I, Shirou, the Hou Palace King

"So, Caster, do you know the answer? What is the void in my heart, and what can I find to fill this void? Become like a normal human being?"

This is a nightmare that has plagued Kotomine Kirei for 28 years. He cannot experience joy like ordinary people, and he always wants to laugh like normal people, but he can't, no matter what kind of entertainment method, he can't make this Man feels joy, he cannot be redeemed from what ordinary people call happiness.

Therefore, he can only devote himself to the arduous and dangerous devil training that others dare not even imagine, and walk out a thorny road of blood, fire and sweat, so as to relieve the loneliness and irritability in his heart. The outstanding rookie agent who has gained fame in the church, this incomplete emptiness is even regarded by his biological father as loyalty to the Lord and a will of steel.

And this gap in his heart that he concealed so well, even his biological father, was seen through by Qianzi Shirou at a glance... If it was a heroic spirit who emerged from the epic, there might be some way to redeem himself !

This made Kotomine Kirei not excited, not apprehensive!

Kotomine Kirei, who had always shown others with a cold and stern face, suddenly showed such an extremely excited expression, and immediately startled Matou Sakura who was huddled beside Senko Shirou, and even the purple-haired girl Assassin was shocked He froze, as if he had re-acquainted with his Master.

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Chapter 18 Keeping Love, and Destroying Love

"Obviously, you already have the answer in your heart, don't you? To be more precise, you once noticed the answer, and then ruthlessly abandoned it because of your past beliefs and concepts."

Hearing Senko Shirou's words like playing a riddle, Kotomine Kirei's forehead was sweating again for some reason, and his eyes were shaking violently.

"Caster, what exactly do you want to say?"

"Ask yourself, Kirei, in the past few years, haven't you ever come into contact with something that can make you feel happy? If it's not intuitive...then in the past nearly 30 years, You must have had feelings of regret and remorse. Recall carefully, if a monster like you who is as incomprehensible as steel has feelings of regret and regret, then what happened at that time is undoubtedly the pleasure you are looking for. The key that fills the void in your heart."

Senko Shirou had a smile on his face, he stretched out his palm to Kotomine Kirei, his voice was like the whisper of a devil.

"Come on, abandon the precepts of the church, abandon the secular perspective, don't need to care about the so-called sins and guilt, and find the truth that belongs to Kotomine Kirei that is hidden in your heart."

"Tell me, I am not a saint, nor a righteous hero, just an ordinary magician, I am a phantom that only exists at this moment, no matter what troubles you have, you can report any worries to me I poured out, seeking relief and answers."

The identities of the two seem to be reversed, the newborn sun shines through the window sill of the church, and the warm golden light is projected on Qianzi Shirou, as if covering him with a layer of sacred gauze, while the saint of the church But the workers stood in the shadows where the sunlight couldn't cast, with a full face of hesitation.

After some hesitation, the black-haired and black-clothed priest spoke in a low voice, revealing his sins to the white-haired heroic spirit bathed in the morning light and wearing a red holy shroud.

"In order to fill the void in my heart, I tortured myself crazily, practiced through hellish pains, and felt my strength grow little by little. I once experienced a little bit of joy because of it, but that joy was fleeting. Once I stop the high-intensity practice, I will fall into nothingness again."

"...I want to confess that when my late wife who loved me so much passed away, I had a dirty and blasphemous thought in my heart."

Kotomine Kirei slowly raised his head, he was completely calm at this moment, his black eyes were facing Senko Shirou's, at this moment, his eyes no longer wavered, but they were no longer empty.

In this house where even the sound of breathing can be clearly heard, Kotomine Kirei's voice gradually became louder. With the sentences he uttered, his words seemed to have a unique charm, and the tone of his voice seemed to be rising high, There was no longer a slight pause, and he confided to Qianzi Shirou smoothly.

"When my late wife committed suicide for me, I felt full of remorse, but that remorse was not for the death of my late wife. The thought that emerged in my heart at that time was... since Claudia chose to die for me death, why don't I take her life with my own hands and leave her to kill herself—such a horrible and sinful thought."

Kotomine Kirei obviously didn't think about his dead wife. Even though the church precepts didn't prohibit believers from committing suicide, this thought would still naturally emerge in his heart.

It wasn't the church precepts that were wrong, but Kotomine Kirei.

Because, when telling Senko Shirou these words, Kotomine Kirei couldn't help showing a happy smile on his paralyzed face.

Weird, weird.

The purple-haired girl Assassin fully recognized the weirdness of her Master, and she felt her scalp tingling deeply. Even if she was a pure and ignorant child who didn't understand the world, Matou Sakura could instinctively feel that she was often seen at Tohsaka's house. Something was wrong with the priest and uncle, and he subconsciously hugged Qianzi Shirou's thigh beside him.

clap clap.

Senko Shirou quietly listened to Kotomine Kirei's self-narration, and then he lightly clasped his hands together, breaking the eerie silence in the house after Kotomine Kirei stopped talking.

"It's wonderful, Kirei, you can trust me so much, and tell this matter frankly, as a friend, I feel very happy."

Senko Shirou pondered for a moment, and he also began to reciprocate with Kotomine Kirei, revealing a little bit about his past.

"When I was alive, um... At that time, I was still very immature, very weak and naive. It happened when I was a child. A classmate borrowed money from me again and again, although it was just Insignificant amounts, but they add up to a considerable amount for a kid at the time."

"People who borrow money without paying back their promises will definitely find it difficult to get money as smoothly as before. Even if the person who is borrowed is a naive and stupid guy, after going through so many repeated processes, it will always be the same. It’s knowing what to do is the right thing to do.”

"Then the dispute started naturally. At that time, the guy became angry after being rejected by me, and directly grabbed the money in my pocket. He was innocent and kind... No, it should be said that he was too cowardly to hurt others, and he didn't even dare to throw a punch at them. Even when he swings his fists, he's as light as a massage, he's a guy with a lot of thunder and little rain, so he can't protect anything without a doubt."

"At that time, in order to prevent the banknotes in the pocket from becoming someone else's property, that naive and stupid idiot did something that was equally stupid but pleasant...after the banknotes in the pocket were forcibly taken out At the same time, he took advantage of the situation and directly tore the paper money into pieces that could not be joined together. Although he lost the small paper money, no one else got the same paper money... Then, as expected, he Got kicked a few times."

"Actually, this is an illegal act, but no one will really hold on to such a trivial matter."

Qianzi Shirou rubbed his chin, he expounded nonchalantly, as if he was simply telling other people's stories that had nothing to do with him.

"From the appearance, we all have the tendency to destroy what belongs to us, and we can get pleasure from it, but in fact the two are different. The former is the pleasure that ordinary people can understand, which is the so-called "I'd rather destroy than give you what I can't get." And Kirei, the kind of pleasure you're after, even if you look at the whole world, there are very few people who are like you."

"The kind of sick and delicate person... According to what you can understand, they are extremely possessive and hope to keep her/him by their side by killing the loved one, although the way of action is different from yours. It's similar, it's the same desire to swing the blade at the one you love, but the starting point is completely different—Kirei, your kinsicidal impulse is not to keep love, but to destroy love."

"You are longing to destroy those beautiful and sincere emotions."

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Ma Po's wife is so beautiful.

Chapter 19 Kotomine Kirei who jumped back

Killing those close to him who trusted and loved him deeply, and gaining joy and pleasure from their destruction, Kotomine Kirei is undoubtedly twisted and crazy.

However, Kotomine Kirei hadn't been pointed out by Senko Shirou until now that there was a distorted hollow shape in his heart. Before this, the seed of malice hadn't even germinated and broke through the soil.

The seed failed to germinate because there was no gardener to water and fertilize it to support its growth, but now it is different. It should have been Gilgamesh's job, but it was snatched by Qianzi Shirou, and he became Kotomine Kirei the guide.

"That is to say, Caster, do you think that if I want to fill the void in my heart, I need to take the lives of those close to me with my own hands?"

Kotomine Kirei frowned, Senko Shirou's words were like enlightenment, which made him realize and face up to his own heart, but the three views established by the church teaching in 28 years made him unable to accept this reality for a while, subconsciously turned to Chiko Zishiro questioned.

"In theory yes, but I don't think that's the case in practice."

Senko Shirou is Senko Shirou after all, he is not Gilgamesh, and he has no intention of guiding Kotomine Kirei on the original path.

Moreover, he now claims to be Kotomine Kirei's friend, what if Kotomine Kirei really becomes addicted to backstabbing someone close to him, and one day he suddenly stabs himself in the back.

"Whether it's the hard tormenting hell training, the devil's pungentness that ordinary people can't stand, or the twisted joy of killing people so far, it's all normal people's pain, but Kirei you can get happiness from it, from a certain angle. Yan, you can also be regarded as a shaking M."

Qianzi Shirou spread his hands and continued.

"You don't need to kill your closest relatives directly, you just need to show a different rebellion than before, stimulate your father, make him gnash his teeth at you, but there is nothing you can do, and do something to restore it before the relationship drops to a freezing point Relationship...just like this is enough, the pleasure of such a long flow of water, isn't it more lasting than the pleasure of killing him directly."

Kotomine Kirei's eyes gradually brightened, as if he saw a bright path that Senko Shirou pointed out to him.

"but---"

Then, Qianzi Shirou changed the topic.

"Tokiomi Tohsaka's words don't matter."

"Kirei, you are about to have a quarrel, and you will fall into the situation of master-student fratricide, how, when your teacher still has trust in you, how about stabbing him in the back?"

"The magicians involved in the Holy Grail War must try their best to survive, try to erase other participants, and prepare themselves to be obliterated by other magicians. Since Tosaka Tokiomi participated in the Holy Grail War, obviously he There is also the consciousness of the death of the body."

Projection starts.

Senko Shirou projected the Azoth sword in his hand, and threw the Azoth sword to Kotomine Kirei's feet.

"Choose, Kirei, do you want to continue cooperating with Tohsaka Tokiomi, or..."

"......"

Kotomine Kirei lowered his head without saying a word. He bent down to pick up the mercury sword, turned around and walked out of the house without looking back. His footsteps were calm, and there was nothing unusual. The purple-haired girl Assassin looked at it. Kansenko Shirou left from his side and followed his Master.

"Hahaha...hahaha...hahahaha!"

Kotomine Kirei stood in the wide open space behind the church. After the purple-haired girl Assassin approached, a burst of laughter gradually became uncontrollable. Kotomine Kirei raised his body with a happy smile on his face. , the eyes that had been empty and silent all this time were now shining brightly.

"Then, of course there is only one answer, Caster!"

Kotomine Kirei raised the projected mercury sword high in his hand, pointed it at the sun in the sky, making it shine brightly, and then he swung his other fist suddenly, the cannonball iron fist was easily crushed by Senko Shirou The projected mercury sword shattered into two halves.

"Yes, I understand, you are right, Mr. Tokiomi, the Holy Grail has chosen me to become a Master, there is indeed a meaning, but that meaning is not to assist you in winning... That's right, the Holy Grail allows me to become a Master." I became a Master just to let me stand behind you at that critical moment, and then stab the knife into your heart!"

The mercury sword turned into bright magic radiance and sprinkled down, Kotomine Kirei covered his forehead, he sneered like a nervous man, laughing wildly, finally found the goal he dreamed of, even before starting to implement it, he already felt unprecedented fulfillment, And what it feels like to live here.

"But it's not enough. I have found my goal, and I don't need to be a church representative anymore. It's time to take Karen to Fuyuki to settle down."

The purple-haired girl Assassin looked at the laughing Master, she couldn't help taking a step back, feeling a strong chill.

So far, Assassin's master, Kotomine Kirei, was successfully instigated by Senko Shirou and became a Matryoshka Mission Impossible.

There are four spiritual veins in Fuyuki City, namely Tohsaka House, New Metropolitan Hall, Ryutoji Temple, and Seitan Church.

After absorbing the magic power from the spiritual veins of the church, Chiko Shirou restored his state to a state where he could fight again, then placed Matou Sakura in the Holy Church, and went out alone to familiarize himself with the terrain of Fuyuki City.

Although there are memories of the Heroic Guard Palace, Fuyuki City, which has undergone post-disaster reconstruction, demolition and reconstruction projects ten years later, will obviously not be exactly the same as Fuyuki City in [-]. In order to win the Holy Grail War, he must figure out the difference details.

As for finding a spiritual vein and setting up a magic workshop to guard it?

Qianzi Shirou's fighting style is to directly project the double sword A onto it, instead of sitting in the magic workshop and waiting for the enemy to come to the door, not to mention that his magic workshop is nothing special.

The B-level skill field was completed, although Qianzi Shirou could build a magic workshop, but the workshop created in that way was just a crude version of the infinite sword enchantment.

The magic workshop fixed in one place is obviously not as convenient and practical as the inherent enchantment infinite sword system that can move with Qianzi Shirou's body at will.

B-level props are not bad. With this skill, when Qianzi Shirou projects B-level and below items, it is no longer a simple projection, but an ability similar to item creation.

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Chapter 20 I haven't got in the car yet!

In the early morning, Fuyuki City Xindu Airport.

The plane from Germany to Fuyuki City, Japan landed slowly in the bustling Xindu Airport. After a gentle taxi, the plane came to a complete stop. Two elegant, beautiful and radiant ladies exuding an elegant temperament that is completely different from ordinary people stepped out of the plane. up and down.

One is wearing a men's black slim-fit suit, with a slender body but an extremely upright walking posture. His blue eyes look extremely awe-inspiring. He has short blond hair tied behind his head in a simple ponytail, and a golden hair in the center of his head is facing the wind. Zhaozhan, a heroic knight girl.

The other is a woman who is wearing a white leather jacket that can be seen to be finely crafted and made of high-grade materials. Her long white hair hangs down to her waist, and her red eyes are full of curiosity, as if she has never traveled far. Like a child, he looked around the Xindu Airport where he is now, full of interest.

"Good morning, two distinguished ladies, do you want to take a taxi? It's very cheap here. From the airport to the city center, it only costs [-] yen."

It seems that when these two women appeared on the elevator, they noticed them. A man with sword eyebrows in a black dress and short white hair walked straight towards them. After the two beautiful women stared at them, this A man with tanned skin smiled heartily at them.

"Sorry, we already have someone to pick you up."

The white-haired beauty, the android named Irisviel von Einzbern showed an apologetic smile to Chiko Shirou who came to talk to him, and then she wrapped her arms around the arm of the heroic girl and servant Saber, Then he prepared to walk sideways by Qianzi Shirou.

"...Well, I just plan to go back to Fuyuki Central Plaza because of an emergency. If the two ladies are willing to take a ride, I can give you a discount of [-] yen...No, Thirty thousand yen is also fine."

Senko Shirou sighed, as if he had made some huge step back, he continued to stop in front of Irisviel and Saber, beckoning them both.

Even though Irisviel is a noble lady who stays at home and has absolutely no concept of money consumption, she can sense from Qianzi Shirou's attitude that he seems to have made a big concession.