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Xiaoxiao didn't believe in God's cruelty.

When she went back with the eldest lady, her hands were trembling, and the hottest palm of the day was now full of sweat.

She doesn't believe it, she doesn't believe...

The eldest lady's face was not good, she knew that Su Qiuyun's situation was very dangerous after listening to Qiuqiu's call.

Tomorrow and accidents, never know which will happen first.

For them, they were even more caught off guard, not even prepared at all.

Two hours of anxious journey.

Xiaoxiao’s tears were always flying in her eyes, she couldn’t believe it, but two days ago, her mother smiled and said that she was waiting for her to go back, and also smiled that she was not promising, and she hadn’t heard the lady call her. mom.

They said yes.

No, definitely not...

The rain, densely falling, seemed to pierce people's hearts like needles. When Xiaoxiao and Miss Xiaoxiao arrived at the Third General Hospital, Xiaoxiao had just entered the inpatient department, and when she saw the children squatting in the doorway sobbing, her heart became a mess.

Several children squatted at the door wiping their tears, and when they saw Xiaoxiao coming in, they all called "Sister", their voices were full of desolation and sadness.

Song Ke's face was blue, she stood aside against the wall, her eyes flushed and she looked at her sister feebly.

Xiaoxiao had no time to talk to them. She hurriedly walked to the front of the ward to see her mother.

She was originally anxious, but she was really standing in front of the ward. When her hand was about to push the door, Xiaoxiao bit her lip and stopped.

Her fingertips were trembling, but she didn't dare to push...

No, please, tell her, all this must be a dream.

When she woke up from the dream, her mother would still be like before, standing at the door smiling and calling them: "Go home for dinner."

...

Su Qiuyun had an acute cerebral thrombosis. During her Yuyang checkup, the doctor had told her that there was already a lesion, and she had to pay attention to maintenance. Don't get angry and take antihypertensive medicine on time every meal.

She also wants to take good care of it, but recently there have been things around her. If it’s okay for her, she can’t stand it. Xiaoxiao’s thing made her take pains and effort. After returning The children in the family emptied her remaining energy again. She has reached the limit. The physique that supported her when she was young has long been tortured by the years and things. Now, only life is left.

When Xiaoxiao opened the door and went in, when she saw Su Qiuyun, who was lying on the bed, covered with pale white sheets and pipes all over her body, the tears fell in rows.

"mother……"

Xiaoxiao knelt in front of the hospital bed, calling Su Qiuyun's name again and again.

The doctor knew Su Qiuyun and Xiaoxiao, and he had watched Xiaoxiao grow up since he was a child, and watched how Su Qiuyun carried this turbulent everyone down, but... God doesn’t bless people, from medicine. From a point of view, Su Qiuyun's situation has no way...Her illness is urgent and fierce, and the intracranial pressure is more than ten times that of a normal person.

The intracranial hemorrhage could not be stopped, and she had fallen into a coma when she was sent to the hospital.

Many patients in this situation can't make it through, and some even can't get to the hospital on the road.

But Su Qiuyun has been able to survive for more than ten hours.

The doctor knew that she was waiting, what was waiting...

After learning the news, her children rushed to the hospital from all corners of the country.

They never thought that the mother who could cover everything for them no matter what happened would fall like this.

Not to mention the dean of the hospital, even the leaders of the township and village levels have come. They have experienced strong winds and waves and have never seen such a scene.

A crowd of people stood in a corridor. They all knelt outside, crying and crying "Mom."

A mother, mother for the first time.

Xiaoxiao's tears flowed, and Qin Yi also cried silently beside him.

"Mom... I'm Xiaoxiao... Mom, I'm back, look at me... Didn't you say that I'm waiting for my return?"

Mu Xiaoxiao was crying and trembled all over, and her chest screamed depressed. In the past, Su Qiuyun always couldn't bear her like this. She would always protect Xiaoxiao the first time and give her the hug she wanted. Even when the conditions were very bad at the time, when she impulsively discounted the rapist’s legs, she cried and shrank into her arms. Su Qiuyun couldn’t bear to criticize her, and instead talked to Mu Shan and Su who were reprimanding her. Kui furiously fought back, and pieced together money to compensate her; when Xiaoxiao cried and felt uncomfortable countless times, she would hold her in her arms and care for her softly, sheltering her from the wind and rain.

But now, she was lying on the hospital bed so coldly, without the warm embrace, even her hands became cold.

The doctor said that Su Qiuyun no longer felt anymore. She couldn't hear what people outside said and couldn't respond.

But amidst Xiaoxiao's heart-wrenching shouts, Su Qiuyun's eyes slowly fell with tears.

That tear was her last response to Xiaoxiao in this life.

...

Su Qiuyun was buried two days later.

That day, I didn't go any further, but the weather was still gloomy, and tears were flying in the sky.

When the children packed her relics, they found that, in addition to a few clean washed and faded clothes, some books, most of which were photo albums, were packed in a few large boxes.

This time in her life, she left nothing but a lot.

Mu Xiaoxiao stood at the front of the funeral procession. She was dressed in white, holding her mother's portrait, and walked slowly with the procession.

In the past few days, her tears seemed to have drained, and she had no sense.

In her mind, all the past events were turning over and over.

When she was a child, she often asked her mother: "Mom, why do I have such a healthy body and my parents have to abandon me?"

At that time, Su Qiuyun would hug her and gently kiss her cheek: "Because angels always go through a lot of hardships before they get the best things in this world, my Xiaoxiao, it will be in the future. The happiest person in the world."

After she grew up, she carried her luggage on her back and walked into the university campus, busy with her life, Su Qiuyun called and talked time and time again.

"Xiaoxiao, how is it, Xi is not used to it? How is the school food? Don’t always eat so salty, so much junk food, how about your roommates, are you good to you? Don’t always look at your phone at night, go to bed early , I'm tired during the day..."

Xiaoxiao always laughs helplessly: "Oh, Mom, I see, I see."

Before hanging up the phone, my mother reluctantly said: "When will you be back? Mom will make you a good meal."

...

No more, no more.

Mu Xiaoxiao's heart was bleak and numb.

That day, not only Su Qiuyun scattered children from all over the world came back to give her this last trip, but the people of the village and village also all walked to the streets. There were empty alleys, and everyone was wiping tears and taking off their hats. The flute sent Su Qiuyun on this last journey.

Many netizens also came over, and they cried when looking back at Su Qiuyun's life.

One of Su Qiuyun's favorite words during his lifetime was-a single spark can start a prairie fire.

She raised every child into a star.

And she burned her life.

Xiaoxiao couldn't hear the wind and rain outside. She watched her mother being put into the black coffin and she was sent into the crematorium. In the end, all she gave was the cold one in her arms. When the small urn, she knelt on the ground, tears streaming down her face.

Su Qiuyun's departure was a fatal blow to Xiaoxiao.

It was as if it was the last straw that crushed the camel, causing her to completely collapse.

As soon as the funeral was over, she had a fever. The fever was very severe. The fever remained high for three days and three nights, and the fever was blurred.

The eldest lady did not leave, and stayed with her in the orphanage. She wiped the sweat from her forehead with a towel. Xiaoxiao grabbed her hand while crying and muttered: "Mom... Mom..."

Why on earth?

Why did God tease her again and again like this?

What did she do wrong?

Xiaoxiao didn't know, she wanted to know, but no one could give her the answer.

In her dream, she looked at her mother in a white shirt, her face was no longer tired, her hair was jet-black, and her youthful vigor was restored. She smiled and touched Xiaoxiao's hair: "Daughter, mother is gone, you Be good."

Xiaoxiao couldn't cry, she grabbed Su Qiuyun by the skirt, "Mom, don't go...don't go..."

No matter how she begged or cried, Su Qiuyun still turned into a light and disappeared into her world.

After the fever subsided, Xiaoxiao hid herself in Su Qiuyun's room. She was holding her mother's portrait. She couldn't eat or drink, and saw no one. Even the eldest lady was pushed out by her.

Su Qiuyun's death seemed to Xiaoxiao to deprive her of the world's last light.

The eldest lady is distraught. On the one hand, she is sad and sad, and on the other hand, she is worried about Xiaoxiao. There are still many things to be done at the company. Qin Hailong knows that the time is critical now, and also knows what happened to Xiaoxiao, and frequently holds board meetings. , Doing the final struggle.

Ag flew over from the United States and looked for Qin Yi many times, but Qin Yi refused to leave the orphanage, she was worried about Xiaoxiao.

One is inside the door and the other is outside, and the two are so stalemate.

Xiaoxiao shrank in the room, and she flipped through the album left by Su Qiuyun night after night.

Su Qiuyun likes to take pictures of children very much, saying that he wants to keep the moments when they grow up. When he was young, Xiaoxiao always asked irritably, "Why always take pictures?"

But now, she only regretted that she didn't keep some more photos.

She looked over and over again. Mother took mostly her photos, but she and her mother took only a few photos.

One is when she was sitting behind her mother's car seat when she was a child, with her arms around her waist, pressing against her unhappy.

It was left by Su Qiuyun when he took Xiaoxiao to the dentist in the city. When she was a child, Xiaoxiao was greedy. She always ate sweets secretly at night, ate her teeth badly, and just had her teeth pulled out, the children in the orphanage. They called her Xiao Huo Yazi, and Su Qiuyun smiled happily in front of her, "What's wrong with Xiao Huo Yazi? How cute, talking about Ullah."

The second is a photo of Xiaoxiao entering the Young Pioneers in elementary school. She is wearing a red scarf and standing under the national flag, while Su Qiuyun in the distance is looking at her with her arms folded and smiling, with pride and contentment in her eyes.

——My daughter has grown up, and my mother is so happy.

The third one is when Xiaoxiao was about to leave the orphanage. She was sitting in the car. Su Qiuyun stood under the car and looked at her. Her eyes were red, her lips were biting, and she swallowed with dismay.

——Come back early, Mom will make you a good meal.

...

These three photos are the whole life that Su Qiuyun has been with Xiaoxiao.

It was the fifth day.

Grandma helped her to knock on the door.

She was older and in poor health. Everyone was hiding from her and didn't dare to tell her the news of Su Qiuyun's departure so directly.

But Grandma Chu has gone through so many ups and downs in her life, can she really hide her?

Because she knocked on the door, Xiaoxiao's last reason made her wipe away her tears, opened the door, and let grandma in.

The curtains in her room were drawn for several days, and the door suddenly opened. The sunlight outside the door penetrated through the cracks, which made her close her eyes and brought out tears.

The eldest lady looked at her, her eyes haggard and worried, Xiaoxiao lowered her head and closed the door again.

She didn't know how to face Qin Yi now.

This was the first time Xiaoxiao refused the eldest lady's approach, which made Qin Yi feel very uncomfortable. She sat in the yard of the orphanage with cold hands and feet.

On the Internet, news about the departure of Su Qiuyun, the mother who adopted Mu Xiaoxiao, has spread. Many people regretted her. Her deeds were also reported by the local government. Everyone came to the orphanage to pay homage to her. These days , Song Ke was taking care of this, she didn't dare to tell her sister at all.

Everyone knows that Xiaoxiao's heart is guilty, self-blaming, and painful.

She always thinks that her mother's death has something to do with her.

If it weren't for her, my mother wouldn't be so rushing, under such great pressure, anxious for her, anxious for her, and overdraft herself.

She was in pain, she was sad, for a moment, Xiaoxiao even thought, why on earth was she born? Are you here to endure all the pain in this world?

Now she didn't want to pay attention to everything outside, she was tired of it.

Is this the price of public opinion?

What did she get? she does not know.

What can be lost is the mother who loves her most.

Grandma walked around the room when she came in, she sat on Su Qiuyun's bed with a crutches, touched the bed sheet that still had her breath, and her muddy eyes turned red.

It was just an action, Xiaoxiao's tears shed, she knew, grandma knew, grandma always knew.

In this world, apart from mother is grandma.

She was sorry for them.

Xiaoxiao walked to grandma and knelt down straight, "Grandma..."

Grandma Chu lowered her head to look at Xiaoxiao, she put the crutches aside, and stretched out her hand to gently touch Xiaoxiao's head: "Child..."

With a "child", Xiaoxiao hugged her grandma's leg, and the depressed pain these days spurted out, "Mom, mom... she..."

She couldn't say the word "death".

Grandma Chu's hands were full of wrinkles, and her eyes were red: "Grandma knows."

The darkness of a room, in front of the closest people, the pain in Xiaoxiao's heart spread wantonly.

I don't know how long it took, grandma gently patted Xiaoxiao on the shoulder, "Xiaoxiao, you have to understand that life and death are human nature, and all of us will experience it."

Xiaoxiao couldn't speak but she shed tears. She understood what grandma said, but she couldn't accept it. She couldn't accept her mother leaving like this.

She also thought of her mother holding her hand and watching her happily with Missy.

"The day your mother and I took over the orphanage, we had already put our life and death out of the picture."

"Your mother has had a hard time in the eyes of outsiders in her life. Everyone said she was a fool and gave everything for her unrelated children. But you don't know. When every child called her mother for the first time, she was excited. Talk to me all the time."

"She saved you, and you made her as well."

"If Qiuyun is here, I don't want to see you torturing yourself with sadness and tears."

"Xiaoxiao, the deceased is gone. The important thing is to cherish the people around you. The child has been waiting for you for five days without eating or drinking outside."

...

Grandma touched Xiaoxiao's hair, and after leaving these words and a letter, she staggered and walked out.

Back then, she and Su Qiuyun agreed that no matter which one fell, the other one would not cry or be sad.

We must go on firmly.

Although their people are no longer there, their faith is still in their hearts. Such a big orphanage and so many children still need them to survive. They have gone through too many ups and downs in their lifetime, seeing, invisible, too much, too much, and they have suffered countless eyes, cynicism, rumors, insults and framing... they have long been indomitable.

That letter was written by Su Qiuyun on the day that Yuyang checked her body. It was strange to say that things in the world were too strange. She checked her body at the time. Although the doctor said there was no major problem, she just needed to take care of her. Feeling faintly disturbed, I wrote this letter.

When Xiaoxiao's hand trembled and opened the letter, when she saw the familiar handwriting, tears swallowed her again.

——Xiaoxiao, my daughter.

When you read this letter, your mother may have already left this world.

You must be crying, don't cry, I still like the daughter who is always happy and smirking.

Qiuqiu always said that her mother loves you the most and always expects a lot of you. Every time she smiles and does not deny it.

Xiaoxiao, do you know? In the mother's heart, you are the strongest and most responsible of all children.

My mother took over the orphanage from the old dean at the age of 24. The responsibility lies with her. After all these years of storms and storms, she has already seen life and death.

If you really die in the post where you have been fighting for it all your life, it would be a happy fulfillment for the mother.

The Zangke family once said-some people are alive, he is dead; some people are dead, he is still alive.

Physical death is not terrible. Mom knows that the spirit I inherited from the old dean has been passed on to you.

Mom will live in your heart forever and walk with you.

Su Qiuyun April 8, 2021

Tears blurred her eyes, wet the letter paper, and the writing on it was also wet. Xiaoxiao closed her eyes, her mother’s voice and smile in her mind.

My mother always said that she is the most obedient child, and always said that she is the child whose mind finally makes her the most uneasy.

Today, she is gone, and the only letter left is for her.

...

I don't know how long it took.

The door of the room was "creaked" opened.

This is the first time Xiaoxiao has come out in so many days. Her hands and feet are sore and weak, and her face is pale, like a ghost.

But when she walked out, the eldest lady who had been waiting silently looked at her for the first time, and the frowning children squatting in the yard looked up at her.

Although she was embarrassed and haggard, and her figure was unstable, in everyone's eyes, she seemed to be out of hope against the aperture.

Xiaoxiao didn't say a word, she dragged a heavy step, slowly... step by step towards the lady.

The author has something to say: Su Qiuyun's body, Ye Ye has been foreshadowing from the early morning, and many times.

I also said at the beginning that I would write all the ups and downs in life. For Mama Su, she was fearless of death and had already kept everything out of it.

This is not a cookie that is greasy and crooked all the way through eating, drinking and drinking. The idea it wants to express is something that Ye Ziwen used to faintly carry but could not express all of it.

In fact, I hesitated several times in the middle whether or not to change the outline. I was afraid that everyone would feel abused or something. Later, I resisted it, maintaining the integrity of the story, maintaining the integrity of the characters, fulfilling her mission, and expressing what I want to express. Someone will understand.