still hidden that deep love in general.

I shook my head and I said, "I'm telling the truth, not anger. Take care of yourself, and let them sail back to shore, will you? "

"I'm not going to get you off this ship tonight." His tone became domineering again.

My eyes a Lin, I said: "so, interesting?"

"Yes." He looked at me and said in a deep voice.

"Even if you take me again, my decision and determination will not change." I looked at him and said with a look of aggression.

"I know, but I still want to have a try." He said.

"The quilt in winter, the cattail in summer, and the untimely warmth can only make people feel more desolate." I said coldly.

He took my hand and led me out of the cabin and stood in the bow. We can see the lights of the players on the shore, and two people stand hand in hand in the bow of the boat. There is a desolate feeling of boating on the lake and leaving the world behind.

It's beautiful, but it's still out of date.

I pulled my hand away again, and I said, "I'm sorry, I'm not in the mood to enjoy the scenery."

He turned his head and looked at me. I repeatedly refused to let his eyes change from sadness to bewilderment. He stood there with his hands on his back and said faintly, "I thought the beautiful scenery here will make you forget the reality temporarily, but ignore that you are Xu Shubei. How many women are more realistic than you? "

"Isn't the reality good? Be realistic, so as not to be hurt by the illusory love. I'm glad that I've always been wrapped in a hard shell. Although it's very tired and heavy to carry this shell on my back, I'm glad that it has always protected me I said.

"I know I broke that hard shell, but I also know that I sew it up again. I know that shell is harder, and I'm outside it. I understand. I always understand. " Sheng Yun said slowly.

"If you really understand, send me to the shore." I said.

"Good."

To my surprise, he promised so freely.

I thought that he would once again, as before, use that extreme and oppressive method to force me to submit to him, and force me to submit to his body whenever I was determined to resist his control.

But this time, he chose to respect me.

I took a long breath.

"I don't dare to ask you any more. Before I knew that I would get your heart again after I asked. But now, I'm sure, I'm afraid I'll lose you completely if I try again this time. " He saw that I had breathed, and said."You will, you will lose me completely. It's the wisest decision to send me to the shore. " I said.

"You change, and then feel both gratification and fear..." He shook his head, and he said, "I'm afraid that if it goes on like this, one day you'll be ahead of me. If I want to love you again, I will chase you. Shubei, my pride does not allow me to bow down for any woman, including you. "

Naturally, I understood what he meant. I shook my head and said, "you don't have to bow down for any woman, including me. You can give me up, and I'll take it

"Shubei, you..." He came over to kiss me, but the alienation on my face made him timid again. He sighed deeply, and then said to the waiter standing inside, "please come ashore."

The boat began to move slowly towards the shore. His mind seemed a little restless and restless. He lost his sense of propriety.

I don't know if it's because of my quietness that makes him more mad. But for the first time, I felt like I was holding his heart, not passively being manipulated by him.

For the first time in our game, I took the initiative and was no longer led by his nose.

Compared with my indifference, he is obviously a little unable to adapt.

I sat in the bow of the boat, took off my shoes, hung my legs on the outer edge of the boat, and looked at the scenery on the lake.

He sat down, grabbed my hand and said, "be careful, don't fall."

"I've been sitting on the outer edge of the top floor of Shengshi building, and I haven't fallen down. What are you afraid of with such a low bow? " I smile lightly, say with disapproval.

"I know your courage and courage, but I hope In front of me, you are weak and gentle He said.

"If you need a gentle, vulnerable woman, you probably won't choose me. You know what kind of woman I am from the first time we met. " I looked him in the eye and said slowly.

"I know, I've challenged, I've got your heart. Now, it's lost again. " He was a little depressed, and then he yelled to the waiter inside, "bring two pots of rice wine here!"

The waiter quickly brought rice wine, but also brought a few dishes of wine.

He unscrewed the lid of the pot, took a big drink, and then said, "drunk, the night is intoxicating, and you More intoxicating. "

His love words began to be more and more bold, I know, he is trying to pry open my hard shell again, want to peep into my soft heart.

I also picked up the jug, touched him gently, and then took a big drink. I said, "unfortunately, no matter how strong the wine is, how beautiful the night is, and how intoxicating the beauty is, they can't withstand the cruelty and blood of reality."

"Desser..." He reached out and pinched my face, and he said, "but you are much more beautiful. In the past, beauty was too aggressive, and one could see ambition at a glance; now, beauty is so beautiful that it is ambition. From the eyes It sank to my heart. "

I faint smile, and then drink a mouthful of wine again, I said: "you happy good."

"I'm not happy because for the first time I feel a sense of frustration. " He shook his head, said a little drunk, and then drank a few more.

"You?" I looked at him and said with a half smile, "is that a setback? It's not like you. "

He lifted up my chin. In the sultry night, his white face was covered with a light mist. He looked so dreamy. He said, "yes, from small to large, I can get everything I want. I thought I could get the woman I wanted. But I can't think of it. I clearly got you, and even you gave birth to a child for me. But how do I feel like I lost you completely

I smile and suddenly understand where my unreal feelings came from. Where can a man value enough what he can get at his fingertips? The more you value it, the more he feels it won't be lost.

Now far away, he began to slowly his heart, a little bit to show you, let you see his heart thousands of hills and valleys, see his passionate and heartless.

Sometimes the appearance of love is confusing. Only by standing aside can we see the truth.

Tonight, for the first time, I felt his heart care. But I don't care so much.

The boat slowly came to the shore. He had finished drinking a pot of wine. I also looked up and drank the wine in the pot. I patted him on the shoulder and said, "the wine is delicious, the food is delicious, and your words are more beautiful. But the boat's on shore. I'm going. Goodbye, Sheng Yun. "

I stood up from the bow and walked calmly towards the deck, leaving him a calm and resolute figure in the gloom of the night. I feel that I have never had a kind of happiness, I did not look back, but I can feel his eyes burning on the shore. He must be looking at me, his eyes are shining like stars in the dark night. I think, Sheng Yun, after three days of farewell, I must make you look at each other with a new look

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