I Loaded the Healing System

But now he is missing, life and death are uncertain, and there is no hope.

It's a holiday again, and the school's takeaways are not delivered.

Are you going to buy it?It seems a bit late too. .

So Xu Yijing can only accept this fact a little dullly: it seems. .Nothing is edible.

Not at all.

A new refrigerator was added to her room to separate it from Shen An.

But the refrigerator in her room, only. .Ice cream, and drinks.

She loves ice cream.

Can I have ice cream for dinner?

Xu Yijing frowned slightly, which brought back some bad memories for her.

If you eat ice cream, you will have a stomachache. .

Wouldn't I be laughed at by him again and suffer his "mocking"?

No, absolutely not.

Xu Yijing restrained the stupid idea of ​​eating ice cream, then turned around, returned to the sofa and sat down.

Ok.

He couldn't possibly stay all night, could he?

Wait a little longer.

When he came back, he had something to eat.

Then time passed little by little, and it was nearly ten o'clock at this moment.

Xu Yijing's mood changes every hour from seven o'clock in the evening to ten o'clock in the evening, and it is different every time.

And now at ten o'clock, what mood is she in?

She wanted to call him and ask him, where did he die?

Then came an embarrassing fact: I did not have Shen An's contact information, and similarly, Shen An did not have my own contact information.

This stems from Xu Yijing's extremely indifferent self-confidence. She is confident that she does not need to establish any unnecessary relationship with him, so naturally she does not need any contact information.

Shen An asked several times, but she refused all of them.

Therefore, although the two lived together for more than a month, they did not have each other's contact information.

I have to say that it is not an exaggeration to describe the relationship between these two people with one word.

At the same time, her belly was constantly conveying a clear feeling: hunger.

Why is the hunger feeling clear now?

Because Xu Yijing's body is only now feeling hungry.

The hunger an hour ago was just an excuse she made for herself.

Hunger spreads and spreads quickly.

Xu Yijing couldn't bear this kind of torture, she put her little feet on the sofa, then curled up, tightly covering her lower abdomen with her little hands.

Most people are hungry and can endure it, even for a few hours, even a day.

But she can't.

Because she has anorexia.

Her hunger is like an attacking disease, and she does not allow a moment of patience, just one more second of patience.

Similarly, when she has no appetite, she does not allow herself to take another bite, which will make her feel sick.

It's that extreme, there's no middle ground.

Xu Yijing was tormented by hunger, and she occasionally needed to take a big breath to relieve it.

And she can't take medicine now.

Because it's just hunger, she's not stomach ache.

In order to make herself more comfortable, she no longer curled up, but spread out a little bit, lying on the sofa.

But the change of posture cannot be regarded as food.

No matter how she changed her posture, her mood became more and more restless and anxious.

That's what it feels like. .

It was this strange yet familiar feeling that made her extremely disgusted.

Xu Yijing tightly covered her stomach, pursed her mouth, and said nothing.

Shen An once asked her, why is it so difficult to express her needs?Is it too strong?

Yes, but not quite.

Xu Yijing only told him that this would bring trouble to others, and at the same time, put herself in a passive position.

She hates being passive.

What she didn't say is: she hates expectations, and even more hates the feeling of being disappointed after having expectations.

Can you get me a piece of paper?

No more casual effort.

But the premise here is to create expectations.

Looking forward to you getting me a tissue.

If you choose not to take it, you will be disappointed.

Of course, taking paper towels as an example is an extreme situation within an extreme situation, but no individual can be so ruthless.

But it is precisely this kind of extreme that confirms Xu Yijing's extreme.

She has experienced the sublimation of expectation, and then the despair of sinking into the bottom.

This feeling was imprinted in her heart, and she hated it from the bottom of her heart. This disgust was so strong that it spread to such trivial things as holding a tissue.

Therefore, at this moment, Xu Yijing is not only hungry, but her anxiety caused by hunger, and the disappointment caused by her anticipation are all integrated together.

She is in pain.

Both physically and mentally.

This is the scary, or incomprehensible, aspect of mental illness.

Physical wounds will bleed and have scars, and the severity of the condition can be judged based on the size and depth of the wound.

But what about the spirit?

Spiritual wounds do not bleed, they have no scars, no size or depth, and they are not even understood by ordinary people.

The wound is bleeding and you have to go to the hospital.

But she would laugh suddenly, and then fall into extreme sadness after laughing. Is this a disease?

Why is this so?

Can you understand?

Will you choose to understand?

It seems a bit difficult.

But she, who was grieving, longed for this kind of understanding.

Although she acted very disdainful, acting like I don't need your understanding at all.

It's not that she is too strong.

Because she just wants to look like, like you, a normal person.

Therefore, Xu Yijing's real pain at the moment is that she actually starts to look forward to Shen An, hoping that he will come back soon.

Expect him to prepare dinner for himself, as usual.

I don't need to remind him, or even say anything to him, just enjoy it quietly.

That's the best way.

so. .

Xu Yijing's small face was a little pale, and even her rosy lips became a little dry.

Where did he go?

What the hell is he doing?

good question.

What is Shen An doing?

He was rubbing Yu Wen's feet.

On the fifteenth floor, Yu Wen's apartment.

After the two of them ate, Yu Wen consciously cleaned up, and Shen An couldn't help but sigh: Yu Wen's awareness is far better than Xu Yijing's!

After Yu Wen finished cleaning up, Shen An originally wanted to leave.

It was late after all. . .

Eat and drink enough. .It's easy to have other thoughts.

cough cough.

But before he offered to leave, he was detained by Yu Wen.

Just as he was secretly expecting what would happen tonight, he watched Yu Wen lift up her jade feet shyly and put them in front of his eyes.

"Fuck."

Shen An was a little sad and indignant.