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Xuan Mu started to change. It was like a roller coaster of emotions with him. His mood swings were even worse than a woman on her period. In five seconds, he could change his personality five times!

He always kept to their promises, no swearing, no hating during their disputes. Despite that, he was able to hurt her.

"I should have never met you! I should have killed myself back then!" Xuan Mu yelled at Bing Shi. He was under immense stress and pressure. And the only person he could take it on? The person who was always beside him, Bing Shi, only her.

░No, No, don't say such things.░

░Why are you shouting at me?░

Bing Shi was confused with his change of personality. "I hate when you say such things!" She started to cry, and out of the reflex, she ended the call. But soon, he called again. It took her a long time to answer.

"No, please don't leave me. At least you, don't give up on me, please," Xuan Mu begged.

"What's wrong with you!?!" Bing Shi cried out.

"I don't know! It's hard to live with them. I want to give up," Xuan Mu answered, full of frustration.

"Don't give up! You are doing great!" Bing Shi encouraged him.

"Even you are pressuring me?! Your praises are not working on me! Stop with your manipulation!" Xuan Mu scowled at her.

"Stop shouting at me!" Bing Shi hissed and turned off the call again. The frustration she felt was so great that she wanted to slap his face.

Every night was full of bitterness. They didn't know how to resolve it. Xuan Mu became more and more unreasonable.

"I'm sorry... I miss you. I want to play with you, but I have no time," croaked Xuan Mu, his voice exhausted, his dark eye circles became more apparent.

"I know, but this is not normal! Your mood swings are crazy!" Bing Shi sobbed, she didn't want to talk with him when he was like this.

"Why are you crying so much?! Stop crying!" Xuan Mu fumed with annoyance.

"You are scary!" Bing Shi wailed even more.

"No, I'm not scary. Bing Shi, don't be afraid of me," Xuan Mu panicked and begged the next second.

"Xuan Mu, can you leave that mansion?" Bing Shi asked.

"No," Xuan Mu refused.

"Let's go to sleep. We didn't sleep at all these days," mumbled Bing Shi with a tired voice. Never was she such a cry baby.

"Please, talk to me, don't hang up on me," Xuan Mu pleaded.

"It doesn't matter what I say. You would always overreact." Bing Shi started to give up. She was becoming more sad than happy. She tried everything. Being nice? Being angry? Nothing worked!

"So what?! Not everybody is perfect as you. Find yourself a man who is like you. So you can live happily ever after. I don't care anymore," Xuan Mu snapped resentfully.

░Are you Xuan Mu?░

░Give me back my Xuan Mu.░

Bing Shi hanged up again. But she would always pick up his call with the hope that her Xuan Mu was back.

"How does it feel like to have a sick boyfriend like me? Are you scared? Are you tired of me? Want to get rid of me?" Xuan Mu fretted eerily.

"You need to rest. Go to sleep," Bing Shi ignored his hurtful words and held in her tears again.

"Don't order me around! I'll do whatever I want! I'm not your slave. Don't hang up! Don't try to get rid of me!" Xuan Mu growled furiously.

"..." Bing Shi was at her end.

░~ He needs help. You need to save him.░

░How? I tried.░

░~No, you only made it worse by always running away.░

░But he is hurting me.░

░~Who is in more pain?░

░He is.░

░But I'm scared of him.░

░~ Isn't he showing you his true feelings?░

░He is.░

░~ Try to understand him more, find a source of his mood swings because they don't make sense.░

With his symptoms, it didn't take her long to find out what's wrong with him.

░Severe Depression.░

When she found out that the whole time he had depression, she tilted her head upward to prevent her eyes from crying. She covered her mouth hard, afraid of letting out a sound. Still, she couldn't hold it in, a high-pitched cry full of grief came out of her.

░It makes sense now...░

░When I said other people had it worse, you went crazy...░

░When I said everything would be alright, you went lunatic...░

She broke down and started to sob like a child. She regretted her behavior. She shouldn't have run away from their problems.

░I almost killed you.░

░You are obsessive, suicidal, stressed, and now even depressed.░

░Why are all these bad emotions occupying your beautiful mind?░

░How are you still holding on?░

░Is it because of me?░

░But I as your girlfriend don't even let you touch me...░

░You deserve much more.░

░I'm the worst...I should have found out sooner.░

░I'm not worthy of you...░