I Became an Anonymous Boss

"Emotions are like this, fire prevention, theft and girlfriends."

"Even if you are guarding me like a thief, I don't care at all!"

"It's better to say, I will breathe a sigh of relief."

"This proves that you don't have sympathy for me, it proves that you regard me as a rival in love, which is another kind of respect."

"I'm not angry, at least not with you."

She clenched her fists tightly, her arms trembled, and her voice trembled. In the white mist, she lowered her head and slowly spoke words of self-loathing.

"I'm blaming myself, resenting my ugliness..."

"Obviously you can say it outright like this, say what you like, and for this liking, you even don't hesitate to give up your reserve and declare war on me."

"But me, I'm like a coward, hiding away, burying all my thoughts in my mind, hiding all my uneasy feelings and venting them quietly, yelling... But my real thoughts don't say anything , don’t say anything, can only make hints on the sidelines, hoping to be discovered..."

"Ugly, too ugly..."

"I want to keep my friendship, but I am unwilling to do so. I secretly want to do something."

"Even if it was revealed, he still coveted it like a thief, and he didn't even have the guts to admit it frankly..."

"It's the first time I've hated myself so much."

"What makes me most dissatisfied is why until now..."

"I finally realized..."

"It turns out that I am the same..."

Covering his face with his palms, bitter tears overflowed from between his fingers, and Duan Mujin's voice spoke bitterly.

She hadn't shed tears a long time ago, but now she was crying like a child who has lost a precious toy, bursting into tears.

"I just... like him..."

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There is a limit pressure value in the human heart.

Once the limit is broken, the emotions will be out of control.

Liars become honest, strong people become vulnerable.

Just like Duan Mujin at that time, she thought she was hiding well, but she had already been seen through.

Amamiya Ying is, and Hanyu Rei is also.

It's just that Yu Gongying chose a more tactful way, encouraging and waiting.

Rei Hanyu chose a more radical method, declaring war and exposing him.

Duan Mujin felt unwilling and self-loathing, both because Rei Hanyu was too dazzling, and because she saw her timidity.

She hates her weakness and inability to face her own heart, and laughs at herself for needing to be reminded by others to understand her true wish.

So she burst into tears, crying like a child.

Rei Hanyu also hugged senior sister tenderly, and she could also feel the regret and unwillingness of the other party.

After all, she is such an awkward and stubborn person. The self-confidence and even conceit she shows on the outside is to build a high barrier in her heart. Only by being superior in spirit can she cover up her inner inferiority complex.

Every person who is conceited to the extreme hides his own sense of inferiority in his heart.

Her birth defects and bad luck are the source of her inferiority complex.

God has treated her so unfairly, so she has to laugh at fate, show her self-confidence higher than the sky, always keep rational and calm, and never speak out even if it hurts.

But people are always emotional creatures, emotions are unreasonable, and cannot be speculated with rational thinking.

She doesn't believe or think that she will fall in love with anyone, and even uses all means to cover up this emotion.

Such an awkward girl is like a hedgehog, she won't take the initiative to take off her disguise, but what she likes is also a piece of wood, which shields all kinds of hints, is incomprehensible in style, and is afraid to avoid emotional matters.

A self-deception, a ignorance, all regard youth as a lie.

It's like two passive defensive players, destined to be a zero-sum game with no results.

It wasn't until Rei Hanyu entered the arena that her enthusiasm and initiative broke the rigid situation.

She successfully broke Shirataki's defense, broke his defense, shattered his ignorant self-paralysis, and clearly realized that it is not one of the three major illusions in life, love does exist.

She also successfully broke the defense against Duan Mujin, broke her self-deception, and declared war on her, so she had to face her true thoughts and admit her inner unwillingness and concealed longing.

In the warm pool, the girl hugged the girl.

"Have you calmed down a little?" Rei Hanyu asked softly.

"Hmm..." Duan Mujin's voice was a little hoarse, but she didn't want to raise her head for the time being: "If my junior sees me like this, I won't be able to continue to put on the airs of a senior and speak the truth."

"It doesn't matter if you don't say it, maybe I know more than you." Rei Hanyu has a thousand-year-old god living in her heart, and she said: "I also had the same feeling, I also had the same feeling, knowing that I was abandoned At that moment, I cried even more heart-piercingly than this time."

"Why is it... you who is holding me at this time?" Duan Mujin asked in a low voice.

"Because senior probably doesn't dare to hug you." Rei Hanyu smiled wryly, stroking her back: "He is a coward, if you stretch out your hand, he will run a long way, he won't even hug you into the hot spring dare."

"Why do we all like such a coward?"

"Because I'm a coward, you are a coward too."

"A coward's sympathy?"

"It's to report to the group to keep warm."

"Pity, why do you like him?"

"I like it, I like it, I like it, the reason, I don't remember." Rei Hanyu said: "Emotions are very complicated things, it is very complicated for me, but there is only one thing that is clear, if the future life My partner is someone other than my senior. I absolutely can’t imagine it. If he is gone, then I will be gone too. No matter how many times I reincarnate, I must meet him again and guard him for the rest of my life... probably love someone There is no need for a reason, because there may be many reasons for liking, but that is not the reason for love, but an opportunity."

Rei Hanyu could recall her voice and smile even when she closed her eyes.

"Sister, what about you?"

"I, what I said... nothing special." Duan Mujin said softly: "I just met him a long time ago, and then I learned about this person by accident. I know his blood type, just like me, I didn't remember to thank him for helping me pick up the books that were thrown out the window by pranks, and I also saw him watch his classmates make girls scream on the basketball court, practice shooting alone for three afternoons, and then give up. It’s a hard practice of pleasing your classmates.”

"At that time, we looked at each other across the crowd, I was observing him, and he was also observing me. I didn't know what each other looked like in each other's eyes, but this feeling was surprisingly good, keeping a distance, familiar and unfamiliar. "

"But it is such a weak connection that has been maintained from junior high school to high school, and then to university... When I recovered, he was the only one who could remember me... At that time, I thought, maybe in the future I will suddenly remember me. One day it’s gone, he’ll notice it too.”

"After all, I won't live long..."

"In the past, I never felt that there was a reason for my life, but I often thought that it would be good to die...Living is just a breath of life, and I want to enter a medical institute to study drug treatment, and I just want to find a way for my life. direction, but this hope is actually very slim, and I understand..."

"After entering the university, for nearly a year, I didn't see him, and I didn't have any friends. I opened my eyes, looked at the empty home, went to school alone, stayed alone, came back alone, and lived a regular life every day. , I have to worry about my bad luck, no one can share my worries, and I don’t even dare to get hurt, because there is no one to take care of me, I don’t like hospitals, and every time I have a physical examination, I feel that I am one step closer to death.”

"It was really hard at that time, and I spent a year like this... Only occasionally I heard a few outrageous rumors about him... Either he broke through the backstreet hair salon, or sent a few people away Into the infirmary."

"But after all, I haven't met him again. I gradually can't remember his appearance clearly, and it has become blurred."

"And then, I got into a car accident."

"When I was crossing the road that day, although there was a problem with the wheels and it was inconvenient, I was the one who pressed the brake unconsciously."

"In fact, I have thoughts of suicide. It may be just for a moment, thinking that I can be relieved, but..."

She paused.

"He was saved."

"Then the connection happened again, this time it was closer, I used 'reward' to attract him, and to test his secrets...Maybe it's all because of some small thoughts, I just enjoy this connection...Or, I'm afraid of losing This kind of connection, I am afraid that I will not be able to bear the torture of loneliness.”

"But it's a kind of dependence, unilateral dependence. I didn't think about whether I like it or not. As long as he is here and chats with me, I will feel motivated to go to school every day, even if I don't see him occasionally. Well, I look forward to the next time we meet, the two sides will talk about some interesting topics, but I'm not very good at talking, and I always seem to be showing off my knowledge, so I can only joke about my unlucky physique, but On the contrary, he really doesn't mind, and I gradually don't mind, it seems that this bad luck is not a big deal, but just a small interest in life."

"Even after you came, it's the same, we still communicate in the same way."

"I finally have a friend of the same sex, so I am very happy. I think I can be less dependent on him. I can not go to the hospital alone for a check-up, and I can go to places with more people. I can go to the movies. I can go to the hospital. Square, you can go to the market to buy clothes... I will be happier if you become a couple, because my friends form a family, and I will have the honor to sit in the front row at your wedding and applaud you..."

"Love is too extravagant for me."

"Actually... I haven't thought about that much at all." Duan Mujin said softly: "I just want to live as long as possible, and don't wait for someone to come to see me instead of lying on the hospital bed. With such a congenital disease, it is difficult to live past the age of forty. I just want to spend my time in college, go to work in the medical research institute, develop special medicines for my own diseases, live as long as possible, and find Come out and get together, meet each other..."

"It doesn't need a deep connection, it's just a friendship, come out for dinner occasionally, listen to him whining, or watch him leaning against you, talking about little things in life, drinking a glass of lemonade alone, just That way, it feels good…”

"It's already good."

As Duan Mujin talked, she pressed her heart, her heart hurt very much.

She is obviously such a proud person, but she has a love that makes her feel inferior than anyone else.

The care of family members, relatives, friends, all these things that ordinary people have, she doesn't have all of them. The heartless young man who talked to her was the only connection between her and this world. At first, she was a stranger, then became familiar, then became dependent, and finally reluctant to break.

Her heart was empty, and his appearance filled the vacancy, so when the heart grew, she wrapped him in it. When he was about to leave, her heart would be torn, and the pain would overflow, and she almost can not breath.

"So..." she said hoarsely, her shoulders trembled, and her heart trembled.

"It shouldn't be like this."

"I shouldn't be so greedy."

"I just want to stay by his side...to live as long as possible...to grow old with him..."

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Hearing Duan Mujin's trembling voice, Rei Hanyu couldn't say anything tough.

She didn't want to quarrel with Duan Mujin, and she said those words were just a statement, but she didn't expect to force her to tell the truth.

Unfortunately, it was not Shirataki who heard these words.

If I let him hear it, I don't know what kind of expression he will show.

Rei Hanyu stretched out his hand, gently stroked Duan Mujin's cheek, and wiped away the wet tears.

"Remember not to rub your eyes, otherwise it will become red and swollen the next day, and it won't look good then."

"It's fine to cry, it's fine to speak out."

"It turns out that senior sister is also afraid of being alone... just like me."

Duan Mujin leaned against Rei Hanyu's soft chest: "I'm not as strong as you."

"Because senior has suffered more than me." Rei Hanyu gently stroked her back: "So, let me hug you more, no matter what time, I will accompany senior."

"...Liar." Duan Mujin said, "For you, he is more important."