Monks Living in Tokyo

"And there's more..."

Wandering along the way, Yoko kept talking about the past, she talked very vigorously, and they were all very interesting memories, obviously she cherished those times very much.

These are very fond memories.

but…

This is not created by him and them.

It is a matter of course to accept everything now, is it really good to do so?

It's mean, isn't it?

As a monk, despicability is necessary in order to be strong, Chu Xiaotian understands this very well, but perhaps he is not despicable enough, so he is not a big figure in the world of cultivating immortals, and his lifelong achievements are limited by himself.

The guilt I feel now is probably due to the fusion of the two souls. If it were a pure monk, Chu Xiaotian would not be so entangled.

How stupid.

Obediently be the current Chu Xiaotian, since you can get what you want, why should you feel guilty?

He is a complex contradictory body, he understands this, but still hopes to get out of the predicament by himself without saying "I am not the Chu Xiaotian you know".

Yangzi told many stories about the past, and Chu Xiaotian listened to them all.

It's obviously a matter of memory, but now he seems to be listening to other people's stories.

However, everything that this "other person" had was taken away by him, leaving nothing behind, whether it was memory, body, or everything around him.

Obviously that Chu Xiaotian created memories with them for more than ten years.But the current Chu Xiaotian, and the memories they created are only more than a year old.

Even if it is a fusion of two souls, it does not mean that the current Chu Xiaotian is the original Chu Xiaotian, this is a newborn individual.

And this new existence took away everything from that Chu Xiaotian.

Think about it carefully, this is so despicable and hypocritical.

Chu Xiaotian stopped in his tracks.

Because of this, Yoko didn't continue talking, she turned her head and looked at the boy with a puzzled look on her face.

"Oda?"

"Sunshine."

Hearing the call, Yang Zi was also taken aback.

The young man raised his head and said calmly, "If I say that I am not the Chu Xiaotian you know, what will you do?"

[184. What is the reason for Chapter 185? ]

The autumn wind was blowing in the park, and it was icy cold.

The two stood there, and the atmosphere seemed a little strange.

Xinggong Yangzi looked at the young man in front of him, and was in a daze for a long time before he came back to his senses.

"What do you mean?"

Chu Xiaotian was silent for a while, then chuckled lightly and said, "It's just a hypothesis. There was such a dialogue in the manga I read yesterday, so I'm a little curious about how you would answer."

"That's it."

Yoko thought about it, and then said with a confused face: "But Oda is just Oda, I don't know what to do."

Chu Xiaotian hesitated again and again, and asked another question: "So, do you think the me before was better, or the me now?"

"this..."

Yang Zi was lost in thought, and then said with a smile: "I think it's pretty good, anyway, no matter what Oda becomes, Oda is Oda."

That's not really an answer.

Because Yoko didn't know the situation at all, she thought it was the same person whether it was the boy in the past or the boy now. Even if she knew the other side of him, Chiba, she probably wouldn't have thought that he was not the original Chu Xiaotian. thing.

I was very confused in my heart, and I was still living in a daze.

Many people probably have this kind of situation, and he is also in this situation now.

It's not that I'm confused about my future like those people, but I have questions about myself, I don't know how to get answers, and I don't know how to let go of this, so I am so confused.

"Oda?"

Seeing the boy's unnatural expression, Yoko was startled, she reached out to touch him, but the boy turned to the side.

"It's okay, let's go, it's getting late."

Is that... dodged?

For Yoko Xinggong, she had never seen the boy's expression like that, as if he was hiding something, and there was a little... Pain?

what happened?

For a moment, Yoko Xinggong thought about the other side, and she decided to ask Nagasawa Yuan in the future.

After returning home, Chu Xiaotian lay down on the bed with a sullen face.

He couldn't think about it any longer, he knew very well that going on like this would put a huge burden on his mind.

In the monk's memory, he knew very well that the biggest taboo of being a monk was doubting himself, which would create inner demons and make it difficult for him to make progress in his life.

Even if you don't care about cultivation, the psychological burden on yourself will cause mental illness, which will be even worse.

Chu Xiaotian patted his cheek.

Don't deliberately emphasize that you are Chu Xiaotian, don't think deeply about the meaning of your existence.

don't think about it, don't think about it...

In this way, even if you can't release it, you can bury it deep in your heart.

Escaping is also a good way.

......

Day two.

The three of them were walking on the way to school.

Yoko looked at the boy beside him from time to time, but the latter didn't seem in a bad mood.

"Huh? What's wrong?"

Chu Xiaotian noticed her gaze.

Yang Zi shook his head: "Nothing."

Even if something happened, she didn't think the boy would tell her.

in school.

Yoko Xinggong looked at the girl at the front desk during the class break, she hesitated for a moment, and then said, "Nagasawa."

The girl at the front desk was also startled, she turned around and asked with a smile, "Did you call me just now?"

"Correct."

Nagasawa Yuan couldn't help laughing and said: "Oh, this is the first time you have taken the initiative to find me in school?"

Yang Zi said, "I have something to ask you."

"Huh?"

"Come with me later."

"Okay, you can take me anywhere."

During the lunch break, Yoko and Nagasawa went to the lawn.

Xinggong Yangzi asked: "Did anything happen a few days ago?"

Hearing this, Yuan Nagasawa smiled and said, "Are you referring to Mr. Oda?"

"Sure enough, something happened."

After hearing Nagasawa Yuan's words, Xinggong Yoko confirmed her guess even more, and she asked, "So what happened?"

Nagasawa Yuan said: "There are two things, one bad thing and one good thing, which one do you want to know?

"All said."

"It's really greedy."

Nagasawa shrugged, and then said: "Then let's talk about it in order. The first thing is the bad thing. He went to Toyama County with a few ghost slayers to find the experimental site."

This sentence made Xinggong Yangzi's heart tremble, and she couldn't help asking: "He knows everything?"

"No, he just knew some information about the experiment, and he still talked to..." Nagasawa Yuan paused here, and then smiled: "Don't worry, there are some things he doesn't know yet."

This made Xinggong Yangzi heave a sigh of relief, and she then asked, "Then what about the other thing?"

Nagasawa Yuan sat down on the lawn, she smiled and said: "Qianye was attacked..."

"What did you say?"

Nagasawa Yuan also raised his head to look at Yoko at this time, the latter's face became extremely cold in an instant, and a wave of anger was gradually rising.

"Who did it?"

Seeing this, Nagasawa Yuan shrugged and said: "I can't tell you this for the time being, but in the end it was Oda-kun who appeared and rescued Chiba."

Xinggong Yangzi's frown slightly relaxed, and he asked, "So?"

"So Qianye already knows that Oda-kun is not a different person." Nagasawa Yuan smiled, looked at the girl, and said, "Is it a good thing for you? In this case, Chiba knows that someone has been Silently guarding her."

Xinggong Yangzi nodded silently, and then asked: "What else?"

"No, just these two things."

So Yoko fell into deep thought. In the past few days, it seems that nothing happened between Chiba and Oda, so there is probably nothing to worry about.

So what exactly is Oda suffering?

Recalling the boy's expression yesterday, Yoko was sure that there was something painful in that boy's heart, but was the cause of the pain related to the two things Nagasawa Yuan said?