We Are Gamers

It's not a wry smile, but a sarcastic smile... This kind of conversation is just a forced self-hypnosis.

"Give me a whole lot of fun."

Bai Ge leaned on the railing and looked into the distance: "Let go...it's not as easy as saying it, even if I don't want to remember those things in the past at all, but the past experiences have shaped who I am now, and if I forget the past, I will never be the same now. exists."

"Then is there any need to hide anything?"

Chu Wangshu said: "We are the only ones here. If you want to say something, just say it."

"...I don't want to scold people."

Bai Ge didn't go to see her.

"If you say that, the dialogue won't be established." She pushed her hair behind her ears: "Don't you want to talk? Some things, if you don't say them, who will know? Don't you, do you have something to say to me? ?”

What she said was light and calm, but it was annoying.

"If I don't say it, I won't understand. I am such a woman of myself, and you know it very well."

This sentence broke a string in Baige's brain.

He rested his forehead with his hands, and pressed half of his body against the guardrail.

"You want to hear the truth?"

He concealed his expression.

"Yes."

Chu Wangshu was standing beside him, three steps away.

"That's what you want, I'm telling the truth."

"I hate your conceit, your self-righteousness, and your unscrupulous use of others."

Bai Ge gritted his teeth and said: "If you are a little more beautiful, you will think that people all over the world will like you, and you will forgive your mistakes unconditionally... Sorry, I can't, I am stingy, and I hold grudges! My life is because of Your ego is deranged!"

He stared at Chu Wangshu, with strong anger and hatred bursting out of his eyes: "For your safety, my hands were stained with blood, and I killed someone, which brought me to the verge of mental breakdown, but I didn't regret it, that was my choice ... But what I can't forgive the most is your unscrupulousness... What do you think of me? Chu Wangshu, I'm not your marionette!"

He rarely loses his temper because he has a strong will, but that doesn't mean he doesn't have feelings.

Chu Wangshu didn't seem to see his terrifying gaze, but nodded quietly.

"Ah."

Corresponding to her calmness is Baige's ups and downs.

After the anger, there is a wry smile and self-deprecating.

"I've been robbed so much, I've got nothing in my hand, nothing left."

"I don't know what I want to do, I don't know what I can do, I don't know what else I can protect."

"I really want to go back to the age of seventeen with my eyes closed and opened, but I can't go back... I don't know what else you want from me, but it's a pity that other than a bad life for a person like me , there is nothing worthy of your covetousness, I just want to spend the rest of my life happily."

Having said that, he paused.

The lingering warmth of the vented emotions still made his veins heat up and his blood boil.

But he didn't dare to continue, and he didn't want to continue.

Afraid of being dominated by emotion, he pointed the blade at Chu Wangshu.

I am also afraid that this excited dialogue will become a flood of self-venting.

Say no more.

stop it.

You know talking too much doesn't help at all.

You can't cry in front of her eyes.

You can't really kill her with a sword.

You uncover your own scars.

You point to the bleeding wound.

The one that hurts...is you.

Bai Ge asked, "Miss Chu, is that enough?"

...Is speaking the truth enough?

...Are you using me enough?

The wind on the roof blows the white sheets.

The line of sight of the two was separated by pure white.

Chu Wangshu nodded through pure white.

"enough."

"I understand."

"I won't use you anymore, I won't disturb you again."

"I swear," she said.

This statement is serious.

He could tell that she would not lie at this time.

Bai Ge suddenly felt a lot more relaxed: "That's good, at least I don't have to hate you."

Chu Wangshu looked at the blue sky: "I don't mind if you hate me to the bone, if it makes you happy."

"I don't really like letting my emotions rule me."

Bai Ge shook his head: "So what if you are dominated by hatred and anger? You are not my enemy, you are my catastrophe...I still can't let it go, I can't like it, I can't hate it...Hating someone is a pain With this effort, it is better to be free and easy to enjoy yourself, after all..."

He murmured: "Life is short, enjoy yourself in time."

He is still rational.

Even if the woman in front of him took away the future, life, and ideals, facing this contradiction and irrationality that could drive people crazy, Bai Ge still insisted on rationality, took half of the madness, and turned his back on the darkness.

But he has nothing left after all.

I can neither go to the bright side that I yearn for, nor can I turn around and embrace the darkness and fall into the abyss.

Baige can't go anywhere.

Isn't this life creed not self-comforting?

Except for the woman in front of him, no one knows how much of Bai Ge's words are self-deprecating.

Perhaps, it is the burden of all this to face the bleakness of life that Baige's true strength lies.

He laughed it off.

Throw everything from the past neatly into the trash can.

There is no need to recall those, why bother with yourself?

Bai Ge vented part of his emotions, and he couldn't say he was relieved, but he felt a lot better.

"Luo Qiuxue will trouble you to take care of her."

"If you're busy, just ask."

"Take it as what I owe you."

He walked down the steps and waved his hand.

"When we meet next time, I don't have to avoid you anymore."

Bai Ge left here, not this time.

Chu Wangshu quietly watched him leave until his back disappeared in front of his eyes.

She stood there for a long time, then smiled quietly, with a soft smile on the corner of her mouth.

"You finally scolded me."

Tears overflowed from the eyes, along the cheeks, flowed over the delicate chin, and fell to the ground in a string of crystal clear tears.

Tears fell, turned into ice crystals, and shattered into pieces.

"sorry."

She murmured and repeated.

"sorry Sorry sorry……"

She laughed and wept.

Facing the empty rooftop, apologizing and crying.

Tears overflowed and fell, and the tears condensed into ice crystals in the cold air.

Sadness, guilt, remorse, helplessness, all kinds of complexities were condensed in Bingjing's tears.

This scene, if anyone sees it, will find it inconceivable.

This Miss Chu, this President Dongfang, this female tyrant...

How could she cry?

Does she have such a vulnerable side?

Is it because of the gap where the true feelings are revealed?

Or is it because she needs a brief catharsis?

no, neither...

This is the real Chu Wangshu.

Because she is guilty.

Because she regrets it.

Because she wanted to apologize but couldn't.

She is the one locked up in the past and unable to get out.