Planned Love

When I open those exaggerated reports with my mobile phone, I can't help laughing and crying when I look at the bloated self in the photo.

Looking at the following like the tide of satire, as well as some malicious irony can no longer be malicious, but also some groundless information, my heart is broken.

Postpartum mother is prone to depression, coupled with the weak constitution of the thousand gold, always crying for unknown reasons, which often makes me unable to rest all night long. My nerves have been disordered. It is a luxury for me to have a steady sleep.

When I saw this report, I broke down to howl.

I didn't want to have faced so many difficulties in my life, did not let my psychological defense line collapse thousands of miles. But now these trivial and trivial life, but easily let me cry into tears.

At this point, I know how much effort Aunt Liu saved for me and how much effort she paid after she was born.

At this point, I know that it is very difficult for a woman to fight alone among men, but what is more difficult is the complicated situation when facing the multiple responsibilities of the workplace, mother and wife.

On the one hand, I need to take good care of my own body, and Qianjin also needs to take good care of him. When I gave birth to my son, I didn't take care of him because of my busy work. I wanted to do my part as a mother in Qianjin. In addition, I tried my best to compensate for the absence of maternal love during this period of time.

I have discussed with Sheng Yun that I will give up my career temporarily in a short time until the end of my lactation.

On the other hand, this pregnancy consumed my huge energy and mental strength. My body and energy were not as good as before, and my mentality fell to an unprecedented low.

That night, I had a big fight with Sheng Yun. Even I was surprised at the outbreak of the quarrel.

I think that I have never been a narrow-minded woman.

But that night, when Sheng Yun came home too tired to fall asleep, and I walked around the room alone holding Qian Jin for three hours, but Qian Jin still cried and didn't sleep, I was on the verge of breaking out.

At three o'clock in the morning, Zizai is awakened by Qian Jin's crying. He gets up from his small bed. It's useless for the nurse to persuade him. When his mother holds him I feel the last trace of energy exhausted in my body, and my body and spirit have reached the extreme.

I looked at Sheng Yun, who was sleeping soundly in bed. He turned a deaf ear to everything in the room. He still slept soundly, and even made a slight snore

I was outraged.

There's a kind of anger that can't be controlled in my heart.

At this time, Zai Zai threw away his bottle angrily. The full bottle of milk hit my leg and the glass bottle broke. The nanny looked at me in panic. The gold in my hand was blue with tears, but still refused to drink milk.

At that moment, I suddenly put my daughter on the bed, and then yelled to Sheng Yun: "Sheng Yun, how can you sleep in this situation?"

Endless grievances came out of my chest, and I was furious.

Once upon a time, I thought I could control my emotions smoothly, but at that moment, my emotions were like a blowout volcano. I couldn't control them at all.

Sheng Yun was so frightened by my roar that he opened his eyes and looked at the room in a daze. Then he got up from the bed and saw that Qianjin and Zai Zai were crying.

Subconsciously, he said, "why don't you let them go to bed so late?"

No care, no consideration, no so-called understand.

His words undoubtedly add fuel to the fire.

"How can you sleep when they are so noisy?" I look at this man in bed, suddenly feel that love is in vain, he makes me so strange.

"I haven't slept for three days, wife." Sheng Yun realized that the situation was not right. He came over and looked at the daughter on the bed and the son on the ground.

"Sister Zeng, would you please put Zizai to sleep Sheng Yun said to his sister-in-law.

"I want mom! I want mom!... " Zai Zai started to cry again.

Sheng Yun picked up the daughter on the bed. She cried even more because she was too dependent on me.

We are in one after another in the cry, suddenly had the dispute which had not before.

I always thought that Sheng Yun and I would not be an ordinary couple. We had our style, and we would not be dragged down by these trivial things.

But when I had two children, I found that I was wrong. I was wrong.

When those words like complaining women jumped out of my mouth, when I was disappointed with this man in my heart, when I was extremely tired and collapsed, I suddenly felt a different kind of loneliness.

Once upon a time, so many difficulties in life, I can survive.

But I can't make it through these trivial things. I'm at a loss. I don't know where the road is.

"Shubei, are you still you?" I chattered until the end, and Sheng Yun frowned at me. His eyes were full of strangeness.His words deeply hurt me.

"Otherwise, shall we exchange them? You grow up with them at home, and I go out and show up? " I looked at Sheng Yun and said sarcastically.

"I know you're tired, and I know you're hard. But once upon a time, you were not such an emotional woman. " Sheng Yun's tone softened a little. He came over and took my hand. When he held me in his arms, I saw him frown.

In the past, I was slender and slender, but now I have become a giant. He even took me into his arms.

My slightly calmed heart broke down again. I pushed him away. I said, "did you feel like you were holding a cow?"

"How? You are my wife. How can I dislike you? " He frowned and looked at me with a thick tired look on his face. "Recently, the company's business has really been so busy that I'm so worried, I'm..."

"Yes, you are tired, you are tired. The first thing you say when you go home is that you are tired. Have you ever thought that I am more tired than you at home? Do I know what kind of life I've had in the past year? Do you know how upset I am? I've become like this now. I don't have the courage to go out. I was reported by the media like that, and I was written like that. Have you ever stood up for me?... " Endless complaints poured out of my mouth.

After that, I never thought that I would become a resentful woman who used to make me feel disgusted.

"Shubei!" He gave me a loud roar and made a "stop" sign to me. He looked at his watch and said, "I'm really tired. I have to get up at 5 o'clock to go to the airport. I'm going to two cities today. It's probably midnight for me to go home. I really need to take a break. I'm meeting important clients tomorrow. You can put the daughter to sleep. I'll go to the sofa

No hugs, no comforts, no understanding.

Sheng Yun sighed, rolled up a quilt, closed the door and went to the living room It's the first time we've been sleeping apart since marriage.

Qianjin is crying and crying and has fallen asleep. Her little hand is still in her mouth. Zai Zai sits on the ground, waving her hands excitedly to play with the car.

Sister Zeng said to me exhausted: "Shubei, my daughter-in-law is going to have a baby soon. According to the rules of our hometown, I have to go back and accompany me to sit in the confinement. I...."

"Sister Zeng, how can you resign at this time?" I turned my head and looked at sister-in-law and asked in disbelief.

"I This I also have no way, you this child, too bad to take, I I'm so nervous now that I don't get a good night's sleep Mrs. Zeng has already made up her mind to go.

"Well, I'll pay you tomorrow, and you'll go to bed." At that moment, I completely lost my fighting spirit. I couldn't wave my hand to sister-in-law Zeng and said faintly.

I covered the quilt for the daughter, went over, sat on the ground with Zai Zai Zai playing with toys, and then tried to hold him in my arms and began to coax him to sleep.

Later, even I didn't know how I fell asleep. Before I fell asleep, I had countless thoughts, countless thoughts I suddenly feel that I am so far away from my former self. Now I am exhausted and exhausted. I don't know when the end is.

I began to miss that kind of fresh clothes before the life, miss that in the state of charge, ready to burn at any time.

When I woke up the next day, Sheng Yun had already left. I am so tired that I sleep on the ground with Zai Zai and sleep on the crawling mat for him. We are covered with a thin quilt, which is the bed that Sheng Yun carried to the sofa last night.

When I woke up, Qian Jin and Zai Zai Zai were still asleep. I was already weak and could not sleep too long every day. However, when looking at these two vigorous small faces, watching them lie quietly in front of me, I feel that all the efforts are worth it.

On the same day, sister Zeng left. I asked Aunt Liu to help me find a reliable nanny in the market. Aunt Liu came back to see the two children. Seeing that I was so tired, she said weakly, "Shubei, mom can't bear to have you so hard, but now mom can't help it. The old man can't get up and can't leave the care of others. Oh! Look at you haggard! When is the end of drinking so much medicine every day? "

Yeah When is the beginning.

Get up in the morning, today, it's another long day. I took advantage of Aunt Liu's time to feed Zai Zai's breakfast and drove him to the kindergarten. I was still on my way. Aunt Liu made several phone calls to say that Qianjin was vomiting milk again, and Qianjin's forehead was a little hot, as if she had a fever

I tried to hold up my tired body while talking and laughing with Zai Zai. When I sent him to kindergarten, I felt a long sigh of relief. I looked at countless young mothers like me. Their faces were yellow and tired, but they had the same strength and happiness as me.

A woman is weak, but a mother is strong. As a mother, it is a deep-seated battle in the heart and a war to defeat ourselves.

I looked at Zai Zai's small back, then turned and drove home, ready to meet another war without gunpowder.

When I was waiting at the traffic lights, there was a red Ferrari sports car beside my car. The woman in the sports car turned around wearing sunglasses and gave me a strange smile

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