I Live Forever in Memory

"..."

Kanzaki Kaori's eyes dimmed a little, and he didn't speak for a while.

Li Lin waited for a while, then continued.

"The combat power is a bit weak, and it is incomparable to yours, but their cooperation is good. And, as far as I am concerned, the most important thing is the sense of justice. These days, I can risk my life for people who have no feelings... To be honest, I can't do it myself, but I admire people like that."

Li Lin said this from the bottom of his heart.

He had also thought before that if he was replaced by Jiangong Zhaizi, he might not make the decision to "rescue Orsola with all his strength".

Is it really worth it because rescuing her may result in the casualties of one's own companions?It's hard to give an absolutely definite answer.

Of course, this is Li Lin's own idea, and he will not impose it on others.That's why he admired the Amakusa style group of people. Regardless of their strength, this spirit is at least positive.

"Amakusa style has always been like this." Kanzaki Kaori's voice was muffled, but there was a hint of pride that couldn't be concealed.

Li Lin: "Actually, you still care about them. It's the same for asking me to help, and it's also the same for calling me out now. You asked me to come because you want to learn more about them, right?"

Kanzaki Kaori opened his mouth, wanting to find an excuse for himself.However, she found that there seemed to be no.

She originally thought of an excuse to ask Li Lin to come out, but now that the matter came to an end, she completely forgot about it.

"I……"

"What am I, I don't? I'm not?" Li Lin said, "Just pretend that you don't want to ask, and I want to say it myself, okay."

Kanzaki Kaori: "... Whatever you want, the mouth is on your face, if you want to talk, can I not let you?"

Li Lin: "Then I won't talk about it."

"you……"

Feeling that the woman's breath was getting warmer due to her anger, Li Lin still didn't want to fight her, and said, "Actually, their condition is alright."

He summarized the Amakusa style he observed in his own words.

"They are a group of people with great conviction, and they are also doing things according to this belief. The leader, Jian Gong Zhaizi, is brave and resourceful, and fits the overall belief. But..."

"But what?" Kanzaki Kaori asked immediately, as if he cared about his opinion.

"But this fire is too hot, and it is likely to turn myself into ashes." Li Lin's tone was calm and restrained, accompanied by a little cruelty, "I admire people with a strong sense of justice, but when this sense of justice When you don’t have enough strength to back it up, it’s easy to burn yourself to death.”

"..."

"One day, there was a gang robbery in the urban area. A man fought bravely with several armed gangsters with his bare hands. The rescue failed and he unfortunately died...Have you seen such news? I have seen it several times. At that time, I would think, if that man It would be nice to be a master of fighting. Maybe you don't have to die."

"The Amakusa style has a similar situation in my opinion. It doesn't appear now, but it is very likely that the group will be wiped out if there is a hard stubble. Therefore, they need a strong leader... This is probably what I think. "

After he finished speaking, Kanzaki Kaori was silent for a long time, and then spoke slowly after a few minutes, with a slightly thin voice.

"Then have you ever thought that maybe a powerful leader will bring more disasters... because of that leader, there will be more powerful enemies targeting the organization. Facing those powerful enemies, even a powerful leader cannot protect Hello everyone."

"Maybe, the departure of the leader can divert the attention of all powerful enemies, so that the subordinates can live more safely and smoothly. Have you ever thought about it?"

When Kanzaki Kaori said this, he stepped out of the shadows and stood under the pale light of the incandescent green light.With the help of the light, Li Lin could see her face clearly. She was not as indifferent and alienated as before, but more persistent, like a girl who must win a quarrel.

"That's true." Li Lin didn't refute her, but nodded in agreement, "There are no absolutes, and what you said is not unreasonable. However, this is a knot."

"The leader thought he had brought disaster, so he left for his subordinates. The subordinates thought he was too weak, so the leader left disappointed. He thought he was a burden, a burden..."

Before Li Lin finished speaking, Kanzaki Kaori suddenly grabbed his collar.

"I do not have!"

"...can you let go first?"

From a close distance, Li Lin saw Kanzaki Kaori's reddish eye sockets and the blue veins on his wrists that were protruding from excessive force.

Seeing her not letting go, Li Lin sighed: "The tighter you hold her, the more you care. Why bother."

Kanzaki Kaori's expression froze, and he let go of his hand.

Li Lin tugged on the wrinkled collar, but said nothing.

"...I really don't have one." Kanzaki Kaori said again, she looked at Li Lin closely, as if what she said didn't count and he had to.

"Okay. You haven't." Li Lin complied with her and said, "But whether what I say counts or not, you should know in your heart."

"..."

"Kanzaki Kaori, you can say these things to me, why can't you say it to the person who should say it. Indeed, there are some things that the more you face familiar people, the harder it is to say them, such as saying 'I love you' to your parents ’, it may be harder than reaching the sky for many people. Really, I am the same.”

He said with a smile: "This may be the characteristic of us Easterners. We cannot say "Iloveyou" at any time like Westerners. Compared with words, we are more accustomed to expressing our feelings with actions."

Kanzaki Kaori listened quietly, without saying a word.

"However, the leader in my eyes didn't say anything to his subordinates in words. In terms of actions, he chose to leave. Neither of the two methods expressed his feelings correctly. In this case, it is reasonable to be misunderstood by others. As it should be. The subordinates don’t have mind reading skills either.”

"I……"

Kanzaki Kaori was really shaken this time, and Li Lin's words almost broke her defense line immediately.Tears rolled down his cheeks in an instant.

Li Lin was startled when he saw this, but he didn't expect Kanzaki Kaori to cry, so he stopped talking immediately.

Kanzaki Kaori didn't raise her hand to wipe it off, and the two of them stood silently under the lamp for a few minutes before she said in a hoarse voice: "What you said is right. Whether it's words or actions, I They didn’t express what they thought.”

"...It's actually okay." Li Lin was a little at a loss for words, and he was still not very good at dealing with other people's tears.