The Days of Being a Student God at a Japanese Girls' School

Some words about insomnia in the middle of the night, don’t read

On the last day of February, I was in a very complicated and uncomfortable mood. I couldn't sleep because of tossing and turning, and I had complete insomnia...

Ok……

There are always many things in my heart that I want to talk to, but I have no one to talk to, and I am not afraid of being laughed at when I say it. In reality, I only have one friend, and he is also my closest friend, but he went to the army. , so I can only use words to knock down the thoughts in my heart.

Maybe it's because I'm old, or maybe I'm confused about the future...

To be honest, during the day yesterday, my mother asked me again and again when I would go to work, and I could only answer her that I would go out to find a job as soon as possible.

but……

I am a person with no diploma and no skills. I really don't know what to do. I am at a loss and scared. Maybe...

I have been dying-knocking on the Internet and writing novels, not only to weave a dream that belongs to me, but also to escape reality, unwilling to face up to myself as a person without a diploma, ability, and nothing.

I have been comforting myself, I write novels... the money I earn is about the same as what other people earn at work, two or three thousand a month.

Sometimes if you give more rewards, you can earn more...

It's just that I know it too!

Know one thing, write a novel...

After all, it is not considered righteous. Really, I signed it back then.When I made an appointment for the first book, I signed it to my family crying, because my parents thought the other party was a liar, and my relatives also said that writing novels can make money?What are you kidding?

Back then, my parents didn’t support my writing, and my relatives also laughed at me. When we met, they asked me if I earned [-] yuan a month by writing novels. I could only smile at this...

I wrote novels for two years, and in [-], I only relied on one book.Earning the first manuscript fee in my life is actually a thousand dollars for full attendance.

At that time, I could write [-] words a month, and I could get [-] yuan. Yes, when I got this money, my parents did not support me in writing novels.Nor object.

However, since I started writing the book in [-], until last year, I only achieved a little bit of achievement with the Japanese teacher. Because of my persistence, I was rewarded, but...

I often ask myself, if I enter other industries and work for so many years, will I only get this little money?

I don't know the answer...

Maybe will.Maybe not.

When I first wrote novels, in order to gain recognition from others, I also wanted to make money to prove myself, but after writing novels, I realized that novels require great perseverance and seriousness, especially for people without talent like me.There are also people who write for fun and make a lot of money, but I am not such a person.My daily updates, daily codewords...

Day after day, year after day, looking back on the past, I don't know how I have persisted all these years and passed full attendance.I have been a gunman, and I have done almost everything, even writing articles for 5 yuan per thousand words. Well, I can only get [-] yuan for writing [-] words.Writing [-] words a day is only fifty yuan...

Moreover, this kind of life is very monotonous, very mechanized, and I don't have much contact with people. Now I always have a feeling that I have derailed from the times and become an obsolete man of the times.

I'm also afraid to go out...

Because I don't know anything except writing novels, and I'm getting older, so I'm getting more and more afraid.

in fact……

At the beginning of my listing, I promised to stay at home and go out to find a job after the year, but I don’t know what I can do. I can’t do anything, I can only write novels. Today I really feel that I may have written novels. Become a waste of fiction.

These days……

My family kept asking me if I was looking for a job or something. My mother even said that if you don’t have a job, girls on blind dates will look down on you. In the past few days, some readers have asked me why the change in my book is so big. What is the stimulus in reality.

Actually I wasn't stimulated...

only……

I don't have much time left now. If I go out to find a job, I'm afraid I won't be able to continue writing books. This is a very real problem.

After all, writing novels is very tiring, really tiring, not only physically, but also mentally exhausting, it is simply indescribable, I admire those who can still write novels after working all day, although there may not be many updates, but...

Those people are much better than me!

all i want now is...

Hurry up and finish writing Xueshen, faster, faster...

On the premise of not reducing the plot as much as possible...

According to my own thoughts, the thinking in my heart, I wrote it completely.

Some readers said that the god of learning is not as good-looking as the teacher, but I want to say something from my heart. When the Japanese teacher wrote a hundred chapters and it was not on the shelves, I felt the limit. Maybe you don’t believe me, but the following chapters are I bite the bullet and wrote it purely for the sake of writing, but learning God...

As of now, I don't feel that way.

although……

The female characters in the book are not as likable as the teacher, but...

I have said from the very beginning that this book carries my dreams and hopes, so I made this book completely according to my own ideas, including the shaping of female characters, and did not deliberately Create likable female characters.

The plot of learning God...

At present, it has only developed to the early and mid-term, and it will soon reach the mid-term development, and there are several major plots in the final stage.

in my heart……

There are many thoughts, but when they are turned into words, only a few can be written. Maybe thousands of words can only be turned into a sigh in the end.

Maybe after the end of the God of Learning, there will be no such person as the Dark Knight Palace at the starting point.

possible……