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"Ha ha - no, let's go! It's no use thinking about it, "said Du Ruiqi with a smile.

"Sister, LV Hua is really good. Why can't you accept him?" Liang Xiaosu couldn't help asking.

LV Hua has been waiting for Du Ruiqi and has not been married.

"I don't know. I always think there is something wrong between him and me?! He is a good man, I don't think I am worthy of him! He is now in the eyes of the public, rich and handsome, and unmarried young man, what about me?! I'm divorced, and I'm still with a teenager. I don't think it's appropriate for me to be with him, "said Du Ruiqi with a bitter smile.

People who have been through marriage always think a lot about it. There are too many things in Du Ruiqi's heart.

In fact, the most important thing is that she can't forget Zhu Qingyun.

Zhu Qingyun's sudden departure makes her unable to forgive herself in her heart all her life. When I was young, I thought there was a chance to make up for the mistakes I made. I didn't expect that some people missed them, which was the pain of a lifetime!

"Sister -" Liang Xiaosu knew that she was suffering, and she could feel this feeling. Want to love but dare not love, in fact, for a woman, is also a very painful suffering.

"Xiaosu - listen to my sister, if you really love a person, you should cherish the present and love well - the future is always so far away, you will miss it at which intersection, and you will never meet again! When you look back, you will find that in fact, you can't deceive yourself, and you can't forgive yourself! Since love, love deeply! Don't let yourself miss, and then leave a lifetime of regret - "Du Ruiqi said with emotion.

Liang Xiaosu understood what she meant.

However, she really dare not take this step now! Although she loves Li Wang in her heart, she still can't forget him! However, she did not dare to love again! Because the harm of this love is too great! She did not dare, and did not have the courage to face the possible blow and injury!

Li Wang said that he would deal with his affairs well. Let's wait for him to deal with them!

Du Ruiqi saw that Liang Xiaosu was silent and knew what she was thinking.

"Xiaosu - I always have a question to ask you -" Du Ruiqi looked at Liang Xiaosu and said.

Liang Xiaosu looked at her suspiciously. She didn't know what she was going to ask?!

"Do you really love him?"

Liang Xiaosu was shocked! She didn't expect that Du Ruiqi asked her this question! She didn't know how to answer for a moment?!

Say "true love"?! Maybe Du Ruiqi won't believe it! Say "no love"? She couldn't lie to her heart.

Liang Xiaosu gave a sad smile, looked at the distance and said, "elder sister, do you want to listen to the truth or the lie?"

"The truth, of course," said Du Ruiqi.

"I love him, very much --" Liang Xiaosu said, "maybe even you don't believe it, how can I really fall in love with him?! But I can't cheat myself, I just really fell in love with him! Although he and I are not people of the same world, not people of the same era. There are too many impossibilities between me and him, but I fell in love with him hopelessly

Du Ruiqi put her arms around Liang Xiaosu's shoulder, sighed and said, "yes! If it was before, I might not believe it. In my eyes, there is no real love between you and him! But now I believe it! Xiaosu, when he came to Yuhe and saw you for the first time, I knew that he liked you. The way he looked at you was a man's love for a woman. To be honest, I hesitated at that time. Should I cater to his preference, let you approach him, and then accept him? Because I don't know if you can accept it! You know what? I had a fierce struggle in my heart before I handed you over to him. However, I can be sure that he is an excellent man, a lot of women will like and even fall in love with him when they see him! Apart from his power, he is also excellent as a pure man. He is a knowledgeable person, a humorous person, a tall and handsome person - but after putting on the coat of power, it seems that these are not important, the important thing is his power. Xiaosu, when I decided to hand you over to him, I had the selfishness to let you enter him and win his trust. Through you, I built the most stable and private bridge with him. For you and me, such a woman is the best backer in politics

When Du Ruiqi looks at Liang Xiaosu and says these words, her heart is full of guilt.

She felt that she had taken advantage of Liang Xiaosu, who was still very young at that time. In the final analysis, this kind of thing is very selfish and despised! But that's what she did! And let Liang Xiaosu do it willingly.

"Xiaosu, this is my most selfish thought. I just want to establish such a relationship between you and him, which is the best support for you and me. But when you first told me that you wanted to have a baby for him, I was surprised! What a surprise! I didn't expect you to do that! So at that time, I tried my best to prevent you from giving birth to this child, because once the child is born, your official career will be greatly threatened, and he may also be greatly threatened! However, the first time you give up, you also experienced a second time! Xiaosu, if it's just to stabilize a relationship, there's no need to pay such a high price. You do this, I know, in fact, you want to tie your life with him, no matter whether you have fame or not, no matter whether you have results or not, you should be with him. If this is not love, what is love?! A woman, only with the man who really loves, will have the impulse to give birth to life, will have such an urgent desire! Your wish is so strong that it proves how much you love him! I certainly believe that you love him! But, this love, for you, has to bear too much - Xiaosu, so, seeing you, many times, I feel very guilty. It's me who put you on such a road of no return. It's me who made you suffer so much. I feel like a sinner. "

"Sister, don't blame yourself. It's not your fault! Don't blame anyone! I'm willing to fall in love with him! Really? I've never complained about you. To complain, I can only complain about fate. Fate makes me meet him at a time when we shouldn't meet, and makes us not born in the same era. Maybe, in many people's eyes, there is no love between me and him. Even if it is love, I love his power, his status, not his person! Of course, I love him, his power and status, and the feeling he brings me. Usually, I always feel that I am looking up to him. In my eyes, he is a tall man full of aura, just like a dream of mine, so far away; However, when I am with him, I will feel that he is so real, so lovely, so humorous - I feel that I am in such two worlds alternately, making my own dreams. I like to see him so domineering, to tell you the truth, no woman can love a man who is nothing. However, when I am pregnant with his children and me, I always think, if we can escape the noise of the world, go to paradise, live the most peaceful and simple life, and take our children together, that would be great! I didn't think that he could use his power to bring me anything. After all, power and money, in the end, are all external things. What I care about most is him. Even if he is a civilian now, I think I will love him as well. Because I'm in love with him! "

Liang Xiaosu said that the image of Li Wang appeared in his mind.

She felt like she was dreaming, talking in her dreams. All this is her dream, an ethereal, impossible dream——

"Xiaosu, if - I mean if, if he really divorced and married you, would you come with him?" Du Ruiqi looked at Liang Xiaosu immersed in his dream and said.

"Yes, of course!" She said without hesitation.

"You really don't care that he's so much older than you?" Du Ruiqi asked in surprise.

"I don't care - I'm willing to accompany him, grow old slowly, raise our children together, and grow old together," Liang said.

Du Ruiqi had to sigh! If the love between Liang Xiaosu and Li Chengxin originated from her utilitarian selfishness, now Liang Xiaosu's feelings for Li Chengxin, she does not know what kind of language and mood to face.

She does not believe that this is love, but she thinks that Liang Xiaosu's love for Li Chengxin is really beyond the traditional meaning of love. Liang Xiaosu can not be said to be great, because this love is against the secular, is not accepted by the world, but to be despised by the world! However, she admitted that Liang Xiaosu was brave in treating this feeling! It's desperate!

Du Ruiqi himself has experienced such feelings.

After deviating from Zhu Qingyun's love, she goes into Ding's family against her heart and marries a man she doesn't love at all. Moreover, this man is still a man without man's function!

At that time, Du Ruiqi's heart was distorted.

After abandoning her first love and the man who loves her the most in the world, what she thinks of is to climb up wholeheartedly and how to reach a higher position as soon as possible.

In the unbearable loneliness, after going out of line with Hu Chunping, the then Secretary of the town Party committee, she completely opened her eyes! In the face of the then Secretary of the county Party committee Huang Zhongming, she chose obedience, chose to yield! She did not have the slightest emotional exchange with him that night, she gave herself to this bandit like man. Because she knew that he could bring her what she wanted.

But she had no love for him. Even later, because of a long time together, there was a feeling between them, but it was not love! She never wanted to have a baby with Huang Zhongming like Liang Xiaosu. She wanted to live a simple and happy life in paradise with Huang Zhongming! Never. Between her and him, it's just a kind of trade, a kind of power and color trade.

Of course, Du Ruiqi does not deny that Huang Zhongming is also a domineering man. He also has many advantages of men. However, she did not fall in love with him from the bottom of her heart, so, after he left, she will not be very sad, although there will be loss, and occasionally think of him, but it is just a habit of thinking, with the passage of time, all this will naturally pass, forever in the past.