A Million Survival Laws of the Savior

"You really know everything." Bai Jue stretched out his hand and touched his shoulder: "Since it's raining, let's go back first."

"Wouldn't it be more romantic to take a walk in the rain?" Jun Ji asked back.

Bai Jue stopped, his wet hair covered his eyes, he shook his head and said: "You don't need to do this, I don't need comfort, we are not in that kind of ambiguous relationship, your concern will make me feel at a loss, too Stiff."

Altair said indifferently: "In your opinion, am I the kind of woman who is so vulgar that she only knows how to speak with a sword?"

"I didn't say that, but...you and I are not the kind of relationship where we open our hearts to each other and talk about everything." Bai Jue let out a mouthful of white mist: "We don't know each other as well as we imagined, so we forcibly comfort each other." And concern, but counterproductive."

He forced a smile: "I'm not that fragile, it's just that some things are annoying."

——Still trying to be brave.

Jun Ji could tell at a glance that behind his wry smile mask was exhaustion and confusion.

Altair turned his back to Bai Jue, and the distance between the two was three blue bricks. Her silver thread coiled up, exposing her fair neck, and she was in a wonderful haze in the mist, and her voice seemed to be separated by a water curtain: " You are wrong, I know you well, better than yourself."

"Don't make trouble." Bai Jue turned his head away from looking at her: "We were originally enemies..."

"It is precisely because I am an enemy that I understand you. The one who understands you best is not your relatives and friends, but your enemy." She said: "I once stood on the opposite side of you, and the scenery I saw was yours. Allies can't see."

"...What did you see?" Bai Jue asked disapprovingly.

"Your fragility." Altair said, taking another step forward and walking forward.

Bai Jue followed, keeping a distance of three steps. He frowned, feeling uneasy about being exposed. He frowned and said, "Where am I so fragile?"

"You are very strong. Tokisaki Kurumi, Mami Asami, Misaka Mikoto, Lao Xu, and Holo were all attracted by your strength and became your companions. When you played against me, you relied on almost impossible methods Completing the reversal also demonstrates your strength." She slowly said: "You said - you won't want a less than perfect ending, so you can die calmly... This way of stipulating you is undoubtedly strong."

"But where does your strength come from?" Altair asked.

"...Because, I am the savior..." While Bai Jue said this, he suddenly felt a sense of nausea. It was not the shame of suffering from the second illness, but a kind of nausea and self-loathing. He couldn't even finish talking. The sentence stopped.

"Yes, that's what you think, and you forced yourself to accept it." Jun Ji continued to move forward, and said, "The source of your self-confidence is a fiction, a false creation, like a castle in the air."

"You were able to reverse the fate of Ba Mamei's death in the first singularity because you knew about us, even if you had never met, but you could grasp our information, so you thought you had a chance to win, and you did it in the end, relying on A fool's obsession."

"During the Shenhai Rebellion, you didn't know anything, but in the end you became the most important decisive blow, saving tens of millions of people. This also made your self-confidence gain confidence as your achievements improved. You Believe more and more that you can do it.”

"In the second singularity, you still don't know anything, you just spend it in a daze, ignorant of the truth, and rely on the strength of others to get through the dark crisis. There is no clerk, no first emperor Zhao Zhenger , You have already failed, and you have already noticed at that time, you are not as strong as you imagined, how difficult it is to save the world to a perfect ending."

"However, you finally repaired the singularity, so your self-esteem allows you to ignore those weak details and unpleasantness, and you can continue to maintain the fictitious self-confidence, indulging in the dream of being a hero... You think, this is very All right."

"However, dreams will eventually wake up. This time, you already know the gap between reality and ideals. Even if no one is wrong, even if everyone desires happiness, and the world is so cruel, it will not change because of personal thoughts , and the reversal...you tried to rely on the omnipotent clerk, but he didn't respond, and when you tried to solve the problem by yourself, it was even more sad to discover that you were powerless."

Every time Altair said something, Bai Jue's face turned paler.

This bloody dissection of the facts will reveal Bai Jue's true self.

Isn't that the case?Where does his self-confidence come from?Is it from the crown of salvation, or from the merit of that fluke?

But he didn't want to admit it, denying the fact that he was just an ordinary person: "I was just frustrated for a while."

"This is not the frustration that comes overnight, but the pressure that accumulates over time." Altair turned around, frowning through the rainy curtain, "Your heart is screaming..."

"Sorrow?" Bai Jue's voice was hoarse, and he forced a smile: "Where is it? I didn't hear it."

"You have always been afraid of what the world would look like if you couldn't fix the singularity, so you didn't give yourself a choice from the very beginning, telling yourself that if I don't go to hell, who will go to hell, while using high-sounding Reasons wrap yourself up and appear confident, fooling everyone's eyes, and even paralyzing yourself, this is the reason for your strength and the source of your self-confidence."

A blade emerged from her palm: "Just like this knife, it may be able to cut through many thorns, and it is sharper than countless swords, but every collision will leave indelible marks. When this continuous impact After reaching the limit, it will break in the midst of mourning—this is your fragility, you can’t bear even one failure, it will tear up your fictional self-confidence and strength, and force you to open your eyes to see the reality clearly. When you open your eyes, the confidence in your heart will also collapse, and then, it will be broken with a bang."

She crushed the weapon in her hand, and the broken blade made a mournful clang, piercing into the bottom of Bai Jue's heart.

As if someone had hammered his chest, he pressed his heart, even his body bent a little, and he let out a muffled groan.

Some people have said that when a child realizes that the world is no longer centered on himself, he begins to grow.

But is this kind of growth a kind of compromise with reality or self-reflection?

Bai Jue once said that he longed for a hero, but now that he woke up from the dream, should he compromise with reality?Accept your own weakness, accept your own powerlessness, accept failure?

I don’t know, even if you are unwilling, you still can’t do anything about it. The reason why reality is reality is because it is unshakable. Since it cannot be changed, what else can be done besides compromise?

This time, Bai Jue's heart was about to give in.

"But..." Altair stretched out his hand and put it on Bai Jue's chest: "You are not this knife... You are qualified to be prouder than anyone else, and you are also qualified to bear the crown that no one can wear. If you want to ask why? If it is... because, you have indeed saved me."

Bai Jue's heart beat violently, and blood roared and surged in his veins.

"Is this consolation?" he asked.

"No." She shook her head: "It was you who pulled me back from the wrong path, it was your foolish belief that gave me a chance to redeem my sins, it was you who changed my perception of the world, and you saved me , Saved tens of thousands of people... Even if your self-confidence is false and your beliefs are fictional, but only this achievement is real, and the people you have saved really exist here. "

"I'm not that great... I can't do anything, not even my own friend, and a girl," he said.

"If you feel that you are powerless, you are wrong... You are very strong, you are very strong, you should not fall here because of this setback, I know Bai Jue, a stubborn fool who does not break through the south wall and does not look back , even if you know you are fragile, you still have to insist on creating the only option." Altair looked straight into his eyes: "You haven't tried it, how do you know it won't work?"

"If you try, will you succeed?" He said wearily, "There is no second chance at all."

"But if you don't try, you're doomed to get nothing." Jun Ji grabbed Bai Jue's collar: "Do you want to save them, or do you want to be like a loser, waiting here, hesitating?"

Bai Jue looked at the girl who was close at hand, with thunder in his eyes: "Then what if I still fail?"

"Then deny failure." She said firmly.

"How to deny it?"

"Don't you know better than me?" Altair smiled, it was the evil smile of the villain he was once familiar with: "The way to deceive reality."