Twelve Trials from Scratch

"Yes, Roswaal is a villain, but... the evil he did has been eliminated, and... he is very important to Emilia and the others."

"Is it really eliminated? Have you ever thought about it, if the essence of death return is not time regression, but a parallel world jump that looks like time regression?"

Also possessing the ability to return after death, Su Qi also thought about this possibility.But he knew that the current self could neither be verified nor changed, so he simply let it go temporarily without thinking about it.

But Caiyue Subaru's personality is different from Su Qi's, and he heard it in the current mental state that is extremely tense and almost collapsed, so... when he understood the words, his face froze, and his whole body was like Falling into the ice cave, the belief that was already unstable became more and more shaken.

"In addition, Roswaal is not as important as you think. Think about it carefully, how much support has he provided Emilia so far? It's just food, clothing, housing, transportation, and the so-called king candidate training course.

"The eligibility for the king's candidacy is determined by Shenlong's will, so even if there is no Roswaal, Emilia can still run. As for food, clothing, shelter, mentors, and future financial and power support in the king's election competition, we can look forward to it The heir to the Meza family after Roswaal's death, I can help you convince him to continue supporting Emilia.

"As for Ram and Rem, as long as you don't let them know that I did it, the conflict will not break out, and naturally it will not come to the end where both sides must die. In this way, you still have to fight for Ross Val gambled with me to make myself bruised? And Emilia's strongest hand is actually you who has the return of death. If you collapse here, with Emilia's character, you will be selected from the king. What are the chances of winning?"

Hearing this, Natsuki Subaru's heart surged, his face changed, and his original belief was even more shaky under the blow of waves.

In fact, although Su Qi's remarks sounded reasonable, they were still making a big deal in essence, and deliberately weakened the role that Roswaal could play.But at this moment, Subaru Nayue suffered repeated setbacks, and his mind was unsteady, and he couldn't calm down to think about the flaws in it. More importantly, this kind of remarks just met a certain desire that was constantly spreading and expanding in his heart.

"And not long after we met, it was such a big deal, and we didn't hesitate to sacrifice for them. Don't you think it's too enthusiastic to do so? Have you got to know them deeply? Do you really understand what kind of people they are? If They are not beautiful girls, would you still be so dedicated?"

"No...not right..." Natsuki Subaru's expression was like that of a drowning person who just grabbed a small board in the stormy waves, his face flushed a little and said: "Emilia... Ram... and Rem...they are all good people..."

"is it?"

After Su Qi finished speaking, he backed up suddenly, entangled Parker who was attacking because his protection disappeared.

The next moment, Natsuki Subaru heard the whistling wind coming from behind, and then... bang, his left shoulder tilted, blood and flesh splattered, his body shook sharply, and was knocked into the air under the huge impact; then his vision turned, he fell, and his body collided The ground, bouncing, scraping cheekily on the rough slate, finally stopped.

Ah! ?What happened?

He didn't react for a while, until he felt the sharp pain from the left side of his body, and the burning stimulation from the side of his face.

It hurts, it hurts, it hurts!what happened! ?Why does it hurt so much! ?

Natsuki Subaru's face was distorted by the pain of being bitten and pulled by a wild beast.He wanted to get up from the ground, but felt that the left side was empty and it was difficult to balance.So he lay on his side on the ground, turned his head to look, and finally found that the left half of his torso had almost disappeared from the shoulder down, the gap was mutilated, blood was splashed, his clothes were torn into strips, and a large area of ​​the floor beneath him had been stained. red.

The horrible scene made his mind go blank for a moment, and then burst into tears from the unbearable pain, and shouted like venting, "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..."

"It's so noisy." But at this moment, a hostile and cruel voice sounded behind him, "Stay there obediently and don't move. Although you are an abominable Witch Cultist, I will give you a quick and easy death."

Realizing that it was the enemy attacking him, Natsuki Subaru struggled to turn his body, turned his head to look back, and then... the maid Rem, who was dragging a big hammer, her eyes glowing red, and the one horn on her forehead was slightly shining, came into view.

"how is this possible?"

A hoarse voice was squeezed out of his throat. He couldn't believe it, and he didn't want to believe that the murderous, ghost-like enemy in front of him could be the maid Rem who was cold on the surface but unexpectedly gentle in some places.What is even more incomprehensible is why she suddenly wanted to kill herself.

He was in a trance every time he died, so he didn't notice that as the number of deaths increased and the witch's fragrance on his body became so strong that Rem looked at him more and more coldly.

Coupled with the sudden gravity attack, and the inexplicable words and deeds of Su Qi and Su Qi, once Su Qi let go of the suppression and revoked the protective shield, it was only natural that he would be attacked by the impulsive Rem.

"Die, Witch Cultists!"

Rem, who had already fallen into a state of madness, showed no mercy, and with a wave of his hand, he pulled the big iron ball embedded with sharp points, and smashed it hard at Natsuki Subaru's head.If hit, the blow would undoubtedly shatter the skull and kill him instantly.

But at this moment, the disappearing gravity descended again, and the protective cover opened again, crushing the iron ball and Rem to the ground, and Parker was blocked outside again.

"Damn it! Don't think... that will stop me!!"

Rem supported the ground unyieldingly, and crawled towards Natsuki Subaru with difficulty, his eyes full of hatred and madness made the latter feel terrified, and subconsciously wanted to shrink back.However, because of the missing limbs and the large wound, it hurts like hell when you move it, and tears flow—compared with cutting the throat neatly and for a short time, this kind of attack is too intense and terrifying, and the psychological blow is hard to ignore .

What the hell am I doing?Why do you want to do this?It's so painful, so terrifying, should things like this continue?Just for Roswaal! ?

At this moment, under the double pain of body and mind, the remorse accumulated with the number of deaths was finally completely exposed.

"How?" Su Qi inserted suddenly, standing in front of Nayue Subaru, "Do you still think you know them very well now?"

The latter could no longer respond calmly, but under the torment of the pain, he convulsed and panted like a pile of rotten meat, choked up and said: "Kill me, kill me, kill me soon! It hurts, it hurts to death, living like this You might as well die! I beg you to kill me quickly!"

Su Qi squatted down unhurriedly, and looked down at Nayue Subaru, who was lying on the ground in a panic, "Of course I can do it, but before that, I still have to ask you again... such things will continue. go down?"

Cai Yueang froze for a moment, then lowered her head deeply, with her forehead touching the ground, her face pressed against the dirty dirt, letting hot tears flow down from the corners of her eyes, her lips wriggling, and she was soaked in guilt and unwillingness The voice said: "I... lost..."

"Then, I won."

Su Qi was not surprised by this answer.Successive suicides, even he who has just transmigrated, it is impossible for him to resist all the time without mental problems, and Nayuki Subaru's character is not as tough as him, and he has never learned how to use pain as food to strengthen his mental health. It is a matter of course that the mental toughness can't be resisted, but if it can be resisted, there must be bugs or shady scenes.

Then Su Qi waved his hand, and cut off his head neatly, freeing Nayue Subaru.Finally, at the same time that Return of Death was activated, he stood up and said softly, "Roswaal, congratulations, you are about to cool down."

From the perspective of pure profit, Su Qi's actions this time are undoubtedly a loss-making business.If you accept the compromise and find a way to reach an agreement with Roswaal, you don’t need to train Nayue Subaru at the cost of seven more reincarnations, and you can save a lot of trouble if you continue to follow the original plot, but... if you do this, Ross Val's premeditated plan to continue his life through Nayue Subaru has completely succeeded, which will make him very upset.

It’s fine if it’s under normal circumstances, he doesn’t mind wronging himself a bit, puts reason and interests first, and earns a few more lucky draw opportunities; but now he doesn’t want to use reason to restrain himself too much, what Roswaal did When his bottom line is touched, the system evaluation and so on will be backed up.

As the saying goes, the first iron is cool for a while, and the first iron is always cool.Before finding a way to curb the loss of humanity, Su Qi made up his mind to let go of himself, and only cared about the system evaluation within the limit, so he did whatever he wanted.

Then, the tenth week begins...

Chapter 31 Completely Cool

The setting sun shines through the curtains, dyeing the luxuriously decorated guest room with a layer of warm and beautiful orange.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm really sorry... I'm so useless... I can't do anything... I'm sorry..."

On the big bed in the center of the room, Natsuki Subaru was wearing a large nightgown, his face was haggard, his head was lowered, his tone was empty, and he kept apologizing to Emilia who was sitting by the bed.

"So, Subaru, you didn't do me any wrong, on the contrary, you helped me a lot, why do you keep apologizing to me?"

Not long ago, everyone had just arrived at their destination in a dragon carriage, but Natsuki Subaru suddenly made an abnormal move.First, he yelled in horror, refusing Rem's approach, and then passed out because of being too excited, and was sent to the guest room by everyone.

When she woke up at dusk, Emilia came to visit, but received a bunch of unclear apologies, and her heart was full of doubts and depression.

After that, she tried to comfort Natsuki Subaru and asked him why he suddenly behaved abnormally, but the latter didn't understand, and just kept apologizing, no matter what he said, there was no other response.Helpless, he could only leave with worry, leaving him alone for the time being.

With a click, the door closed, and he was left alone again in the slightly empty room. Natsuki Subaru finally stopped chattering and apologized, with a dazed expression, sitting on the bed in a daze.

The setting sun slanted along the diagonal of the window, and the light in the room gradually dimmed. After an unknown amount of time, he finally escaped from the terrifying shadow of death and calmed down a little.

"useless……"

Looking down at his hands, Natsuki Subaru laughed at himself in a low voice, silently enduring the pain of being torn apart by guilt and unwillingness.

"It's nice to say, but because I'm afraid of pain, because of my own incompetence, I was defeated by the fist of fear..."

Tears fell silently from the cheeks, uneasiness and shame welled up from the bottom of my heart, swelled, like a stubborn stone stuck in my chest, sad, stagnant, oppressive and suffocating.

"Can I... can I stay here?"

I really want to escape, I really want to escape, I really want to escape from the beautiful Emilia, because I am too ugly; I really want to escape from the unpredictable Su Qi, because I am too fragile; I really want to hide from myself. The murderous Rem ran away, because he was afraid of death, afraid of being deceived, and didn't want to be hurt again.

However, in this cruel and different world full of unknowns, where can the incompetent self escape?The answer is nowhere.Because I was too incompetent, I didn't even have the confidence to survive after escaping.

"Ha...hahaha, I am indeed a waste, a waste who can only hide at home..."

Thinking of this, Natsuki Subaru was extremely depressed and depressed, but instead he laughed nervously, but his facial features were distorted, and there were still two lines of tears hanging on his face.

But at this moment, there was a knock on the door. He froze, wiped away the tears on his face, took a deep breath, looked towards the door, and said in a hoarse voice, "Please...please come in."

Kacha, the white door opened, and Su Qi in black deacon uniform emerged from the shadow behind the door, walked silently, and came to the bed like a ghost.

Grabbing his heart like a conditioned reflex of fear, Natsuki Subaru's pupils shrank suddenly, and he subconsciously grabbed the thin quilt covering his body, shrinking his body a little.

"Don't be so scared." Su Qi sat down by the bed, and said in a soothing tone: "Our gambling fight is over, so I won't suddenly stab you."

That's right, don't be afraid, my differences with him are over, and he won't be against me...

Caiyue Subaru tried his best to calm himself down, but after the words came out, there was still a slight vibrato subconsciously, "Su... Su Qisang, what can I do for you?"

Staring at him quietly with dark and deep eyes, Su Qi said calmly: "In your voice, I heard the deep distrust and vigilance."

"No, I know that Su Qisang did this out of justice in his heart..."

Caiyue Subaru instinctively wanted to refute, but was stopped by Su Qi, and said directly: "Don't deny it, it's only natural that you will feel this way after being treated like that by me. In addition, the reason why I must put Roswaal to death is that although There are reasons for his unrighteousness, but the most fundamental thing is that I want to do it myself."

"..."

Natsuki Subaru was silent.He didn't want to face Su Qi at this moment, it would remind him of his previous ugly appearance and torture, and he didn't know what to say to himself now.

Fortunately, Su Qi didn't care about his lack of cooperation, and said to himself: "Now you must want to be quiet and be alone, so I don't mean to disturb too much time, just to explain to you that Rem The reason for suddenly attacking you."

Nayue Subaru's heart moved, and his gray eyes brightened a little.

"The witch's fragrance, that's the main reason why Rem attacked you." Su Qi said unhurriedly: "Your special ability comes from being jealous of the witch, and if you use it too many times in a short period of time, you will accumulate some special ability. Aura, that is the unique aura of people related to witches. The village where Rem lived when she was a child was destroyed by the Witch Cult who believed in the Envious Witch, and she can sense that aura, so you will naturally be treated as a potential enemy .

"After that, in this mansion, you'd better not do any abnormal behavior that will arouse her suspicion. In that case, she should not take the initiative to attack you."

After finishing speaking, he stood up, and suddenly reached out his hand to touch the center of Natsuki Subaru's eyebrows.

Soothe the soul!

Once again subjected to the psychic technique, a large number of negative emotions in the latter's heart were forcibly suppressed in an instant, and he calmed down temporarily.

"Okay, I've finished my words, and you can enjoy the peaceful and quiet world of the two of you for a while. Also, don't see Roswaal, don't let him see that we know his plan. Let's solve it."

Withdrawing his hand, Su Qi simply turned around and left, closing the door behind him.

For the next few days, Roswaal's house was peaceful.Caiyue Subaru did not work as a servant this time, and temporarily stayed in the house as a guest to rest; Su Qi was still a free eater, and besides studying and practicing magic, he found another opportunity to touch Beatrice, Lai reads in the forbidden library.

But this time, what he focused on was not the magic book, but all kinds of anecdotes, and wanted to find out if there was any way to curb the loss of humanity in the forbidden library.The misfortune of luck really allowed him to find a book called "Research on the Mental State of Immortal Species", the author is Echidna, the co-author of most of the books in the forbidden library.

Su Qi once asked Beatrice about the specific identity of Echidna, but the latter had a strange expression and refused to answer, so she put it down without further investigation.

He knew that Echidna involved Beatrice and Roswaal, and she must be an important plot character in the original book, but he didn't have to completely clear the world, he could leave after defeating those bosses, so there was no need to worry about I know too much about the characters in the plot, as long as I know that she must be a knowledgeable, powerful, and reliable author in writing books, it is enough.

According to the records in the book, the long-lived species that have survived for hundreds of years will also experience a similar loss of humanity.The most obvious feature is that desires continue to weaken, and eventually most of them will self-destruct, or live in seclusion in a corner of the world like a stone, gradually losing even their self-concept, and heading towards an alternative death.

Taking the vast majority of abnormal individuals as samples, Echidna concluded through long-term research that the main reason for the loss of humanity is the psychological numbness caused by repeated experiences of similar stimuli, and repeated experiences in a short period of time will be more serious; The way to curb the loss of humanity is to find an "anchor point" that can stabilize the mental state.

From her point of view, "anchor points" can be roughly divided into two categories, namely extreme obsessions and extreme ideas.

The so-called obsession is the extreme attachment to someone or something, which is the condensation of desire; the so-called idea is the extreme purification of a certain belief, which is the crystallization of ideals... Both of them have extremes in common, Only a sufficiently extreme idea can maintain a continuous and stable stimulation of the mind and fight against psychological numbness, while mediocrity and shallowness will soon be wiped out.

As for this set of theories, from the perspective of Su Qi as a Chinese, it is the difference between "becoming a demon" and "entering the Tao".Although the rules of the world are different, we have the same heart and the same reason, and all laws return to their source.

But even if you are lucky enough to know the way to curb the loss of humanity, it is difficult to achieve it, and it is even more difficult to maintain it. This is the misfortune of luck.

The so-called sky is not high, the human heart is the highest.

If the solution is some kind of natural treasure or a skill that can be practiced, at least it is something tangible, at least there are traces to follow; but things like magic and Taoism are invisible, elusive, and cannot be deceived by tricks. ...Because the matter is of great importance and requires careful consideration, in just a few days, he has not even been able to decide whether to become a demon or to enter the Tao; he has no shadow of what kind of demon to cling to, or which way to follow.

And just as Nayue Subaru fell into depression and Su Qi was thinking about the future, Roswaal once again discovered the failure of the Book of Wisdom, and through the observation and analysis of the two of them, he locked the target on Su Qi.

Although the person in the prophecy suddenly had a problem, it is possible that the world has been reset, but the guidance of the book of wisdom is indispensable, and repairing it is the top priority, so he is preparing to do it again while adjusting the plan. thing.

At breakfast time on the fourth day, Roswaal once again announced that he had something to leave temporarily.Soon after breakfast, he used wind attribute magic to fly into the sky and headed for the capital.

Waiting on the mountain behind the mansion, Su Qi, who had been prepared for a long time, immediately soared into the sky, went straight to the sky, and quickly chased after him without attracting anyone's attention.After that, the two sides flew in tandem for a while, and it was estimated that they were several kilometers away from the mansion. He suddenly fell from the sky and blocked Roswaal over a forest.