It's Very Easy to Fill in Next Time

The doctor on duty at the side heard it clearly, clenched his fists and vented: "These bastards eat people and don't spit out their bones!"

The other end of the phone was also silent for a long time, Dr. Kurosawa sighed softly: "It's too bad, she is in such a depressed mood now, not only is it not conducive to her recovery, but also her own desire to survive will also decline. Children's real sense of life and death is not as good as that of adults. It is also often not as strong as an adult, and the effect of the placebo may really only be comforting, and she must be refreshed."

Bai Wei responded with a wry smile: "Easier said than done?"

Her father died, she became an orphan, and her spiritual support collapsed, how could it be easily repaired?

My acquaintance with her is still too short, there is no emotional basis.

Dr. Kurosawa can only say: "I hope she can hold on."

The phone hangs up.

Those present were helpless.

Bai Wei stayed in the ward for a while, Sakurai Si had already fallen into a coma, the ventilator and the ECG monitor were both in operation, and the fluctuating heart rate on the instrument was like the kite string that involved her life in a storm.

It may break at any time.

He sighed, looked at the gradually dark sky, and left the hospital.

Even after returning to the house, he was still a little absent-minded.

Liu Shengshuangyue saw that her brother was depressed, so she asked tentatively, but she didn't get a detailed answer. It could be seen that he was not good at talking.

On weekdays, she might not care about it, but this time she was a little worried. She thought that Bai Wei needed to be enlightened at this time.

"Brother, come here." She dragged her brother and ran to the tea room slowly, imitating her brother's movements, adding carbon to boil water and making hot tea.

At this time, she was sitting in the main seat, and Bai Wei was sitting in the guest seat. Before the tea boiled, she put away the utensils for making tea.

Baiwei does not pay attention to so many tedious processes in making tea, but Yingzhou people are very cumbersome in making tea and ikebana, and do not omit a single step. They believe that tea ceremony is to cultivate sentiment, and the process of waiting and preparation is a process of purifying the soul.

In the past, Bai Wei would think it was farting.But at this time, seeing Liu Shengshuangyue not bothering about the tedious steps of washing the dishes, he calmed down a bit. He didn't do anything, just stared at her preparations, and his emotions gradually turned from sadness. walk out.

"Okay..." Liu Shengshuangyue was meticulous in the process of making tea, and kept as silent as possible. When the preparation steps were over, she turned the tea bowl, sat on her knees, and put her hands on her knees: "Brother, let's discuss it in life."

Your words remind me of Uncle Chen, you know?

The corner of Bai Wei's mouth twitched, and his calm state of mind changed subtly for some reason.

"Okay, what do you want to talk about?"

"It's not what I want to talk about, but what I want to talk about." Liu Shengshuangyue straightened her back, "This time, I'll take the lead... Have you forgotten? Last time I talked with my brother like this."

"That Qilin competition?" Bai Wei nodded. He vaguely remembered that he was depressed for a while when his spirit veins were broken. He smiled and said, "Bai Tong is already invincible, why break other people's bones?"

He asked, "Do you think I'm digging into a dead end again?"

"Hmm!" She was very sure, "This is my sister's intuition."

"Is it so obvious?"

"Brother, do you think you are deep and mature?" Liu Shengshuangyue shook her head lightly: "But such a person, once he gets into the horns, will immediately degenerate into a child. It's easy to see and understand the big dead child."

"Then do you understand?" Bai Wei asked with a smile, "Why am I worrying?"

"It must be someone else's business, and it's very heavy, maybe it's a matter of life and death?"

"Why can't it be my own business?"

Liu Shengshuangyue fell silent suddenly, and looked at Bai Wei intently: "Brother, don't you have any self-awareness?"

"what?"

"I've always had this feeling, brother, don't you care about yourself?"

Bai Wei was slightly taken aback, he opened his mouth, and changed the subject: "It really has nothing to do with me, you guessed it right."

He glanced at the kettle and reminded, "Pay attention to the charcoal fire."

Liu Shengshuangyue shifted the position of the charcoal: "Brother...don't change the subject, you haven't answered my question yet, this is a very serious discussion."

Bai Wei laughed: "Is there anyone who doesn't care about himself? Of course I am a selfish person. When you ask me like this, I suspect that I am the reincarnation of a saint."

Liu Shengshuangyue asked softly: "Brother, are you afraid of death?"

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Bai Wei thought seriously for three seconds.

He said slowly: "I'm afraid..."

perhaps……

In his existing memory, death is not so far away, nor is it so eternal and terrifying, it is more like an old friend who will come sooner or later, who may jump out one day and give you a warm hug that is unprepared.

"Why did you ask this question suddenly?" Bai Wei pointed at himself: "I'm only 20 years old, how can I not be afraid of death?"

"Then, brother, do you want to live well?" Liu Shengshuangyue asked again.

"Hmm...Did I go out and fool around a lot recently, making you angry?"

"That's not true, why would I despise brother! My family is very rich, it doesn't matter if you fool around, and..."

Liu Shengshuangyue explained in a panic at first, and then realized that she had lost her composure, and hurriedly sat upright, coughing lightly: "I don't dislike brother, I just said that brother seems to lack direction now, and he always looks like... "

She thought for a while, raised her eyes, and said, "It looks very lonely."

"This is Yingzhou, so of course I'm lonely."

"But won't you be lonely when you go back to the Ming Kingdom?"

"If you go back, you will have classmates, acquaintances, and maybe you can date young girls..."

"Even if brother can date many girls at the same time, won't he be lonely?"

"Correct."

Liu Shengshuangyue frowned and said, "I don't believe it."

"I'm not lying. When people grow up, they should get married and have children. When they get busy, it doesn't matter whether they are lonely or not."

Bai Wei relaxed his body, pressed his hands on the tatami, leaned back, looked at the ceiling, and smiled helplessly: "It's just..."

"Just what?"

"It's just living with the flow, not so much living, it's more like survival, living by inertia."

Great things I have accomplished.

A long life has been repeated.

It's not that I feel a little tired, but more or less, as if something is missing.

Bai Wei laughed: "Maybe it's just hypocrisy. People don't have to have a goal to live well. Isn't that good?"

Liu Shengshuangyue denied: "It's not good!"

She always thought that her brother seemed to be a different person after going through the Qilin competition.

The outside has not changed, but the inside has completely changed. It is not that the sharpness is introverted, but that the sharpness and fangs have been lost, and the mentality of forging ahead has been completely lost. Have to succumb to the ordinary.

What he lost was not only self-confidence, but also the goal of life.

Dreams are the kindling and the driving force in people's hearts. Once the kindling is extinguished, they will lose their direction, just like a sailing ship has no navigation and cannot find the North Star in the sky.

Whether in the past or the present, she likes any elder brother, but she just doesn't want to see him so frustrated.

She would rather see her brother standing on a high place shining brightly, and then brag loudly to the people around him that this is her brother.

This is also the happiness she imagined.

However, if it cannot be realized after all...

"I just want to know, brother, what exactly do you want?" Liu Shengshuangyue said softly, "It's been so long, haven't you found it yet?"

"what do you want?"

What Bai Wei can think of is probably power, power, wealth, beauty... To put it mildly, it can be replaced by career and love.

But he found that he didn't seem to enjoy these.

The emperor who has been an emperor all his life understands that even if he holds these in his hand, he cannot enjoy it, and every moment is like sitting on pins and needles.

If you have power, you have to think about how to use it; if you have power, you have to care about its price;

Possessing wealth only wants to grab more; as for beauty... let's not mention it.

In the end, he raised his own throne and empire, which is enough to prove that he does not enjoy it from the bottom of his heart, nor does he long for it, and he even wished to throw it out earlier and hand it over to a more suitable person.

Because becoming an emperor means that you have everything, and from now on you can only keep losing.

In the end, he found that he might still enjoy the life he enjoys more now. His family is harmonious, his life is leisurely, he doesn’t have to run around for a living, he does some good deeds occasionally, helps others as much as he can, and finds a beautiful girl with a beautiful body and a double body to eat softly. The meal was perfect.

"Like, no," he said.

"But, I have," she said.

"I have a lot of dreams to achieve."

"I want to rejuvenate the family and comfort the spirits of my parents!"

"I want to win the imperial competition and get a plaque from the general!"

"I want to be a swordsman. I like swordsmanship very much. I want to swing my sword against the sea and smash the tide with my sword energy."

"I also want to go to the Ming Dynasty to see the scenery that I didn't have time to see before, go to the Ise Shrine to receive the congratulations from the palace secretary, see the purple air coming from the east on the Baiyujing, and see the president mountain and Baba in the allied countries. Beta, walk along the Avenue of the Champs Elysees, and listen to the hymns played in the sky theater of the Holy Church..."

"Perfect love, lovely children, walking arm in arm with the person you love the most, walking through the mountains and seas, to see the thousand-year-old ice flowers blooming on the snow-capped mountains."

"I want to achieve all of these."

"Even if it's all achieved, I don't think it's enough."

"I'm still greedy to grab more...every day, treat it as the last day, and try my best to live."

She paused and continued.

"But now I'm still just a student of the Far East University, and I'm far away from any of these goals."

"so……"

"I don't have a brother, it's impossible."

The girl's rhetoric became softer, she stared at Bai Wei, and said each word seriously, but also like a baby.