Planned Love

Shaeva has already been integrated into the atmosphere of the bonfire party, but I feel very lonely when I look at the carnival of other people.

I don't know what's going on at this time. Have you fallen asleep. And What about the man?

With his usual working attitude, he should still be working overtime at this time?

In my mind, he suddenly appeared in a dark suit, sitting upright in the conference room, pointing out the mountains and rivers. His young face, his deep brow, and his calm and skillful wave seemed to be like a painting scroll, deeply engraved in my mind.

Tai Ziqian and I left the bonfire party one after another, and we went to the next hill.

The mountain is not high. From the bottom to the top of the mountain, there are flashing lights. There is an observatory on the top of the mountain. From that telescope, you can see everything in the sky.

Since almost all the people were concentrated at the bonfire party, few people went up the mountain at this time.

I first called Aunt Liu. Aunt Liu told me that Zizai was very good. When I proposed to have a video with him, Aunt Liu's tone flickered for a moment. Then she told me on the phone that he was already asleep and was afraid that the sound of the video would wake him up.

So I gave up, charged a few words, then hung up the phone.

After that, Tai Ziqian and I went to the mountain in silence.

In my heart, I don't forget Tai Qian

I slightly stupefied the footstep, then turned to look at him, pretended to do not know to ask: "what do you mean?"

"Of course you know what I mean," Tai said, looking at me. Then he sighed softly. "Shubei, tell me about it. Tell me about your inner feelings."

"Now?" I can't help sighing, looking at the steps up the mountain, and sighing, "I feel as confused as climbing this mountain. Step by step, step by step, the offset printing goes up, dare not neglect, dare not be tired, but do not know how long it will take to reach the end, also do not know when the foot will suddenly slip down, the heart is full of too many unknowns, want to give up but can not. "

"You can't skate, I'll accompany you up the mountain. If you fall, I'll hold you. If I can't hold you, I'll fall first. " Tai Ziqian said with a smile.

His eyes twinkled with sincere light. Under the reflection of colored lights on both sides of the road, his figure is particularly tall and his face is more and more handsome.

"Ziqian, do you say that the perfection of the world is always contrary to the cause ahead?" Looking at Tai Ziqian, I said solemnly, "it's too difficult for a woman to live in this society. If she wants to have a career, she is doomed to be unable to give consideration to the perfection of her family. However, if she wants to be perfect, she means to give up her career. A woman like me, who has been struggling, may be doomed not to have love

"Who said that? How many successful women have happy families. It doesn't matter to compromise or sacrifice properly. You can have both, as long as you don't be greedy Tai Ziqian said as he went up.

"The difficulty lies in greed." I said with emotion, "if I immerse myself in feelings, I will pay out of my heart and lungs, constantly compromise, and constantly lower the bottom line. But once that happens, what about my pursuit? Isn't it a long time? However, if I pursue my career blindly, I will have no time to care about my feelings. What's more, I have a child. Too many things are doomed to be unable to take into account, and in the end, we should choose one from the other. "

"Shubei, if I'm right, what you're thinking now is not just revenge?" Tai Ziqian said.

I was stunned in my heart, and then I laughed helplessly. I said, "do you know how I feel every time I drive past the Xushi building?"

"Hate?" Tai Ziqian asked me.

I shook my head and I said, "at first it was hate, then Not quite. I admit that Xu Changsheng has a certain business talent, but it is much worse than my father used to be. At that time, the Xu family under my father's leadership was no less than the status of the Sheng family in Hangzhou today. But after so many years, Xu's family is still in the same place, did not advance, and even retreated. It was created by my father. If my father was still there, Xu would become a commercial empire and would not be caught up by Sheng. Now, he can only survive by relying on Sheng. "

"So you always feel that you have shouldered a responsibility. You not only want to take back the Xu family, but also want to see how far Xu can go under your leadership. Am I right?" Tai Ziqian said.

I nodded. I looked at the top of the mountain, pointed to the white Pavilion on the top of the mountain and said, "you see, the top of the mountain is there, but you don't make efforts, you don't go up wholeheartedly. If you look around, look left and right, and distract your energy, you can't climb to the top. And when you get to the top, there are still higher and farther mountains. You not only have to climb up, you have to prevent yourself from climbing high and falling heavily You say, when your eyes are on the top of the mountain, and the colorful lights beside the road are dazzling again, will you stop here? "

"So in your eyes, love is like this lantern, and the white Pavilion on the top of the mountain is your destination?" Then he said, "Why are you upset?"Suddenly, I felt a very depressed feeling in my heart. A voice jumped from the bottom of my heart to my mouth. I couldn't help but say, "because I really love him."

Tai Ziqian suddenly Zheng Zheng, he looked at me affectionately and sadly: "how I hope that you said this to me."

I looked at the gorgeous lantern and said sadly, "even if it is hidden in my heart, I still don't know how to run out of my mouth. I can't avoid it, I can't escape it. It's something inside. Like this lantern, it can't be your target, but it will always be on your way. Since ancient times, people who can escape the word "love" have probably become saints? "

"Where does he make you so infatuated?" Tai Ziqian was obviously distracted. He didn't listen to what I was saying.

But it doesn't matter. I don't expect him to understand. I just think it's good to have a place to speak.

"Everything about him, every expression, every movement and every look in his eyes make me infatuated and hard to forget," I said as I walked. "Ziqian, I don't know when, he has already planted such a deep position in my heart. The more I push him away, the more I miss him in my heart. The more I pretend to be indifferent, the more painful I feel. From ancient times to the present, how many women do not desire the moisture of love? I don't want to, I don't want to be trapped by love. I feel that neither he nor I can compromise for each other, nor can we be pure. He has his pursuits, and I have mine. "

"Someone is willing to compromise for you, but You can't see it. " Tai Ziqian suddenly said a meaningful sentence, and then said, "I have never experienced the feeling of love? The feeling of looking at her for thousands of years, the feeling that she wanted to protect her life at the first sight, the feeling that she would rather give up her ambition and be willing to serve as a foil for her, I realized it thoroughly. Shubei, you don't really love him, or at this stage you love your ambition and ambition. He will compromise everything for you if he is willing to

I didn't have the heart to understand the deep meaning of Tai Ziqian's words. I hastily defended myself. I said, "I once compromised. I made up my mind to stay with him, tide over difficulties with him, and stand at the top with him. But later I realized that I was only with him. Company meant that I was just his vassal, and I was gradually losing myself Gradually losing control of life. I'm afraid. I'm really afraid. I'm afraid that I'm in control of everything. I'm afraid I'm losing myself. I'm afraid I'm losing myself in love and forgetting where I started

"Love means sacrifice. Have you heard a word in the Bible? Love is patient and kind Tai Ziqian said casually, "if I love a person, I am willing to turn into a candle, burn myself and light up the road she wants to go. I want to see her happy. I want to see the most beautiful smile on her face. Because she is happy, I will feel happy. "

"Ziqian, you are always greater than me." I patted him on the shoulder and said with a smile.

As we speak, we have reached the top of the mountain. We are in the white Pavilion. I get close to the telescope and see the vast universe at a glance.

According to the book, people with small hearts can only see the present, while those with big hearts can see the future at a glance.

When I saw the vast universe and the vast Star River through the telescope, I suddenly felt small. Suddenly, I found that the world was so big and boundless that no matter how you went, you could not go to the end. There were countless human roads and countless mountains and rivers. However, I would rather choose a journey than walk barefoot, With my sweat and tears, let my life be broader and more profound.

Stay in the arms of a man, of course, can have stable happiness. However, if I yearn for mountains and rivers and lakes, even if his arms are as far-reaching as the sea and as broad as mountains and rivers, I will not be satisfied.

"We still have to go our own way, or to meet more people, or to break into a bigger world. Knowing that the challenge is difficult, we still want to have a try. Ziqian, this is all I think now. I miss him, I love him, but this love can't stop me from pursuing a better world. " I came down from the observatory, lying on the green grass nearby, looked up at the vast starry sky, and said to Tai Ziqian.

But Tai Ziqian didn't know what he had suddenly touched. He suddenly forced me into his arms. I struggled desperately, but as soon as I looked up, I saw his tears streaming down his face

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